Chapter 10: Her Story Unfold

Rin stepped into the room that she had been in for the past few days. Sesshoumaru had come back to his castle, unharmed. She knew that he would be, given his powers, but she still fear for him just as she had always had every time he gone out.

She walked over to the dripping water and stared up at the non-existence pipe. She will never stop feeling that awed sensation. Her body shivered on its own accord. The droplets had multiplied since the last time she had watched it with Sesshoumaru. As if it was sensing her near it, the droplets let out a warm heat, making her shivered once and then warmed.

"It sense that you are cold, so it is warming itself up for you," his deep voice echoed in the big hollow room. She turned around and looked at the Sesshoumaru as he walked towards her. His feet failed to make any noise as expected on the wooden floor.

Rin dropped her hands to her sides and it closed around the light weighted yukata she changed into.

"Sesshoumaru-sama," her voice was tiny and low. Her hand released and opened but remained on her side. He was standing a few feet away from her, but she could feel him like he was only inches away.

"How are you feeling?" He kept his voice lowered staring into her big curious eyes and left his hands hanging patiently to his side.

She smiled at his beautiful face. He didn't even break into a smile or a grin when she had talked to her, but she knew that was his ways.

"I am doing better now," she told him. Then suddenly she felt a warmth on the side of her cheek. It felted like a hand. Her eyes widen and she stared at Sesshoumaru who was still standing where he was.

"You felt me," he stated the obvious.

"You're doing this? It feels a little odd to see you standing there, but feel you here," she said and touched her cheek as the warm sensation melted away.

"It's one of the powers that I was told to have when I've found a lifemate," he told her. He mentally placed a kiss on the side of her throat and watched her play of emotions. Shocked, surprised, and then acceptance. Her eyes closed, head crooked to the side and her breath shorten. He found that he had loved looking at her in this state. His body tighten and he felt the stirring in his loin.

Rin opened her eyes when the sensation died, but then it hit her in full blast when she saw Sesshoumaru took three long strides and came upon her. She swallowed once as her head leaned back to stare up at him when he approached.

Brown stared into golden ones. Her stomach did a flip and her legs felt weak. One moment he was staring down at her and the next his lips was pressing against hers. He groaned when their lips met. He had wanted her more than anything. When he saw her out there, his body reacted. He wanted to take her right then and there, out in the open. He had known to have a lot of restraint but with her he had very little.

Her hands dug into his soft hair and pulled him closer. He groaned again and brought his arm around her small body and did the same. He wanted to feel the whole length of her. Wanted her to feel how much he want her, needed her. She opened her mouth without him asking and he took the advantage and explored the interior of her, playing with her tongue until she moaned against his mouth. She tasted like sweet honey.

Sesshoumaru brought his head back and a slight grin lifted when he heard her disappointed moan. He knew she wanted him as much as he wanted her. His breath was as heavy as hers. Rin let her forehead fall onto his hard chest. She could smell his freshly bathe body and sucked in another breath. Sesshoumaru rested his chin on her head wanted to make sure that she was real and not a figment of his imagination. He brought her heated body closer and tightened his hold. Her hand came out to his hard chest and she placed a kiss on his Adam's apple. She felt a shivered in his body.

"You're a tease," he said staring out at the falling water. She didn't say anything for a little while. But when she spoke her voice came nearly a whispered.

"Arigato gozaimasu for saving Kenshi," then she placed a kiss on the side of his lips. He turned his head to meet her now plump lips and kissed her once, stealing her breath yet again.

"I know how important he is to you," He gruffly said looking down at her upturned face. "I couldn't stand to see you unhappy."

"I remembered everything," she told him out of nowhere and he nodded.

"I know."

"You knew? Oh right, Jaken. He was the only one I told," she said in comprehension.

"No," he said her bring her body to arms length as if knew what was coming. "I knew the moment you look at me and asked if we had met before."

"And you didn't say anything," she said as she balled her fist to her side. She maintained the growing anger inside of her. "Why, Sesshoumaru-sama?" She didn't want it to come out as a demand but it somehow did. He released her completely and stood several inches away from her. His desired remained but he felt the heat inside of her had diminished completely. He groaned. She looked like she wanted to devour him and he would've let her had it been in a different situation.

"Because-" The Great Demon Lord was speechless. He was willing to tell her anything, but right now wasn't the time. Not when her body was doing crazy things to him.

"Because what?" She said crossing her arms just below her bosom. Had she been with him before her memories was erased, she wouldn't probably be bold enough to question him, but just let things be. She was much more verbal and less intimidated.

Sesshoumaru raked a hand into his hair and tried to avoid the image she was putting in his head. Looking at her was his undoing. He can almost feel her below him, her breast that was now pushed up by her arms, in his mouth as he watched her moan beneath him. He groaned, as his desires grew tenfold.

"Can't-we-not-talk-about-this-later?" He grinded his teeth, trying very hard to relax the growing temptation. He closed his eyes and tried to keep his mind blank. His hands fisted to its side in frustration.

"Why should we? We don't have anything better to do, I don't. Do you? " She inquired as she shrugged her little shoulder.

Her innocent question had his mind stirring again. He didn't want to tell her that he had a lot of better things in mind. For starters getting her onto that damn bed behind him, naked would be a beginning.

"Unless you're in a rush to go to your harem of women," She looked at him suspicious, a hint of jealously held in her statement.

His harem? Damn, Jaken. How else had she known? How can he make her believe that it was just for show and nothing more? He hasn't been with anyone since he had given her that liquid. Back then he knew it was guilt eating at him. As he watched her grow up to be a irresistible young woman he found it was more than just guilt but desire for her. He wanted her and only her. His harem. It was exactly that, for show.

Then it hit her and her eyes opened wide. She covered her mouth and felt as if she was feeling sick. "You didn't want me. I remembered Jaken telling me that I was a bother to you and him. I didn't realized."

"Rin," he frowned when he saw that she was neared tear. Never in his life had he had to deal with them, and he wasn't looking forward to it now. Please don't cry, Rin.

He didn't even send her a mental note, but somehow she knew that he would've been able to stand to see her cry. He couldn't do it before. That was why he had to walk away that night. He watched as she suck in a breath and straighten herself.

"Did you know when I woke up, I was scared to death," She said and turned away from him. Her voice was kept to a medium. The rippling of water was like a soothing device for her. She closed her eyes and sighed. Rin threw her arms around herself, as if it would help her shield away all the pain she was feeling.

He felt all of her pain as if it was apart of him and he wanted to take it all away. It was his fault that she had been scared and he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to make it go away. He took a step closer to her and stopped as she spoke again.

"I was so lost I didn't know what to do. The only thing I remembered was my name. Odd, all that memories erased, but my name still stayed with me," she laughed in spite of herself. "Maybe it would have been better if I hadn't remembered."

Her tone was so soft and even. Sesshoumaru didn't know how to deal with that. He rather had her kicking and screaming at him, it would have been easier to read her then. He took another step towards her and opened his mouth to say something, but she beat him to it.

"Of course it was very nice of you to drop me off near a village in expensive clothing," she said sarcastically. "One man thought that I was a prostitute," she said disgusted. Her fingernails dug deep into the skins of her arms as the terrible memories flowed in. "At first I thought that he was trying to help me, but instead he tried to lure me into his house," then her voice stuttered. "He…he…was on top of me, I couldn't get him off," she swallowed. "Luckily, an old lady came by and beat him, or else I would have been raped and possibly killed. I scrubbed myself for hours afterward, even then I still felt dirty."

"I would never let that happen, I—" he started. His voice was also cracking as he held all of his feelings in. But she acted as if she didn't hear him and continued.

"The old lady took me in. She took care of me and helped me look for work since that incident got the village people thinking that I was what the man had thought. But she was nice enough to look after me," she smiled as the memories start sinking in. "She had helped me a lot. She was a teacher you see, so she taught me things that I have never learned had I been with you." Then her smiled faded. "But one day she grew very ill. I was told that she was dying of some mysterious poison," her voice became distance as it quivered. She was not talking to him anymore, but to herself. He felt her guilt and blame. She blamed herself for the old lady's death. "I have called three healers and none of them knew what kind of poison it was. If only I was there, maybe I could've helped her avoid something. I was too busy indulging in myself, picking flowers. Can you believe that? She was already sick. I should have stayed with her. If I knew what she had done that day or eaten, maybe I could of saved her somehow."

He was right behind her then. He brought his hands up.

"Don't touch me, please," she whispered when she felt that he was about to place his hand on her. His hand dropped to his side and fisted. What had he done? He had brought pain to the one person he cared about. Now she hated him more than ever.

"Finally after two agonizing days she died. I had wished for her death the minute I hear her screams of pain. I cried for her and her suffering. I cried for the lady who had saved me from being raped and molested. Also, I cried for myself because she was the only person that I have known," She covered her face with her hand. "And I was so lonely after. I got stone thrown on me as if I was a curse to the village. A "slut." How can they call me that? Pretty soon I traveled north to another village looking for work and a place to stay."

"Then I found Kenshi. He was bundled in a blanket underneath a tree. I took him with me. I couldn't stand to see another life wasted. Mine was one. I always thought that my parents didn't wanted me, so they left me to die," She laughed. "How insane it is to run back into the person who didn't want me…"

"You know after I found Kenshi he became my everything. It changed my life. I gave him all my love because in my world it was just me and him. As lame as it was, he became my pride and joy. I see in him the childhood that I didn't think I had," she chuckled a little trying to ease away all the painful memories that she had and replace them with happy ones. "I taught Kenshi everything. Everything that I have learned from my last guardian so he wouldn't have to struggle to learn like I had to when he grows up…"

"After walking miles with barely little food and water, I came upon a village. I asked for work and immediately the two old couple took Kenshi and I in. They were so nice to me. I worked for them for over a year and a half until they were killed. A snake they said. I hate snakes. They were literally devoured. At first I couldn't believed it. A snake big enough to eat two people?" She shook her head, bewildered. "Impossible, I told them. But they said it wasn't an ordinary snake but a youkai. I believed them then. I didn't feel that it would be right to stay in the house any longer so I left with Kenshi." She could hear him growled behind her and she stopped for a few second before continuing.

"Soon later I found work at another village. Another older couple. I didn't want to get too close to them as I was afraid of the attachment. They were really nice also. I grew to love and respect them. I was with them for over two whole years before I had to move into the house that I was in when I saw you. Inherited from a great-aunt," she said.

"A great-aunt?" he asked suspicious. He never heard of a great-aunt.

"I have never heard of a great-aunt," she said as if reading his mind. "She had just appeared I guess. Well I never seen her but a solicitor came by and told me that Kenshi and I had inherited this house and everything that came with it. We were overjoyed of course. In an instance our lives had changed cause of one aunt. Who would of known right? Our own home."

Sesshoumaru turned her around then. He saw her tear-stained face and curse under his breath. She was crying so silently. Kept her voice so low and so even. How was he to tell her that he had been there all along watching from a distance? Watching as she had to suffer over and over again and he was stupid enough to not go to her.

He ran his hand down the length of her arm and back up again, trying to sooth away all the pain that was building up inside of her. He knew that it didn't help much. Her head was hung low. He placed a finger on her chin, and she complied, raising her head up to meet his. She stared into those beautiful eyes and saw sadness built into them. Her hand came up to smooth the creases between his brows and traced the half shaped blue moon on his forehead. It heated under her finger.

"I remember wanting a crescent moon on my forehead," she told him and he nodded. "I told you to give me one and you refused saying that it was not for me," then she chuckled. Her hand slide down his hairless cheek and remain there. "I remember crying and crying when you refused. You just walked away like you always did when I cry. Then you secretly sent Jaken out to fetch me a paper printed with a half-shaped moon in black ink. Poor Jaken he was so tired. He handed me the paper and I was overjoyed thinking I can just paste the paper on my forehead and it would remain there. How naive I was then."

He was glad to hear her laughing again. "I'm sorry," he said and threw her body against his. He buried his head in her massive hair and remained there. He could smell rich flowers and flesh water. "I'm sorry," he said again as if it would help heal anything at all.

Her hands were rested on his chest, the only thing that was keeping them apart. "All I wanted to know was why…" She said muffled in between where his shoulder met his neck.

"The one thing I feared most was losing you," He told her.

She looked at him puzzled. "I don't understand."

...TBC

Sorry it took me so long to post, but I hope you will enjoy the next chapters! I didn't realize that after the new years I would be busy…but I'll try to post as much as I can! Thanks a plenty for all of the wonderful reviews! Sorry I couldn't answer to them all:) :Hugz: to you all!

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