Chapter Ten

Sakura Blossoms

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The school day had ended, and all Kagome had to show for those hours spent at that school was a few doodles on a piece of paper. The day had been hazy, and she couldn't really remember doing anything. She hadn't talked to anybody. Hadn't looked at anybody, at least not while knowing it. Even during lunch she just sort of drifted around. Her mind was busy thinking of other things…mostly whether or not Inuyasha would once again come for her, or just leave her behind.

"Kagome! Wait up!" Yuka yelled as she ran after Kagome, Eri and Ayumi trailing behind her. Kagome was picking up the pace, desperate to get away from her nosy friends. No doubt they were going to know something was wrong, and were going to bug her until she told them the whole story. But how could she? They didn't even know about her going the Feudal Era, that Inuyasha was a hanyou, and that Inuyasha wasn't even her boyfriend. Though…she had let them think he was…which she realized was a big mistake. She wanted to pour her heart out to her friends, she wanted somebody to tell her its ok, that she would be ok, and that things would get better. But…how could she?

"Kagome! Jeez, you couldn't stop power walking for a second? We practically had to sprint to catch up to you!" Eri panted as she fell into pace with Kagome. She slowed down, starting to feel bad for being like that with her friends.

"Sorry, guess I was just thinking." Kagome said as she continued walking home with her friends.

"Kagome, what's wrong? You've been looking totally depressed today! But you don't seem sick…I know! Did something happen with your boyfriend, Inu…Inuyasha?" Ayumi asked, for a fleeting moment forgetting Kagome's "boyfriend's" name. Kagome stopped in her tracks, casting her gaze to the floor.

Ugh! There's just no getting away from him!

"He's…not…my boyfriend…" Kagome said through clenched teeth, feeling anger swell inside her, with a tinge of embarrassment.

How could I let them think he was my boyfriend? God I'm so dumb sometimes. Well he sure did act like he was my boyfriend whenever Kouga was around…but never mind that! I've just gotta get away from them.

"WAIT! SO YOU GUYS BROKE UP?"

"WHO BROKE UP WITH WHO?"

"OH MY GOD KAGOME HOW COULD YOU NOT TELL US? SO WHAT'S THE DEAL? COME ON COME ON SCOOP!" Yuka and Eri both excitedly yelled, while Ayumi just patiently waited for Kagome to say something.

"Ok! OK! Argh. He's…not my boyfriend…and he never was really." Kagome said, her face flushing in embarrassment. Her friend's jaws dropped in surprise.

"W-WHAAAT? But he's so protective of you! And so jealous! I thought for sure he was like in love with you!" Eri said as she stood in front of Kagome, trying to look her in the eyes, but Kagome was avoiding her gaze.

Kagome sighed. Slightly frustrated at where this was going, and worn out from all the stress her situation was already putting on her.

"He's only jealous because he's that kind of guy…it's not anything special towards me. And…he's…kind of in love with someone else. So, I've just decided to stay away from him." She said as she twirled her hair in her fingers, looking fascinated by it. Kagome was surprised at how easily she said that, without even breaking down or tears swelling in her eyes. She…didn't feel anything. Anger. Sadness. Envy. Happiness. Nothing.

"Oh Kagome, I'm so sorry…are…are you…in love with him?" Ayumi cautiously asked, hoping Kagome would truthfully answer. All three of her friends figured that's why Kagome was in such a daze, but they wanted to know to what extent her feelings for Inuyasha went.

Kagome stopped twirling her hair around her finger, her raven hair still tangled around it, and looked up at her friend's sympathetic eyes.

Nothing.

"No…I don't think so. I guess I just liked him is all." She said, her voice never betraying what she said. Inside, inside she knew she loved him deeply. But she just wanted to forget. Forget everything about the Feudal Era. Everything just hurt her. So wouldn't it be better if she just tucked away her love for Inuyasha away until it just faded away? And then…she could be happy.

Even though once again, she felt nothing, it didn't surprise her this time. That was how she wanted it. That way the pain couldn't reach her.

"Good! That way you can easily get over that jerk! Gosh, who does he think he is jerking you around like that?" Yuka said, anger burning in her eyes. "Come on, Kagome! We're gonna treat you to a second lunch!" She said as she pulled Kagome by the arm, storming down the sidewalk. Eri and Ayumi followed.

Kagome just let herself be pulled, she felt like being with her friends. She missed them, she really had. Being in the Feudal Era, she didn't get to see them much.

Well at least now, I can spend more time with my friends.

She let a small smile tug at the side of her lips.

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"Inuyasha!" He turned around; he was in Kagome's era, and in a park. It was really green, and there were sakura blossoms littering the air. He saw Kagome standing next to a big water fountain, the air swaying her hair across her cheeks and shoulders. She smiled at him, and he felt himself smiling too. Looking at her, her hair flowing and the sakura blossoms twirling around her, he thought she looked like a goddess. Untouchable.

"Inuyasha! Are you coming? Come on!" She held out her hand, it looked so near but so far away. He started running towards her, reaching his hand out to touch hers, he wanted to feel her so bad. So close, so close, his hand was just inches from hers, but he wasn't getting any closer. He felt himself coming closer, but Kagome going farther away.

"Why are you taking so long Inuyasha?" Kagome asked sadly, letting her hand fall next to her side. Her eyes swelled with tears and she turned around, walking away.

"Kagome! Kagome! Wait! COME BACK!" He yelled, trying to run after her, but he wasn't getting any further. He couldn't stop her, and all he could do was watch as her delicate figure was disappearing into the sakura blossoms.

"Please come back Kagome…! I-I LOVE YOU! I…I love you!" He yelled at the top of his lungs, dropping to his knees, desperate to make her stay.

"I…love you?" He whispered to himself. Inuyasha's eyes lifted from the ground to look at Kagome, but he saw nothing. Only sakura blossoms swirling in the wind.

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Inuyasha woke up in a sweat; he wiped his forehead with the back of his hand.

"What in the hell did that mean?" He said to himself. Inuyasha looked around Kaede's hut, seeing everyone soundly asleep.

What? What did that mean…I can't love her…can I?

"No way!" He said as he crossed his arms against his chest. Deciding it was just a stupid dream. But the image of her walking away kept flashing in his mind, causing him frustration.

Still…I do miss having her around… His thoughts crossed to what happened the last night. What did she mean?…Argh why doesn't anything make sense anymore? He furrowed his brows in frustration. Am I some sort of nuisance to her? Causing her pain? But…I don't mean to! That's the last thing I want to do…

He hated it when she was sad, unhappy, in pain…and he wanted to rip apart whoever did it. But what could he do when it was himself inflicting that horrible pain?

Goddamn it! But I still don't know what I even did! I hate this. It's tearing me apart. Does that mean…that I love Kagome?

Inuyasha stood up and grabbed his Tetsusaiga. He pushed the bamboo flap out of the way and walked outside. And he kept on walking until he reached the Thousand Year Tree. The whole time, he was walking. He almost never walked…he always ran, never thinking. But now he had so many thoughts, and every time he tried to sort them out he was just left more confused.

He walked up the tree, his favorite tree, though nobody knew it, and put a hand against its bark, the place where he had been sealed away for fifty years. His lips twitched slightly and formed a small smile. This was where he and Kagome first met.

It was weird.

Usually, the first thing that would come to mind would be Kikyo whenever he was around the tree…but not now, not this time.

I…really do love Kagome. That must be it. That's the reason he feels so empty when she's gone. That's the reason he wants to kill whoever causes her the slightest of misery. That's the reason he can't stand of another guy to be with her. That's why…it was so clear now.

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welll...semi-fluffy? eh?

XD hehe well i haven't been in a good mood lately

stuff just sucks. so it was hard not to write more depressing stuff...

but i've sorta got an idea of what im gonna make happen

but hope you enjoyed!

and SUPER SORRY for the waitt! well if you were ancy :