Chapter 10 savannahs story.
As I sat waiting for Antonio to arrive to look after his Niece and nephews I sat in the poshest playroom I had ever seen in my fucking life.
Sean was having the time of his life in here. It was nice to see him carefree. His poor little life was in tatters. Dad and heather were weird but heather got the job of being a great mom down to a tee, now poor seany had nothing but two fucked up grandparents and two big sisters that weren't even talking.
I was determined to change all of that for him.
I had just sent Carlos my second text of the day, he hadn't replied to my first. All I wanted to do was discuss the matter of me moving back to LA.
My new venture as clothes designer would be a lot easier in LA. Sheriden would be a great help to launch it. And lets face facts Portland is no where near as glamourous as Los Angeles.
And if I'm to try and fix the biggest regret of my life and get Carlos back, it will be a million times easier here... If not a million times more heartbreaking for me if he flatly refuses to give us another go.
He sounds so grounded on the phone all the time. Like he wants me to know how much he still loves me. Or maybe its his way of still trying to be friends after everything.
I sat with Georgi on my lap, she didn't want to know Sean. She seemed shy today.
I text James "hows sheri doin? I will b dwn thr sn, ants on his way. Txt Los, no reply. What if he shows up with her? I'm scared James :-\" I wrote and pressed send.
My phone buzzed moments later. "she is waiting for test results. If he shows then talk to him. Ive got ur back sav. I'm so sorry I messed it up 4 u" it read.
I guess having James and Antonio on my side was better than nothing. I really did need someone better though. the boys were no where near as devious as Sheriden had ever been... I missed the old Sheriden. She would of had Carlos back in my arms by now with some wacky plan or maybe even of just had Tammi bumped off and thrown in to a river with a breeze block tied to her feet.
The door chime went, I carried Georgi out with me to answer it. I checked through the peep hole first to check it was Antonio.
I opened up "hey ant, thanks for coming over. I'm sure Sheri will be fine" I said.
"she best be, Ana is stuck in traffic she will be down to take over baby sitting so I can go and see her myself, Carlos just phoned me. He is on his way to see Sheri... I think Tammi is with him sav" he said.
"really... Fuck! Can you take Georgi, I'm going to go put my face on" I said darting up stairs to make myself look presentable.
Good thing about growing your hair out underneath a $3000 blonde wig is that your hair is always ready to just go.
My natural hair having been mostly hacked off by a deranged man with a knife in a robbery at my sisters salon, was then cut in to a hideous asymmetric bob which I couldn't stand.
I had always had long hair, and had always had extensions ever since my sister started practising on me when she was a training hairdresser at college.
But now after two terrible incidents that involved my hair being used against me I had sworn never again would I wear hair extensions and go for the good old fashioned wig... At least until my hair was at a reasonable length that I found attractive.
I made my face up, got dressed in to a cute outfit, made sure ant was okay with Georgi and the twins, then got a cab to the hospital with Sean.
Luckily I had arrived before Carlos and his ... thing.
I gave Sheriden a hug and handed her the flowers I had just bought in the hospital shop downstairs .
"where's the kids? With Antonio?" James asked me. Double checking that I could be responsible sometimes.
"yeah he said he was waiting for Ana to get there then he will be down to visit you Sheriden... What's going on then? You've had us worried" I asked Sheriden, giving Sean a smile. He hated hospitals.
"not entirely sure, we are waiting for test results to come back" she replied.
"how's the head it looks bad... Trust you Sheri" I asked Shaking my head. She was always doing something dramatic. Life was never simple in the maslow household.
"its okay, hopefully it won't scar too bad." she replied with a smile.
"I text Carlos and said you were in here but he isn't replying to me" I said in some hope that Sheriden would feel sorry for me and change her mind and help me.
"you haven't fallen out have you?" she asked.
"no, he replied straight away when I was in Portland. I think someone has some trust issues that she is showing now I'm in the zip code." I replied with a sigh.
"Tammi loves him savannah" Sheriden said, her words cut through my heart like a knife, and like adding salt to the wound, Carlos walked in the room holding hands with a girl I despised
"oh boy!" James then said looking at me "Sean do you want to get a hot chocolate?" he then said to my brother holding his hand out for him.
"go on seany, go with James" i said with my voice shaking. I gave him a little wave as he left the room with James.
I took a deep breath "hey" I said to Carlos, greeting him in person for the first time in months.
I bit back tears as he ignored me completely. I wasn't expecting him to act so coldly towards me. It felt like I was in a bad dream.
"are you okay, what have you been doing to your self, I've just phoned home... Shit Sheriden!" He said to her.
I eyed up Tammi as Carlos spoke to Sheriden. she was just a scraggy blonde, hard faced bitch. She had no style about her, she didn't fit with Carlos at all. He fitted with me. He looked just as he always did, cap and tee shirt, oozing swag and style without even trying. He looked beautiful.
"yeah we are great huh tam!" Carlos said breaking me from my gaze I had on him.
my phone beeped I checked my message. It was James "do not lose your cool in there! I will be back in a bit. Don't make him angry savannah" it said.
I took a deep breath. That was easy for him to say when all I wanted to do was scratch the bitches eyes out.
"Carlos did you get my text... About meeting over lunch sometime?" I asked in a friendly tone.
"yeah... Yeah I did... Um, I'm pretty busy savannah, I'm not sure I'm going to be about much to be honest" Carlos replied not even looking at me. Why was he being like this just because she was here. This wasn't Carlos.
"oh ... Well I really need to talk somethings over with you Los" I said calmly, my voice going up an octave as I tried to hold in the tears caused by his rejection.
"I'm sorry but why do you? You started divorce proceedings against him, so anything that needs to be said can be done through Carlos' lawyer!" Tammi then screamed at me. It took me by surprise. From her mousy exterior I hadn't expected her to have any back bone.
"tam' its fine don't upset yourself" Carlos then said giving her a small smile. My heart completely died inside me. I thought I might actually be sick. The tears started rolling out.
"Carlos! upset herself? I'm just asking to talk to you... Why are you being like this now?" I sobbed.
Antonio came in the room. "Sheriden, god! are okay?" He said looking very concerned over his sister.
I took this opportunity to try and calm down. I didn't like crying in front of that bitch who had her hands all over my husband.
"savannah are you okay?" Antonio asked me, his kindness made me cry a bit more but I wiped my eyes dry.
"fuck... yeah I'm okay... " I replied with a smile.
"what's going on huh" he said as he hugged me. I wrapped my arms around him. he wasn't the Pena I wanted my arms around though.
"ant maybe take sav out for a drink?" Sheriden then said. this pissed me off. I didn't want to leave. Why should I be the one to be escorted out.
"no I don't want a fucking drink Sheriden, I want to talk to my husband with out his mistress hanging around" I snapped feeling that Sheriden was completely on the wrong side.
"sav don't" Carlos said to me. I tried to make some non verbal communication with him through just one look. I think he got it. He looked back in to my eyes. It looked to me like he wanted to talk to me. He just wasn't allowed.
"mistress, I'm not his mistress, you were the one that cheated on him! You were the one that wanted to leave him. He has nothing to say to you savannah!" Tammi screamed at me
James walked back in with my brother at exactly the right time I don't know if he had been waiting outside for Tammi to lose her cool, or it was just good timing. But he was pissed at Tammi and made her look like the idiot she was.
"I can hear you screaming all the way out there. Sheriden is unwell if you haven't noticed. Get the hell out of here!" James said to her with venom in his voice, she then started crying and stormed out.
"I'm sorry... I just... I'm sorry okay" Carlos said looking in to my green eyes again. This time I couldn't understand what the look meant. He then walked out after her.
my heart could not take this pain "I just want to talk to him" I sobbed
"sav you need to let him go" Sheriden said to me.
"I can't let him go... You don't think Carlos will tell that girl about what happened to croft do you?" I asked now worried.
Both Sheriden and Antonio said that he wouldn't. Apparently they had all ready had that chat with him just incase.