After my talk with Rose she convinced me to eat something, shower and drink lots of water. I was exhausted even after walking to the shower. I felt so much better after I got food in my system. But it didn't heal the pain I was having in my heart… my family didn't want me to be with the only person I could… would, ever love. Rose was the only one I really spoke too over the next week. I didn't speak to anyone if I could avoid it. Rose was practically living at my house, making sure I was okay. A few days before school started dad and I went to Diagon Alley to get all my stuff for the new year. Everything went smoothly and I was secretly hoping that Scorp would be here, but he wasn't… I was starting to believe what Rose had said by the time I was boarding the Hogwarts Express to start my fourth year. Maybe he just wasn't allowed to contact me… I searched the train for him and found him in a back compartment.

"Hey," I said as I slipped into the compartment and sat opposite him.

"Oh hi Albus," He gave a quick smile then went back to reading a book he was holding. It was awkward and Scorp was acting like nothing had ever happened. It tore my heart into pieces and I felt like I was going to collapse right there and then.

"So, how was the rest of your holiday?" I asked, hoping he would speak.

"Yeah… alright," He didn't look up from the book as he spoke. "Yours?" He glanced up quickly and then continued reading.

"Oh, they were fucking brilliant!" I snapped.

"Whoa, settle down! I think my swearing has rubbed off onto you a little bit eh?" He gave an awkward laugh.

"What's going on Scorpius?"

"Nothing… I'm sitting here reading…" He said stupidly.

"You know what I mean! Didn't the holidays mean anything to you?" I asked desperate to know what was wrong.

"Of course they did, I spent a good five days of it with you, and we had an awesome time," He smiled up at me.

"Well…?"

"Well what?"

"About what happened…? I don't know if…"

"Don't worry about it, I won't tell anyone," My heart was dumped into a bucket of lava, then that bucket was thrown into a volcano and then the volcano erupted and spat my heart back out… well that's what it felt like anyway.

The rest of the train ride was quiet, but that's only because half-way through it Arista came in and was already all over Scorp, he didn't seem to mind so I left to find Rose. When I found her she knew something had happened and let me sit with her and her friends until we got to Hogwarts and rode the carriages up to the castle. I sat next to Lorcan through dinner and didn't even look at Scorp; I usually wouldn't have taken my eyes off of him but seeing as he was constantly flirting with Arista I didn't even peek at him.

I didn't sleep well that night either. I stayed awake listening to the breathing of the boys and I could pick out Scorp's right away. Why was he pretending like nothing had happened? He never wrote to me, or even spoke to me alone… I finally fell into an uneasy sleep.

I was running. I didn't know what from but I was in a panic. I turned a corner and came to a dead end street. I spun to look at my attacker to see Scorp standing there, wand drawn.

"What are you doing?" I asked shakily. I put my hand into my pocket to get my wand.

"Don't even think about it Potter!" Scorpius spat and I dropped my hand.

"What are you doing?" I asked again.

"You know exactly what I'm doing! I told you, we can never be together!" He screamed.

"Why…? What happened? I thought you loved me! You even said it!" I cried.

"Lies, Potter! Are you really that stupid to believe that I, Scorpius Malfoy, would love you, Albus Potter!" He let out a shrill laugh.

"But… but you said… you said that you love me!" I sobbed.

"Pathetic. You really thought that I loved you?" He questioned.

"Well… yes Scorp… I did,"

"DON'T CALL ME THAT! Now listen Potter, and listen well. I hate you. If you come near me again, it'll be the end of you, you hear me?" He turned to leave.

"I'll still love you Scorpius…" I sighed. He spun and threw his wand back and swung it forward.

"AVADA KEDAVRA!" I saw a green light come straight towards me and just before it hit me I woke up screaming.

"Whoa… Al, are you okay?" I looked up to see Lorcan sitting on the end of my bed.

"It was just a dream?" I flinched as he put his hand out to rest it on my shoulder.

"Yeah mate… a pretty freaky one if you ask me, you were tossing and turning…" He gave me a questioning look but didn't ask.

My day was filled with little conversation, boring classes and jealousy. Arista was now holding hands with Scorpius every chance she got and he seemed to kind of like it… I wanted to walk up and punch her out, but I knew that 1. I'd most likely get expelled and 2. She's a girl. I didn't even bother talking or attempting to talk to Scorpius. I remember my dad once saying "If you love someone, fight for them" but right now that seemed useless. What was the point in fighting for them if they didn't want you to? I was sitting in front of the fire in the Slytherin common room after a hard day of avoiding Scorpius… it was right about now that I was really wishing I never asked to be into Slytherin.

"…then it was soooo amazing, you should have seen it. He leant forward and kissed me!" I heard a girl screech behind me and all her friends cooed and 'awwww-ed' I wanted to go into my room and snuggle under my blankets and have a good sulking session but that thought was instantly wiped from my mind when I heard what the girls that were behind me said.

"So, is it official?" One asked.

"Maybe… well I was kinda hoping that tomorrow he'll ask me out!" The one telling the story said.

"Oh-My-God. You two are the most adorable couple ever! I mean, Scorpy is soooo handsome!" She cooed.

My blood boiled and I was about to snap, I could feel the rage swelling inside me like a massive balloon. Scorpius… was with… ARISTA? OF ALL PEOPLE! HE CHOSE HER?

"I know right? He's so strong and handsome, tall and gorgeous-"

"SHUT UP! JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU STUPID WHORE!" I screamed as I advanced on Arista.

"Whoa, settle down Potter, what the hell!" She complained.

"I'll send you to hell you evil little cow!" I growled and then before I did anything worse I stormed off into my bedroom, as I walking up the stairs I heard her say 'I bet it's because he likes me'.

I dropped onto my bed and started punching my pillow to hopefully vent out some of my anger. It wasn't really helping. I started hitting my pillow as hard as I could.

"Stupid!" hit.

"Fucking!" hit.

"Bitch!" hit.

"Who's a stupid bitch?" I heard someone say.

"Oh… I didn't know anyone was in here…" I said in reply.

"Eh, I don't really want to be in the common room. Parkinson is annoying me with all her talking about Scorp, asking me stupid crap about if he likes her," Lorcan said as he walked over and sat on my bed.

"Yeah… I know exactly what you mean." I said quietly. "Does he?" I asked in hopefully a casual manner.

"Wouldn't know… barely talk to him anymore, he's got that retard hanging off him every second of the day. I only really hang with Zach now…" He said back just as casual.

"Yeah… I don't really see much of him either… well obviously I see him, but I mean I just don't hang with him much anymore…"

"Hey… didn't he spend the summer at your house?" He asked.

"Yeah… why?"

"Did you guys get into an argument or something? You guys were practically joined at the hip before summer and now you guys are barely ever seen together…"

My heart thumped loudly in my chest… shit. What do I say? I racked my brain for ideas.

"Nah, we didn't get into a fight… I dunno… I guess he's just starting to notice girls?" I lied as best I could.

"More like notice Arista and all her glory of desperation."

I laughed. For the fist time in… forever… I laughed.

"I'm glad I'm not the only one who hates her," I smiled.