Hey guys! I'm so unbelivably sorry i haven't updated in a few weeks =[ college has been kicking my ass!!!!! It's bad times I tell you! Anyway, i hope you like the next bit and i WILL be updating this weekend as well! =] Reviews make my day ... even if because of my poor absence i don't deserve them !!!!!

It takes place about a week after i last updated ... and I have no idea what the address for the trailer is so ... ignore that bit LOL!

Meredith stared down at the blood covering her gloves, feeling the tears sting her eyes. This shouldn't have happened. Silence pressed against her ears and her eyes shifted to look down at the helpless face of the little boy they couldn't save. This shouldn't have happened ... and all at once 6 days of pure stress seemed to hit her.

"Meredith?" She heard someone say. She looked up slowly, realizing everybody was looking at her ... everybody. Hahn, Bailey, Izzie, Cristina ... her eyes moved up to the gallery where Lexie and George were too looking down at her. It was too much ... it was all so much. Meredith turned in one swift movement and ran as fast as her legs would take her. She didn't know where she was going, but standing still didn't seem like the thing to do. She wasn't even aware she was getting into her car until she'd turned the key. The headlights shot on, lighting up an unusually deserted car park and she drove. She drove to the only place she knew was powerful enough to take her mind off the bad week she had had. Derek's mother was ... a mixture of Derek and Nancy ... and Meredith hadn't worked out whether that was good or not. She could be the nicest person in the world, and then turn around and tell Meredith how much it would change when the baby came and they lived alone. Meredith knew she wasn't being intentionally hurtful ... but sometimes her words hurt.

She settled down on the grass and snuggled up inside an old coat Derek had left in her car. The view of their land could always make her forget everything and anything. It had lost some of its charm at the moment because of all the building work going on, but she didn't look at that. She just watched the city go on as usually without her.

"Meredith?" Derek's voice broke the tranquility. She looked around and smiled warmly at him. "What are you doing up here? It's freezing ..." He came and sat down by her.

"That little boy died ..." She said quietly.

"Oh ... I'm sorry ..."

She shook her head and felt a few free tears fall on her cheeks. "He just ... died, Derek ... and we couldn't do anything and he just died ..." A sob escaped her and she dropped her head into her hands, not complaining when Derek pulled her into his arms and kissed her head.

"Are you okay, Meredith? This week ... you've been ... I know my mom can be a lot but she won't be here forever ..." Derek kissed her temple.

"I know ... I'm sorry I've been all ... weird ... this week ... I guess I don't do the whole mom thing ..." Derek laughed. "Weird considering I'll be one in ooh about ... 4 months!"

"Yeah ... and in about 4 months ... that's when you'll do the mom thing ..." He smiled sweetly and Meredith couldn't resist kissing his lips.

"If I loved you any more than I do right now Cristina would disown me ..." She giggled, and he pulled her closer, tickling her. For a while they just sat there, enjoying the view and just being with each other. Derek sighed and got up finally, pulling Meredith with him. "Ooh! Can we take a peak at the house before we go? Please?!" Meredith said excitedly. Derek had been the only one to see what the house looked like because of it being a building site.

"Meredith, it's dangerous! We can't go in there ..." He hesitated.

"Oh stop being such a kill joy! If twenty 200 pound men work in here every single day me and you aren't gonna do any harm!" She giggled, skipping as best she could to the door. Derek shook his head and followed along.

"Fine but only the downstairs!"

They stepped inside, and looked around thoroughly, but it was almost impossible to see in the darkness. From what Meredith could tell it was coming along really nicely. She bit her bottom lip and ran her hands up the ladders that lead upstairs. Derek Immediately shook his head. "NO! Meredith we can't go up there it's not safe!"

"Oh Derek! Where's your sense of adventure! It's not gonna hurt! I just wanna look at the view from our room ... and then I'm done! Promise!" She shook her shoulders and pressed her smiling lips together. She looked so excited and happy for the first time in days, Derek didn't have the heart to stop her ... after all ... she was right about the 200 pound builders ...

"One look! And then we're going!" He said, smiling to himself when she squealed with joy and made her way up the ladder. The floor creaked beneath them as they made their way towards what would eventually be the balcony from their bedroom and suddenly Meredith thought maybe it wasn't such a bright idea them being up there. She put her hand on her stomach protectively and turned back to Derek.

"Maybe this-" she started but her sentence was cut off by a sound that made her heart stop. She watched him fall, only briefly aware she was screaming his name as the floor collapsed beneath him. "DEREK!" She moved quickly but landed her foot too hard and felt the floor beneath her break. Her reaction was instinct as she wrapped her arms around her bump and closed her eyes tight. She felt her body crash to the floor and then ... darkness.

Meredith didn't know how long she had blacked out for. She coughed and sat up slowly, groaning in pain. Her head was throbbing; she brought her hand up to it to feel sticky blood all down the side of her face. She turned slowly to see Derek lying not too far from her. "Derek!" She called frantically, crawling on all fours towards him. "Oh God, Oh God, Oh god ..." she croaked, trying to hold back the sobs. He was lying flat on his back with a pool of blood surrounding his head. His eyes were closed. Pulse was weak ... but it was there, at least. She fumbled for the cell phone in her pocket and pulled off the fleece she was wearing and draped it over him.

"911 Emergency." A woman answered the call quickly.

"Hi! I need, I need an ambulance right away!" She cried.

"Okay ma'am, calm down. Can you tell me what's happened?"

"It's – it's my boyfriend ... he ... we fell ... we're at our house and he fell ... he's lost a lot of blood I think ... I can't see much ... his pulse is weak ..."

"Okay, what's your name honey?" The operator asked kindly.

"Meredith! Meredith Grey." Her lips wobbled as she spoke. "The house ... It's being built! I don't ... Derek he sorted out all the address and everything ... I don't know it!" She panicked.

"Okay, okay! Calm down, Meredith ... I need you to listen to me ... I'm gonna be able to trace your cell but if you can give me any sort of road or clue as to where you are ..."

"W-Windomere ... it's a turning into the woods in Windomere Drive ... It's not far from the docks ..."

"Okay, I know where you mean, there's an ambulance not far from you ... they'll be with you in less than ten minutes, Meredith!" The line went dead as at Meredith's ear.

"Oh ... please be okay ... please be okay ... please be okay ..." She picked up his hand and kissed it gently.

Finally after what felt like 3 years, but really couldn't have been more than 5 minutes, she heard the ambulance siren in the distance. She longed to run out to them, to help them get to Derek quicker, but she couldn't move her body from where it was. "In Here! Help! In Here!" She shouted. Within seconds two paramedics ran in to her with torches. She sighed in relief, thanking god silently in her head. They'd fix him ... they'd have too.