Might be bad. Read at your own risk.
I'm a block from the Dot. I've been a block from the Dot for at least 10 minutes. It's past the time I was supposed to meet him by at least 10 minutes. He probably thinks I ditched him. I don't want him to hate me. "Suck it up, Harper." I mumble, before pushing past my fear. I speed walk the rest of the way, faster than I've moved since that day with Maddie. I haven't been this motivated in a long time.
The Dot is packed. In the short time I've been here, it's become obvious that all anyone does is go to the Dot. They should make it a class. I pull open the door and head in, despite the screams of Old Harper. Old Harper would never apologize or set things right; she'd just run.
Adam is sitting at a table in the back. I head over there. He doesn't see me, he's totally involved in reading something. Probably a comic book. That's almost all he and Eli ever do.
I sit down at the table. "Hi." I smile hesitantly. It's an embarrassed smile. An "oh wow, you must think I'm a creep for kissing you" smile.
His head shoots up so fast I think he must get whiplash. "Um, hey. Did you, uh, get my messages?" he asks.
I would laugh, if it wasn't so awkward. "Uh, yeah. Dude, there were 9 of them."
He flushes. "Well, you kissed me." he says, with a sort of triumphant tone. Like I'm weirder for that. Which I probably am.
Now I actually do laugh. "Okay, can we forget that? It's different in California." I lie not-so smoothly. Let Adam think that people kiss every one within 5 feet of them in California. Better than thinking I like him. Which I do, but that's none of his business. "We just do that. To everyone."
His face contorts into a look of utter disbelief. "Harper, I don't think I can just forget it. I'm pretty sure that that's more contact than Eli and Clare will ever have." he laughs dryly.
We are not fricking Eli and Clare! I want to scream, but there's no point. I get what he means: Clare and Eli are that couple. The example couple among sophomores. That couple that everyone else is compared to. Chad and I were that couple, just in a different way. Clare and Eli actually like each other; we just looked cool.
I sigh. I can't deal with this; talking isn't one of my strong suits. "Adam, just…please. This is my free pass. We all get passes, like homework passes. You get one and I get one, and this is mine. So deal with it." I snap.
He looks slightly hurt and a little part of me knows that I've gone to far down the path of bitchiness again, but I'll try to restrain myself. For him. He nods. "Okay. For now. But, Harper, we can't just push it aside. We can't run from it. It'll catch us eventually."
Then it hits me. The one time I tried to not run, and face my fear, I just created another problem to run from. I inhale deeply and my lungs shudder a bit. I know what I have to do. "No, we can talk about it now. I'm ready. I'm done hiding." I take a breath. "Adam, I …"
Author's note
Hey my readers! I'm sorry I haven't updated in FOREVER! I've been busy with school and stuff….8th grade sucks :=(. But I'm gonna try and update every day or two. And for anyone who reviewed that I didn't reply to, I'm so sorry! My computer is very persnickety and it shuts down every time I try and send any message, including Instant Messages, emails, and FanFic messages. But I'll try and respond whenever I can. So please read and review!
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