lets continue... (tehehe)
So, im a werewolf. With all of my stupid brothers friends. And Jake. It has been a week since I phased and I'm still and Old Quil told me that it was 'irregular' for a 'female' to change. But they guessed that my blood had to much 'canine' blood in it. Seriously? 'Canine'? I have grown one foot and my feet are now a size nine.I am the smallest, fastest, prettiest wolf there has ever been. Jake keeps telling me to look him in the eyes but I just keep walking. I wont imprint on him. I dont care what Quil, Embry, Seth, or anyone else keep asking me if I feel some sort of 'pull' towards Jake. Of course I fucking do! I always have, ever since I looked at his perfect, calm, sexy, interesting, secretive, eyes...
No Leah! You cant let yourself go down that road! Everything you guys shared is a lie! It isnt worth the pain. He isnt worth the pain. Just relax.
GREAT! I am about to phase and it's Jakes patrol... Maybe I can ignore him. I really need to run. It calms me down. I love running in wolf form. It's so freeing.
"Leah, Jake's on patrol right now and your shaking the table while I'm trying to study so can you please! Pleassse, calm down or at least take some meds?" Seth asked me. We're sitting at the kitchen table and I was eating like crazy. There has only been one good thing about phasing; my legs are too die for, I have become prettier in a way, and I have the running thing. Wait, I guess that is three good things, whatever.
"No, I'm going to run. I could ignore Jake for the past week, I think I can do it for about an hour," I said, getting up and walking out the backdoor.
"Whatever, later," he said, burying his face in his math book.
I should list the bad things about becoming a wolf, shouldnt I? Thought so.
One; I have to share my head with nine boys,six who think i'm 'bangable'. It's : When phasing back human, I am naked. Surrounded by boys who are under age. Disturbing. Three: Three people I share my thoughts with (Jake, Sam, Seth) all are creepy to share thoughts with. Sam is always thinking about Emily. Jake is always apologizing to me. Seth is always yelling at Jake to shut up and leave me alone. Thank god for Seth.
I walk out in the woods and smell Jake. He must have run by here earlier. I start stripping down and tying my clothes to my leg. I hear someone running by, four legs. Crap. I phase and run in the other direction.
Leah? Wait. - Jake.
No, running here. - Me.
Please look at me. You know you want too. - Jake.
No, actually I want to kill you, but whatever. Keep dreaming. - Me.
Awe, dont be that way Lee-Lee. I love you. - Jake.
I turn around and look at Jakes ear. My thoughts are yelling at me to look Jake in the eye but I just cant.
Jake? When are you going to learn? I dont love you. The thing we had, it's over. It was all a lie and I'm done with you and your stupid games. - Me.
Please Lee-Lee. Everything will be okay if you just look at me.- Jake.
I am looking at you. - Me.
Not my ear. My eyes. - Jake.
No. - Me.
Fine, I'll make you. - Jake.
Next thing I know, Jake is over top of me, face right in front of mine. I kick and kick at his stomach but he doesnt buj. I look at his eyes and...
Crap! Fuck! Lord oh mighty! Shit, Shit, Shit! - Me.
Yeah, I know. - Jake.
I kick him off of me. I look at him and everything changes. One minute I want to hit Jake and 'fix' him, the next I cant even dream of hurting him. I cant even dream of anyone hurting him. My wolf is happy, exetremely happy. Me on the other hand, isnt. I didnt want this to happen. I wanted to fall in the love the other way. Like I did with Sam.
Really Leah? You're comparing me to Sam? - Jake.
YES! I dont want to love you because of some stupid magic trick the old people are playing on us. I dont want that. What I felt for Sam was real- - Me.
And what you felt for me was real. You loved because you wanted too. I loved you because I decided to. I didnt let the imprint bond take full control. Yes, I did pretty much ask you out the first time I met you, but if I let the imprint bond take over I would've slept outside of your window every night. I wouldn't have waited to kiss you. I wouldnt have fallen in love with you in warehouse, I wouldn't have thought you had a bitchy side that I hated and thought was sexy as hell at the same time. I loved because you are beautiful, and funny, and dont hold back anything, and because when you talk you dont have a filter. You say whats on your mind. I love you because your strong, and independent and you love your family more than anyone and would do anything for any one of them. Even Emily. Especially Emily. I love you because you are who you are and no one in the god damn world can change you. - Jake.
...Phase back. - Me.
What? Why? You're not going to hit me are you? - Jake.
Phase back now. - Me.
..Okay. - Jake.
He walks behind a tree and phases while I stay wolf and wait. He walks from behind the tree in only cutoffs. I look at him and yes, I love him, but not because of the imprint. I cant even really feel it. I look him in his warm deep chocolate brown eyes and phase. He looks me over as I walk towards him. He looks me in the eyes and I take my hand to his face. I gently rub his cheek while he leans into it and closes his eyes. He reopens them and looks me directly in the eyes. I smile slightly and kiss him. It feels...
Amazing. Incredible. Ironic in ways. Warm. Inviting. Soft. Comfortable. Normal...
I pull away and look him in the eyes. I then proceed to slap him across the face.
"What the- What was that for?" He asks while rubbing his face. I bend down and unstrap my summer dress with a built-in bra from my leg.I stand up straight and smile brightly at him.
"That was for taking so long, idiot!" I say and kiss him again. -
This is the beginning of something amazing..
Wow, well that was nice huh.
Just Leah being Leah huh? (:
Hope you like it and review.
- Rayna,