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Anyway this chapter is ridiculously long and could have actually made up two. I did consider spliting it until i realised that that's just cruel...haha. so here it is..
Lily was jerked awake as a bag landed on her chest and she opened to see Remus standing in front of her,
"Here," he said, Lily looked down at the bag on her bed, it was hers,
"I told James that he had to go down and get this for me," said Lily heaving it off her and dumping it on the floor.
"Yeah I know, but James told Sirius to do it seeing as 'he'd already paid his dues' or something like that and so Sirius agreed because apparently he's trying to become your friend, which of course means that because I'm currently being blackmailed by the idiot, that I was forced out of bed at some ridiculous hour this morning and go fetch it for you" he complained crossing his arms.
"Oh sorry Remus" she smiled sheepishly, feeling a little guilty.
"What time is it?" she asked stretching her arms above her.
"Probably about 7:30ish," he replied collapsing down in the armchair near he bookshelf.
"You do realize it's kind of rude just barging in" she teased him, "I could have been naked."
"James stuck his head in first and said it was alright for me to come in". he grinned at her.
"Well it's the same for him!" she said cried out, "I could have been naked".
"He said it didn't matter cause he'd seen you naked before anyway" replied Remus shutting his eyes with tiredness and laughing at her.
Lily just rolled her eyes, "where is the stupid git now anyway?" she asked slipping out of bed.
"Knowing Prongs," said Remus pausing, "probably in bed," he answered his face cracking into a grin at the sight of her.
"What?" she asked confused.
"Nothing just James wasn't lying," said Remus laughing at her.
"Shut up Remus," said Lily smiling as she threw a pillow at him tugging the shirt down as she walked over to the bathroom. She knew that James wouldn't be able to resist sharing her embarrassing story with his friends
"I'll see you at breakfast" called Remus at her as she made her way across the bathroom and flung open the door to James' room.
"Owww," he moaned grabbing his shoulder where Lily had just hit him.
"Stop complaining" she said, "and don't tell Sirius to go do your dirty work, it's your fault that my stuff had to be left down there in the first place so you should have to go get it".
"Sirius basically volunteered," said James picking up his alarm clock and glancing at the time, "besides he's the one that's trying to become your friend, I'm just trying to get into your pants".
Lily stood there shocked temporarily before lunging forward to slap him, but he caught her before she got the chance and pulled her onto his bed.
"Too easy" he grinned,
"James let go of me" she said squirming, "and stop trying to bait me so I want to hit you".
James released her and she stood up retreating back to the bathroom with his laughter echoing behind her.
Annabelle leaned over and slapped Sirius' hand, "No food fighting, everytime I come to eat a meal these day not only does it seem that I always get stuck sitting with you, but that everytime you decide the only way to consume your food satisfactorily is to throw half of it at people while you do so".
"Ohhh you're feisty this morning" commented Sirius, but dropping the piece of toast none the same.
"Have you got any more ideas?" she asked lowering her voice.
"Nope," he said, "leaving them both alone at the Quidditch Pitch was alright, but we need something better, something that will actually get them together".
"You know you could just leave it and let them get together on their own" said a voice just above them and Annabelle looked up to see Remus standing above them.
"Moony come on," said Sirius, "You can't deny that you're sick of waiting for them to get together".
"I never said that," he replied pulling out his time table and studying Tuesday's lessons, "I just think that they're never going to get together by you two forcing them to be alone in situations, they share a common room so leaving them alone for a little bit of extra time is not going to make a difference, trust me".
"He's right," said Annabelle as Remus smiled glad that he'd deterred them from trying to interfere, which knowing the both of them would not end well.
"We need to do something different, leaving them alone won't work," said Annabelle, thinking thoughtfully, Remus just sighed shaking his head at the two of them.
"Did you get her bag Moony?" asked Sirius piling bacon onto the side of his plate.
"Yes," grumbled Remus, "but I'm not doing any more of your dirty work Sirius" he said shooting his friend a dirty look.
"You say that now.." said Sirius just returning the glare with a grin.
The week seemed to pass quickly for Lily, as worked picked up a little bit she started spending more time in the library. However, despite her impending work load most of the time she was just trying to avoid James, scared that any second she would just jump him during the middle of dinner or walking down a corridor.
She was purposely avoiding him in class as well, dragging Daisy and Annabelle to lessons early so that they could sit either side of her and prevent her from having to sit next to him. However, not even this was able to deter her from drooling over him as he flashed his grin around the classroom and glanced at her.
Unfortunately though, this avoiding situation was going to have to end today, because she'd been bribed into sneaking out with them.
Sighing Lily grabbed her things shoving them carelessly into her bag her thoughts preoccupied, as they always seemed to be these days, with Potter.
Lily tried to analyze her dilemma as she glanced around the library and began making her way out. Say if she was to get together with Potter, hyperthetical question of course the back of her mind was screaming at her, she'd be the biggest hypocrite to have ever walked the earth. How many times had she screamed, abused, slapped and cursed at him, declaring she'd never date him. Last night, much to her embarrassment Daisy and Alice had informed her that it didn't matter, when she'd confessed this thought to them, they responded by telling her that everyone in the school thought they were going to get together anyway. Lily had been shocked by this revelaton having worded it as a complaint about him and she was slightly embarrassed that the whole school knew about the two of them.
"Oi Evans," yelled Sirius Black appearing besides her and pulling her from thoughts which to certain degree she was happy to do, seeing as these thoughts seemed as thought they were leading to a conclusion that not even she thought she could admit to herself.
"Where were you at Quidditch?" he asked, truly confused about how a human being could willing miss watching a game, "Ravenclaw beat Huffelpuff", "badly" he added as an afterthought.
"Not everyone is as mindless to be as obsessed with a ridiculous sport like you Black," said Lily beginning to climb the stairs.
"Oh I see" said Sirius, "so you only like coming to watch when a certain someone is playing". He mused winking at her.
Taking her silence as an opportunity to continue before she said something sarcastic back to him, he continued,
"Anyway you can't be so angry and condescending around me, we're friends now" he said reaching the top of the stairs with her.
"You know at no point have I actually said that we're friends Sirius," she said smiling, "The only thing I've agreed to is working with you in Herbology".
"We'll you haven't even given me a chance yet," he said turning seriously, "you know that James and Remus aren't idiots, do you really think they'd be my best mates if I was really that much of a dick?"
Lily felt a little twinge of guilt, she hated it when Black got all serious, it wasn't in his nature, or really she just wasn't used to it and his sincerity threw her.
"Fine, we can be friends" she said.
Sirius grinned at her, "good because friends go places together", Lily gave him a quizzical look, "You've already forced me into coming out with you tonight".
"I know but you missed the game, which immediately means that you have to at least come to the party".
"I've got Phoebe waiting outside to let us in", he said pulling her off as she mumbled feeble protests, knowing that she really did want to go.
"Look who I found!" announced Sirius as he pulled her into the room and a few laughed as she rolled her eyes behind him.
"Sirius I can actually walk by myself" said Lily yanking her arm away from his reach before no doubt, he pulled her into some awkward situation.
Too late..
"Oh my god she's alive!" said Daisy appearing in front of her flanked on her sides was a grinning James Potter and Frank Longbottom.
"I know you like to get good grades Lily" said Frank smiling, "but there's only so much time you can spend in the library".
"I know!" cut in Daisy again, "time for drinks though!".
"Daisy it's 4:00 in the afternoon!" she said in protest.
"Yes but I know you", cut in James wrapping an arm around his waist and pushing her gently towards a table ladled with various drinks, "and if we start you drinking now, when you go and get ready in a couple of hours time, you're more likely to wear something ridiculously tiny and slutty without realizing what you've actually put on".
"Which would of course be appreciated by everyone", said Sirius grinning before running of to talk to someone else.
"So much for friend time," mumbled Lily underneath her breath.
"What?" asked James his arm still hugging her waist,
"Nothing" said Lily aware that once again her friends had managed to disappear conveninantely leaving her with just James, "he was forcing me to come here under the impression of spending time as friends" she laughed.
Suddenly feeling as though people were watching her Lily pulled away, "I really don't feel like being here".
"Lily come on you've been studying all week, surely you cannot have any homework to do," said James and Lily had the feeling that he was mocking her.
"No it's not that," she said fidgeting.
"Do you want to go back to our dorm?" she asked him after a light pause turning to look at him and finding herself staring straight into his hazel eyes.
He raised his eyebrows at her pairing his utterly gorgeous expression with a grin.
"Don't you start" she laughed, "Let's just go hang out there instead, I feel as if everyone is watching me, that's all".
James just shook his head picking up a couple of bottles of firewhiskey and shoving them into his robes.
"Once again I would just like to point out my sacrifices" he said dramatically placing a hand gently on the small of her back as they left the Ravenclaw common room.
Their moves of course being scrutinized by none other than Annabelle and Sirius..
"Evans, evans, evans," said James shaking his head, "the sooner you admit that you're really desperately in love with me than the easier it will be," laughed James casting the last bottle of firewhiskey aside and glancing at Lily as they both sat on the floor.
Lily stood up shakily laughing at him and his ridiculous accusations of her liking him. Or were they?
"I" she said placing emphasis on this and pointing to herself, "am leaving you to go get ready" she said.
"Wait" he called out to her and she turned around to look at him, "that's another issue that we have, I've seen you naked, in you're underwear and even in nothing but a shirt, there's not much I haven't seen he said looking pointedly at her, "when are these no watching you change or barging into your room rules going to change!" he protested.
"not happening" she laughed at him slinking off to get ready.
Lily moved across the dancefloor, music ringing in her ears and making her way towards the bar where Remus and James were perched talking.
"You're not dancing?" she called over the music, leaning in the middle of the two of them to get a drink.
Pulling away she looked at them, James shrugging and Remus shaking his head absentmindedly.
Lily looked at both of them, "come on" she said as Remus just waved them away, and Lily grabbed James' hand.
"I know you James Potter and you have no desire to be sitting on that stool all night" she said taking his hand and pulling him in amongst the masses of people.
However, Lily had barely made it onto the danceflloor before James pulled her in from behind, kissing her neck and shoulder his hands finding place upon her hips as she, despite her all her better judgment was compelled moved up against him. Suddenly he caught her by surprise swinging her around and meeting her lips with his own. The kiss was impatient and hot, James' tongue moving into her mouth as he kissed her harder. Lily pulled away trying to catch her breath, despite all the people moving around them it felt as if James was the only person that could see her.
She wasn't looking at him but she could tell his eyes were fixed upon her. Moving back towards him she clung to his shirt as she once again closed the gap between them and their mouths met, James' hands snaked their way from her hips and up the back of her shirt, hot against her skin. Her hands cradled the back of his neck, small beads of sweat forming at the baseline of his hair as he kissed her hard pulling her towards him.
Lily could vaguely sense the change in music as more people moved around them and they seemed to be pulled towards the middle of the floor. Lily's shirt clung to her and she pulled her mouth away from his, grinding up and down against him. James pulled away from her body his hands sliding down from the small of her back as he grasped her hand and led her out and off the floor.
Less people squished in around them now Lily turned to face him again, grinning at him before jumping up, James catching her with an ease that she loved as she laughed and wrapped her legs around him.
James maneuvered his way over to the bar and dropped down onto a seat next to Remus who just looked bemused, although neither Lily nor James seemed to notice.
All of a sudden though Lily was sure that she heard the voice of Sirius boom out somewhere behind her and like lighting she detached herself landing on the floor and straightening out her clothes before Sirius appeared before them.
"Did you see where Annabelle and Frank went?" questioned Sirius over the music, directing his inquiry towards Remus.
Lily could feel James' hand hovering on her waist as she stood next to him but as Sirius began to turn to look at them she moved away. James looked confusedly at Lily but Sirius didn't seem to notice because at that moment Annabelle and Frank appeared holding up a very sick looking Daisy.
"We're going to have to go" called Annabelle to Lily gesturing towards Daisy.
Lily moved within flashes completely removing herself from the vicinity of James and making her way out, holding up Daisy with Frank and Annabelle. She didn't even look back as James sat on the stool staring at her frame disappear round the corner.
It was Monday before Lily saw James again, Sunday she'd woken to find him gone and assuming that he had done something as ridiculous to schedule a Quidditch training on a Sunday morning it didn't really bother her. However, she hadn't seen him that night or that morning and she was beginning to see how annoying the avoiding tactic was, a small part of her was even beginning to feel guilty for all the times she'd done it to him.
"Have you seen James?" asked Lily catching up to Alice outside the hall.
"Yeah," she said tentatively, "He was just in the old transfiguration classroom up there" she continued gesturing with her head upstairs, "I think he was doing some Charms practice".
"Thanks" called Lily as she sprinted off in the other direction, her bag swinging from side to side as she ran up the steps.
James was sitting on a desk in the middle of the room, light cascading in from the dusty windows hitting the frames of his glasses and reflecting back up against the wall.
"hey," said a voice, and he looked up to see Lily standing in the doorway her bag strung over her shoulder smiling at him.
"hi," he mumbled at her. Lily felt thrown at the bitterness in his voice, and the grin that was missing from his normal greeting.
"Are you alright?" she asked quietly, knowing full well that of course, he wasn't.
"Yeah, are you alright?" he fired back at her looking up to see her slightly confused face.
"Oh come on Lily cut the crap," he shouted at her.
Lily just continued to stare at him,
"I'm so sick of your bullshit, and your fucking teasing, your alright to make out and jump at me when noone's looking but as soon as someone else shows up you're gone, pretending as if nothing has happened and as if you don't give a shit" he spat at her and Lily found herself caught somewhere between anger, guilt and denial.
"You're a fucking prick tease Lily, and I'm over it" he continued, "I'm over your crap because I know you like me and I can't see what your fucking problem is and why you're so shit scared that anyone else find out, as if I'm some disgusting mark on your perfect record!".
"I'm sorry" said Lily venomously, "If I don't' want to be the next girl that you just happen to fuck, I don't want to be the girl that just gets smashed down" Lily was panting slightly now her cheeks returning to the oh so familiar red tinge that used to accompany encounters with James Potter.
"We both know that you don't stick around and I refuse to have to be the girl that you spent all that time chasing and then ditched once he got what he wanted from her. And I especially refuse to have the whole school know about it. So I'm sorry If I don't' want to have to be embarrassed in front of my friends and in front the rest of the school because I have my respect and you are not going to take that away from me".
"So don't you talk to me about crap and lies James Potter," she continued, "because your king of it and you and I both know that's the truth." She finished before turning her back to him and storming out of the room.
James collapsed back on the desk burying his head in his hands. Why did the girl that he liked, the one that just happened to be perfect for him, have to be Lily Evans? Why couldn't he like someone easier? Someone who he didn't have to scream and yell with, someone who would just go with it and not fight him?
No, the one girl that he just had to like was Lily Evans? Who was fiery and opinionated and just wouldn't give in…
But even he knew as he questioned himself that those very things were what made her her, and despite the complications that they aroused, he wouldn't have her any other way.
Lily lay curled up in bed, the pounding in her head seemed as though it was endless and she could do nothing but clutch at her pillow.
It felt as thought within the last few weeks she'd changed so much that she couldn't even regonize what she wanted anymore. After the fight with James she'd just gone straight up to Gryffindor and spent a good couple of hours crying, complaining, arguing and moaning to Daisy and Annabelle.
It was so ironic that after all this time she'd be the one crying and upset. Eventually she drifted off to sleep, knowing full well that tomorrow it'd be time to swallow her pride.
Lily jerked awake at the sound of clattering, almost rolling completely out of her bed, she glanced at her alarm clock it taking a moment to register that it was 3 o'clock in the morning. Swinging her legs out of bed Lily fumbled around trying to find her wand in the darkness as she heard a thud out in the commonroom.
Having finally located her wand she pad across the carpet as lightly as she could locating the door and opening it a crack. Relieved slightly to see the form of James on the floor and not a mass murderer Lily pulled the door open wider and padded down the steps, her sleepy eyes taking a moment to adjust to the dim light provided only by a few lamps still on.
However, as she reached closer she realized that her initial concern was necessary. James lay on his back covered in bruises and cuts, his school shirt torn in various places and bleeding gash across the side of his face.
"Oh my god!", said Lily in shock and rushing down to look at him, "what happened?" she questioned him pulling open his shirt and beginning to try and heal some of the wounds.
"Lily don't worry," said James grabbing at her hand,
"James Potter" she replied moodily, "don't be ridiculous and tell me what happened, where have you been?"
"I can't tell you, don't worry, I'm fine" he said waving her hand away now that he seemed to regain some of his strength, "you don't have to try and heal someone you hate" he said looking at her.
"James you know I don't hate you," she Lily but brushing it off quickly, "where's your wand, how come you haven't healed these yourself?"
"I left it up here" he said finally being able to sit up,
"What were you up to James?" said Lily suspiciously now that she had healed the cuts that were bleeding, "Cause it looks like if you were trying to pull a prank then this one was just plain stupid," she said.
"Aww someone might mistake that as actual concern" he said sarcastically, "but then again I suppose someone so ashamed wouldn't want that getting out.." he finished looking at her.
"James," she said, "Look I-"
But she didn't get to finish her remark because James had cut her off and kissed her instead.
"James I just want you to-" she began having pulled away from him, but he cut her off again reaching up and kissing her gently this time.
This time he pulled away, "you know it's not like that Lily, it's never been like that with you, what you were saying today, you know that that's not what me and you are like, and it wouldn't be that kind of realtionship".
"I know" she said quietly, "besides I've worked out now that you're such an idiot, you need to have me around," she finished trying to lighten things up.
At this he laughed a feeling of relief washing over him as he looked at her. Lily moved herself gently laying down on his chest, as James in turn laid back down onto the carpet.
Lily moved downwards kissing his cuts and bruises gently, her hands were warm against his skin and there was something about being in the mere presence of her that was soothing. She kissed the skin below his bellybutton, her mouth was light against him as her hands stradeled his sides, slowing moving down to undo his pants.
Lily sat up slowly her legs either side as she straddeled him,
"You are always suprising me" said James grinning at her as he reached up and tucked a strand of hair behind her ear.
Lily just grinned lowering herself down and kissing him hard against the mouth as James tugged at her shirt loosening it and returning to meet her lips.
Lily sat up again straddling him, the grin still playing at the corners of her mouth as she felt him tense up underneath her, she loved being in control. However the same thought seemed to have just occurred to James and the next second she found herself underneath him, "Nice try," he said this time the grin plastering his own face as Lily unintentially squirmed underneath him and she felt his groin push down on her.
James kissed her mouth before moving away and kissing in the crook of her neck making her jolt underneath him and shiver at the same time.
"Well now I know where your weakness is," he whispered in her ear, which just made her shiver again.
Sliding his hands up her back he reached for her bra unlatching the back and kissing down her body.
Lily kissed him hard as she felt his hand slip onto her thigh, he pulled her shorts away and the pure touch of his hand made her shudder. His tongue even more tantalizing and hot as he made his way down her body, his finger lost in her hair as her body jolted in agreeance and the weight of him pressed down harder and harder on her.
Motivated by sheer pleasure Lily heard him groan as she slipped his pants away and she closed her eyes at his touch. In surprise Lily's entire body shuddered as he slid his finger inside her and then out again as their bodies cradled each other.
Taking control now Lily rolled back over and leaning in and kissing him with all her might slipped away his boxers and trailed kisses down his stomach moving slowly as though they had all the time they would ever need. James was hard and Lily heard him moan underneath her touch as she licked slowly before moving her body hard back up against him so that they could feel each other's breath on their faces.
In an instant James was on top again the heat of her body esculating quickly, as she moaned into his ear and he cupped her bare breasts. He was heavy and sweaty which would have normally been a turn off but it just made her want him more.
Lily felt him slip inside her as she moaned louder and their bodies began moving to faster beat, he pressed her down and she moved mindlessly against his mouth her body arching in pleasure as she felt him hard inside her. The tension building in her body as she rocked harder and harder against him as he grabbed her wrists and moaning pinned them above her head. Feeling the first surge of blood she cried out, not a care in the world if anyone could hear them. Her whole body in ecstasy. As James shuddered heavily on her and his face buried in her chest.
The aftershocks made her twitch in pleasure as she felt James panting above her, both of them trying to get their breath back, their bodies just enjoying the after sensation permeating everywhere. Lily lay there, James still heavy above her, the sheer weight of him on her just adding to the whole experience.
Slowly James moved off her the two of them lay next to each other panting, Lily's head was spinning and her whole body was content with pleasure. She wasn't sure how long they lay there for but the next moment she opened her eyes drowsily to feel herself in James' arms, her shorts and t-shirt back on, but instead of worrying she just closed her eyes and nuzzled her head into his neck.
Lily sat bolt upright tin bed the surroundings of James' room registering in her head as she looked down and saw him laying next to her, shirtless and utterly gorgeous. She wasn't sure what had woken her up but not really worrying she lay back down moving herself up against him.
However, her ignorance didn't last long and the next second she realized what had woken her up as Sirius swung open the door and burst into the room, hyperactive and yelling,
"Prongs you fuck head you've missed th-" but stopped abruptly halfway through his yelling having spotted Lily, his face cracking into an expression of pure delight at the sight of her as James roused himself and sat up.
"Lilykins!" said Black almost squealing it at her, "well aren't you just a little delight to wake up to in the mornings!"
"Fuck off Black," she said not bothering to sit up and instead yanking the covers up and putting a pillow on top of her head.
"Padfoot get out," said James absentmindedly bringing a hand to his hair and sitting up.
"Nahh," he said grinning at the both of them, not that Lily could see, "I think I'll stay here, it looks like more fun..."
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