A/N: how was it? God, I'm still giggling away at myself. Being so excited I mean, from the last chapter. Just a quick mention of reviews and it's to say a massive THANK YOU! Everyone has been so kind and helpful I'm loving it.
Jaspers POV.
Sitting curled on the couch with my girl, there isn't anywhere else I want to be. She was everything that I wanted, needed, in my life and for whatever reason, she needed me. I had felt it millions of times in all different kinds of men, and in myself for more than a century, but here it was. The feeling that nothing I could ever do would be good enough for my angel. Certainly, nothing in my past is worth anything, not even the time it would take to tell it. But if my little Darlin' wanted to hear it, I would tell her till I couldn't speak anymore. Just to keep her happy.
On saying that, I would NEVER do what Edward did. Pretend to care and force her into my decisions, just because I was a spoiled, over-indulged one hundred and fourteen year old child. She will be treated with the upmost love, care and attention. I will give her everything, and be everything for her. She will never be made to endure time in my company, if she doesn't want me around, I'll give her the space she needs. It would kill me to be away from my baby, but I'll do it to keep her happy.
I looked down at her and saw her staring at me with her gorgeous whirling pools of chocolate brown. I felt a complete wave of love roll over me and if I smiled any bigger, I'm sure my granite face would crack. Just as she leaned in to kiss me, I cursed, growling low in my throat.
"Jazz, what's wrong?" her worry showed in her voice and in her emotions, but so did rejection. My silly little kitten. I wanted her more than anything in this universe. But right now, it was not an option.
"Your dad's here Darlin'. I don't want it to be awkward for you and Charlie." She smiled gently at me and I reached out to trace my thumb over the rise of heat and blood in her cheeks. I leaned down to kiss her, revelling in the tingles that it sent throughout my body.
"And don't ever think that I don't want you, Darlin'. Keep in mind that I want you more than anything." I took a deep, unnecessary breath.
"I love you." I said slowly, forcing myself not to rush it out, like an insecure teenager. And hot damn, it was so fucking worth it. Her smile lit up the whole damn room.
"I love you too." It just got better. She said it! I felt like doing a damn fucking happy dance, shouting at the heavens and writing it on all available surfaces. Instead I just leaned over, wrapping my arms around her small frame, gently squeezing and running my fingertips lightly over her the expanse of her back.
"Never as much as I love you Belly." I left to her laughter and it kept the smile on my face as I headed into the growing darkness of the woods to hunt.
After draining the rather un-tasteful buck, and burying it, I made myself presentable and headed back home. Home, how dull that word sounded now that I knew my dead heart's desire was not anywhere in the vicinity of the great white mansion. It made it sound the way it really was. Dull, hollow and empty of the normal human life. Thinking along those lines were only making me feel even less worthy of Bellas love. My humanity was one of the things that I had lost when I was changed into a monster. My baby is so pure, and I'm so dark. Everything about me would make a normal person extremely wary, let alone if they actually knew what I was. Then they would run screaming. But Bella was special. Her capacity for love beat even that of Esme. Her heart was so open and loving, yet she has been disturbed before and had found her own two feet, like I'd told her. She knew how to protect herself, and her heart, but she would always give a person the benefit of the doubt. And that mouth. She definitely knew how to run it off. I wondered idly if I should have been a sailor, just to keep up with her use of cuss words, but damn it was hot. She wasn't afraid to tell anybody what she thought, but she wouldn't do it just to hurt someone.
Arriving at the house, I felt a strong wave of uneasiness and anxiety. Something wasn't right. I flew to the front door, my family needed me. Streaking through the front door, I found only Esme in the house, the others being only God knows where. Her head was bent and her hands clutched a piece of paper in front of her. She started shaking and suddenly rage flared up, so quickly it was gone before a human could have blinked, but incredibly passionate. Something was horribly wrong if Esme were to be acting like this.
"Esme?" I asked gently, not wanting to startle her. As soon as she heard me, she turned and threw herself in my arms, and for once, I didn't cringe at the contact. I knew that I hurt her whenever she became somewhat touchy feely with me, just the same as with the others, but in that way they craved having a mother figure in their life. I did not. However, at this moment, I was glad that she had given into the impulse to hug me, as it meant that I had her closer to me and I subtly evaluated her for any injuries. I found none. Whatever was wrong was to do with that piece of paper. She pulled herself together, pulling away from me and giving me a small smile, showing that she appreciated that I hadn't tensed up and accepted her touch. I nodded in understanding.
"Jasper, this came…well, this came for you and, please…just please, please don' be upset dear. But I opened it, because…oh dear…it's from Alice, and Emmett told me what she has been doing all this time and I didn't want you to get hurt, so I opened it to make sure it was nothing bad, and if it was, how I would be able to tell you without you hurting. And now I just feel horrible, I know I shouldn't have, but whether or not you think of me that way or no, I am your mother and you ARE my son and I will do anything I can to protect you, even if it is just from yourself." I nodded, feeling gratitude to the woman who had never given up on me. She wanted me as part of her family and she has done everything in her power to make it happen.
"It's alright, mom. Thanks." Relief and extreme happiness poured out of her in gigantic waves. She handed me the letter, mussing my hair and went on her way.
I looked down at the paper with trepidation; I really was fed up of Alice and her oh so cryptic notes. Nothing good ever came from them.
Jasper,
I told you that you would thank me for my decisions. But it didn't take you long to get over me, did it? For over a century we were together and you would have done anything to protect me, and now all it takes is some filled out divorce papers and a measly human child, and you forget all about me! How could you? If I had never told you, you would never have known. But anyway, you'll love what I have to tell you!
Maria's coming!
Love you, EX-hubby! Alice xx
Fuck!
A/N: ahh yes I'm bad! But its finally getting to where I want it to go ! What did you think? Was the letter from Alice too abrupt? Well, I wasn't sure bye!