ANTI-STUPID part 10

SPOILERS- LOCOMOTIVES

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BEFORE

"Gil, that was lovely, thank you," Sara smiled as she leant back in her chair.

"That's okay honey. Why don't you go and sit in the living room and I'll bring in the coffee," Grissom said as he stood and gathered together their dirty plates.

Sara gave him a puzzled look, normally she would be the one to clear away and make the coffee.

"Gil?" she asked as she stood up from the table.

"Go on, I've got it covered." Grissom gave her a gentle push in the direction of the living room. He watched her walk away, a look of sadness on his face. When Sara had disappeared from sight he turned to the coffee machine and quickly set about making their drinks. In the background he could hear that Sara had put on a CD. With a sigh he picked up their drinks and walked into the living room. Sara was sat on the couch, legs curled up to the side.

"Here you go," he handed her one of the mugs of coffee.

"Thanks," Sara took the offered coffee and gave him a small smile. "You okay?"

Grissom quietly sat down on the other end of the couch, staring into his own coffee mug. He gave another sigh.

"Gil, you're scaring me," Sara said in a quiet voice. She placed her drink down on the coffee table and turned to face her husband.

Grissom looked up and caught her eye.

"Sara," he started to say but then paused, how the hell can I tell her, he thought.

Grissom leaned over and gently tucked a strand of hair behind Sara's ear. He left his hand on her shoulder.

"Honey," he started again. "I'm going away. Williams College has asked me to do a course on May flies and I've agreed to do it."

Sara sat there silent taking in what her husband had just said.

"Oh"

"It's only for a month, honey, not long." Grissom carried on, not really looking at Sara. If he had, he would have seen a look of hurt tinged with anger.

"How long?" she asked her voice tight with emotion.

"Only a month, I did just say!"

"I didn't mean that." Sara said as she stood up and started pacing the room, arms crossed over her chest. "I meant just how long ago did you decide this?"

Grissom finally looked up at Sara and saw all the hurt he had caused her again.

"A couple of weeks ago. It's not because of us Honey, you mean everything to me. Everything else is just getting to me, you know that."

"Yes I do," Sara ran a hand through her hair. "It's just I can't believe that you haven't mentioned this before. I seriously thought that you were past all of this. We are meant to be married Gil!"

"Sara, I am past that. I just knew that I had to get away from work and this is the ideal opportunity."

Sara gave a heavy sigh.

"When do you leave?" she asked sadly.

"Next week." Grissom stood up and walked over to take Sara into his arms.

"What?! You wait until a week before you leave to drop it on me! I suppose everybody at the lab knows." Sara moved away wanting to put as much distance between them as she could.

"I'm sorry; I just didn't know how to tell you." Grissom stood there staring at Sara, knowing that there wasn't much he could do to make her feel any better. "Nobody at work knows. I wouldn't do that to you."

Sara stood there and gave him a sad look, tears in her eyes.

"Look, we will talk later. I'm going to go into work. I can't do this right now." She told him as she turned away.

Grissom followed her down the hallway, watching her collect together all of her things that she needed for work.

"Sara, I love you." He said when she stood at the front door.

Sara turned at the sound of his voice; she gave him a small tight lipped smile and a very small nod. Then she was out of the door heading for her car and the lab.

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AFTER

Grissom sat in his office just staring at his lap top, a haunted look on his face. He didn't hear the door close or the gentle footsteps walking across the room towards his desk.

Sara stood there for a moment, tears in her eyes. She had never seen her husband so affected by anything before. She laid a soft hand on his shoulder, whispering his name softly.

It took a few minutes for Grissom to realize that somebody was stood next to him, let alone that it was Sara and she was saying his name. He finally looked up, his eyes full of pain.

"Sara,"

Sara stepped closer to him and wrapped both of her arms around him.

"Shh. Its okay, it's over." With that she reached a hand down, turned off his lap top and shut it. Grissom had no further need to see the dead body of Ernie Dell.

"It is, isn't it?" Grissom whispered, still held in her arms. "I should feel relieved that he won't kill again but I don't. I just feel…….. I don't know I can't explain it Sara."

"Gil, this whole miniature killer business has got to you far more than any other case I have ever seen you work. Then the case with the two boys. It's too m much," Sara paused, "You need to go away. As much as it hurts me, I know that you need to do it because if you don't you'll burn out and I'm afraid that I'll loose you forever if that happens."

Grissom wrapped his arms around her waist, breathing in her scent.

"Thank you," he told her. "Believe me when I say it is nothing to do with us. It is totally to do with work."

Sara loosened her arms and knelt down so that she could look into his eyes.

"I do believe you. Now will you let me take you home?" she asked.

With a sigh he gave her a small nod and stood up. Sara joined him, her hand stilling his when he reached for his lap top.

"Leave it here. You don't need it at home."

"Okay."

Grissom walked to the door, closely followed by Sara. Thankfully the lab was empty, so nobody saw them leave, Sara's hand in his offering him all of her love and support.

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