Temptation

by CandyCoatedDeath

Based on thirteen:Manny stopped with the drugs and her life is so much better but when Craig's away old habbits will play.Will the trip to California make it better or worse?Cranny Sex,drugs,rape,prostition,suicide,death

10. Broken

hello im back sry i took so long so ill make this short.There may be not that much cranny but if u review the next chappy is gonna be full of cranny.this chapter is intense i guarantee ull like it.and this is also a special chappy becaus ema good friend now an dpartner and crime Starduss! helped me greatly!if it wasn't her her i could have never done this wonderful chapter! okay well u guys r in for a huge shock! and the next chapter ill just give you a hint u will be oh ma god by the end of this and next chapter ill have to make it rated M okay so check the rated M stuff in a month.This chap is juss wow.! trust me! so yes i hope like it and it will take u an hour to read juss warning u( or less if u r fast)

So thansk again and thanx starduss! please review and well go on read up!

Summary:Manny finally got her life back together,friends with Craig even..but when a new girl comes will she

take her back to the life that she just recovered?Or even worse?Ashley comes back from London..and not sure of the relationship

rated:pg-13 for violence,drug use,breif sex,language,situations involving teens

Disclaimer:I do not own Degrassi;or any of the songs used in the story

warnings:in future chapters there may be a scene not meant for younger audience which i will change the ratings

a/n:even if i dont get that much reviews i will continue to update I really fell in love with the plot and

i think this teaches us a lesson to always choose the right friends and learn to say no

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If I had any meaning in this ol big world Can you tell a lost and lonely girl If I was happy for a day I'd risk it all That's why when I'm with I'm not afraid to fall And if you left me, and if you leave me
At least I'd have a cherish all the memories I've been having trouble With keeping up this smile I've been having trouble Hurting for quite a while And I'm feeling stupid Cause I did it to me And I'm feeling desperate
From being unhappy Why'd you leave me like this? With scars across my heart and on my wrists When I looked in your eyes I didn't know happiness had a price And you take advantage of a simple heartbreak
At least you had to love to know how to ache But don't, hesitate to let your feelings be known It's better to love and lose then just be aloneAnd if they left you, and if they leave you
At least you know in their heart they will always keep you I've been having trouble With keeping up this smile I've been having trouble Hurting for quite a while And I'm feeling stupid Cause I did it to me
And I'm feeling desperate From being unhappyWhy'd you leave me like this? With scars across my heart and on my wrists When I looked in your eyes I didn't know happiness had a price
I'm feeling broken Scattered pieces on the ground I'm feeling desperate now can abandoned souls be foundI've been having trouble With keeping up this smile I've been having trouble
Hurting for quite a while And I'm feeling stupid Cause I did it to me And I'm feeling desperate From being unhappy Why'd you leave me like this?
With scars across my heart and on my wrists When I looked in your eyes I didn't know happiness had a price

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Chapter 10-Broken

IN THE PARK

"I cant believe it. He's actually gone. He left me." Manny thought to herself as she walked alone in the park like she did so many times before. She started thinking about how she had to say goodbye to Craig at the airport just 2 hours earlier.

"C'mon Manny, baby please don't cry. Ill be back before you know it. It will be o.k." Craig said to Manny as he held her tightly. Although he was just as sad as she was he had 2 be strong and hold his feelings back for Manny's sake.

"Well what do you want me to do Craig? I mean you are leaving me for 2 months. Anything could happen in those 2 months. What if you meet some girl or something?" Manny said as she cried in Craig's arms. Marco, Jimmy, and Ellie were all looking around nonchalantly waiting by the terminal as Craig and Manny said their emotional goodbyes.

"Manny that's nonsense. You know I only have eyes for you. Don't think of it as 2 months away from each other, think of it as in 2 months we will be together again. Be creative."

ATTENTION PASSENGERS, FLIGHT 186 TO LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA IS BORDING NOW

"Manny, sweetie, I have to go now. I'm gonna miss you so much. You know that." Craig said as he gently pushed her away from his chest to look into her eyes. "O.k. who loves you most?" Craig continued. Manny didn't say anything. She just sadly looked down to the ground.

"Manny, who loves you most?"

"You do." Manny said as she finally looked up at him.

"You gonna let me see you smile before I go ?" Craig said trying to maintain his cheerful attitude. Manny didn't smile. She just looked at him with a very depressing look on her face. Craig then grabbed her by her waist and started tickling her neck with his lips.

"Craig" Manny laughed.

"Ha that's more like it." Craig said with a huge smile.

"Manny, I love you."

"I love you to Craig."

The couple then held hands as they kissed each other one last time. As they were parting Craig pulled Manny back by the hand for one more kiss.

"I'm just going to have to get through this." Manny said to herself as she continued walking through the park. When she got closer to the other side she recognized someone walking on the sidewalk. It was J.T. She had not seen him since she talk to him in school. They had to keep their friendship a secret. She was actually happy to see him.

"J.T. hey." Manny said as she walked up to him.

"Hey. How have you been?"

"I've been better."

"What's wrong?" J.T. asked his friend.

"Craig's band won the record deal last night and they had to go to L.A. this morning. Now I have no one." Manny said sadly.

"Manny that's not true. You got me." J.T. said with a hand on her shoulder.

"J.T. thanks. You are such a good friend." She hugged him.

"MANNY. HEY MANNY." Manny heard some one yell. She turned around and saw Roxy. She shows up at the weirdest times Manny thought to herself.

" MANNY. COME HERE." Roxy yelled again.

"I'm gonna go now J.T. Call me when you get a chance o.k. bye." Manny said as she pulled away form J.T. She blew him a kiss and walked over to where Roxy was.

J.T. POV

J.T. watched Manny as she ran off to Roxy. Manny is so beautiful. How could Craig ever leave her, J.T. thought to himself. "Wait what am I saying. I have a girlfriend. A great girlfriend, who I love. Liberty, Liberty, Liberty." J.T. said to himself.

NORMAL POV

"Manny, what's up girl?" Roxy asked Manny.

"Nothing. I was just talking to a friend." Manny responded as the two girls walked.

"I see. Where's your psycho boyfriend?"

"He's not a psycho. He left for L.A. this morning. He will be gone for 2 months."

"Bummer. I bet you're hurtin."

"I am." Manny said as she looked down at her feet.

The two girls were quiet for a second. Manny reached in her back pocket to get her pack of cigarettes.

"Want a cig?" Manny asked Roxy.

"I'd love one." Roxy replied.

Manny pulled out a lighter , lit Roxy's then lit her own.

"Ya know Gio got hurt pretty bad." Roxy said like it was suppose to have some sort of significance.

"Good, that asshole deserved it." Manny said defensively.

"Whoa . Chill. I was just letting you know." Roxy knew that she probably shouldn't have brought it up. She desperately wanted to change the subject.

"Do you ummm wanna go smoke some shit?" she asked Manny.

"I don't know Roxy. I really don't think I need to go back to that shit." Manny said trying to talk herself out of it.

"You did at Joey's Underground." Roxy said in a pleading voice.

"That was a one time thing."

"C'mon Manny. Nobody has to know. It will just be between me and you. Promise." Roxy said in a very re-assuring way.

"Pleaseeeee. Pleaseeee." Roxy pleaded. She then through her arms around Manny.

"I'll be your best friend." a smiling Roxy said. Manny couldn't do anything but laugh.

"O.k. O.k." Manny finally gave in.

"Great lets go." Roxy took Manny's hand and they headed towards Roxy's house. After about 15 minutes Roxy and Manny were walking up to a house not that far from Manny's house.

"I had no idea you lived so close to me." Manny said.

"Yea." Roxy responded. "Where do you live now?"

"I've been staying at Craig's house. But I will be staying somewhere else tonight since he's gone. It would be so awkward staying there with just Joey and Ang. I have no idea where I'm gonna go."

"I would let you stay with me but my parents don't even like me let alone my friends." Roxy laughed.

"It's cool. But thanks anyways."

"No problem."

"Be quiet o.k. My parents might be home." Roxy said as she began to turn her door knob.

"MOM…DAD." She said as they walked in. "O.k. cool. They aren't home."

They walked down the hallway to Roxy's room.

"I really like your room." Manny told her.

"Thanks."

Roxy went to go sit down on the bed to prepare the drugs while Manny just walked around.

"I absolutely love your wardrobe." Manny said all giddy while she looked in Roxy's closet.

"We're about the same size. You can borrow whatever you want." Roxy said.

"Thanks."

Roxy is so much nicer and realer than Marissa ever was Manny thought to herself.

"No problem. C'mon" Roxy said as she motioned for Manny to come over with her hand.

Manny went and plopped over on the bed.

"I have to admit. I missed getting high." Manny said with a giggle.

"Of course you did" Roxy said playfully pushing her.

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The sky was sort of pale pink. He had never even seen that color before. It was weird how he was interested in it. Come to think of it he had seen that color before. It was the color of Manny's sweater outfit he remembered how she would wear that when they used to go out to the lake or park or how she always made that smile, that smile alone could make her famous. He wondered when the day she would come. Maybe he could see her and-

"You're thinking about her aren't you?" Elle interrupted his thoughts.

He looked at Ellie who was sitting next to him.

"How'd you know?" Craig asked her as she gave him a tired grin.

"You have that look in your eyes...it's hard to explain but I just know when you are thinking of her." Ellie smiled.

"I miss her I really regret telling her that I had to break up with her. I shoulda just told her that our relationship had to be a secret from James and the press and stuff." Craig said with guilty thoughts dancing around his head.

"Yeah you guys are-"

ATTENTION FLIGHT 186 to Los Angeles California is now boarding

"I guess this is where we get off." He heard Jimmy say in the seat behind them.

They unbuckled their seat belts and made their way to the exit. California is exactly what Craig pictured it was.

There were people rushing everywhere of all different races even though it was November it was sunny and warm. The sky was a pinkish color yet it was warm. He stepped down and saw James there but next to him was a young girl with blonde hair and green eyes. She looked Craig's age or even younger.

"Eye candy huh?" Jimmy whispered to Craig as they walked towards him.

"Shut up man." Craig said annoyed.

"Mr. Wolf it's great here!" Marco blurted out as soon as Marco saw James.

"Well this is wonderful California." James chuckled." Ah! Craig just the man I was looking for now will you introduce me to your band mates?" James asked.

Craig made his way towards the front and looked at his friends.

"Well this is Ellie, Jimmy and as you probably already met Marco." Craig said.

"Pleasure to meet you all and now may I introduce your assistant and my representative Kate. Yes, Marco call her Kate. She will be with you on the road all the time." James said.

"You mean you're not going to be with us?" Jimmy asked concerned.

"With you? How do you think I make money if I am going on tour I'm a producer I record your music, yes I am your agent also but you see I can't be with you all the time." James said as though he expected the band to know all this.

"Well let's get to my office shall we? Besides the tour starts tomorrow." James added.

"TOMORROW!" They all added with a yell.

"Yes our little trip was a last minute thing." James laughed as he walked to a limo.

"Ladies first." James said as Ellie was about to go but then Kate stepped in front of her and smiled.

"Over here you need to know where you stand you go after me." Kate added with a smirk as she sat inside the limo.

"Little frisky isn't she?" James asked amused.

Craig's eyebrows were raised as Kate looked at him she winked. Craig then gave her a goofy smile and Jimmy noticed.

"Looks like you caught a case of dumbass which," Jimmy pulled out his cell phone with Manny's number already dialed."-you need to cure."

Craig pushed away the phone.

"Not now." Craig then got into the limo.

JAMES WOLF OFFICE

"Okay now this is the deal we are going to get you guys made over. Take you down to L.A.'s shopping area get you guys all dressed up-"

Marco smiled excitedly.

"And since you guys haven't gotten anytime to practice I already had Joey's Underground send me the audio of your performance so you guys will-"

"Lip sync?" Ellie asked a little angry.

"Yes you guys will have to because admit it you guys you don't even have time to practice and you are going to be an opening act for a big time band stop being in your fantasy life and get real. Welcome to the life of a rock'n roller." James said.

Craig then looked at Kate who again smiled seductively at him. He felt butterflies in his stomach then quickly focused on James who then began to talk about what he wanted their image to be.

Craig sighed and then thought about Manny she was probably crying or being by herself at Joey's or reading a magazine...

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"Roxy you are so fuckin cool. I mean it. Like you're the shit." Manny said.

"Thank you thank you thank you. I know."

The girls were both very high. They had the music blastin.

" You're not a bitch like Marissa was. I know she's your friend and everything but she is a bitch and I'm glad that bitch is gone" Manny expressed.

"Ha ha ha." Roxy laughed. "It's o.k. To tell you the truth, I'm glad she's gone to."

"We should celebrate." Manny said as she picked up the tequila bottle and took a huge swig of it. Drops of it dripped down her chin. Then Roxy yanked it out of her hand spilling even more of it. "Cheers" She to took a huge swig.

"I feel great. Roxy what if we never go back to normal, like what if we are like this forever?" Manny asked giggling like crazy.

"Trust me you'll snap back to reality when you get to school tomorrow." Roxy said.

"I hate school. It's a huge pain in my ass. But I have to go like everyday if I want to pass."

"So do I. I have to turn in my field trip money for California. Tomorrow is the last day." Roxy slurred.

"Holy shit Roxy. I completely forgot about California. Craig got me an audition there. It's the same week as the field trip." Manny began as she stood up. "It's gonna be perfect. I get to go to Cali, audition, and see Craig. Plus you know we would tear it up down in L.A."

"Fo Sho. Have you already paid?" Roxy asked.

"Oh yea. Me and J.T. paid like forever ago."

"Who's J.T. ?"

"He's a friend of mine. You know that guy I was at the park with earlier."

"Oh yea…Manny I hate to do this but, my parents will probably be here soon. I wish you could stay." Roxy said sadly.

"I understand completely." Manny said.

Roxy walked Manny to the door.

"So, see you at school tomorrow?" Manny said as they hugged each other goodbye.

"Yea. Bye. Be careful."

"I will. Bye." Manny smiled.

Manny's smile quickly faded.

"Now what do I do?" Manny said aloud as she walked along the side walk. It was a cold winter night in late November.

I haven't talked to my mom in awhile. Maybe she has cooled off and no longer hates me, Manny thought to herself. She walked very slowly to her house. Taking baby steps and kicking rocks around to prolong it. When she turned the corner she saw her moms car so she knew she was home. She finally got to her apartment building. When Manny walked in she kind of got the feeling of sadness mixed with so many other feelings. She missed coming home and being in her own room. She missed the freedom of being completely comfortable that you only feel when you are at your own house. When Manny got to her apartment she took a deep breath before she went in. She walked in and her mom was the first thing she saw. She was just sitting at the kitchen table.

"Hey M-mom. How have you been lately?" Manny asked nervously.

Manny's mom didn't say anything. She just sat there still staring at whatever it was she was staring at.

"I need to stay here for a little while. It wont be long. I promise. O.k." Manny said in a weird tone.

She slowly walked passed her mother and headed towards the stairs. When she got up the stairs she peaked into her parents room. She saw a pair of her dads shoes. She still couldn't believe that he was dead. She couldn't go to the funeral because she was weak in the hospital. She got sad but she didn't cry. Her room was exactly the same way she left it. A mess. Manny laid down on her bed. It was about 11:00 p.m. She was wide awake. From the meth obviously. She laid there staring at the ceiling. "I wish Craig was here" Manny said as she rolled over holding the stuffed animal that Craig won at the carnival for her nearly 3 years ago. 6:30 finally rolled around and Manny had not slept at all. She got up to get dressed for school. After her shower she needed to find something to wear. It was fairly cold outside so she decided on tight jeans and a jean jacket to match with a black turtle neck underneath. She wore black chunky high heel boots and her hair down. When she went downstairs her mom was still down there. She didn't know if she had been awake all night or if she had gotten up early. She was in the kitchen making coffee.

"Bye mom. I'll see you when I get home." Manny said as she went for the door.

"Leave your key Mannuella."

Manny heard her mom say something but wasn't quite sure.

"Mom did you say something?" Manny asked.

"Leave your key." Manny's mom said in a stern voice.

"What. Mom why?" Manny asked her confused.

Ms. Santos walked over to her.

"Manny I'm not about to go through this with you. Just give me your key." She said as she yanked Manny's keys out of her hand. She walked back in the kitchen.

"Why are you doing this? What is your problem with me?" Manny asked near tears.

Ms. Santos once again walked over to her but really close this time. "Do you even have to ask me that?"

Manny couldn't believe the way her own mother was treating her. Manny just stood there while Ms. Santos went back in the kitchen.

"Oh and get your stuff, I don't want you to have any reason to come back here." Ms. Santos said loudly so Manny could hear her.

Manny had no response she just slowly walked up stairs. When she got to her room she threw her stuff down and started pacing back and forth while crying. She then started rummaging through her desk and her dresser. She was desperate to find something sharp. On the floor she found a safety pin. She threw her jacket off and rolled up her sleeve. She stuck the safety pin in and dragged it across her skin. It was the worst she had ever felt it. She looked at her arm and then fell to the ground. "Why do things have to be so fucked up" she cried in a whisper. She looked around and then dried her tears. She got up and went to the bathroom to get some type of bandage for her arm. After she cleaned her arm she went in her room and gathered everything that mattered to her. It wasn't that much. She took one last look at her room because she knew it was probably the last time that she would see it. As she reached the bottom of the stairs she could see her mom just standing there not giving a damn.

"You are so selfish." Manny said to her mother as she opened the door. Of course her mom said nothing. Manny walked out and slammed the door. She had no idea what she was going to do. The sun hurt her eyes as she walked out of her building. She reached in her bag and pulled out her sun glasses.

"I'm gonna look like a dumbass carrying this shit around school all day." Manny said to herself as she headed towards Degrassi.

"MANNYYYY, WAIT UP."

Manny knew it was Roxy. But she didn't mind. She liked Roxy.

"Manny, hey" Roxy said as she ran up to Manny. She was slightly out of breath. "Don't you look fabulous this morning my love."

"Not so bad yourself hot stuff." Manny said as the two girls laughed.

"What are you doing with all this stuff?" Roxy asked curiously.

"I just stopped by my moms house to pick up a few things."

"Are you carry it around school?"

"I guess I'm gonna have to."

"You can't do that. I'll tell you what. We'll put some of it in my locker and then some in your locker. Whatever's left we'll split up and carry it, o.k." Roxy said sweetly.

Manny couldn't believe how nice Roxy was. It was nice to have a good friend like that.

"Thanks Roxy."

"No problem."

"Did you get your fieldtrip money?" Manny asked.

"Yea my mom gave it to me this morning."

Before they got to school they wanted to have a smoke real quick in the alley.

ALLEY

Manny and Roxy were smoking their cigarettes but weren't really saying much.

"Roxy."

"Yea." she responded.

"Ummm, ummm, never mind." Manny said.

"Manny your so silly." Roxy laughed.

The girls were silent again.

"Roxy, what if we didn't come back?" Manny said.

"What? What are you talking about?" Roxy asked confused.

"California. What if we didn't come back from California?" Manny said now looking directly at Roxy.

"Are you serious?"

"Yes. Dead serious. I mean we have nothing to come back for. I don't know about you but I sure as fuck don't. " Manny said trying to sound convincing.

"You're serious aren't you?" Roxy said once more.

"Yes."

"Well what would we do for money?" Roxy asked. She sounded as if she was warming up to the idea.

"We could save money up until the point we leave. I don't know maybe we could start dealing again. The school is going to pay for a hotel for a week. Within that week we could find jobs. I mean we have a lot of time to think of something. Whatever just say you will do it." Manny said with hopeful eyes.

"I don't know Manny. Moving to California is a big thing."

Manny threw down her cigarette and stepped on it to put it out. She then threw her arms around Roxy.

"Pleaseeee. Pleaseeee…I'll be your best friend." Manny laughed.

"O.k." Roxy said with a smirk. "Nice trick." She said that because just the day before she pulled that with Manny.

"Well, I learned from the best." Manny said.

" Uh huh. Whateverz." Roxy laughed.

After Roxy finished her cigarette they went to school. They got there right as the bell was ringing.

"So you wanna give me half that shit?" Roxy asked Manny at the door as they walked towards the lockers.

"Oh yea. Here. Thanks again." Manny said while giving her one of her bags.

"Ill meet you at the steps for lunch." Manny said.

"Koo" Roxy said. "Lataz"

Manny headed to first period. She wasn't that late so Mr. Simpson let it slide. Darcy wasn't at school today so the seat next to Emma was available. Manny sat there.

"Hey Emma." Manny said as she sat down.

"Hey." Emma said with an awkward smile.

"So what's been going on with you lately?" Manny leaned closer to Emma. "You know with being pregnant and all."

"I told my mom and she wasn't as understanding as I assumed she would be." Emma said in a very low tone.

"What, if anyone should understand it should be her."

"I know right. She said that since I had so many examples of how not to do it, examples being you and her, that I should have known better." Emma said rolling her eyes.

"Well it is a little ironic Em." Manny said slightly laughing.

"Oh shut up." Emma said.

Mr. Simpson noticed them talking.

"Girls. That's enough." Mr. Simpson said looking in their direction.

Manny turned around in her seat. Mr. Simpson then started on what seemed like the longest lesson ever. He talked for like an hour straight. But the good thing was that he left them have free time before the bell rang.

"Hey Manny, you should come over for dinner." Emma said while putting her books in her backpack. She wanted to be ready when the bell rang.

"Ummm I don't think that's a good idea." Manny said with a frown.

"Why? Because of my mom? If anything my mom is worried about you. She has no hard feelings against you. I swear." Emma reassured her.

"O.k. What cha havin?" Manny asked.

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"Meet me after school. O.K." Emma said.

"K" Manny responded quickly. She didn't want to be late for her next class.

Her next class was drama. Although they did nothing all day she still wanted to be there so she could visit with J.T. She got there just in time. J.T. was already inside.

"Hey Manny" J.T. said walking up to her.

"Hey." Manny said in a sexy way. She didn't even realize that she was talking to him like that.

"You're looking beautiful as always."

"Ohhh J.T. You're such a charmer." Manny said as she pushed him away playfully.

The two of them flirted for nearly an hour and didn't notice at all. It was sexy yet sweet.

"I can't wait to get to Cali." Manny said as she stretched.

"Me neither. We are going to have a great time."

"Well J.T. if it wasn't for you lending me the money I wouldn't even be going. I'm gonna pay you back."

"You don't have 2 pay me back. Think of it as a present." J.T. told her.

"No. I'm gonna pay you back." Manny said rather forcefully.

"But-" He began.

"Hush. I don't want to hear it" Manny said as she put her finger to his lips. Liberty just happen to walk in.

"J.T." Liberty said mad as hell.

J.T. and Manny turned around and put some space between them immediately.

"Can I talk to you in the hallway for a minute?" Liberty said with her arms crossed.

J.T. walked over to her and they went in the hallway.

HALLWAY

Liberty was just kind of like walking back and forth in a short line. J.T. walked over to her an attempted to kiss her but she pushed him away.

"What were you doing?" She asked him.

"Liberty you can't expect me to just stop talking to her. I have known her since I was like 4." J.T. said in an annoyed voice.

"Yea so have I, and?" Liberty expressed.

It was silent.

"The fight you had with her had nothing to do with me." J.T. continued.

Liberty gasped.

"What Liberty?" J.T. said as if he had enough of her.

"Nothing." Liberty said. She then walked off very upset J.T. didn't follow. He went back to class and walked up to Manny.

"I hope I didn't get you in trouble." Manny said sweetly.

"Nah Liberty's just being, well, Liberty." J.T. said as he tossed up his hands.

"Oh I know how that can be." Manny said in agreement.

The bell rung at the end of second period.

"That went by pretty fast." Manny said as she gathered her things.

"Yea" J.T. responded.

"Well, see ya later."

"Bye." J.T. concluded.

Lunch time came around and she went to go find Roxy. She was at the steps like she was suppose to be.

"Lets go smoke one." Roxy said as Manny walked up to her.

"K. C'mon"

They went to the alley.

"I called Hustler and told him that we were gonna start selling again. He wants us to meet him tomorrow." Roxy said right before she inhaled her cigarette.

"Alright. That's doable" Manny said as she lit hers.

"What are you doing tonight?" Roxy asked curiously. "We should get high."

"I can't. I told a friend that I would come to dinner." Manny said.

"Oh well cool."

"I can't wait to get to California Roxy. It's gonna be the shit." Manny said after exhaling a cloud of smoke.

"I know me neither."

After smoking their cigarettes they went back to the school and chilled until the bell rung. When the bell rung they told each other bye and went to class. The rest of the day went by pretty fast and school was over before Manny knew it. She went to her locker to get her stuff.

"Hey Manny, ready to go?" Emma said out of nowhere it seems.

"Ummm yea." Manny answered a little startled.

They headed towards the doors and went outside. Manny knew she had to get her stuff from Roxy but didn't want Emma to know.

"I forgot something. I have to go back." Manny said hoping that Emma wouldn't go with her.

As Manny turned around to go back in the building to go get it Emma turned as if she was going to.

"It's o.k. You can stay here I'll be right out." Manny said hoping it would work. And it did.

"O.k." Emma said.

Manny rushed to Roxy's locker once she got inside. She didn't want her to leave because she didn't know Roxy's locker combo.

"Roxy…Good you're still here" Manny panted.

"Yea. Well here's your stuff." Roxy said as she passed Manny her bag.

"Thanks. I'll see you tomorrow o.k." Manny said.

"Bye."

Manny went back outside.

"K. Lets go."

They were at Emma's within minutes.

"Hey mom look who's here." Emma said as she walked through the door putting her keys down on the table.

Spike turned the corner holding baby Jack.

"Well hello stranger." Spike said with a huge smile.

"Hi." Manny said like a shy kid.

"I haven't seen you in a while. Ya been doing o.k.?"

Hell no. Everything is kinda shitty actually "Yea."

"Well why don't you guys take Jack because I need to go to the grocery store." She handed the baby to Emma and went in the kitchen.

"Seeee." Emma looked over her shoulder and said to Manny. Manny just smiled and began making baby faces at Jack.

Dinner was ready at around 7:30. Spike prepared a roast with roasted potatoes and green beans.

"Spike this is all wonderful. Really. Thanks for having me." Manny said.

"Oh no problem sweetheart. Anytime." Spike said as she rubbed Manny's back.

After eating Emma and Manny went down to the basement to get started on their homework. Well at least that's what they were suppose to be doing. They ended up talking. They talked about Craig being gone and how Emma was gonna tell Jay that she's pregnant.

"Manny it's getting late." Emma yawned.

"Booo. Its only 11:00." Manny said as she threw pop corn at her.

"I'm tired." Emma whined.

" You always get tired early." Manny complained.

Emma noticed how Manny's attitude changed when she got up and got her stuff.

"Manny, where are you gonna go." Emma asked in a concerned tone.

"To a friends." Manny lied.

"Do you have anywhere to go?"

"Yes Emma." Manny said with a slightly bitchy tone.

"I don't believe you."

"I don't care." Manny said as she tried to walk pass Emma to get to the stairs.

"Manny wait." Emma said as she walked in front of her to stop her from getting by. "Stay with me."

"Em-" Manny began.

"Just one night. That's all I'm asking." Emma pleaded with her.

"Alright." Manny responded after about 30 seconds of silence.

"Great." Emma said smiling.

She went to get the extra pillows and stuff. Manny stayed the night that night and the night after that.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------It was nothing like Craig or anyone had imagined L.A to be like. It was one fast roller coaster that they've been on sine they first arrived. When Craig walked down the street girl's asked him for his autograph. He never had this much attention before Ellie was known as the 'hot girl in the band'. Marco was the 'Italian Hottie' and Jimmy was the 'Hot Jock in the band'. Craig was still trying to get used to being called the 'hottest one'. It had only been one concert and they were the opening act. But they said they were so good that they decided to start recording already. On the internet their band was all over the place. They even had a website. This had all been in a week. Apparently the concert was televised and a lot of people saw it. The song they played was asked by a lot of radio stations to be on the radio and James did all the talking so in a week it would be on the radio. It was all too much and in that one week he hadn't had time to call Manny. It was already December. He then went in his apartment which he shared with Ellie, Marco ,and Jimmy. Jimmy was in the front signing autograph, Ellie and Marco went to go eat at a sushi bar. Craig he thought he'd have the time to himself and maybe to call Manny. He then sat down on his bed and pulled out a picture of Manny.

"I miss you.." He whispered as he traced her face.

"Already?" He heard a voice. He looked up to see Kate.

"Sorry," Craig said putting the picture away." Didn't see you."

Kate then sat down next to him.

"You have this vibe..."She began.

Craig turned and looked at her confused.

"Vibe?"

Kate laughed. Well I mean no wonder why every girl seems to be in love with you now. I mean you are hot." Kate smiled at him.

Craig chuckled," Thanks I guess."

"Well it's tru I mean you are going to be interviewed on radio shows and have gigs starting tomorrow...I mean you have to be prepared this isn't Canada where people don't care if you're famous this Is California, Los Angeles…where who you are...is all you have to live on. But I still don't get why they made me break up with my girlfriend." Kate then gave Craig a dazzling smile. "Because when you're single girls can dream that they are with you you'll have way more girl fans I mean c'mon Craig let's be honest you have to be single or be with a somebody." Kate explained. She then got closer to Craig he could smell her minty breath.

"Yeah..," Craig got closer but then pulled away and seemed to be looking for something. "I-uh -I need to make a call to my step-dad if you don't mind. "Craig said as he got his cell phone. For a second Kate looked offended but then put a smile on her face and got up.

"Of course...if you need your privacy…I'll be watching t.v." Kate said as she got up and closing the door behind her.

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Manny's stay turned into a month. Of course Emma didn't mind. She wanted her there. Over the course of that month Emma and Manny's friendship got almost as good as it was a long time ago. J.T. began to slowly fall for Manny. Roxy and Manny's friendship got better as well even though they had to hide it from Emma. They made a lot of money dealing with Hustler. Although it was drugs they handled everything in a very professional manner. They avoided drama that way. It was Christmas eve and the field trip was approaching.

EMMA'S HOUSE

"You will be leaving in like a week Manny. Aren't you excited?" Emma said to Manny sitting at the Kitchen table.

"I know I cant wait." Manny said while sitting on the counter.

Manny's cell phone started vibrating on the kitchen table.

"What does it say?" Manny asked Emma as she ate her apple.

"Craig." Emma answered.

Manny almost broke her ankle jumping off the counter to get to the phone. She took the call in the other room.

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Craig took a deep breath for some reason he felt so guilty that he almost kissed Kate that one time he needed to call Manny. He got his cell phone and called her.

'Please answer baby' Craig thought.

"Hello?" He heard an angelic voice say.

"Manny? Babe it's me Craig!" Craig said over excited.

"OH my god Craig how are you? Are you okay? how is everyone? Are you guys famous? Who have you met?" Manny flooded him with questions.

Craig chuckled it was wonderful to hear Manny's voice again. He felt at ease.

"I'm fine." Craig said as he sighed." Everyone is fine and no Manny I'm to famous but we are going to have lots of gigs and our songs might be on the radio." Craig said.

"Really oh my God Craig I am soo happy for you!" Manny said.

Craig then said suddenly, "I love you Manny I hope you know that. You are the one I love the best...I can't live without you."

"Craig I feel the same.. I miss you soo much. I mean I know it's only been a month but it feels like a year you not being here. I mean I love you soo much. "Manny said heartily.

"You're so beautiful I can't wait until you come to L.A.I swear I have the biggest suprise ever. To prove how much I love you. Manny I just know you are the girl for me. "Craig said.

Manny then felt her heart and smiled. "Craig...I don't know what to say..."Manny began. She couldn't believe that she doubted Craig had forgotten her.

"You don't need to say anything just I need to hear that you love me." Craig said as he looked at a picture of him and Manny.

"Craig of course I love you." Manny said with sincerity.

"So how's Angie?" Craig asked.

"Oh um well I dunno I am at Emma's hope you do not mind but it was sort of awkward.." Manny explained.

"Yeah I do, well that's good glad you are comfortable, my love." Craig said sweetly.

"My love?" Manny chuckled. But she liked when he called her that.

"What? You are my Love..."Craig added.

"Glad to hear it sweetie." Manny said.

Kate then opened the door." Craig get off we have to go!"

"Who was that?" Manny asked curious since she heard a girl's voice.

"Oh that's Kate, agent, well I have to go my love stay safe and I love you forever and always" Craig said.

"Me too love you bye sweetie call me when you can!" Manny said desperately.

"I will don't worry I love you too." Craig said as he hung up. He then got up and went with Kate. She led him where Jimmy, Marco, and Ellie were,

"Prepared to be awake for the next 72 hours because the next 72 hours are going to be crazy." Kate said as she held out her keys. She then went to the fridge and got some beers.

"Sorry I didn't offer cheers." Kate said holding up her bottle. Ellie looked like she couldn't decide to drink it or not. Marco was smiling but you could tell he was thinking what Ellie was thinking. Jimmy on the other hand was already drinking. Craig then raised his bottle and started drinking he then looked and saw Kate was smiling at him.

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Manny walked back into the kitchen with a huge smile on her face.

"You look happy." Emma said as she was making herself a sandwich.

"I love the sound of Craig's voice. It's like sweet music." Manny said smiling.

"Oh my God I think I'm gonna throw up." Emma said while making a gag face.

"Whateverz."

"Em what time is it?" Manny asked.

"Like 5:15, why?" Emma asked curiously. Lately she had the feeling that Manny was up to something.

"Just wondering…I'll see you later o.k." Manny said as she went towards the door.

"Where are you going?"

"Bye." Manny said ignoring her question.

Manny left because she needed to be at Roxy's at 5:30 to meet Hustler.

RINGGGGGGGG RINGGGGGG

"Hello" Manny answered her cell phone.

"Hey, where you at." It was Roxy.

"I'm almost there. Stay near the door."

"Alright then. See ya in a few."

"Bye." Manny concluded.

ROXY'S HOUSE

"Evening gorgeous." Roxy said as she opened the door for Manny. They did the whole kiss on the cheek thing.

"You talk to Hustler ?" Manny asked as she stepped inside taking off her jacket.

"Yea he called and said he was on his way like 10 minutes ago."

"Koo. Where is everything?"

"In the living room."

They headed in there.

"Roxy can you believe that we will be in California soon?" Manny asked her friend as she sat on the couch about to light her cigarette. She rolled up her sleeves a little to get the drugs together while her lit cigarette rested on her lips.

"No not at all. At first it seemed like forever away. But now its like almost here." Roxy said sitting next to her. "We have sooo much money saved."

"I know. How much is it now?" Manny asked. They kept the money at Roxy's house.

"2,000 dollars." Roxy squealed. "It will be even more when Hustler gets here."

Hustler didn't take long to get there. He was there within the next 5 minutes.

"Hey Hustler." Roxy said as Hustler walked in.

"Ladies." He responded. He sat down next to Manny and watched her weigh his drugs on the scale. "I must admit, you guys have become quite the business women."

"Yea, well what can I say?" Manny said in a playful yet arrogant tone. "Here you go, 6 ounces."

"Thank you." Hustler said as he pulled out his wallet and gave Manny 5 one hundred dollar bills.

"And thank you." Manny responded.

"It's so quiet in here. Roxy put some music on or something." Manny told Roxy. Roxy wasn't paying her any attention because she was in the kitchen talking on the phone. Manny sighed as she got up to get the cd player remote. She turned it on and let the cd that was already in there play. As she was walking back to sit on the couch Hustler stood up in front of her and blocked her path. He grabbed her by her waist and pulled her really close to him. He began trying to get her to dance in a playful way.

"Excuse me." Manny said.

"C'mon be nice." He said to her.

"No." Manny said as she laughed a little. "You be nice."

She pushed him back and he sat on the couch. "Oh Manny Manny Manny." He said as he put his hand to his heart like she had broken it or something. Manny playfully threw a pillow at him and headed towards the door.

"Roxy I'm out of here." Manny said as she put on her jacket.

"Hold on a sec." Roxy said into the phone in the kitchen. "You leavin?"

"Yea I gotta go to J.T.'s."

"Alright then." Roxy replied.

Manny turned to blow Hustler a kiss and then left. She headed to J.T.'s. His house was a reasonable walk. She was there in no time.

"J.T. hey." Manny said walking up J.T.'s driveway. He was outside letting his dog pee.

"Hey. What are you doing here?" J.T. asked very happy to see her.

"Well I was sort of in the area and I have the money to pay you back so I thought I would stop by." Manny said leaning down to pet the dog.

"Well it's freezing, come inside." J.T. said opening the door for her, letting her go in first.

"Do you want any hot chocolate or tea or anything? " J.T. offered as he closed the door.

"No thank you."

"I'm so happy to be on Christmas break." J.T. said walking towards the kitchen. Manny followed. Neither one of them sat in a chair, they leaned against the counter on opposites sides of the room.

"I know. School was kicking my ass there for a little while." Manny expressed.

"I know what that's like." J.T. responded.

"Oh here's your money." Manny said reaching into her pocket.

"Manny you don't have to pay me back." J.T. tried to tell her.

"No. I want to." Manny said as she handed him the money. When she did her hand touched his. J.T.'s heart would beat from the smallest touch from her.

"Thank you."

"No, thank you." Manny smiled.

"Are you coming to Emma's house for Christmas tomorrow?"

" I had planned on it-" J.T. began but he stopped because there was a knock at the door.

"Oh God." J.T. said in an annoyed tone. "Its' Liberty."

He said it like that because he knew that Liberty would be pissed. Manny just kind of stood there not knowing what to say.

"Do you umm want me to hide or something?" Manny asked trying to be helpful.

"No. I wouldn't ask you to do that but it would probably be best if you left. Sorry about this Manny." J.T. said sincerely.

"J.T. don't be sorry. I understand. I'm sorry for coming over unannounced."

Liberty knocked again.

"I guess I better get that." J.T. said as he walked over towards the door. Manny followed behind him. When J.T. opened the door Liberty had a smile on her face but it faded immediately the second she saw Manny standing behind J.T.

"Bye." Manny said quickly trying to get away from the awkwardness as soon as possible. Liberty watched Manny the whole time she was walking out. When she was completely out Liberty walked inside.

"Hey Li-" J.T. started.

"What was she doing here?" Liberty asked J.T. pissed beyond belief.

"She stopped by to drop off something. That's all." J.T. said calmly.

"Well"

"Well what?" J.T. responded.

"What did she drop off?" Liberty demanded.

J.T. sighed. He felt no need to lie. "I loaned her the money for California."

"What? Why would you give that bitch money?" Liberty said with tears flooding her eyes.

"Don't talk about her that way. She's my friend."

"And I'm your girlfriend." Liberty said obviously very hurt. The two of them were silent for a minute or so.

"J.T. I cant believe you." Liberty said shaking her head.

"Why are you mad at me? I helped out a friend." J.T. said. He was getting a tad flustered.

"Don't give me that friend crap. Do you think I'm stupid J.T. ? I see the way you look at her."

"Liberty don't make this into something that it's not." J.T said not really knowing how to handle the situation. Liberty held her head down.

"Why her J.T. ? Huh?" Liberty cried. J.T. didn't know what to do or say. He walked closer to her slowly and hugged her. "Why her?" She whispered.

After about 2 minutes Liberty pulled away from J.T. She wiped away some of her tears with her hand.

"She will never love you the way I do." Liberty said right before she walked out. J.T. just leaned his body against the door. His mind was completely blank. He had no idea what had just happened but he knew that him and Liberty were over.

EMMA'S HOUSE

"Hey." Manny said as she climbed through Emma's basement window.

"Hey. Where ya been?" Emma said as she sat in bed polishing her nails.

"Nowhere really. Just hung out. I ran into J.T." Manny said as she walked over and sat next to her trying to change the subject.

"Oh is he coming tomorrow?"

"He said he was."

"I use to love Christmas." Manny began. "Now it's sort of depressing."

"Christmas is the best." Emma said smiling form ear to ear.

"Yea for you. I have no family, my boyfriend is off living some fabulous rock star life. This is torture." Manny said throwing her head into a pillow.

Emma screwed the top back onto her nail polish bottle and put her hand on Manny's back. "I'm sure Craig thinks about you constantly. You have always been apart of my family, you know that. Cheer up."

"Yea I guess so." Manny said coming up fixing her hair from when she was on the pillow."

"My mom baked some cookies earlier. They are for tomorrow but I'm sure we could sneak a couple. C'mon" She grabbed Manny's hand and they headed upstairs. Emma has always been able to make Manny feel better when she was down.

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It was exactly like Kate had said it was crazy. So far they had been on four different radio stations and played five gigs. Craig found himself drinking beer and vodka as water and juice. Jimmy the same. Ellie and Marco were also going into the habit but not as bad as Craig and Jimmy were. But the weird thing that was Craig was now separating from the band members and was becoming friends with Kate. Craig admitted to himself he felt like a hypocrite because he was drinking heavily and knew Manny would be upset. He tried to call her but he never had the time. He was either busy or really tired and got his 5 min of sleep. Manny had tried to call him several times but he couldn't call her back and he felt guilty. But now a lot of things were beginning to irritate him. Craig got less sleep than anyone because he was interviewed the most and had to do most of the work. He was becoming a little distant from everyone. One day Ellie went up to him.

"Craig..."Ellie began.

"WHAT!" Craig snapped. Ellie then looked annoyed and was about to walk away.

"No stop, look I'm sorry okay it's just I can't seem to stay awake anymore and we have like a gig in like two hours and Ellie when we got fame I thought everything would be better but it's not...it's complicated I can't even talk to the girl I love." Craig sighed.

"Well James is here and-"

Craig sighed heavily getting off the floor.

"-he wants to talk to the rest of us so go back lying down." Ellie added.

Craig looked confused.

"I don't know what's going to happen yet...but I will let you know what he tells us." Ellie said walking out of the room. Craig then rubbed his red eyes. He hadn't slept in three days and he actually had time.

It was cold now which made Craig even more sleepy. Christmas was in one week and he knew he had to see Manny no matter what the cost was. He got his phone and dialed her phone number when-

"Craig!" Kate said as she went up to him.

Craig immediately closed his phone and went to her.

"Hey Kate." Craig hugged her. She hugged him back.

"Well I know you have been tired but are you tired enough to go to dinner with me maybe like now?" Kate asked.

Craig smiled. "Of course not…um let's go." He grabbed his coat and they headed off. Kate then began walking towards the alley outside and Craig followed her.

"Umm Kate the car is um on the other side of the apartment." Craig said very confused.

Kate laughed. "We are not going to dinner come here." Kate said as she pulled him towards her.

Craig knew this was too close. He saw her eyes looking at him and for a second he was about to lean in when she smiled and sat him down.

She pulled out a bag and smiled.

Craig saw the drug offered to him.

"It's meth Craig." She said pushing it towards him.

"Yeah I know what it is." Craig said looking at her.

"Look you're on tour all the time you need to keep awake and this will help you."

Craig looked at it and looked at her again.

"Here you can snort it or take it straight to the head." She said as she gave him lines.

"I dunno I mean my girl-"

She gave him and eye, "Ex-girlfriend had a problem with drugs and.."

She sighed heavily "Craig are you gonna take it or not?"

Craig then looked at her.

"Kate I don't know what if I get in trouble or something James-"

Kate laughed, "He thought I gave this to you a while ago but this will keep you awake Craig please just take it. "Kate said. She then placed her hand over his. "For me?"

Two hours later

"Craig are you okay?" Marco asked as he put his bass around him.

"Like waaaayy better than okay. Hey um uh Marco um do you think Kate is hot wait why am I askin you.." Craig then turned to Jimmy who was looking at Craig weird. "Jim! So do you think Kate is hot?"

"Um dude? Like what about Manny and-"

"Jim I know but I mean Kate is like hot too huh? So Ellie you ready? Hope you are because we are going to go on and rock. "Craig said. He then looked around." Um Jim boy when do we go on?"

"Um like three minutes why?" Jimmy asked.

"Craig are you sure you are okay?" Ellie asked worriedly.

"Yeah. Um be right back!" Craig said as he rushed off stage. He ran back stage and saw Kate drinking a bottle of beer.

"Kate!" Craig called out.

Kate turned to see Craig. "Hey-"

Craig then grabbed her and slipped his tongue in her mouth. She moaned a little bit. Just then a photographer passed by

FLASH

AFTER THE SHOW

"Kate do you um have some more?" Craig asked as he ran up to her.

She smiled at him. "Yeah I do...you want some more?"

Craig nodded. "Please?" He knew that it was bad but the feeling was so great to him. He hadn't felt this awake in weeks. He could do much more things.

"Craig we rocked!" Marco came Craig turned.

"Um yeah um well I gotta go okay." Craig said as he followed Kate.

"Craig !"Ellie called out.

"WHAT!" Craig snapped. "Look I don't have time for this…later okay go celebrate."

Kate then grinned at Ellie as she took his hand and led him away from his friends.

"What was that about?" Jimmy asked somewhat annoyed.

"I dunno but it looks like Kate is involved." Marco said.

His behavior didn't improve in the next few days. IN fact it got worse. Whenever they tried to talk to him he would go with Kate.

"Kate can I have more?" Craig asked. Kate gave him an uneasy smile.

"It wasn't a question." Craig said bitterly by the reaction on her face it seemed she took it as a joke.

Craig's eyes were always red or with dark circles. Their fame was growing they were the most popular band in California by the end of that week.

"Fuck fuck fuck." Craig muttered.

"What's wrong?" Ellie asked Craig as she went up to him to offer him some coffee.

"I don't want that. How come you didn't tell me!" Craig asked as he looked up at Ellie.

"Craig? Your eyes? Are you doing drugs?" Ellie asked shocked she dropped the coffee on the floor.

"Smart." Craig laughed as he headed off towards the kitchen. "Kate went to go visit her family for the holidays!"

"Well my family is coming to visit me so is Marco's and Jimmy's." Ellie said.

"What! How come you didn't tell me?" Craig said as he started pacing back and forth.

"We did but you ran off with Kate!" Ellie raised her voice.

"But I-I- I need to be alone!" Craig said as he ran into his room.

He locked the door and sat on the floor. He admitted that at first it was just to get a little relief but now he couldn't stop. He knew Manny would be so disappointed in him if she found out. He knew she would get mad in fact. But he was too sucked in to this world which he couldn't get out of. He looked up and his cell phone began to ring. He ran and got it.

"Hello!" He asked.

"Craig it's James you have an interview! Hurry and get your ass down here!" James growled. Craig hung up the phone and sighed as he looked up at the ceiling.

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"MERRY CHRISTMAS" Joey said as he walked in to the Simpson/Nelson residence with Ang. Spike had a huge Christmas party every year and the house was filled with tons of people. Manny recognized some people seeing how she and her family would attend every year. Manny was obviously solo this year. She really couldn't hang around Emma because she was to busy visiting with family and friends. Everyone was very festive and dressed the part. Manny was wearing a black mini skirt and a black long sleeve sweater with boots. Black seemed to be her color now a days. She looked sexy yet appropriate.

"Mannyyyyy" Angie squealed running up to Manny hugging her. "I miss you."

"Hey Ang. I miss you to honey." Manny said hugging her back. She had not seen her or Joey since Craig left.

"Hey Manny, Ya been doin alright?" Joey said while walking up to Manny.

"Yea." Manny gave a faint smile. "Hear from Craig?"

"Rarely, you?"

"No. It's hard to get in touch with him." She explained.

"Yea…Well it was nice seeing you. Take care." Joey said as he picked up Ang.

"Bye." Manny concluded.

"Bye Manny" Angie's Young voice said with her arms around her daddy's neck.

"Bye."

Manny looked around at all the smiling faces. Everyone seemed to be so happy and full of cheer. She couldn't have felt more alone.

"Excuse me." She said as she walked passed people to get to the kitchen. There was nobody in there but it was still very loud from all the commotion. She took advantage of the opportunity and had a glass of wine while no one was looking. She poured herself another and quickly drank it. She started to crave a cigarette. She once again zigzagged through all the people to get to the door, stopping to put on her jacket which had her phone and cigarettes in it. No one would notice her gone. She stared at the moon on the sidewalk as she placed her cigarette in her mouth and lit it. She loved night time. Exhaling she thought about a few things. Her dad, Craig, California, leaving high school. She then saw J.T. walking up.

"Merry Christmas." J.T. said walking up to her. He was wearing khaki pants and a black shirt with a black jacket over it. It was simple but the subtleness made him look much older and mature. His hair was also a little wavier than usual.

"Hi." Manny said throwing down her cigarette to put it out. Damn, he looks good, Manny thought to herself. But it wasn't a big deal.

"What are you doing out here?" J.T. asked her.

"I needed to smoke a cigarette…plus there was wayyy to much holiday bliss in there." She said sarcastically.

"Do you want to take a walk to the park or something?"

"Sure." Manny answered.

The two of them headed towards the park.

"Was everything o.k. after I left yesterday?" Manny asked him hesitantly. She didn't know if she should have asked or not.

"We broke up." J.T. said not sounding very heart broken.

"Oh I'm umm sorry." Manny said sincerely.

"Nah, the thrill was gone anyway. Ya know."

Silence came between them. They reached the park and had a seat on the bench.

"What did you and your family do?" Manny asked trying to break the silence.

"My family left to go out of town this morning. They'll be gone for a day or two."

"So your alone for Christmas to huh?" Manny said with a sarcastic laugh that followed.

"It's o.k. they probably would have wanted to do something corny anyway."

It fell silent yet again.

"Oh, before I forget…here." J.T. said with a smile on his face. He pulled a small box with a bow on it out of his jacket pocket.

"What is it?" Manny said curiously.

"Open it." J.T. said with a smile on his face.

Manny opened the box. There was a small necklace inside. It had the letter M on it with rhinestones. Manny's face lit up. She loved it.

"J.T. it's beautiful. Thank you." Manny put her hand on his shoulder to pull herself closer and kissed his lips. She quickly pulled away. Looking down she thought to herself Oh my God. What just happened? Those thoughts were dismissed quickly as J.T. lifted her chin to look into her eyes. He gave her a quick smile and moved in for another, this time putting his tongue between her lips hoping she would open her mouth. She did.

MANNY'S POV

J.T.'s kisses are so sweet. I've completely forgotten what it was like kissing him I thought. We pulled away from each other. I felt as if I was a twelve year old being kissed for the first time. It was nice but awkward. We were looking in opposite directions. J.T. looked at me and I could feel it so I turned his direction. We smiled at one another. J.T. stood up and grabbed my hand while I was still sitting down.

"We should get back to Emma's" He said.

I stood up and kissed him once more. I didn't know where I was going with this but I felt confident in my decision.

"Why," I looked down to think about what I was going to say next one last time. "Why don't we go to your house instead?"

J.T.'S POV

"A-Are you sure?" I asked. I couldn't believe this. I mean, I never in a million years thought this would happen I thought to myself, Manny is such an amazing girl.

"Yea." She said. I smiled at her and she smiled back. She had a beautiful smile. I could look at her smile for days. We began to walk to my house.

MANNY'S POV

We didn't say anything the whole way to J.T.'s house. Not because we had nothing to say or anything, it was like we both were overwhelmed with emotions and feelings that we didn't even know were there. He seemed so different. I wish I had known this J.T. before. He let go of my hand to open the door. When we walked in all the lights were off.

"Uh Oh. Stay here o.k." He said with a laugh.

"O.K." I smiled. He went to turn some lights on.

"That's better." he paused "C'mon."

We went down the hallway into his bedroom. It had changed since the last time I was in there. There weren't as many posters up. He closed the door behind us. I was a little nervous for some unknown reason. I think he was to. After taking off my jacket I kinda leaned/sat against his desk with my arms supporting me. J.T. walked over to me and put his hands around my waist and began to kiss my cheek eventually moving down to my neck. While he was doing that I unzipped his pants. They fell down. His hands moved down my thighs and up underneath my skirt. His hands were warm. He pulled my panties down to my feet. I lifted my right foot then the left so he could get them completely off. He stepped out of his pants as well. He also pulled down my skirt and took off my shoes. As he came back up he ran his hands up my legs. He took off my sweater and I began to unbutton his. Taking off my bra was a little difficult but he succeeded.

"Manny this seriously is a dream come true" J.T. said. I smiled and started kissing him. He led me to his bed where he laid me down. He stopped for a second so I sat up to see what he was doing. He went into his night stand and got a condom.

"Don't wanna forget this." He said with a giggle.

"Yea I know." I replied.

After he put it on he climbed on top of me. J.T. had the sweetest face. I could see through to heaven in his eyes. He entered me and I gasped. It had been awhile for me. I had not had sex since Craig left.

"You o.k. ?" he asked concerned.

"I'm fine." I answered.

He began to do slow deep thrust. It felt really good. I liked it a lot. "J.T." I whispered his name. He kept going. "Don't stop." I told him. J.T. was a lot better than I had ever thought he would be. His hands traveled my whole body. I ran my fingers through his soft hair. I pulled him down and he started kissing me. I tilted my head back interrupting the kissing because it started to feel better and better by the second.

J.T.'s breathing became heavier. I could tell he was about to come. His thrusting got a little faster. He came with one final thrust. He smiled as he looked at me and I moved the hair out of his eyes. He then kissed me and laid down while still on top of me. I stroked his back with my hand. I didn't even know that I was tired, but suddenly both of us fell asleep. The sound of my cell phone making a beep woke me up. I was laying on top of J.T.'s chest. I looked up at his face and he looked so peaceful while he was sleeping. I reached over him to see why my phone was beeping. I had 3 missed calls and 2 text messages. I accidentally woke him up. I couldn't believe the time. My phone read 3:32 am.

J.T. stretched then smiled at me. "What's going on?" He asked sweetly.

"I had some messages on my phone. I was checking them."

"Who from?"

"The warden." I said.

"Who?" He asked curiously. He had no idea what I was talking about.

"Oh." I said with a smirk "Emma. I sometimes call her the warden because she's always checking up on me." I explained.

"Funny."

I began to sit up.

"Where ya going?" J.T. asked kind of sad.

"Oh I have to go." I sat all the way up. He pulled me back down to him.

"Don't go. Stay. Please." He said sincerely. I felt kinda bad for leaving but I had to go. I knew Emma was gonna kill me.

"I have to, Emma covered for me so I have to get back." I explained.

"O.k. O.k. O.k." J.T. pouted.

I went over to his desk to find my clothes. They were in a cute little pile. J.T. had become so tidy. J.T watched me get dressed the whole time.

"Don't look." I playfully said.

"I can't help it, I'm hypnotized." He said sitting up resting his head on his fist. When I was completely dressed he got up and he looked like he was going to get dressed to.

"What are you doing?" I asked.

"I'm gonna walk you home." He answered. J.T. is such a gentleman.

"No stay in bed, I'll be fine." I reassured him.

"Are you sure?" He offered once again.

"I insist."

"O.K. well at least let me walk you to the door." He said as if he was asking for my approval.

"O.k." I replied. He held my hand all the way down the hallway. When we got to the door we stopped.

"Manny I just want to thank you. I will never forget this Christmas for as long as I live." He said with a grin.

"It will be locked away in my memory as well."

He put both of his hands on my face and kissed me. No tongue or anything just a soft sweet kiss on my forehead.

"Goodnight J.T." I told him.

"Goodnight."

As I walked down the sidewalk. I didn't know how to feel or think. When I got about halfway down I stopped in the middle of my tracks. You would have thought that I had seen a ghost or something. I felt like I was choking but there was nothing in my mouth. Oh My God. I just cheated on Craig I thought to myself. "What the fuck was I thinking?" I asked myself. That was so stupid. Why am I just thinking about Craig now? I mean, did I forget about him. Maybe it was the fact that it was Christmas and Christmas is such a romantic holiday. I cant make excuses, there are no excuses for what I just did. What I'm I gonna do? If I tell him he will get rid of me for sure. Why am I such a fuck up? I cant tell him. I don't want to fuck up such a good thing. I pulled out a cigarette and finished walking back to Emma's. I walked pretty fast because I wanted to hurry. I was hoping that Emma was already asleep. When I got there I peeked into her window to see. All the lights were off. I quietly climbed through being really careful so I wouldn't wake her up. When I got in I took off my boots and skirt. I slipped on a pair of shorts. I tiptoed quietly over to Emma's bed and gently pulled the covers back. I sat down as soft as I could and laid down. Wow I actually pulled it off. I thought I was successful when-

"Where were you?" Emma scolded. She sat up and turned her lamp on and then looked at me. Damn I thought.

"I'm tired Em. Lets talk about it tomorrow, k." I tried hoping she would accept that. Of course she didn't.

"Manny I'm waiting for an explanation." She said. I sighed and sat up to.

"O.k. Em if I tell you, you have to promise that it wont leave this room, that you wont get mad, and that there will be no more discussion after and we will just go to sleep." I said looking and acting as if I meant it.

"O.k. I promise."

"O.k., I…slept with J.T." I said nervously. Emma gasped and put her hand over her mouth. She was about to say something. I quickly put my finger over her mouth.

"Ah, no more discussion, go to sleep." I told her. She sat there for a second then reached over to turn off her lamp. She looked at me once more than we both laid down. I still cant believe I was so stupid. I love Craig how could I do this? I'm just gonna try my best to pretend that none of this ever happened. I thought to myself. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep.

NORMAL POV

For several days Manny tried to act as if it never happened even though she thought about it constantly. She would just try to think about her audition instead. Emma tried to forget that Manny had ever told her but of course, Emma never forgets anything. When she wasn't thinking about that she just thought about how she was pregnant. Manny, as mean as this was, avoided J.T. like the plague. She wasn't trying to be rude she just didn't want to make matters worse. He had called her a few times and she didn't answer. I will be in California in 2 days and I wont have to worry about any of this when I see Craig , she thought to herself. They were scheduled to leave Jan.2 and it was New Years eve. She had planned to hang out with Roxy for New Years.

RINGGGGG RINGGGGG. Manny's cell phone went off. It read Roxy. She was in the living room with Spike and Emma. They were all watching a movie. She got up and took the call in the kitchen.

"Hello." She answered.

"Hey, weren't you suppose to be here forever ago?" Roxy asked slightly annoyed.

"Yea I'll be on my way as soon as I think of an excuse to get out of here."

"Why are you so scared of that Emma chick. Just be like fuck you and goodbye." Roxy giggled.

Manny laughed "I cant do that."

"So when are you coming?" Roxy asked.

"I'm about to try and leave now."

"Alright, lataz." Roxy said.

"Bye." Manny concluded.

Manny tried her best to think of a decent excuse. Her mind drew a blank. She was just gonna do what she always did. She went downstairs to change first. She wanted something hot to wear. She decided on a white mid drift spaghetti strap tank and a white mini skirt to match of course. She wore her boots with it. She grabbed her jacket and made sure she had everything she needed which was money, phone, and cigiz. As she headed up the stairs she knew she wouldn't be able to just sneak out without them noticing.

"Manny c'mon." Emma said. She wanted Manny to come back to the movie.

"Umm Em I gotta go don't wait up, k. love you bye." Manny said quickly running out the front door.

"Wait-" Emma beagn but she was cut off by the door closing. Manny hated rushing out of there like that but she hated always being interrogated about what she was doing. She headed to Roxy's. She was in a hurry to get there so she took the short way. It took like 10 minutes off the time. On her way she passed by her house. She saw her moms car so she knew she was there. For the first time she didn't feel that sad. She didn't care about her mom as much as she use to. She walked right passed it as if she had never lived there. She was at Roxy's soon after that. She knocked on the door.

"Hello Manny." Roxy's dad opened the door.

"Hey Mr. Sanchez." Manny responded. Due to Manny's coming over all the time Roxy's parents eventually met her. They were nice, they actually liked Manny. They were clueless about Roxy's wild side. He moved from the door way so Manny could come in.

"What do you 2 have planned for the night?" He asked as he shut the door.

"I dunno yet." She told him. Even though he was nice he always made Manny feel a little nervous. Roxy then came from her room. Thank God Manny thought, she was beginning to feel a bit anxious.

"I'm gonna stay with Manny tonight. Bye." Roxy told her father as she went passed him.

"You girls be careful." Roxy's mother yelled form the sofa in the living room.

"K." Roxy yelled back. The two girls walked out and headed down the street.

"Lookin good." Roxy told Manny looking at her outfit.

"You to sexy." Manny noticed. Roxy was wearing these super tight black pants with a button down white shirt that was like a thousand sizes to small with stiletto boots. She had the first 4 buttons unbuttoned.

"C'mon we have to hurry. We were suppose to meet Hustler like 20 minutes ago. He's waiting for us at the corner." Roxy urged. They started to walk a little faster. When they got around the corner they saw Hustlers car. He was inside smoking a blunt.

"Sorry about the lateness, but somebody took forever." Roxy said as she looked back at Manny. Roxy got in the front seat and Manny in the back.

"Just hurry up." He said slightly annoyed.

"Whateverz." Manny laughed it off. When Roxy was completely in she kissed Hustler. Manny saw.

"Ohhhh. O.k." Manny said with a sneaky type laugh.

Hustler looked back at her and sighed "High school girls." Roxy then crawled in the back seat with Manny.

"What's going on with you two?" Manny whispered to Roxy just dying to know.

"Well remember the other day when you and him were at my house?" Roxy began "Well when you left he fucked the shit out of me."

"Really, was it good?" Manny asked.

"Was it?" Roxy threw her head back "I'm still trying to get over how good it was."

The girls started laughing.

"So like are you guys like together?" Manny asked. Manny felt a little sad about that because she felt like she could possibly like lose her best friend. But she couldn't let Roxy know.

"I think so." Roxy smiled looking at Hustler. Roxy crawled back into the front seat and started talking to Hustler. Manny just turned and looked out the window as he was driving. They were headed to Hustlers apartment. When they were like a minute away Roxy glanced back at Manny. She looked a little down.

"What's wrong?" Roxy asked her friend in a soothing voice.

"Nothing." Manny gave her a fake smile. Roxy smiled at her and turned back around to get something. She then looked back at Manny.

"Here." Roxy shoved a double stacked E pill in Manny's Mouth. "This should make you feel all better." Roxy gave Hustler his and then took hers. She looked at Manny and blew her a kiss. Hey, Roxy's cool. She's such a good friend. We'll still be friends even though she has a boyfriend now I'm sure, Manny thought to herself. They arrived at Hustler's shortly after. There were a lot of cars there. But that wasn't unusual, Hutsler was always having a party. Of course he was having one tonight it being New Years. After Hustler parked his car they all got out and headed inside. Manny was behind Roxy and Hustler as they held hands. They actually make a cute couple she thought. When Hustler opened the door there were tons of people there. It was very smoky. Things were pretty wild. People were all over each other. The music was hella loud. Manny needed a good party. Manny saw a lot of people she knew from when she hung out with Marissa. Some she spoke to, some she avoided. The ecstasy started kicking in just as expected. Manny got hot so she took off her jacket revealing her sexy outfit. She was dancing with Roxy. They were both high as hell, which meant they were very expressive.

"Roxy Im so happy for you and Hustler." Manny yelled over the music.

"Oh thanks." She yelled back.

"Ya know when you first told me-" Roxy interrupted her.

"What?" Roxy yelled putting her hand up to her ear.

"When you first told me I was getting a little sad because I figured that you would forget about me after awhile."

"Manny never… how could I forget about my best friend." She smiled.

"I'm your best friend?" Manny asked her. Roxy nodded.

"You're mine to." Manny told her. The two girls hugged each other. Manny really felt like she had a true friend.

"C'mon lets go get some crystal from Hustler." Roxy said to Manny. Roxy took Manny's hand and they began to push there way through all the people to find Hustler. He was sitting on the sofa talking to some guy. Roxy sat on his lap and reached inside his pockets. She gave him a quick peck before getting up.

"Don't do it all." He sounded like he meant it but Roxy didn't care.

"I wont." Roxy laughed him off. Her and Manny went into one of the bedrooms. Surprisingly no one was in there. They sat on the bed and Roxy pulled a meth pipe out of her boobs.

"Where did that come from?" Manny laughed. She was laughing uncontrollably.

"Well ya know Manny I don't know, it's like it magically appeared out of nowhere." Roxy smiled. Roxy filled the pipe with as much as she could. Manny always had a lighter.

"Do the honors my love." Roxy said handing Manny the pipe.

"O.k."

Manny took huge puffs from the pipe and then handed it to Roxy. She held it in for quite awhile before she exhaled. They smoked that and then refilled the pipe for seconds. They were reaching new highs. The high from the meth mixed with the high from the E was insane.

"Roxy," Manny took a long pause and looked at Roxy "I am so high."

"Me to, girl. Oh my God, Like whoa." Roxy replied. "We should go back out now."

They got up and started walking to the door. Manny tripped and fell over absolutely nothing. Roxy looked back and was like "Clumsy ass." Manny got up and followed Roxy back to the party.

"Im gonna go talk to Hustler, you gonna be alright?" Roxy said not wanting to abandon her friend.

"Oh, go ahead." Manny reassured her. Roxy headed over and sat next to Hustler.Manny just kind of stood there. She was slightly confused. She looked around and decided that she wanted to dance some more since she had so much energy. She went over and managed to get herself on top of the table. She started freak dancing which got everyone's attention. She was high and didn't really care about how skanky she was appearing. Hustler and Roxy noticed her dancing to. Manny really started getting into it. She took off her tank top. She was just in her bra and skirt by then. All the guys started cheering telling her to take more off. She stumbled a bit. "Whoaaa." Manny laughed. She looked over to Roxy and Hustler's direction. Roxy's back was to Hustler. He made eye contact with Manny. Hustler did the whole chin nod and winked at Manny. Roxy didn't see him do it. Manny didn't quite know how to take that so she kept on dancing.

"Take off your skirt." Some random guy yelled. Roxy and Hustler heard him.

"Let me go and get this girl." Hustler laughed.

"Please." Roxy said getting out of his way so he could walk by. Manny looked and smiled at the guy that told her to take off her skirt and unbuttoned it and was about to go down with it but Hustler got to her before she could. He pulled her down and she fell into his arms.

"Why'd you stop me?" Manny smiled at him. "I needed to." Hustler told her. He gathered her clothes and took her in the bathroom. Roxy continued talking with friends as Hustler and Manny went to the bathroom. When the both of them were in he closed the door.

"You didn't have to come rescue me you know. I knew what I was doing." Manny said as she looked in the mirror and fixed her hair a bit.

"I'm sure you did." Hustler said sarcastically leaning against the door watching Manny with her clothes in his hand. She noticed him looking. She hissed and looked at him.

"Well you gonna give me my clothes back?" She asked.

"Come get em." He said holding them up so she couldn't reach them.

"Fine, keep them. I'll go out without them." She spoke with a sassy tone. She attempted to walk out. When she went for the door knob he pushed himself against her. She fell back on the sink. He put his hands around her waist.

"Quit playin Hustler." Manny said annoyed. Hustler wasn't listening to her at all. He kissed her and Manny pushed him off.

"What are you doing." Manny said obviously mad.

"C'mon there's nothing wrong with a little kiss amongst friends." He said as if everything was o.k. He tried to kiss her again.

"Your girlfriend is my best friend." Manny expressed to him while pushing him yet again.

"She wouldn't mind."

"Uh I think she would." Manny said barely able to stand.

"Whatever." Hustler put her clothes on the sink. "You should stop being such a tease." He walked out and closed the door. She sat down on the bathroom floor. I can't wait until I get to California . Things are gonna be so much better, She thought to herself. She rested her head against the wall and sat there for awhile. Several people came in to use the bathroom but everyone was high so they weren't bothered by the girl sitting half naked on the floor and of course Manny didn't mind people going to the bathroom in front of her she was so out of it.

"There you are, I was wondering where you were." Roxy said as she barged in the bathroom. Manny was just sitting there looking all happy.

"First put your clothes on." Roxy laughed as she helped her friend put her shirt back on. She then helped Manny up to her feet.

"C'mon you gotta try this." Roxy dragged Manny out to the living room by her arm. Manny was like a little rag doll. In the living room everybody was taking turns snorting something. It looked to be coke or crystal. "What is that?" Manny asked.

"You've heard of special K right?"

"Yea."

"Well it's the shit Manny. You're gonna love it." Roxy explained.

"How do I do it?" Manny asked as she kneeled down to the floor. Roxy sat next to her. She put a little on a plate and crushed it up really fine with a razor. She gave Manny the plate and a short straw.

"Just snort it." Roxy told Manny. Manny took the plate and did just that.

"Ugh. Ow." Manny complained. Roxy laughed.

"Yea, it does hurt a little but it's a good kinda hurt. Like it feels good right." Roxy said rubbing Manny's head.

"I guess." Manny replied.

Not long after Manny started to feel affects. Roxy was right, she did love it.Manny and Roxy laughed and laughed. They were laughing literally hours. 8 hours had passed by and they didn't even realize it. It had only felt like 5 minutes to them. People started leaving and the crowd shrunk tremendously. Down to about 6 people. They were still high but they began to sober up a little.

"I'm so thirsty." Manny griped.

"Me to lets go get some water or something." Roxy responded. They got up and went into the kitchen while Hustler and his friends stayed in the living room.

"Wow Manny you look like shit." Roxy playfully said as she got some glasses down form the cabinet.

"Oh thanks, so do you." Manny sarcastically replied. Roxy was staring at Hustler in a romantic sort of way.

"God Hustler is like the perfect guy for me, I'm so lucky." Roxy smiled while walking over to the sink. Manny rolled her eyes and Roxy noticed.

"What was that for?" Roxy asked stopping what she was doing.

"Nothing." Manny didn't want to say anything.

"No, tell me." Roxy demanded.

Manny started to speak in a low tone of voice "Earlier in the bathroom, Hustler…he kissed me."

Roxy was speechless.

"What." Roxy spoke as if she was out of breath. Manny walked over really close to her.

"Don't o.k." Roxy said a little pissed. She put the glasses down and walked over to Hustler. Manny stayed in the kitchen but she could still see.

"Hustler I need to talk to you." Roxy said with her arms crossed. Hustler was sitting smoking a cigarette and kind of waved her off because his friends were watching and he didn't want to come off whipped to them.

"Hustler" Roxy demanded.

"Go handle ya business." One of the guys said laughing patting Hustler on the back. He got up and the two of them went in the kitchen. Manny's heart started beating so fast. This cant be good, She thought to herself.

"What's up?" Hustler said when they were finally in the kitchen.

"Did you kiss her?" Roxy said a little teary eyed. She was looking directly at him. Manny didn't know what to do. She just stood there.

"Yo, straight up, she kissed me." Hustler said leaning against the counter and taking a puff of his cigarette.

Manny's eyes grew huge. "What?" Manny said in shock.

"Fuc-kin bitch." Roxy said turning to Manny.

"Roxy."

"You were suppose to be my girl."

" I am. He's lying." Manny pleaded her eyes now watering up, "Roxy please believe me I'm telling the truth."

Roxy stood looking at Manny. She got even more teary eyed.

"Marissa was right about you. You're nothing but a whore." Roxy said in the coldest way, "Forget California."

Manny looked down and a single tear drop fell.

"Ohhhhhh, burn." All the guys expressed, including Hustler. They were responding to the girls confrontation. Hustler reached around Roxy's hip and pulled her to him. Roxy was expressionless. Deep down she knew Manny was telling the truth she just didn't want to admit it to herself. Manny dried her eyes and walked back into the living room. She looked around for her jacket.

"You should've kissed me instead." One of the guy said while laughing.

Manny didn't pay him any attention. She put her jacket on and walked towards the door, looking back once more at Roxy before she opened it. Roxy saw her look but then turned away. Manny turned back around and walked out. It was morning time. She began walking down the side walk. She reached in her jacket to get a cigarette, lit it and began smoking.

"Happy fucking New year." She said sniffling a little. I cant believe this shit, She thought to herself. She started crying a little more. The morning sun was burning her eyes a little. Nobody was outside. You could hear the birds chirping. She tried enjoying the sounds of nature on the way back to Emma's but she kept thinking about how all her plans just went to shit. When she did get to Emma's she assumed that everyone was sleeping. She started to crawl through the basement window like she has so many times before. Emma was not asleep. She was sitting in her computer chair waiting for Manny.

"Where have you been?" Emma said as she stood up to look at Manny as she finished crawling in. Manny walked over to the clothes pile and began to undress. She didn't say anything.

"Manny I'm so tired of covering for you every time you decide to go out and get drunk or whatever it is that you go out and do. Manny…Manny. Manny do you hear me?" Emma said walking over closer to her. When Manny was done putting on her night clothes she looked up at Emma. Emma's expression changed.

"Not now Em, o.k." Manny said to her sounding as if she had been crying before. Manny went over and got in the bed.

Emma didn't know what to think. She began to worry about her friend.

"I'm gonna go take a shower, you need anything?" Emma asked concerned but Manny didn't answer. Emma looked at her for a second and headed to the bathroom. Manny cried from frustration and surprisingly was actually able to fall asleep. She woke up around 3:30 that afternoon. Emma was reading a book on a beanbag chair.

"Hey sleepy head." Emma said noticing her wake up. She got up and walked over to the bed.

"What time is it?" She yawned sitting up.

"3:30." Emma happily answered. She was in an unusually happy mood. "C'mon, get up." Emma kind of made her stand up.

"Why are you so happy?" Manny asked confused.

"You're going to California tomorrow Manny." Emma said shaking her playfully "Put some pep in that step."

Manny smiled and began to get dressed. She was ready in like 30 minutes. They went to The Dot.

"I bet you're so excited." Emma said as she sipped her shake.

"Yea I am." Manny replied eating some fries.

"Does Craig know that you're coming?"

"I don't know to tell you the truth. I'm just gonna have to call him when I get there." Manny explained.

"What time do you have to meet the school?" Emma asked.

"8:00 a.m."

"Have you packed?"

"Oh my Gosh no." The two girls laughed.

"Well umm we should go don't ya think." Emma said standing up to throw their stuff away. "Shall we?"

They finished up there and headed back to Emma's house and began to try and get Manny packed.

"What all are you taking?" Emma asked sorting through her closet and shelves.

"Everything." Manny said while cleaning out her back pack.

"Why you're only gonna be gone for a week."

"Oh umm, you know me…indecisive." Manny laughed off hoping that Emma would drop it. They kept looking through things.

"Oh my God, look." Emma said pulling out a photo album that was deep in the back of her closet " Look at this."

They went and sat on the bed next to each other. The first thing they saw was a pic of them in 2nd grade eating cookies.

"Look at how tall you were." Manny laughed.

"Look at how frizzy you hair was." Emma replied laughing as well. The book was filled with tons of pictures displaying how close and good a friends they were seeing how they have known each other practically their whole lives. They started thinking about memories of the good old days. Way before boys and pregnancies. Back when the biggest dilemma was who's house to stay over. They did that and talked for hours. The conversation moved away from memories to other topics.

"Em it really sucks that you're not going." Manny said to her friend.

"Yea but you can just tell me all about it when you come back."

Manny didn't say anything back she just kind of looked off in the other direction.

"Girlsss, c.mon it's 6:00. We got get a move on if we want to make it there on time." Snake yelled from upstairs.

"What 6:00, already." Manny said. She couldn't believe it.

"Looks like we talked the night away." Emma said standing up looking out the window.

"Umm yea." Manny said.

"You can go get ready, I'll finish packing your stuff." Emma told her.

"Thanks Em. Manny smiled.

Manny went and picked something out to wear quickly before Emma got to into packing. She wanted to be comfortable so she decided on a little tight pink sweat outfit and headed for the shower. Emma was done packing in no time. She just through all of her stuff into a bag. Manny didn't take long either. She just through her hair in a ponytail and Emma stayed in what she had on. They got Manny's stuff and headed upstairs. Snake was ready.

"Here Manny, take plenty of pictures." Spike said handing her a camera while holding baby Jack.

"You got it." Manny said as she hugged Spike and kissed baby Jack on the head.

"Bye hon, be careful out there."

"I will. Bye."

With that said Manny, Emma, and Snake were on their way 2 the airport. The traffic was pretty bad so it's a good thing they left early. They got there in about 45 minutes. When they walked into the airport they immediately saw Ms. H and other Degrassi students including J.T. They walked over to the crowd.

"There's J.T." Emma said nudging Manny in the side as they approached everybody.

"Good morning Manny, here's your ticket." Ms. H said walking towards Manny and handing it to her. Manny took it. J.T. started walking over to Emma and Manny. Oh my God think, think Manny thought to herself.

"Manny give me your bags I'm going to take them to the check out desk so you wont have to carry them." Snake said reaching for her bags.

"I'll come with you." Manny said hastily. She needed a reason to walk away. Snake gave a her a strange look.

"I want to write my name on the sticker and everything." She explained. Her and Snake headed over to the baggage check place. J.T. got to Emma and they started chatting. Manny looked back at them once but they didn't notice. After Manny's baggage was taken her and Snake walked back over to the group.

"Guys we need to be heading towards the terminal." Ms. H said loudly for everyone to hear.

"See ya later Emma." J.T. said before he went back towards the class.

"See ya."

MANNY POV

This was it. This was actually it. I was leaving and never coming back. Hopefully my life will be better now. For some reason I don't really feel prepared to embark on the journey I'm about to take. This was so surreal.

"Have a great time honey. I'm sure you're going to love it there." Snake said as he hugged me. "Be careful we love you."

"I will."

"Call me as soon as you get there o.k." Emma said smiling. She was so happy for me. She hugged me. "Don't get into any trouble out there."

That was just like Emma to say something like that. In the past that always annoyed me but she was just being a friend. A good friend.

"I'll try." I said hugging her back. We let go of each other.

"Bye Manny."

"Bye." I started to walk towards the terminals with the class.

"I'll be counting the days until you get back." Emma said. She sounded so sincere. I stopped walking instantly. Wait, I wasn't coming back. Ever. I'll never see her again, I thought to myself. My eyes started to water. I can't believe this. I'm leaving Emma. My best friend. For 5 months I was constantly throwing the word best friend around to people who didn't deserve it, to people who don't even care about me. Emma always cared. All she ever did was care. I turned back around, ran to Emma and hugged her. Tight.

"Emma I-I love you. I always have form the day we met. You will always be my best friend." I told her. I wanted her to know that I meant it.

"I, love, you, to Manny." Emma said not knowing how to react. I had not let go yet so she pulled away from me. She noticed the look on my face.

"You o.k." She smiled in a cheerful tone.

"Yea. I'm fine. Flying always make me nervous." I lied. I tried my best to look happy by giving a phony laugh.

"I'm sure you'll be o.k." Emma reassured me.

"Yea. I'll be fine." I replied.

"Manny, lets go." I heard someone from the group say to me. I turned to look at them then back at Emma. She made a playful frown and waved at me.

"Bye Emma." I said to my friend and walked away. Her and Snake stood there until I went through the metal detector and then they left. I'm going to miss her.

"So, you ready to go?" I heard a guys voice ask me as we were waiting in line to board the plane. He was behind me. It was J.T. I didn't know how to act around him anymore. Grow up, we're still friends, I thought to myself.

"Ready than I'll ever be." I smiled. The line was moving slowly because Ms. H was at the front making sure that everyone on the list to go was in line.

"Umm J.T., about the other night-" I began. J.T. cut me off.

"It's o.k. Manny. You don't have to explain. We can pretend like it never happened." He smiled in his irresistible J.T. way. The longer I thought about it I wondered if I really wanted to pretend like it never happened. An awkward silence fell between us. I looked at him and he was staring at me. He turned away when he noticed that I saw him.

"So uh, could you like help me find my seat number?" I said while showing him my ticket. I so wanted to get rid of the strange vibe.

"Well since we are going as a group there is a section for us. We can sit wherever we want as long as we stay in that section."

I don't know why I asked him this next question but I did. "Do you want to sit together, maybe?"

"Sure."

I didn't realize it but I was next to give my ticket.

"You're ticket please." The flight person asked. I handed it to them and stepped aside so J.T. could go. I waited for him on the side. When he was done we walked down the breeze way side by side. He didn't have a carry on. All he had was a jacket. I just had a back pack. When we stepped on the plane it was freezing. We walked down the narrow isles.

"Is this our section?" I turned to ask Ms. H, but she didn't hear me. "Umm o.k."

"I'm sure this is fine." J.T. said not really knowing himself.

I began to try and put my bag in the over head compartment. As I was lifting it J.T. stopped me.

"Let me get that." He said as he took it from me and put it in there.

He sat down first taking the window seat and I was left with the isle. Our school came on the plane first because we were minors and then the rest of the passengers came on.

"It takes like 30 minutes just to get everyone situated." J.T. griped.

"Oh I know." I agreed.

We both just sat patiently as everyone boarded. It really did take almost 30 minutes.

"GOOD MORNING LADIES AND GENTLEMEN. THIS IS FLIGHT 654 TO LOS ANGLES, CALIFORNIA. WE ARE LOOKING AT MOSTLY CLEAR SKIES AND SUNNY WEATHER. THE TIME IS APPROXIMATELY 8:41. WE WILL BE DEPARTING MOMENTARILY. THANK YOU FOR CHOOSING SOUTHWEST AIRLINES. WE HOPE THAT YOU ENJOY YOUR FLIGHT."

"Finally." J.T. said as he peaked over the seat in front of us.

The plane started going. Some of the immature idiots in front of us started cheering.

"Dumbasses" I whispered. We shared a laugh. We took flight in about a minute. I could hear the wheels going back in. When we were in the air I started yawning.

"Ya tired?" J.T. asked looking at me.

"Yes very actually. I didn't go to sleep last night." I said as I leaned my head back against the head rest.

"Take a nap. By the time you wake up we will be there." He suggested.

"Hmmm I think I might do that. I'm beat."

"Mrs, excuse me Mrs, can I have a pillow please." J.T. said to the flight attendant. J.T. is so nice he's always thinking about me.

"Here ya go sir."

"Awww. J.T., you didn't have to do that" I said holding the pillow.

"Well I want you to be comfortable." he smiled. His smile was amazing.

"Do you mind if I lay on your shoulder?" I asked him trying not to sound to ridiculous. He flashed me another smile.

"Of course not."

I got the cover out of the seat pocket in front of me and unfolded it to lay it out on me.

"You want some?" I asked.

"Nah I'm o.k."

"Well umm goodnight." I said looking at him once more.

"Sleep well." He said to me then he looked out the window.

I gently placed my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes. I was really tired and fell asleep almost immediately. It seems like I woke up like every hour due to the turbulence but I was so tired it didn't even matter. I would open my eyes for half a second and just go back to sleep. After about 8 hours of disturbed sleeping I heard the commotion of people standing and getting their things. I wasn't in the same position as I was in when I first went to sleep. J.T. was also sleeping. He had his arm around me and I was laying my head on his chest. I have no idea how we ended up like that.

"J.T…J.T." I said shaking him a little as I sat up, "We're here."

J.T. blinked his eyes twice. He stretched his arms.

"Gosh I guess I was tired to." He yawned, still stretching. I just smiled at him. Since there were so many people in the isles, J.T. and I had to wait before we could stand. We didn't have to wait long though. When I got a chance I went into the isle and I got my bag out of the over head compartment. J.T. stayed behind me until I was done with that. I then moved up so he could come out.

"Hey, hey, my group, go ahead and go on out but once you get inside the airport just have a seat." Ms. H yelled.

Me, J.T. and the rest of us headed to the exit. We got there and stepped on to the breeze way. Again me and J.T. walked side by side chatting. LAX was a huge airport. There were 2 parts. Me and J.T. took a seat like we were suppose to.

"I'm still so tired." I yawned. J.T. was sitting next to me, "Can you believe the size of this place?"

"No it's like a separate little city." J.T. said as he looked around a little.

Ms. H finally came out. She was the last one. "O.k. c'mon. This way. The buses are waiting outside."

The group followed. We had to walk for about 5 minutes, get in a shuttle, go to baggage claim, then walk some more before we got to the buses. Wow. It's so beautiful here. I cant believe just hours ago I was freezing in the snow and now I don't even need a jacket. The sun is so beautiful, I thought to myself. It was about 2:30 California time. There were 4 guys standing by the buses.

"Just leave all your bags right here and we will load everything." They told us.

We got on the bus one by one. The hotel wasn't that far from the airport. Only about 20 minutes away. A lot of people probably don't know this but The Hilton has great deals. Since Ms. H was going to need about 30 rooms they gave her an incredible discount. When I stepped inside that place I almost fainted. It was so beautiful.

"J.T. look at this place." I said as I looked up at the ceiling slowly spinning around.

"I know. Never in my life did I think that I would get a chance to stay here."

It took awhile for the bell boys to unload all of our stuff. Ms. H was at the desk getting all of the rooms together. I saw them give her a whole bunch of key cards. She walked over to the group after.

"Alright listen up, here are your keys. Try not loose them." She was talking loudly so everyone could hear her. She passed out the key cards, "Now this is important. When you go somewhere try to use taxi's more than buses. You will get lost on a bus. Do not, I repeat, do not go anywhere alone. I mean it. If I find out you did I will send you home early."

Everyone took off running to their rooms.

"Hey, one last thing." Everyone paused. "Have fun." Ms. H smiled.

They crowded the elevators. I was not about to get in that so I waited. J.T. did as well.

"Do you wanna go hang out, look around L.A.?" J.T. asked me as we waited for one of the elevators to come back down.

"Defiantly." I smiled, "I'm gonna take a shower first though. Lets meet in the lobby in about 40 minutes."

"O.k."

The elevator came down.

"What floor you on?" I asked as I stepped on the elevator.

"Uhhh 7."

"I'm on 6."

Me and J.T. were both in the elevator. There was also 2 ladies in there.

"What floor?" One of them asked.

"6 and 7 please." J.T. answered.

My floor came first.

"See you soon." I said as I stepped off.

The elevator then closed. The hallway was so long. I saw a couple other Degrassi kids on that floor but they were on the opposite end. I finally came to my room. It was room 616. I stuck my card in and the door wouldn't open.

"O.k."

I tried again. It still wouldn't open.

"What the fuck?" I said aloud.

I took the card out and glanced at it. It was upside down.

"Oh." I smiled.

When I walked in I couldn't believe my eyes. The room was beautiful. It was a queen size bed. The bathroom was huge with a hot tub inside. I dropped all my stuff and ran to the window. The city was so pretty. It was nothing like Canada. I rushed to get my cell phone. I laid on the bed and scrolled down my phone book until I came to My Love. I was calling Craig. Of course he didn't answer. It was no biggie. He was probably busy or something. I jumped up and almost broke my back trying to lift my bag onto the bed.

"What am I gonna wear?" I said to myself. I dumped out all my clothes. I wanted something hot to wear. I was in L.A. now.

"Hmmm." I said as I stepped back to look at everything. After going through everything like twice I decided on a my black pin striped pants and my grey button down long sleeved shirt. It was a girl's shirt but it was designed to look like a man's. Kinda like the boy cut concept for jeans. The shirts neck line was very low so a lot of cleavage usually showed when I wore it. I picked out my black strappy high heel sandals to wear with. Since my outfit was together I rushed to the shower. I was pretty fast. I made sure my hair was super straight. I wore black eye liner and lip gloss for make up. I took one last look and was out the door. J.T. was already down stairs. I could see him from the elevator. He looked nice. He had on jeans and a black long sleeved shirt with sleeves pushed up to mid arm. I loved it when guys did that with their shirts. I have always thought that was so sexy. I walked over to where he was.

"Hey." I said tapping him on the shoulder.

He turned around "You ready?"

"Yea."

"Lets go."

We walked out of the hotel and headed down the sidewalk.

"So what do you want to do?" J.T. said with a happy tone of voice.

"Everything!" I squealed with excitement.

"Awesome." J.T. replied.

We stopped in like every place we saw. Even the stupid places. We wanted to see everything. We stopped in vintage stores, expensive stores, skate/surf shops, shitty gas stations, everywhere. We did for hours.

"Man, are you hungry?" J.T. asked me rubbing his stomach.

"Starved." I replied.

We had not eaten anything all day. It was around 9:30 at night. We began to look around to see what we wanted to have. There were several choices. This one place caught our attention

"Hey, this place looks cool. Do you want to eat here?" J.T. asked me.

"Totally." I replied.

It was this place called Rasta Pasta. It was a Jamaican style place but they specialized in pasta. When we walked in it had such a chill vibe.

"Good evening, how many tonight?" The host greeted us.

"2" J.T. answered.

"Right this way."

He took us to our table.

"Ill give you a some time to look over your menus. Someone will be right with you."

"Thanks." I said looking up at him.

"This place is so awesome." J.T. said looking around.

"I know."

"What do you think you want?" He asked me.

"Umm I don't know yet."

About 5 minutes later the waiter came.

"Have you guys decided?"

"Yea." J.T. answered.

"Manny what do you want?" J.T. asked me.

"Umm the vegetable linguini."

"O.k. let me get the vegetable linguini and chicken parmesan ." J.T. said to the waiter.

"O.k. what will you have to drink with that?"

"Is coke o.k.?" J.T. asked me.

"Yea."

"Two cokes please." J.T. said answering him once more.

"Thank you. Your food will be out shortly."

J.T. took my menu and his and gave them both to the waiter. I loved how J.T. handled everything with ordering and everything. I had no idea that he could be so together like that. Me and J.T. didn't say much when we were waiting for the food to come. It didn't take long.

"Thank you. It looks excellent." I said as the waiter put the food on the table.

"Is there anything else I can get you." The waiter asked.

"No. Thanks." J.T. replied.

We started eating.

"This is so good." J.T. said while he sprinkled cheese on his pasta.

"It looks good."

"You wanna taste?" J.T. asked me.

"O.k."

He put some on his fork and fed it to me.

"Mmmm that is good." I told him.

We were really hungry so we ate everything. When we were done. The waiter came to get our plates and leave the check. J.T. looked at the little check booklet thing and pulled out his wallet.

"Oh J.T. you don't have to." I tried telling him.

"I got this. You're a girl I'm not gonna make you pay for your food." He said as he put the money inside. I smiled. It's a good thing he paid because I only had 100 dollars. Since Roxy didn't come I didn't get that 2,000 dollars we saved. That 100 dollars is the only money I have.

"We should head back." J.T. suggested.

"Yea." I agreed.

We left and went outside to get a taxi. When we got one J.T. opened the door for me.

"Thank you." I said as I sat. J.T. followed behind me.

"Could you take us to The Hilton please." J.T. told the driver.

"So any thing in particular that you want to do tomorrow?" J.T. asked me.

"Well Craig got me an audition here. Its tomorrow."

"Oh wow. Do you know what its for?"

"I don't know anything about it. All I have is an address and name."

"Well that should be cool."

"Yea."

We were at the hotel in about 15 minutes. I got out first. J.T. stayed inside to pay the cab driver. When we walked in the lobby the clock read 11:30. That's 2:30 in Canada.

"I don't know about you but I'm exhausted." J.T. said as he yawned.

"Oh my God, so am I." I pressed the up button for an elevator.

"I had a great time today Manny."

"Yea so did I."

The elevator came. We stepped inside. It was just the two of this time.

"6 right?" J.T. asked.

"Yea." I said kinda nervous.

"J.T. Do you want, to stay in my room?" I paused, "We don't have to do anything. I was just asking so ya know, we wont have to stay alone."

"O.k. That will be good." He smiled. I smiled back.

When we got to the 6th floor we headed down the hallway. I didn't have any trouble getting in this time. When we walked in J.T. sat on the bed. He started to take his shoes off.

"Sorry it's such a mess." I said trying to clean up a little.

"It's no problem."

I got a pair of shorts and a tank.

"I'm gonna go change." I said as I walked in towards the bathroom.

"K"

When I went into the bathroom I put my hair in a ponytail and threw some water on my face. I grabbed a towel and dried it. After, I looked at myself in the mirror for a second. I then changed into my night clothes. I don't know why but all of a sudden I felt a little nervous. I turned the light off and walked out. J.T. was already undressed. I just threw my clothes on the pile on the floor. I turned the light switch off and just the lamp next to the bed was on. J.T. was sitting on top of the covers. When I walked over to the bed he stood up. Together we pulled the covers back. We both got in. It was awkward for me and I could tell it was awkward for him as well.

"Well pleasant dreams." I said nervously.

"You to." He replied.

We scooted over to each other and did the whole kiss on the cheek thing.

"Goodnight." I said

"Goodnight."

I laid down and turned to my side. J.T did the same. Our backs were to each other. I reached over and turned the lamp off. We said nothing. I was soooo tired but couldn't sleep. I had no idea what the problem was. I could feel J.T. start to turn over. He put his arm over my stomach and pulled me close to him. We were in the spoon position. He lifted his head and kissed me on the cheek.

"Goodnight Manny." He said once more.

"Goodnight."

I was asleep in no time.

I woke up and completely forgot where I was and was startled to see J.T hugging me. I then remembered my audition it would help if Craig told me what it was for. I then got up not even waking J.T he was a heavy sleeper. I put my hair in a pony tail and grabbed my cell phone. I dialed his number and he didn't answer. Now I was becoming less disappointed. He was a busy rock star why would he have time for me anyways?

I sighed and went towards my closet. I got my long sleeved black shirt. But the sleeves had like holes on the sides and it was designed so you could see some cleavage. I got my matching grey skirt that had a little black in it. I jumped in the shower and dried my hair. I put my outfit on. I put my black boots on so it looked sexier. I had my hair down and straight. I put on my silver gold hoops with some lip gloss and shiny eye shadow. When I was done J.T was still sleeping I was hoping he was awake so at least someone could wish me good luck. Well it was okay. I grabbed the directions and some money to pay the taxi and headed out of The Hilton.

As I was walking I suddenly became nervous. What if I wasn't good enough? A beautiful blonde then passed by me with a coffee in her hand and talking on her cell phone. I bet that she could be an actress. I looked at the directions and then was about to hail a taxi. When I thought...I am going to be here and I'm not going back to Canada...I'm living here on one hundred dollars. Fuck...man I need a cig.

I reached into my pocket to pull out one and then thought. How would these big movie stars feel if I smelled like smoke…I then resisted temptation and decided to take the bus.

I now know why Mrs. H said don't take the bus and not to go alone. It is very confusing. There were sicko's on the bus hitting on me for one thing. Another thing was I got off on the wrong street twice! I then had ten minutes to get there I ended up taking another bus which lead me two blocks away.

I began walking when I looked up and actually saw it. It was a big building and very beautiful. I walked inside to find a big sign that said "Kelly Auditions"

I then walked up to a nice looking guy.

"UM hi my name is Manny um where are the Kelly auditions?" I asked.

He looked at me as though if examining me.

"Listen little girl, the Kelly auditions are for how shall I say more experienced and um better um looking than you." He said looking at me.

I felt a stab at my heart. But I didn't travel all this way for nothing. He turned around. I then tapped him again.

"Just please tell me where the auditions are." I said I must've sounded either really desperate or really determined I felt both emotions so I couldn't tell which one he felt. He just said.

"Third floor. You'll be able to tell from there." He said as he turned back to whatever he was doing.

I smiled and rushed to the elevator. It was a spacious one there was another girl in there. She had red hair and was very skinny. She turned and looked at me.

"Hello." I smiled at her. The elevator door closed and she pushed the button 3."Oh um I'm going to audition for Kelly. Are you?"

"Listen um whatever your name is but um what do you think you are doing auditioning for Kelly?" She asked me.

"Well my boyfriend got me an audition and my audition is in five minutes." I said getting the hint I got an enemy already.

"Ha! This is the nicest and best advice you'll get...don't go you'll get your cute little girl next door butt kicked and um this is a lead role in a movie I have been in three movies and well I'm not even sure I'll get it…who am I kidding of course I will. You see this role is for a model's life and the skinniest girls will be here I mean you got curves but what they really need is bone I mean I spent six months throwing up for this role."

DING.

I looked and the doors opened. I couldn't believe this I hadn't even auditioned and I got criticized twice. What if I was really that fat? What if I wasn't good enough? Wait I didn't come all this way for nothing...but then again I should be getting a job. But what will Craig say? He will be to busy to care...

"Um Elevator girl are you getting out?" She asked me with her hands on her hips.

I barely realized that I was standing in the way and I stepped out of the elevator and I immediately saw a lot of Skinny blonde twigs all around me. I careful walked around and looked to see them all dressed in expensive clothes or skanky clothes. I saw one other brunette but she was the skinniest of all and she kept on saying.

"I'm so huge oh why did I eat that cookie last week?"

I looked around and all I saw was pretty girls all around me. I then looked on the other side of the room and still saw all very beautiful girls. I then looked down at me and I was nothing compared to them. They seemed to me looking at me as if I didn't belong. As if I was some bug that needed to be squashed. I found a seat between two blonde girls. One of them had a mini pink dress and the other had some low risers with a clingy silver top.

The one blonde girl in the pink mini dress turned and smiled at me.

"Hi my name is Amber. Are you nervous? I have seven other auditions after this." She whispered to me.

I smiled. For a second a little confidence arose in me. A beautiful person was talking to me.

"Um," I cleared my throat. "My name is Manny and this is my first audition in like well ever." I said truthfully.

For a second she gave me a look as though she thought I was kidding. But when she saw my face didn't change she quickly smiled.

"Um not to be rude but um nevermind but while you're here I have to show you the ropes. You see that girl over there with the red hair. Her name Is Princess, she has been in three movies they say one more movie under her belt and she's set for a full Hollywood career she could be really famous she is an upcoming star everyone mostly knows that she's gonna get this role…"Amber explained to me.

Princess did look intimidating as she looked around and laughed at a girl. She then spotted me and gave me a look and walked towards me.

"Elevator girl! We need to have a little talk." Princess said grabbing my arm with her boney hand.

She took me to a corner and smiled sweetly.

"Look Danny-"

"Manny." I interrupted her. She sighed heavily and continued.

"Look Manny when you look around what do you see? Well when you look at me what do you see?" She asked me.

I looked at her and honestly said, "A very skinny and beautiful girl."

"Exactly and um I have been in three movies, three, very good ones in fact...now dear what do you have that's so special? I mean you're not skinny, not beautiful, you're not tall enough for the role, face it if you go out there you're gonna make a fool out of yourself. Besides how old are you? I'm going to be twenty two I think you are lost little girl." She told me.

At that moment I felt like crying. I felt so hurt. It's like I was getting put down before even auditioning. Why were people being so mean to me? I couldn't cry even if I wanted to my make up would get messed up and I defiantly wouldn't be able to audition. I wasn't gonna let her get the best of me. Just at the worse timing my cig craving kicks in. I then looked over her shoulder at Amber but she was gone. I then looked at Princess who was obviously bragging about her movies. She was right. Model's are suppose to be skinny, pretty and tall and I am none of these things apparently. I was just about to walk out when I heard.

"Manuella Santos, Princess Soto, Amber Taniya." A man yelled from one of the doors. Princess walked a sexy walk to the door.

"Hello Roberto I remember you when I had my first audition!" She said sweetly as she hugged him.

"Oh Princess if you are auditioning no doubt you'll get it!" He said as he let us in. As I walked in the room it was a stage. There were five people sitting in the audience seats and the spotlight was dead on center stage. There i saw the five peoples face but my attention was drawn to the guy sitting in the last seat.In my opinion he was veyr hot.He had that rebel look with his ripped jeans and black tight shirt.His hair was a little below hsi ears but wavy.He looked sharp yet hot.I don't know why but I couldn't help btu smile.Then Princess passed by and I felt my somach ache.

"Um Amber will you please come up."ONe old woman said.Amber gave me a smile as she got on the stage.

"Here you are Amber i'll give you two minutes.Memorize them and make it real."Another guy said.

Princess scoffed."This is easy and I actually thought it was going to be hard.Don't you think that this is easy Danny?"She looked at me.

"Manny."

"I beg your pardon?"She asked as her hand touches her chest.

"Manny,that's my name."I said as I looked at her with the dignity I had left in me.

"Like I give a rats ass."She said.

"Okay ready Amber?"I heard the guy say.

She nodded and smiled.

"My breathing is becoming harder Mary-anne.I mean i try so hard to pretend I don't see a fatcow in the mirror but it's there.Staring at me.I tried to block it out and see the real me but as I think about it.That's the real me I see.That's why I love this,don't you getit I can stop this job.You see everyone in this believes what i'm saying.To be honest I am beautiful,I am thin,I am perfection of a girl."Amber then began to cry.But real tears not fake for a second I wanted to go up to her and hug her and say it's okay but then a second later she had on her perky smile.Then someone laughed.

"Honey,um it was okay but I have heard worse.I think you'll be best suited for a um maybe a hair product girl because your hair is lovely but for this movie,you sounded fake so...NEXT!"

Amber then walked passed us and whispered to me."At least I got off easy I mean he wasn't mean about it."

I looked at her and my jaw dropped she didn't even consider it bad.I would've been crying.

"Princess,Oh Princess I had no idea you were coming to audition please please come this way why are we even having auditions if you are here!"The guy asked as he hugged Princess

She smiled and took the script.After two minutes she smiled and got on stage.I had to admit for being a bitch she did very well but then agai bitches are always fake so she did good.

"Okay Manuella your turn."

I got on stage and Princess was watching they gave me the lines and as I read the script when I realized it was different from when Princess and Amber read it.

"UM excuse me but the scrpit is different."I said loudly.

"And you have a problem miss?"They asked me.

"Well um why is mine Different?"I asked polietly getting more nervous.

"Because it is now read and give us the scrpit!"

They snatched the script away from me.I then began to get nervous.The spotlight was on me and I didn't even memorize the lines!I tried my best as I saw bordem spread on thier faces.

"I-uh I stand at this,I can't wait to die.You want to know why because..because..I St-"

"Stand."The woman said.

"Yes Stand alone in the world and I try to um-"

"Break."The guy said.

My cheeks were flamming by this point and i saw Princess laughing.

"Break and um-"At this point I gave up.I turned to the producers.

"Listen doll face.The young guy said."Why did you even show up?Seriously what talent do you have to prove and you know this is a role for a girl with a modeling carrer one of the best and frankly ha,um you don't have any of it so save yourself some embaressment and do the entertainment industry a favor and don't audition again,your crap,you suck,and get off my stage."

I was so tired. I felt drained from waking up and I knew I needed something. Maybe two things. One thing for sure I needed was Crystal. It seemed it was the only thing that kept me from dying. Another thing I knew I needed was someone. I knew this sounded bad but for a while I forgot about Manny. That's how much it was taking over my life. Kate seemed to be all I needed all I wanted. The tour and our fame became something second hand. I was questioning what I really wanted in the past few weeks. It was also weird that if I wasn't high I couldn't perform it wasn't long before Marco, Ellie, and Jimmy noticed. I admit it was very obvious.

"Craig!" Marco said to me as I was sitting down enjoying this feeling of enlightment. I wasn't even aware he was there until he smacked my shoulders.

"Huh?" I looked up and saw him mad. Which is kinda funny. Marco mad is really funny. I started to laugh when Marco sighed heavily and kneeled down and made eye contact.

"Craig you have a problem…we all know, you know. Craig your dream is coming true right before your very eyes but your too high to enjoy it! "Marco said in an angry voice.

I looked up at him I knew it was true but this feeling over powered me to laugh.

"For real?" I chuckled. "You mean that we are like...famous? "I asked. To be honest all that I know is that I sing in front of a loud screaming crowd.

"Craig all of California knows who we are!" Marco seemed to be very mad at me for some strange reason.

"Look, Marco...wait for gay right? Ha!" I just started laughing. That meant like instead of whores he got guys. I don't know why this was so funny be it was so funny.

"Craig look at you! I feel so bad for you dude! It's really hard to look at you. What would Joey, Angie, or Manny think. She's in California dude and you are going to have to see her eventually."

"Did I ever tell you I'm a procrastinator?" I laughed.

"Dude look at you! Its scary! "Marco seemed to be really upset.

"Okay okay...look um when's our next performance?" I asked him getting up.

I wasn't even high yet but I felt like I was a million times worse.

"You're a mess Craig, and I thought you learned from Manny's mistakes, well we are taking a break. Like a week." Marco said.

"Oh why a week?" I asked it was funny how new this news was to me.

"Because I dunno if you even remember but we had three concerts in a row and we might go on another tour soon. This is really getting me pissed off how your throwing your life away Craig."

"As far as I'm concerned I'm doing fine." I said as I picked up a magazine and saw us featured in an article. "Well we never knew we would make it this far? Oh my eyes I'm very tired. "When did I say this?" I asked as I turned to Marco.

"Well Kate coached you on what to say, even she is feeling threatened by you, do you know if you two get caught you are off to jail?"

Just then I heard a knock at the door.

Kate then peeked her head in.

"Hey guys um mind if I had a word with Craig?" Kate asked.

Before I could open my mouth Marco did.

"Actually I do mind I bet you are going to be doing more than just talking." Marco said fiercely.

"Temper, temper, my flaming friend. Unless you want the whole L.A to know your gay and bring down the band single handed I suggest you give us our private Space." Kate snapped.

I even kept quiet.

Marco just gave me a cold look before leaving the room.

Kate then laughed and brought the meth. She sat next to me and pushed me back on the bed.

Her eyes were bloodshot she was already high I can tell. Her shirt was exposing her chest and her skirt was really short she could pass as a groupie.

She then got closer to me.

"Here you can only snort this. For today." She smiled at me.

I just got the meth made my lines and began to snort. My nose didn't burn as much as the first time I did it but I did feel a little burn.

In seconds I was just laughing and we began talking and talking.

"I miss Manny I missed the sex too." I said as I began to grab airs of nothing. Kate touched me hand and then looked into my eyes .For a second there I had no idea what I was doing. I just laughed as Kate began talking about something. Soon after I was so out of it I could hardly talk I was just lying there and so was Kate. She then looked up at me.

"Craig is your dick big?" She asked me.

"Huh?" I asked but I knew what she said.

"Is your dick big? I love big dicks." She giggled as she turned and put her head near my dick. Her position made me see her boobs fully and I began to get a little hard.

"Yeah you'll love mine." I laughed as I tried to get up she pushed me back down.

"C'mon Craig let me suck your dick." She smiled.

"No, I no I have a girlfriend." I managed to say.

"So what she doesn't know," She unzipped my pants and pulled them down. "Wont hurt her."

"No Kate I can't." I said but she then pulled down my boxers.

"You know you want it," She then looked down, "Your friend does."

"Kate-"

Before I could say anything her mouth was sucking. She first started sucking soft but then started licking the head. Then began sucking hard.

"Kate, no, c'mon...I-I" My breathing got harder as she began to stroke it with her hands. It felt so good as guilty and as bad as it sounded I had needs. She began to Grab it harder and faster and then I knew it was comeing.

"Kate I-"She then put her mouth over it...

I felt this pang at my heart. I was still high but I don't think I could stop thinking about Manny and how Kate was wiping my come off her mouth in the bathroom just now. I cheated on Manny. I couldn't believe it. The girl I loved. I then knew what I had to do. I reached for my phone and made sure Kate was still in the bathroom. I then called Emma.

"Hello?"

"Hey Em it's um...Craig." I said. Fuck I shoulda waited till I was more leveled.

"Oh hey Craig, how are you I went on this website and your band is doing really good in Cali I can even download your song off-"

"Emma thanks and all but um I need Manny's hotel address and stuff she did give it to you right?" I interrupted her. I admit I did sound rude but sometimes she annoyed me.

"Okay it's.."

She gave me all her info I wrote it all down and it freaked me out how close she was. I then remembered her audition was today! I wonder how it went.

"Is that all?" Emma asked me.

"UM yea...uh thanks um bye have a good one." I hung up.

I then smiled at the information. I then heard the door closed. Kate left. I don't give a fuck right now all I know is tomorrow I am going to see Manny for a surprise visit.

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God I can't believe that I actually thought that I could get that part. That was so stupid, Manny thought as she was making her way through the building to the exit. Her eyes were still very watery, but she dried them with her hand before she went outside. She desperately needed a cigarette. After walking out the doors she leaned against the wall of the building, took out a cigarette, and put it in her mouth. She began searching for something to light it with but couldn't find anything.

"Where the fuck is my lighter?" she said aloud.

She was still searching when a man stepped to her and held his lighter in front of her.

"Need a light?" the man said with a smile. It was the man from earlier. He was very nice looking. Tall, about 6'1, and a nice slender body. He had dirty blonde hair and green eyes.

"Thanks." Manny said after giving him a semi cold look. "You were right. They wanted girls much prettier than me."

"Oh don't listen to me. I was being an asshole back there. I apologize, really."

He seems sincere Manny thought to herself.

"Apology accepted." Manny said as she exhaled smoke.

"I'm Luke." He said as he put out his hand to shake Manny's "Manny, right?"

Manny extended hers "Yea."

"Ya know, you really are beautiful Manny."

"They didn't think so." Manny said as she held her head down.

Luke lifted her chin and looked at her directly.

"You are." He moved his hand, "They were brainless and wanted a girl that looked like a slut. That's not you."

Manny flashed him a smile. "Thanks."

"No need to thank me…Gorgeous."

Manny looked away because she didn't want him to see how much she was smiling.

"You from here." He asked.

"No. I'm from Canada. I'm here on a field trip but my boyfriend got me an audition the same week."

"Where is your boyfriend?"

"He's in a band. They're on tour."

Manny threw down her cigarette to step on it. She walked closer to the street. She turned her head left then right.

"This bus system is so confusing." Manny said while walking back closer to the building.

"Where ya headed?"

"The Hilton."

Luke looked around first. "That's not that far from here. I could give you a ride if you like?"

"Thanks so much." Manny said walking up to him.

"My car is right over there, c'mon."

They walked towards it. His car was the last car on the curb at the corner. It was a black Mercedes.

"Nice car." Manny said stopping to look at it.

"You like it?" He said as he pulled his keys out to press the unlock button.

"Defiantly."

He went to the passenger side and opened the door for Manny. Once she was in he shut it , walked around and got in. He started the car and they drove off.

"What do you do?" Manny asked shifting her body his way.

"I'm a producer."

"Really?" Manny's eyes lit up.

"Well more of a manager."

He reached over Manny's lap to get to the glove compartment. "Excuse me." He said with a grin. Manny smiled innocently.

"That sounds just as good."

"It's a good job. Here's my card." He smiled. "What do you do?"

"Ugh, nothing." Manny said as she sighed loudly, "I don't know how I'm gonna get a job."

"What do you need a job for? I thought you were only going to be here for a week." He asked curiously.

"Welll, ummm, ya see, I'm kinda not going back." Manny said with a small giggle.

"Do you know anybody here?" he said looking at her.

"No. Well my boyfriend, but he's very busy. I still haven't seen him."

"Do you parents know about your decision to stay?"

Manny turned to look out the window. "My dad's dead and my mom doesn't give a fuck."

"Oh sorry about your dad." he said in a soothing tone.

"Well do you have any plans tonight?"

"No. Why?"

"There's a party tonight. A lot of important people will be there. I could introduce you to them."

Manny had a smile from ear to ear. "Oh my God. Are you serious?"

"Yea." He said looking at her.

"Thanks a lot."

"No problem." He responded.

They were at the hotel within 5 or 10 minutes. He pulled up to the doors. Manny got out and turned around to thank Luke once more for the ride.

"Thanks again for the ride. I probably would have never made it back here." Manny said with a smile and a laugh.

"No problem hon. Look can you be ready around 9:30?" He asked leaning on the passenger seat kind of.

"Yea. What should I wear?" She asked throwing her hair out of her eyes.

"Wear something really sexy. Like I said there will be some very important people there."

"O.k." Manny said with a smile.

"Well see you later."

"Bye." Manny said as she closed the car door.

Luke drove off.

MANNY POV

Oh my God. That was so nice of him. I know somebody besides Craig. Hopefully he can help me get a job somehow, I thought as I made my way through the lobby and to the elevators. I was a little tired. I had gotten up early. The elevator came down as soon as I pressed the button. How convenient. I also went straight up to my floor with out any stops. I headed down the hallway to my door. I wonder if J.T. is still in there, I thought right before I opened it. Sometimes I feel awkward around him and other times I feel super comfortable. It's weird. Oh well. I opened the door and he was still there. He was asleep but me walking in woke him. He turned over and looked my way.

"Hey." He yawned.

"Hey." I said closing the door.

"How was your audition?"

He was now sitting all the way up. I went and sat at the corner of the bed on his side.

"I blew it." I said not being as disappointed as I was earlier about it.

"What happened?" J.T. said as he pulled the covers back. He got up and came to sit closer to me.

"I wasn't what they were looking for."

"Oh well. Their loss." J.T. said as he put his arm around me.

"Yea." I got up and began to take my shoes off. J.T. put his arms behind him to support himself.

"What are you doing now?"

"Nothing. Probably just chill."

J.T. just did the whatever nod. Neither one of us were saying anything. J.T. was sitting there and I was still trying to get undressed. He then got up and got his clothes to put them on.

"Well uh I'm gonna head back to my room." He said as he was buttoning his pants.

"O.k." I said looking back at him.

"See ya later."

" Bye."

This was one of those awkward times. I think we both felt as if we should give each other a hug or something but we didn't. He grabbed his shoes and left. I finished undressing and grabbed a t-shirt. I was sleepy so I decided to take a nap. I tried to get it as dark as possible. I put my phone on silent and climbed into bed. I had so many thoughts in my head as I laid there. What I'm gonna do for money, Craig, this new guy and how he could help me, J.T. Hopefully everything works out well. I was asleep not long after. I slept for awhile. The first thing I did was turn over and look at my cell phone. It was 6:00 p.m. already. I must have been tired. Of course I had no missed calls. I threw the covers back as hard as I could. Why wont Craig call me I thought as I got up and walked over to the window. Does he even think about me? I almost got a little emotional but I stopped myself before I got to carried away.I was so hungry. I had not eaten all day. I had no idea what I was going to do about food. I couldn't afford to order anything. I threw on some shorts and went over to my purse to get what ever change I had. After peeking out the door I walked down the hallway to get to the vending machines. I got 2 bags of skittles and a bag of chips. I walked quickly back to my room. When I got in I was a little bored so I turned the t.v. on. That was something that I had done in awhile. It was nice just sitting back and watching t.v. I scarfed down the food I got. I wasn't really that satisfied but it had to do.

RINGGGGGG. My hotel room phone was ringing. I crawled over to the side of the bed it was on and answered it.

"Hello."

"Hey. Whatcha doing?". It was J.T.

"Nothing just watching t.v. What about you?" I asked him.

"Same here. Did you want to go out and do something?" He then asked me. He always seems to care. If I wasn't going to that party I so would have took him up on that offer.

"Oh no I'm probably just gonna chill ya know."

"O.k. well um have fun doing that." He had a little disappointment in his voice I think.

"What are you going to do?" I asked.

"I don't know. I'll think of something."

"O.k. well talk to you later."

"Bye."

"Bye."

I hung up. I felt kind of bad but this party was obviously more important. I watched t.v. and played around for about an hour longer. It was now time for me to start getting ready. God what am I gonna wear? He said something sexy, I thought to myself. I began going through all my clothes. I got the shortest skirt I had. It was black. I didn't know what shirt I was going to wear with it though. I tried on every shirt I had with it. A black halter is what I decided on. Now that I had my outfit together I needed to decide on shoes. That was easy. I went with my black strappy high heel sandals. I went to take a shower. I was pretty quick because I knew my hair was going to take forever. The bathroom had a nice vanity in it. I sat and began on my hair. I wanted it as straight as possible. It took like an hour but that was anticipated. My nails looked so cruddy. Normally I didn't care if they were chipped but I thought that I should do something about it. I didn't have any nail polish remover so I used alcohol swabs instead. It worked just as well. After that I got dressed. I looked really good and I'm not one to give myself compliments. It was only about 9:00 by then. There was still time left to kill. I turned the t.v. on and sat on the bed. I flipped channels for about 25 minutes. After taking one last look at myself and grabbing my clutch I headed outside. I saw some other Degrassi students in the lobby but they didn't notice me. When I got outside Luke was already out there. Oh my God I wonder how long he has been waiting I thought. I walked faster to get to his car. He was on the phone. I waved before I opened the door and got in. His eyes grew when he saw me.

"Let me call you back." He said into his phone then hung it up. He looked at me. "You're perfect."

"Thank you." I smiled. He looked very nice to. This was like my first time hanging out with like a man. I mean Craig is a man but Luke is like 30. "Were you waiting long."

"No, I just pulled up." He responded. His voice was so sexy and grown up. He looked to make sure there were no cars coming and then drove off. We didn't say much at first. He kept getting phone calls. I was listening to the sound of his voice rather that what he was actually saying. When he got off the phone neither one of said anything. It was a little weird. He looked over at me and smiled. I smiled back.

"So, where is this party?" I said to break the silence.

He turned and looked at me for a second then licked his lips. "What?" He said as he blinked his eyes with a slight smirk. I blushed.

"Where is the party?" I smiled.

"Oh It's at my house."

"You left your party to come pick me up?" I asked. That was nice. He could have told me to take a taxi.

He looked in the opposite direction, towards the driver side window and nodded.

"Thanks. That was nice of you." I told him.

"No problem cutie."

I turned away and looked out the window and he continued driving. We were there soon after. He lived in apartments.

"We're here." He said as he parked. We got out basically at the same time. I walked behind him until we got inside the building.

"Hey there." He said to the doorman as we passed him.

"Hello sir." He replied.

I simply waved. I followed Luke into the elevator. It was super quiet in there. He stood against the elevator wall.

"Manny you really are a hot one." he said shaking his head slightly. For some reason I was feeling comfortable around him. As if he was one of my friends.

"Well I'm not the only one." I said smiling at him.

"Woo." He smiled. "A smooth talker to."

His apartment was on the top floor. When the elevator doors opened we walked out and went to the last door at the end of the hallway. Luke looked back at me and grabbed my hand before we went in. This party was so different than any party that I have ever been to. I was used to loud music and high school kids all over each other. Everybody here was dressed nice and weren't doing to much dancing. People were drinking but didn't seem drunk. They were all talking. It was an older crowd. The girls there were all so pretty. They could have been models. Surprisingly the ones that noticed me walk in smiled instead of giving me dirty looks. A lot of the men noticed as well.

"Do you want something to drink?" Luke asked. I didn't know if he meant like are you thirsty or if I wanted a Drink drink.

"Uh sure." I replied. I really didn't want to appear young and stupid around these people. We went over to his bar. He was still holding my hand. He got me a glass of champagne.

"Thank you." I said as he was giving me the glass. I sipped a little. He got himself a glass as well. A man starting walking over towards us. At first I thought he was just coming our way but he was coming to talk with Luke.

"Well hello." The man said stopping right in front of Luke. He had a drink in his hand.

"Hello." Luke responded.

"Nice little get together you got here." The man said as he looked around.

"Yes." Luke replied.

The man turned to my direction, looked at me and smiled. I smiled back. I didn't know what else to do.

"Who is this?" He said pointing at me with his glass kind of.

"This is Manny." Luke said as he put his hand around my waist to introduce me. "Manny this is Sal."

"Hello." I smiled extending my hand. I really wanted to make a good impression.

He took my hand and kissed the top of it.

"Awww." I giggled. "Thank you."

"My pleasure sweetheart." The man said as he let go of my hand.

The mans cell phone rang.

"Excuse me." He said. He put up his finger and walked away.

"He seemed nice. Who was he?" I asked, turning to look at Luke. He was done with his glass. I was almost done with mine.

"Yea he is nice." He turned and got me another glass. "Here have another one."

I drank the rest of what I had and put it down. I took the one he gave me and started sipping on it. I like champagne. For the next 30 minutes I continued to drink and get introduced to a lot of people. Girls and guys. Everyone seemed so nice. I don't know if it was because they just were or because I was slightly buzzed. Maybe a combination of both. Somebody started playing some music. Me and Luke were dancing. Nothing to over the top, just moving. Somebody called his name. They wanted him to come over to them for something.

"I'll be back." He said looking back at them then turning to look at me.

"O.k." I responded.

When Luke walked away I was just standing alone. I didn't feel stupid at all. I must have appeared lonely. Sal walked up to me.

"Hi." I said to him sounding very welcoming.

"Hi." He responded. He came a little closer. "You enjoying yourself?"

"Oh yes. I'm having a great time." I took another sip of my drink.

"What are you going be to doing later?"

"Hmmm I don't know. Something good I hope." I smiled. I may have come off a little loose or something do to the buzz from the champagne.

The guy leaned in even closer. "Well do you uh want to get together?"

"For what?" I smiled. I was clueless to what he was referring to. He laughed.

"Aww honey, I think you know." The man leaned closer to me, reached his hand around and grabbed my ass.

"Ugh" I pushed him away and threw my drink on him. He was shocked. Luke noticed.

"You little bitch." The man said loudly.

I didn't know what to do or say. I just left. When I walked out the door I ran to the elevator. Luke was behind me. I was pushing the elevator button repeatedly wishing that it would hurry up.

"Manny, wait. What happened?" Luke said standing in front of me. I stopped and looked at him.

"You're not really a producer are you?" I said sounding as if I was going to cry. I almost did.

"No. But I can still help you." He said to me.

"Oh yea, help me be a hooker."

He just stood there for a second.

"Look Manny, I'm not gonna candy coat shit for you. It's time to face reality little girl." I turned my head to try to ignore what he was saying but he walked closer and grabbed my arm to get my attention. "What kinda job do you think your gonna get. I guarantee it wont be enough to make it."

I jerked away from him. The elevator finally came.

"I gave you my card." He concluded and then walked off.

I stepped in the elevator. The doors closed and I went down to the last floor.

"Have a nice evening ma'am." The doorman said to me. I didn't respond. I was alone walking some L.A. sidewalk.

I can't believe I actually fell for that producer bullshit. I'm such a fucking idiot. He was a pimp and all those girls were prostitutes, I thought to myself as I continued walking. I had no idea where I was. As much as I hated it I needed to take a taxi. I flagged one down and got in.

"Could you take me to the Hilton please?" I said to the driver. We drove. When we got there he told me that it was 25 dollars. I had to pay him. I went up to my room unseen, thank God. I took off my shoes and threw them across the room. I got into bed without even changing and hugged my pillow tightly.

"Craig." I cried. "I need you more than ever." I continued. I cried myself to sleep.

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So what did u think?well hope u like! So remember Starduss helped me so give her credit too! the next chappy isgonne be so much cranny! so was it intense!Well please review! Well i didnt forget ur sneek peeks so here they r:

With this drug in my body and in his I wanted more of him.As he threw me on the bed he began ripping my clothes off and i began to rip his off.His tounge was battling mine as our breathing began faster and heaviier.Craig was only in hsi boxers and me in my bra and panties.He wasted no time and with one hand snapped my bra off.

"Craig...do you-"

But before I could say anything his boxers were off my panties were off and he began to go inside me.

XX

"Manny" Craig cried, "How could you do this?" He put his arm against the wall and leaned his head against it.
I was standing there crying just as hysterically as he was.
"Craig." I tried several times to get out what I had to say. "Craig, Craig, I-"
"How could you do this? I fuckin love you so much Manny." He yelled.

XX

My world was spinning around I knew I took so much Marco came up to me.

"Craig are you okay?"He asked seriously.

"UM yea let's just do this thing um where are we performing at?"I asked him.

"UM dude we aren't performing...we are on break you just came back from being with Manny."

I looked at him an dher name and I bgean to cry as hard as I could."I am going to call her back!I need her!"