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"Okay, you're going to meet all of the girl's but I want you two to do something for me. Kelly Kelly, real name is Barbie, just rubs me the total wrong way. I don't know what it is but when I see her I just want to throw her down and pummel her. Let me know what vibe you get."

"She must be a real bitch; that's not like you at all." Jalen knew that I never disliked someone on sight that way.

After sitting our things in the locker room we headed out for the tour. "So this is backstage at Raw girls. I already have my favorite spot so come with me." I led them out into the empty arena and took a seat. "I came out here on my very first night and I really think I will be doing it before every show. It reminds you of all that you have and that without the people to fill the stands there is no show, no you."

Ten minutes or so later John interrupted the silence. "Hey there ladies, I brought you a water. Cass I got you a berry smoothie since I figured you had gone long enough without one."

Emma smiled as she shot me a look. "Awww, thank you so much John, that was kind of you."

"Not a problem at all," he said. With that he was gone.

I watched as my friends tried to hide their smiles behind their bottled water. "Alright you two, what is it now?"

Jalen giggled, "You let him call you Cass again and he brought you your favorite drink."

"Yeah," Emma backed up Jalen, "and you grin like an idiot every time he comes around. Oh, and did we mention that you let him call you Cass twice that we know of. No one calls you that."

Rolling my eyes I could only laugh as I said, "Oh my gracious, plenty of people call me Cass and he is only a friend. I promise you that. I have this thing, whatever it is, with Matt and I'm thinking I might really love him."

Emma got quiet and in a serious tone said, "Cassidy you always have loved him, now you just know that it is real, not some fairy tale."

We sat there in silence for a good thirty minutes until I felt hands that I already knew by heart resting on my shoulders. Reaching up and covering Matt's hand with my own I stood and turned to face him. "I want to ask you something and I want you to just be honest." When he shook his head in agreement I said, "What is going on with us? What are we doing?"

Looking at me with serious eyes that melted me to my core he said, "Honestly I don't know. I know that I like whatever it is and I can't get you out of my mind. You are not like the rest of the girls in that locker room; you're not like anyone I have ever met. I know that I would love to have you as mine, and to know that I don't have to worry about the pain I would feel if I saw you with someone else. Is that honest enough for you?"

"Yeah, I think it is." I had a lump in my throat and was afraid that I would cry again.

"Good, because I couldn't get any more honest than that, but it felt good to say the words my mind kept screaming at me. You know, I have not had a girlfriend in so long I don't even know how to properly ask you to be mine."

Smiling like I had hit the lottery, which in a way I had, I said, "The way you said it just then works just fine." He leaned down to kiss me and I knew without a doubt that I was falling into an endless well where I only knew love for Matt Hardy.

After a high energy show and late dinner at Hooters, we were all back at the hotel. We told Matt and Jeff goodbye and I hugged Matt tightly and held onto him at the door to our rooms. I would be leaving in the morning and wouldn't get to see him again until late the next night, possibly even Wednesday.

"What time are you leaving in the morning?"

"Bright and early, I guess around eight."

"Let me help you get your things downstairs and into their car. I want to see you before you leave."

Smiling, I agreed and said that I was hoping he would see me off. "When do you think you will be in Atlanta?"

"I made arrangements to drop the rental car off at the lot in Atlanta so I should be there around three."

"Okay," I said, "I'll give you directions tomorrow to the apartment so you can meet us there. I see you in the morning."

Kissing me again he said, "Goodnight beautiful one." Turning to Jalen and Emma he hugged them both and said goodnight before heading into his room.

Inside of the room I flopped onto the bed. Emma sat beside me and took my hand. "I can honestly say that you are living out the dreams that you have always dreamed and I am so proud of you that I can't stand it. I am also pissed as hell at mom and dad for behaving like they are. They would have to change their minds if they saw how happy you were."

"They will come around Emma, in time anyway. If not it is their loss, because I cannot stop doing what I love doing. Either way I will love them always." I smiled then. "So Matt and I had a talk in those empty stands tonight."

"I noticed," Jalen said. "Do you care to share what was said, or is it private information?"

"He asked me to officially be with only him, and he said that the thought of seeing me with anyone else was a reality he didn't want." I snuggled down into the soft bed and smiled again. We talked in the bed until one by one we all fell asleep.