Yeahh... I was just reading the lyrics to this song and I was like WHOA ITS ELLIE! Haha. (Auburn hair and tawny eyes.)

Sooo...

Still don't own anything...

I Ran is by A Flock of Seagulls

--------------

I walked along the avenue.
I never thought Id meet a girl like you
Meet a girl like you
With auburn hair and tawny eyes
The kind of eyes that hypnotize me through
Hypnotize me through

And I ran, I ran so far away
I just ran, I ran all night and day
I couldn't get away

A cloud appears above your head
A beam of light comes shining down on you
Shining down on you
The cloud is moving nearer still
Aurora borealis comes in view
Aurora comes in view

And I ran, I ran so far away
I just ran, I ran all night and day
I couldn't get away

--------------

Dear Ellie,

I haven't heard from you in awhile. You've only written once so far... but I can't say I blame you. I know you have a life and you don't have time to be concerned about some drug addict.

But I really want you to write. I hate not being in your life. I know you don't want me in it, but you don't have to forgive me! Just write, tell me about university. Tell my about the paper, tell me about your journalism classes. I really want to know how you're doing and I want to know what's going on in your life.

I've been thinking a lot lately... they give us a lot of time to do that here. It's so quiet you feel like you HAVE to be thinking.

I know it sounds cliché but therapy and stuff here is really helping. It's helped me realize how much I have. Even if I had a bad child hood, I have a personality disorder, I will never make it as musician, and I tried to get rid of all that by taking drugs, I still have so much to be thankful for.

I appreciate Joey so much more.

But most of all I appreciate that you wrote me that one letter. I read it every time I feel like giving up on this and just saying "SCREW REHAB LET ME OUT." I've MEMORIZED the damn letter, El!

You DO NOT KNOW how much you mean to me!! I sound like such a girl... going on about my feelings. That's enough for now. Haha.

I don't really know what I thought was going to happen when I apologized... I didn't expect for you to forgive me right away and run back to me, but somehow I sort of thought that would happen. That never happens.

Well... I've been writing a lot of songs. They let us use felt tip pens. I asked them to let me play my guitar once in awhile, so they put me in a soundproof room for an hour and let me go at it.

Almost all my songs are about you.

Ellie, please write back.

Love,

Craig

--------------

Dear Ellie,

I know it's only been a few days since I last wrote, but I wanted to write to you again. Writing letters is kinda fun. It's just like talking... but you can say a bunch of stuff before the other person does.

Rehab is getting a little bit more tolerable. If you avoid all the really violent guys, you're much better off. They do pushups in their rooms and sweat a lot... you can hear them grunting through their doors. I hang out in the library a lot and write songs... read books.

I don't talk very much. Some of the guys get really into it at group sessions, but... I just wait until I talk to my actual therapist. It's easier when you're alone.

I have a song for you... I want to send it to you. I can't record myself playing it... but I'll send you the lyrics. If you want them.

Love,

Craig

--------------


Reached out a hand to touch your face
You're slowly disappearing from my view
Disappearing from my view
Reached out a hand to try again
I'm floating in a beam of light with you
A beam of light with you

And I ran, I ran so far away.
I just ran, I ran all night and day.
I couldn't get away.

--------------

I'm not sure if that really sounded like Craig... but... I hope so. :)

Please review!

Aaand I'll be out of town next week... so it'll be awhile for the next letter. :)

Ahh sorry to be off topic--- but did you guys see South of Nowhere last night??? Wasn't it AMAZING???

And did you see that preview for the new Degrassi season in the fall... with Peter and Darcy fighting... and wasn't that girl who was commenting Naturally Sadie??? (I don't know her actual name haha) But I know Shenae has been on Naturally Sadie, but it would be weird if Sadie was on Degrassi...