[MPOV]

I was in a trance with those brown eyes of his. They were chocolate brown and just hypnotizing. I leaned in a bit more and our lips were about to touch when I snapped out of the trance and turned my head. Nick ended up kissing my cheek instead. I looked at my wall, I couldn't face him.

"Miles, I-… sorry." I felt him get off my bed and heard his footsteps walking away.

I lifted my head up and stared at my door. What do I do? I'm just so confused with myself. I love Nick, so why didn't I let the kiss between us happen? It's what I've been yearning for all of these years. For him to be mine again, for him to love me again. Why did I panic like that? I don't even know the answer to that. I'm just so complicated that I don't even get myself. What I do know though, is that I made the biggest mistake of my life. He was here with me and I just let him walk away. I hurt him by turning my head.

I got off my bed and rushed out of my front door. I just saw his mustang drive off. I stared at the empty road where his car drove off.

I slowly walked back into my house and up to my room. I grabbed my song book. I randomly wrote lyrics that described what I felt.

"What I'm standing on is sinking in. And I don't have a clue how to get off of it. But when I look at you there is hope. It's like you see the sadness in my eyes. You read the blue between the lines. You could be the one to hold me when I wanna cry."

I closed my song book and grabbed my cell. I looked through my contacts until I found Nick. I then wrote him a text. I stared at the message. I was between sending it and deleting it. I decided to send it.

-Hey…im sorry and we need to talk. - Miley

A couple of minutes later he replies. I stared at it with my mouth open.

-No its fine I made a mistake. I think we should stop hanging out for a while- Nick

I didn't know how to respond to that. He made a mistake? So did that mean that he didn't want to kiss me? Why should we stop hanging out? He can't just walk in my life and then walk out! That's not how it works! I made the risk to let him back in because I trusted him. Now he comes up with this?

-Nick, think real hard because if you walk out on our friendship you can forget all about me! – Miley

-Miles, don't be angry with me. I think we need the space. I…need to think about…us.-Nick

-There's nothing to think about. We are friends are we not? I need your friendship. You just can't expect me to be ok with you putting space between us after you walk into my life again! I can't handle losing you for a second time! - Miley

-Please understand….what if I don't want to be just your friend? What if I want more? I need to get over that because you don't feel the same. You're not losing me. - Nick

I dropped my phone on my bed and sighed. I do want more, but I'm not ready to open myself up to him again. Like I told him, I can't face losing him and I can't face breaking up with him again. Our relationship didn't work out once so what's the chance that it will if we give it a second chance? I'm not going to lie. It scares me to think about us not being together, but the fear of heartbreak is stronger. He has this power over me that I doubt he understands. He can make me melt with the most simple of gestures, but he can break me just as easy.

Should I go with the risk or play it safe? The risk being us becoming a couple and the safe zone being us staying just friends.

I feel like screaming. Why can't my life go back to being simple? Why did I have to grow up from being the fifteen year old? Back when I was fifteen things were easy. I didn't have to worry about much just my show Hannah Montana and my first serious relationship with Nick. Life was good then that was before Selena came into the picture. She ruined the best thing in my life. She made me doubtful of Nick. I don't know.

Blaming her for everything is easy, but it just doesn't feel right. I should have fought for Nick. I shouldn't have just let her have him and Nick should have told me what she was doing. All three of us are at fault.

I grabbed my phone and texted Nick.

-We really need to talk. Plz meet me at our place, if you remember where that is. – Miley

- Of course I remember and alright. - Nick

I hope I'm making the right choice. I grabbed my hoodie and made my way out of my house. Our place is just walking distance from my house. It's the park by me house and our place is under a tree that we passed a lot of time sitting under it. It was a place where we just spent time and talked. He even carved our initials on it, kind of cheesy, but it was still sweet.

When I arrived at the park, I noticed that Nick's Mustang was already parked in the parking lot. I made my way over to our tree, which by the way is behind the playground. I saw Nick sitting in our spot and that only made me wonder if he was here all along. I reached him and silently sat down next to him.

"Hey." I greeted and he looked at me. He gave me a small smile and then looked straight ahead.

"Hey." He said quietly.

I sighed and looked up at the tree and saw that our initials were still visible.

"Remember when you carved that?" I asked him and pointed at our initials.

"Yeah, I promised you that it was our tree and if I had to, I would buy the tree." He said and laughed at bit.

"Yeah you were pretty weird back in those days, but that was one of the reasons I loved you." I muttered and looked around us. I heard him sigh and I looked at him with confused eyes.

"What's wrong?" I asked though I think I know the answer.

"Nothing, it's just that I miss those days when we were together without a care in the world."

"I know what you mean."

"Miley?" I turned my attention to him and saw the pain and sadness in his eyes.

"Yeah?"

"I really want you to give me another chance." He said and I closed my eyes.

"Nick, I already gave you a second chance." I said and opened my eyes slowly.

"You that's was not what I meant Mi." He said quietly.

"I know." I told him. "Nick, I want us to give it another try, but…I'm honestly scared." His hand reached out and caressed y cheek.

"Scared of what, Miles?" He asked.

"I'm scared that we won't work out and that I'd lose you for good. I can't go through that again."

"Miles, I can't promise that it will be easy because really nothing is that simple, but I can promise to try and make us work." He told me and pulled me closer towards him. "So what do you say?"

TBC

I'm so sorry for taking so long.

I hope this makes up for the long wait.

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