Besides for avoiding Manny all day I had also been avoiding Jay like the plague. I just couldn't face him. The guilt was too much for me right now. Just my luck the second I run out of the school I would literally run right into him. Just GREAT.

"Sorry" he mumbles really softly and doesn't even look up at me when he does. It's weird seeing him this way. So scared, so sad, so UN-Jay. He tries to walk away really fast toward his car, but I'll be damned if I let it end this way.

"Jay, hold up. Why are you acting so weird around me?" Like I didn't already know.

"Emma…Can we not do this" That was the first time he's ever called me by my real name. It kinda scares me to see that.

"Not do what?" Oh we were gonna do this even if he didn't want to. Last thing I needed as the new Emma was to feel bad for JAY.

"This" motions his hands in between himself and me "talking about…don't make me say it." Wow it really bothered him.

"You mean us having sex." I said it so plain and with no feeling. I think this caught him off guard because he had this shocked look on his face. It was Priceless.

"Yeah…that. Well, if that's what you wanna call it."

"Yeah, that's what I call it. Why wouldn't I?" I think I just wanted to push him.

"I don't know, maybe because you were YELLING AT ME TO HURT YOU!" Maybe I should have left it alone.

"Oh, that."

"Yeah, that. Emma…I'm so sorry, okay." Wow he's apologizing, but WHY?

"NO! You can't be sorry. You didn't do anything I didn't ask you to."

"Exactly! I should've stopped, I should've… I should've…" he just stopped talking and began to walk away again. This time faster, like he was determined to reach his car before I got a chance to speak. I wasn't going to let it end this way. I hate to say it, but I need Jay. He takes me away from the old Emma. I know that with him there I can't revert back.

"Jay, wait!" I walk up real close to him now. "Let me make it up to you. Let me make it fun for you this time." I owed it to him and I needed it to feel something other than regret and guilt.

"Emma…" Right before he gets to give me his answer Alex walks up to us. Good thing too. There was a little bit too much tension in the air.

"So Jay, where are we going anyway?" Those were the first things out of her mouth before noticing me standing just a little too close to Jay.

"Did I interrupt something? When you saw me on Saturday you didn't tell me you and Jay were a thing."

"Were not." Both Jay and I said it in unison. For about a millisecond we shared this awkward look. Thank God Alex was there to interrupt it.

"O…Kay. So Greenpeace, you coming with us or what?"

"Sure on one condition."

"What?" She said with a curious smirk

"No more calling me Greenpeace."

"Okay…EMMA, so you coming or not?"

"Coming." I smile at Alex and Jay gives me this weird look. It's not exactly pissed, but it's not friendly either. Me and Alex walk the rest of the way to the car and get in. Jay is still standing there in that same spot just staring blankly.

I'm gonna have to do something special for him. And who knows it might also end up being special for me.