Chapter 10 Wanting (prelude)

Dawn was lying on her bed.
Staring at the ceiling. She had been like that for hours.
When Buffy had come to check up on her, she had grabbed a book pretending to be reading for her 'homework'

It seemed like a hundred thoughts were crossing her mind.

I want Spike to love me. , she sadly thought.
I want him to tell me. I want…
I don't want him at all! That stupid bastard!
He doesn't even want me.
So why would I want him?
Oh… but I want him to want me!

"Dawn! I'm out to patrol! I left you money to order food!" Buffy called from downstairs.

"OK!" Dawn yelled back.
Eventually also Willow came with her own announcment into her room. "I will be out for just an hour or so. I need to get something at the magic shop. Will you be ok alone for an hour?"

"Yes," Dawn nodded.

"Good luck with your homework" Willow pointed to the book that was open and lying next to her on the bed.
It was like Willow knew something more. There was knocking on her window as well this time. She looked up. It was Spike!
Her heart started to beat faster. She wasn't sure if she wanted to let him in. She crossed her arms and just looked at him. Spike signaled. Finally she decided to let him in. She opened her window and he climbed into her room.

"Why did you come?" Dawn asked.

"Well, that's a nice hello" Spike replied sarcastically.

"Why the sulk face? Aren't you happy to see me?" He approached Dawn until he was in her personal zone.
"If you must know you drew me here. I kept on hearing your voice all the time while I was home. I had to go check on you"

"You heard my voice?" Dawn asked like she couldn't believe what he was saying here.

"Yes. Very disturbing. You said all these things about me. They weren't very nice,"

"I didn't say anything about you!" Dawn defended herself. She crossed her arms over her chest and turned away demonstrative

What is he on about?
Did he come to take advantage of me again?

Spike circle her placed the back of his hand on her face and ran it down her cheek. Then he leaned in for a soft kiss.

"I could never take advantage of you, my sweet bit" He whispered while looking deep into her eyes.

"Wait…" Dawn pushed him away. "I didn't say that out loud"

"You didn't?" Spike frowned. They looked questioningly at each other. "Then I'm hearing your thoughts?"

Dawn shrugged her shoulders. "I think so"

"Wow that's creepy" Spike admitted.

"Yeah" Dawn agreed obviously feeling uncomfortable. She rubbed her arms nervously.

"Anyway I came here to show you something," Spike said.

Show me what?

"That I want you" he lifted Dawn and lied her down on the bed.

In what way?

"I want you to be with me" He replied her thoughts. It felt special.

"Let me prove it to you"
He slowly started to undress her.
First her top, then her skirt and finally her lingerie until she was naked in front of him.
Then he took of his own clothes. Except for his underwear. He covered them with blankets.

"Just let me touch you. You won't have to please me this time," he whispered in her ear. Then he kissed her very tenderly on her lips.
She answered his kiss and let him lead it.
It was long and mushy. He traced his kisses down her neck over breasts, softly kissing her nipples.
Then under her breasts going down for her belly. In the meanwhile his hands were all over her body.
Dawn's body trembled heavily. He kissed her waist and her hips. Then his lips tracing down slowly...

A/N hah! A cliffhanger for you ;) And this is just the prelude...