Hello readers! Are you still there? I wouldn't blame you if you weren't. I have been the absolute WORST EVER author to join the fan fiction world. Seriously? I've been gone for basically FOUR FREAKING YEARS! I can't believe you all haven't found me yet to kill me. I would've.
Ok so basically this is the reason I haven't been writing. High school you guys seriously took away what little social life I had. Sophomore Year was absolute hell. I was constantly working on some form of project or otherwise. Then summer came and I would say, "This is the year I get back to writing." Then life got in the way and I had no free time. Then Junior Year happened. College prep time! I seriously was on a constant "Don't fucking break down mode." Then I joined Theater! That was another hell of fake itches who thought they were better and a teacher who believed he could give us writing essays to top all the other writing essays from English. Then, family drama got in my life. Not going to go into that because I'm still stuck in that.
Then summer came, along with summer school. Hey, I needed to have that wonderful free class everyone's been talking about. It's just four weeks, no biggie. Enter face palm. No summer for me thank you. Then Senior Year reared its ugly head.
College applications. Parents breathing down my neck to get good grades. Teachers constantly saying "Don't forget this thing for college you must do. Don't forget that thing for college you must do. Blah blah blah."
Guess what. You know that one kid in class that says they are on top of shit and won't lag behind, but always wait till the last minute? Yep, you're looking at her. While all my friends were being smart and applied for FAFSA early, I waited till April. My friends applied for scholarships. I applied for none. Friends toured campuses, I listened all about they're visits. I toured one campus, and that was for a freaking school field trip I wasn't even supposed to go on. Thank you best friend telling me about it and thank you very nice teacher for letting me highjack your trip. Friends took advanced and honors classes to look good for college apps. Haha, nope, not me no sir.
Don't worry though, I finally got my head out of my ass, went online, applied for FAFSA, got accepted into college, paid closer attention to my grades and test scores, and started turning in homework on time. I grew the fuck up, put on my big girl panties, and somehow (I still don't know how) found my self graduating with honors. It sure was a rollercoaster ride I won't ever forget.
Ok, that was the long heart felt excuse to get you guys to calm down. Are you calm? If not, sorry! So sorry! Here's the bottom line, I got LAZY! I'm sorry but it's true. All the things I said prior were part of why I wasn't updating, but this last bit is the major benefactor. When I joined this site, I was a young fifteen year old who didn't have a care in the world. Seriously, I remember saying relieved I was to survive Freshman Year. I would like to go back to freshman me and punch her in the face! Fifteen year old me was stupid, and honestly guys, a horrible writer. (I reread my story and cringed at how much I was basically copying the same sentence over again.) As I got older, I started to open a Word Doc and just stare at a blank page trying to find the passion in me to start writing again, it never came. So, I just used this site to read other author's amazing work. I stopped going to my home page, not wanting to see the grammatical errors and seeing the hopeful reviews of you amazing readers. You guys really, thank you for sticking by me, if you still are. I actually got a notification the other day that someone added my story to their favorites. Thanks! I don't know what you guys saw or see in me, but thank you!
But you guys, I'm going to fix this. I will. Even though school is starting for me in a week. I WILL FIX THIS. You can me mad at me, I understand. It's has been nearly four years. Please don't be mad forever. I don't know when I'm going to update, I need to imagine where I'm going with my stories, but they will be coming. Because guess what.
I'M BACK.