When I woke up in the morning I decided that I would be going to Seattle by myself. No matter how bad Paul had hurt me, I ended up silently forgiving him before I fell asleep. I couldn't stay mad at him. My heart wouldn't let me. I was however not going to forgive him to his face until he apologized to mine without having to break into the house or fight Jake to do it. I was going to take the money I had saved from the one summer job I had and give myself a makeover.
All that was in my closet where pajamas and a couple pairs of jeans with some t shirts and tank tops to go with them. I knew the summers in La Push weren't exactly Florida warm, but I needed summer clothes and a good bathing suit would be nice.
I had convinced Jake to drive me into Seattle and spend the day with me. Actually when I say I convinced Jake I actually mean I had to bribe Sam into letting him off of patrol for the day. It took a lot to bribe Sam. I had to stick away some money so I could get the ingredients I would need to make bananas foster. I knew when it came to the wolves food was the easiest way. I just hadn't expected Sam to pick that dessert.
The last time I made it I nearly singed off my eyebrows. I wasn't exactly looking forward to making it again, but Sam let Jake go with me for the day which meant I owed him. I was sitting in Jake's car patiently waiting for him to come out of the house so we could get going. I had my eyes glued to the front door and I jumped when there was a knock on the window of the car.
I turned my head and my eyes met the chocolate brown ones of Paul. I turned back to look at the house. I still wasn't ready to talk to him. My heart wanted me to, but my brain was telling me if I forgave him too soon he would just do it again. My brain won the battle. The next knock was much harder and I had to restrain myself from turning to look at Paul again.
Jake came storming out of the house yelling at Paul to get away from his car and Paul responded with angry words of his own. I had covered my ears because I did not want to hear a fight break out. I closed my eyes and proceeded to bounce my head off the seat's head rest. I felt a hand go behind my head after a couple of minutes and stop what I was doing. I slowly opened my eyes to see Jake sitting next to me.
"You really need to talk to him at some point Neveah. I am getting tired of always fighting with him." Jake's eyes held sadness and it made me realize that by not talking to Paul he had chosen to fight with his brother.
"I will talk to him tomorrow Jake, I promise. I just want to have fun today and then first thing in the morning I will talk to Paul." Jake nodded his head then started the car up. He backed out of the driveway. I couldn't help but to glance over at the woods. Standing at the tree line was a huge grey wolf. Sadness filled its eyes and as we pulled out of the driveway I heard a sad howl echo through the wind.
We arrived in Seattle around noon and as we pulled up in front of a clothing store I heard Jake's stomach.
"Lets go get some food first." I said as we got out of the car and immediately Jake began sprinting towards a hot dog cart. We walked back towards the clothing store as we ate our lunch. When Jake had finished his last hot dog I grabbed his wrist and pulled him into the store.
"No, I don't wanna!" Jake pulled back on his arm and I had to use all my strength to try and move him.
"Come on Jake. I just bought you lunch. The least you could do is let me model some clothes for you and then you tell me what looks best. I need some summer clothes." I had stopped trying to drag him any further.
"I don't want to. This is something boyfriends do, not cousins." Jake stomped his foot like a little kid.
"Fine I will just pick out all the slutty looking stuff then." I started to walk over towards a rack that had miniskirts on it. I could feel Jake glaring at me as I looked at the miniskirts one by one. I pulled a couple off and headed towards the dressing room.
The first one I tried on was a dark purple plaid one. I had to admit to myself that it actually looked good on me. The second one was a denim one which after trying it on I laid it next to the plaid one. The third one had been a light tan one which I decided tan was not my color.
I brought the two skirts out and went over to look at some tops to go with them. I settled on a couple of different tank tops and went to the register to check out.
As I walked back over to Jake I saw him shaking his head at me.
"I can't believe you bought them!" He threw his hands up in the air and gave me a fatherly look.
"Well you didn't want to help me and I look pretty damn good in them. Now lets go to the book store. I need a new thriller to read." I started to walk out of the clothing store and Jake followed me and decided to look at his feet the whole time. After about an hour in the book store I still wasn't able to find anything that had interested me. I turned to Jake and saw him looking at some books.
"You ready to go?" I asked him and he nodded solemnly. He was quiet the whole drive home and when we got back to the house I hugged him good night then went into my room. I looked at my cell phone to see I had ten missed calls from Paul and five text messages.
How was your trip today? I miss you..
I decided to read the other four before answering him.
I really want us to talk about what happened. I feel horrible.
I wish you would answer me. I need to talk to you.
Neveah please answer me.
Fine don't answer me then. Don't talk to me ever again.
I had to chuckle to myself a bit. The five text messages he sent were all sent within five minutes. Even if I had my phone with me to answer him I wouldn't have been able to. I took that time to text him back.
Paul, I would like it if you would meet me for breakfast at the diner in the morning. We can talk then. Be there by 8, I'll be waiting. Goodnight.
I didn't receive an answer from him, so I changed and headed to bed. I wasn't going to stay up any longer waiting for him to answer me. I was just going to hope that he would be there in the morning.