Chapter 10

(Jasper)

My phone rings as I am still trying to get the venom to work on Bella. I see its Edward. "Jasper we have an issue." Edward says on the other end. "So do I."
"Bella?"

"Yes." I say feeling like I'm sinking into a dark whole.

He hangs up the phone. I pick Bella up she's limb in my arms. Each step I take like walking in sand. Like a lightning rod is when I feel it I fall to my knees as the pain begins course through my entire body. Like I'm being boiled from the inside out lost as to why. But it all feels to familiar. I call out in pain again trying not to drop Bella. It's not until I place her down in front of me and look upon her that I realize what's going on. I laugh and smile in knowledge but cannot stand as the pain is far too great. I cover my face and rock my body to the pain. I feel a hand upon my shoulder. "Come with me brother." Alice will take care of her. "NO I won't leave her."
"The pain is too great you two are too connected you can't be near her."

"NO I will do it again! I will sit by here these three days! I WON'T LEAVE HER! If she's going through it so will I! EVERY MOMENT." I grab at my head feeling it course through like a fire that won't burn out. "We can't leave them both out in the open like this." I hear Edward say to Alice. "Then you carry Jasper. I got Bella." Without given time to argue I feel myself lift up and Edward speeds through the woods it seems like it takes forever before we get to the house.

Edward sits me down on a chair next to Bella's bed. I look to Edward knowing he's reading everything I'm feeling. He's greatly concerned. "I'm fine." I force a smile. "This. This is good pain." Edward shakes his head. "You're sick." Edward teases with a smile. "And she's not dead!" I say grabbing at the mattress my fingers go right through it. "Easy there Jasper." Edward reminds as Bella's still lying there. I nod and back away gritting my teeth. "How can you do that?" Edward says grabbing his own head now. "How can you go through all that again?"

"Because it's her and this my brother is the most wonderful pain I've ever been in."

Day 2

"JUST KILL ME PLEASE KILL ME SOMEBODY." I look over and see Bella's eyes still completely closed but she's yelling now.

Carlisle runs in.

"Was that her!" I nod not able to answer as I'm folding over in joint I bite at my lip.

"Jesus that poor girl." Esme says running in after.

Rose and Alice grab Bella's hands.

"KILL ME!" I cover my mouth and let out a gasp as she says this.

Anger rolls over me and I say. "I'll be right back!" I roar.

"WHERE IS HE!"

I bust down the door. "Whoa easy there!" Billy says. "WHERE IS JACOB BLACK!"

"You're on our turf you need to leave!" Sam says to me.

"Yeah you got some balls vamp!" I grab Paul by the collar. "YOU!"

"What did you and Jacob do?" Sam says looking at me.

Jacob comes out of a room looking like hell.
"YOU! YOU'RE COMING WITH ME!"

Sam crotches down like he's about to shift so does Paul. "Don't." Jacob says not even looking at them. "No more!" Jacob says. Paul looks at him confused "but he was going to kill Bella you said so yourself we saw it."

"He wasn't going to kill her. He was about to turn her at that moment I wanted her dead instead."
"YOU TURNED HER!" Sam shifts.

"NO SAM!" Jacob stands in front of me.

"I killed her she's dead." Emily cries out and Sam immediately shifts back.

He grabs Jacob by the collar.

"HE's MINE!" I yell and grab him by the neck and take off.

I throw him in the room where Bella lays.

"What is this?" Jacob asks.

I don't answer. I just wait for it. I feel it coming a strong one I grab my gut. "HELPPPPPPPPP ME SOMEONE KILL ME MAKE IT STOP!" This time her body starts to jostle around. Jacob's mouth drops. "She's changing?" I raise a brow at him folding my arms trying not to kill him. "I can't watch this I can't take this it's." I grab him by the back of the neck. "YOU WILL WATCH EVER MINUTE!" I squeeze the back of his neck just enough not to snap it but enough to keep him in place. "He really does care for her and is sorry." Edward says. "SHUT UP!" I roar. "He wishes himself to be dead. He wants you to snap his neck right now and rip his heart out." Edward says again. "STOP IT EDWARD!" I shove Jacob to the ground. "YOU WANT TO DIE BOY IS THAT TRUE!" Jacob just stares at the floor. I pick him up by the hair tossing him out the window. "SO BE IT!" He transforms and growls at me as it turns to a whimper once Bella calls out again. He looks towards the area. I punch him in the snot he falls to the ground not defending himself. "Come on! Where is the big bad wolf that thought he owned that poor girl! The one that couldn't have her so killed her instead? WHEREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!" I slam in through the dirt as it caves into the earth. "Stop it Jasper. He's not going to fight you he's done. You'll kill him." Edward says.
"Do it!" Jacob says with a pleading look. He grabs me by the collar. "KILL ME NOW!" I punch him in the face. "No you will live! You will live knowing you can never have her! You will live knowing that you killed her. You will tell your pack to stand down when she changes. Let them know that if any of them try to harm Bella that there are more of us and we will come after them!"
"They won't touch Bella. None of us will or anyone else for that manner." Jacob says as he crawls out of the ground. "They won't touch any of you Cullen's. " Jacob nods and then runs out into the woods.

I feel my arms and legs lock up as I trudge my way back to Bella. My back starts to feel like its bending inside out. Emmett and Edward prop me up on the chair again.

Day 3

I pace around the room worriedly… "What is it?" Carlisle asks. "I don't feel anything."
"Nothing at all?

"NO. Is something wrong? It just nothing she's not calling out I don't feel her at all."

Alice comes in skipping and all smiles. "What?"

"It's time!"

"But I don't sense her I don't."

I stop where I stand as I see Bella shoot up. My hand goes to my mouth immediately. The sun coming through the windows makes her sparkle and she's breathtaking. "Bella…" I say barely able to speak. Her red eyes turn to me. "Am I dead?" She says looking scared as we all hover around her. "No my darling well yes and no."

She narrows her eyes and grabs her throat. "IT BURNS!" She says frowning.

"She's thirsty." Carlisle says alarmed.

"AM I?" She looks to her arms and the rest of her body.

She leaps out of the bed.

"Wow." She says running her hands along her body.

I have to close my eyes remembering we are in front of family. I hear Edward laughing. "You got your hands full with that one brother." Bella stops looking embarrassed as she realizes how she's reacting and everyone's watching her. She grabs at her throat again. Then I grab at mine sensing it. "She needs to hunt now and so do I she's making me thirst along with her." I can't help but laugh. "Amazing." I slowly come up to her. I hold out my hand. "Are you ready?" She gives me a scared childlike look. "It'll be ok I won't let you hurt anyone." She nods and takes my hand as we leap out the window onto a tree. She giggles and looks to me. I smile and nod as we leap onto another and another. I can't take my eyes off of her. Bella was always beautiful but I think this is only makes my lust worse. I shake my head trying to get the feeling out. We got our whole lives now to get wild and kinky. I tease her by starting to make it a race. She pounces on me from a branch above. Giving me that look that says I'm in trouble. She kisses my lips and rips my shirt. I let out an anxious growl as I feel her clawing at my chest. I roll over on her as we tumble down of the branch and land on the ground we start ripping each other's clothes to shreds. "SHHHH! Bella!" I pin her to the ground putting my hand over her mouth and nose. If I can smell it I know she can even if its miles away. Her eyes light up wild with thirst. "No Bella."

Bella shoves me off her. I roll my eyes. "Newborns." I grit my teeth and chase after her. I catch up to her and push her against the tree. I shake my head. She sniffs the air and I feel the ache in her throat. "Damn it." I say having a hell of a time as I want to plunge my teeth into the human myself. We see an old man fishing at the dock. Bella licks her lips. I shake my head again. "I will show you what we can eat. You don't want to do that darling. You are a Cullen now." She shoves me off of her. I'm about to scream out as she makes her way 2 feet behind him. She moves slowly but something I read in her tells me it's ok. She's like a curious kitten. I watch her breathe him in once more. Then she looks to me and nods painfully. I wave my hand over for her and she comes and takes it. "How the hell did you do that I say when we are away?"

"What do you mean?" She asks innocently.

"That man should be dead Bella."

She looked alarmed.

"NO newborn has ever resisted especially one close enough to grab like that."

She shrugs.

"I don't know I just felt the thirst but figured he might be someone's grandpa or dad."

She winced painfully at her last thought. I squeezed her hand an envy came over me a strong one. One she sensed. "You're mad at me?" She put her hand to her mouth did I do something wrong?" I smile. "NO darling in fact. I feel like an ass. You're so strong. I'm so proud of you." I kiss her lips.

"But you're sad almost jealous… why?"

"Because I killed so many and you well you had the chance and didn't take it. I was weak."

She stops me with her hands to my chest. "It's because of you that I could. You told me what to expect. I knew about the thirst I would feel. I know about going to become a Cullen and how we will eat." She wrinkles her nose in disgust. I can't help but laugh. "You never will stop amazing me Bella Swan." Then she looks sad suddenly. "Swan still huh?" I nod. "Yes but I tend to fix that very soon love."

"I wanted to be born a Cullen."

"You are already hun." I point to a mountain lion in the distance. "Now you smell that?" She nods wrinkling her nose again. "It's not that bad…"

"He smelled better."

"They always do it's something you get used to." She looks to be her throat burning. "Go on."

She smiles and runs after it. I lean back against the tree watching not understanding why suddenly I'm extremely turned on my watching Bella hunt. I watch as she pounces on the lion and sinks her fangs into it drinking. Once she's done she looks to me embarrassed seeing the mess she's made with the blood dripping from her mouth and body. She starts taking what is left of her clothes and trying to wipe it off. I slowly walk up to Bella eyeing ever part of her. I push her against the tree remembering I don't have to be so gentle with her now. Thankful she's already ripped my pants to shreds for easy access. I thrust upon her until the tree we are against snaps and we're on the ground where she takes over. I take the shreds of her dress that is left and throw them about the woods as I run my hands along her breast. This going on for a couple hours the only thing stopping us is her thirst. She looks around the woods at the mess we've made and destruction. "We did all that?" She says in shock looking around. "Correction my dear you did about 80 percent of that I only caused about 20." She smiles and runs her hand along my chest. "I thought I would just be a blood craving lunatic when I woke." I look her in the eyes. "To be honest Bella you should have been. It's all very odd."

"So most vampires don't…" I laugh again as she looks around us.

"OH yeah they do and I plan to teach you every little bit of fun we have on that one. But no as a newborn this shouldn't quite be on your mind right now. But hell I'll take what I can get. If you're ready to go again even!" I tease. She smiles. I wink. "Alright time for another feast."

"Jasper?"

"Yes?"

"Is it normal not to feel full and the ache to always be there?"

My smile fades and I nod. "Yes Bella but I promise it grows easier and easier as a newborn you will be hungry every 2 or 3 hours. It will never quite make you full that's now animal blood is."

"But you only eat like once a day and sometimes I've seen you go days."

"Bella hun don't' be so hard on yourself you're only a few hours old ok. It takes time to grow use to this." She nods. "Come now let's find you something else only this time I want you to seek it out."

(Bella)

"I've never felt so alive. Everything is clearer, crisper all my senses tingle. Even Jasper is as if I am truly seeing him for the first time. I have to stop myself from constantly touching him to make sure he's real. He's so beautiful, amazing, alluring. In fact I'm staring at him now as a strand of sun beats down on his chest and neck. The way he's smiling at me. There's something so exciting about knowing I'm his. He waves his hand on for me to lead the way. I close my eyes and concentrate on my senses I can't believe how enlighten they are. I smell the river, the trees, a chimney burning from a ways out, I smell the fish the man has caught, I smell the lilies and roses from the woods. I whip around to the warmth that my nose follows my throat aches as I parch above its large mass underneath. Jasper looks to me wide eyed as I smile and leap upon it lounging my teeth into it. "Whoa Bella." Jasper laughs as he watches me drain the grizzly. "Hell even I didn't catch a grizzly at first!" I focus on not making such a mess as before. "There you go." I nod . "Jasper aren't you going to hunt.? "Yes mam. Just enjoying watching you in fact here comes my meal." I can't help but laugh as he takes down deer from a ways. "Don't laugh that's not funny." He says laughing himself but feeding in between."

"So how goes it?" We both look up to see Emmett and Alice up in the tree up in the tree above us. "OH my!" Alice covers her eyes as she comes down. I immediately hide behind Jasper. "Nice…" Emmett says. "Looks like you two had way more fun than my first time." Alice smacks his head and covers his eyes with her free hand. "Well um we'll be going now." She says pushing Emmett through the woods as he keeps looking back at us.

Jasper and I can't stop laughing. "I suppose we had better get back and well get some clothes on maybe a shower too. Maybe you'll join me?" He suggest…

"Maybe…" I run my finger along his neck.

"Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh Lord I'm in trouble." He says following me.