I'm sorry I took a little longer to update. I had a terrible case of writer's block. Thank you for all the kinds reviews. This was hard to write, so many feelings I had to try and portray for both Clarke and Lexa. Anya and Raven are still cuties. Any requests or advice? I'm happy to hear them just pm me. Thanks for reading!

Chapter 10 - Jealousy

Anya had woken up Thursday morning with the biggest smile on her face. Jumping out of bed with a spring in her step, she got ready for school.

The night before Anya had taken Raven home and kissed her multiple times up against her car. Anya swore she could still feel the lips of Raven's on hers. Both girls now looking forward to many more dates.

It was almost time to go, and like always, Lexa was not ready. Was she even awake?

Anya started walking towards Lexa's room "Lexa I swear to fucking god, if you're not u-"

Lexa opened her door quickly cutting off her best friend. She was dressed. Bag dangling off her shoulder. A smirk forming on her face. "I'm ready, let's go!"

"God Lex, are you feeling okay?" Anya quipped, Lexa rolled her eyes as they made their way out the door. "You're early for once, there's gotta be a reason" Anya smirked. "A reason with blonde hair, blue eyes, a-"

"Anya!" Lexa growled. "I'm in a good mood for once, please don't ruin it"

Anya chuckled and threw her hands up playfully "Alright, alright. Chill"

Lexa rushed around the school in search of a certain blonde girl. She smiled when she spotted the blue eyed beauty at one of the vending machines. Smiling like a dork as she made her way over, Lexa noticed a boy also making his way in Clarke's direction. She paused for a second as the boy started talking to Clarke. An uncomfortable bubble in her chest began to form, What is this feeling? Lexa's smile had dropped, she contemplated walking away but then she noticed Clarke seemed a little irritated. She gave the boy second glance and realized, Finn Collins.

Jealousy. That's what Lexa felt. It was different. Lexa had never been jealous before. And why over Clarke? Fucking hell this is ridiculous. Lexa Woods doesn't get jealous over any girl.. But that was so wrong. Oh so wrong. Clarke Griffin was different, Lexa was coming to terms with that..

Fuck it. Lexa made her way over. "Hey, Clarke"

The blonde smiled in relief when she saw Lexa. "Lexa!" She threw her arms around the brunettes neck. A reaction both of them didn't quite expect. Wait, what am I doing?

Lexa didn't mind. In fact, Lexa was in awe. She smells so good. Wrapping her arms around the blonde and then pulling a part after a few seconds. Both of them with a slight blush of red on their cheeks.

Finn cleared his throat, startling the two girls because for a second they completely forgot he was there. "Uh, I was having a conversation with the princess here and you kinda interrupted" He said, glaring at Lexa.

Clarke cringed at the nickname princess and Lexa had noticed Clarkes reaction. "Well your conversation is over"

"Not yet, I came to ask her.." Finns eyes now looking at Clarke, Lexa never failed to miss Finn's eyes flicker down to the blondes chest. "..to the school dance"

Lexa was burning with fury. How dare he. The brunette felt majorly conflicted, Clarke wasn't hers but she had the sudden urge to protect her. Jealousy still bubbled around inside the brunette.

"She's not interested" What am I doing? What if she is interested? Fucking hell Lexa, stop.

Lexa was right though. Clarke was far from interested. The blonde stepped forward.

"I Uh.. Uh already have a date to the dance" Clarke said quickly. I didn't even know there was a school dance? The last thing Clarke wanted was to go to the dance with Finn Collins. "Sorry Finn"

"Oh yeah, who?" Finn mocked.

Lexa glanced at Clarke. Asking the same question inside her head. Yeah who? The jealousy inside Lexa had only flourished. Clarke hesitated. Quickly flickering her eyes between Lexa and Finn who were both waiting on her answer.

"L..Lexa!" Fuck. Did I really just say Lexa? The brunette looked at Clarke with a blank expression.

Lexa's heart was racing. What? Uh? She quickly realized what Clarkes intentions were. Getting rid of fuckboy, got it. She snaked her arm around the blondes shoulder. A smug smile printed on her face as she looked at Finn once more. Lexa would be lying to herself if she said she wasn't enjoying this. I shouldn't be.

Although Clarke remained still, her hand connecting with Lexa's as it dangled over her shoulder, Inside her stomach filled with butterflies. It feels right.

"Are you kidding me princess, you're a dyke too?"

Lexa tensed up at the word. Her arm lost contact with the blonde as she stepped forward, her jaw clenched as the boy smirked.

"Apologize" Lexa hissed through gritted teeth with an aggression filled tone. Her fists now clenching.

"Or what?" Finn laughed as he looked down at Lexa's balled fists. "You're really going to hit me?"

"Lexa" Clarke stepped forward."Stop its okay". Clarkes voice. That soothing sound. Lexa listened. Her fists unclenching. Deep breaths. "It's not worth it". Lexa looked into Clarkes eyes, who was now standing in front of her. And there it was, another sensation that felt like a jolt of electricity running through Lexa's veins. Their eyes were shouting words their mouths couldn't once again. But what were they saying? What was it about Clarke that just lured in Lexa's heart like a fish on a hook? She's so angelic. So beautiful. So perfect. And I like her a lot, I'm falling for her. I'm falling for her. I'm falling for her. That was it. Acceptance. That didn't come easy for Lexa. Her heart was pounding so hard she swore it was going to burst out of her chest.

"I'm sorry" Lexa whispered. The only words she could form. Their eyes still connected. And Clarke swore she saw Lexa tearing up but before she could question It Lexa backed away slowly. She turned around and walked away at a fast pace. Leaving Clarke confused, with so many questions. Should I go after her? Why does she make me feel this way? Did I do something wrong?

"I don't have time for this" Clarke was startled at Finns words, forgetting that he was there again. "I can easily find a chick hotter than you, princess"

Clarke shook her head. Brushing past Finn as she stormed away. What a jerk.

But wait? Does that mean im going to the dance with Lexa? What if I made her feel uncomfortable? As Clarke started making her way to her class, her mind flooded with thoughts of Lexa. Her eyes. I always feel something when I stare in her eyes. Those lips. I always feel something when I stare at those lips. I felt something when I kissed her. I felt something when I hugged her. But she doesn't feel the same. I just know it. If she did, she'd say. She'd definitely say. Clarke sighed. I like Lexa Woods. I'm falling for her, I'm falling for her, I'm falling for her. Maybe I'm a fool.

"Do you and your friends wanna come out tomorrow night?" Anya asked Raven as she had her pinned up against her locker. No one dared to stare or murmur in Anya's presence, and Anya was smug about that. She loved her 'tough chick' reputation. People were genuinely scared of her and this amused Raven.

"Out where?" Raven asked as Anya pecked her on the lips. A smile growing on the mechanics face.

"Ontari's band has a gig at Trikru Bar" Anya held Raven by her hips as they slightly swayed together. "You should come. Bring your friends. Even the nerdy ones"

Raven chuckled "Sure, sounds fun". She then reached in and gave Anya another sweet little kiss. Anya was in love with Ravens sweet little kisses but she wouldn't admit that out loud.

"Definitely bring Clarke because Lexa will be there" Anya smirked.

"Oh I will" Raven winked In response.

The two knew Clarke and Lexa had a thing for each other, actually they knew they had more than a 'thing'. And Anya knew Lexa more than anyone. She noticed the way Lexa looks at Clarke, the way her eyes light up when she speaks of Clarke. Oh and not to mention Lexa hasn't been with any other girl since she even met Clarke, and that? That was definitely something. There's just something about Clarke. At the same time, Anya didn't want Lexa getting hurt, not like last time, not the way Costia hurt her. She swore to protect Lexa with her life but deep down Anya felt as if Clarke would be good for Lexa, really good for her. But if she ever did hurt her I'd break her face.

Lexa was sitting alone in the library, crouched on the floor pretending to read a book. She couldn't focus on the book though, her mind was trying to escape from the dismay and confusion. Her head was in another world, and her heart was trying to reach something her head didn't want. I'm falling for her. Lexa repeated this in her head for the millionth time today. Ever since morning it was all she could think about. She had succeeded in avoiding both Clarke and Anya for the rest of the day, but she knew she'd have to face Anya at home. Thank god I have boxing tonight. Lexa's outlet. And boy was she holding a lot of stuff in. She felt as if she was being consumed. I don't like this. I don't like that I'm letting myself feel this way.

Dropping the book and dropping her head in her hands, she sighed deeply. Tears pricked at her beautiful green eyes as memories flooded back from the hurt she endured from Costia. That part of my life is over, I'm happier now. That was true. But Lexa still hurt. She wasn't whole and something felt missing.

"Lexa?" Lexa was startled by a familiar voice. She looked up and sure enough the sweet voice was followed by the sweet presence of the girl she couldn't stop thinking about.

"Clarke" So much for avoiding.

"I thought I might find you here" Clarke gave a small smile and sat beside the brunette on the floor.

"Uh.. How'd you know?" Lexa gave a half smile. She wasn't quite sure how to act. Not with the feelings she had just admitted to herself. Could she still be friends with Clarke despite the way she feels? Or would that be too hard for the troubled teen?

Clarke gave a small chuckle "Because you weren't anywhere else". The blonde had been searching for Lexa everywhere. After the incident that happened earlier in the day, Clarke couldn't stop overthinking. Much like Lexa she hated the way she felt. I'm falling for her. Those words too, coursing through Clarkes mind.

Silence filled the air for a few moments before Clarke started to speak again. "You don't have to go to the dance with me". Clarke was sure that Lexa wouldn't want to go with her, hell Lexa might even want to go with someone else.

Lexa looked at Clarke for a few seconds. I want to go with you so bad, but I understand you probably don't want to go with me. "I uh.. I understand that you just wanted to get rid of fuckboy Finn" Lexa tensed at the name as soon as it left her mouth. Her jaw clenching, and Clarke didn't fail to miss it.

"Yeah I did" Clarke smiled as she thought about the way Lexa put her arm around her. Like she was hers. Clarke frowned and shook herself out of thought. No, I will never be hers.

"You deserve better than Finn" Lexa admitted.

"Please come to the dance with me, Lexa" It was sudden, and her words were rushed. Clarke couldn't even hide the urgency in her voice. Nice one, Clarke.

Lexa's eyes were locked on Clarkes. What is it that they're saying? Her beautiful ocean blue eyes look as if they're speaking to me. Maybe I'm just going crazy. Lexa cleared her throat, she was stunned by Clarkes request. "Im uh.." She cleared her throat again.

Clarke was waiting for a let down. Lexa to tell her she was going with some other girl. This is probably uncomfortable for her. "Just as friends of course, Lexa" There, maybe that will ease her uncomfort.

Lexa smiled. "I'd love to go to the dance with you" Maybe friends is all we'll ever be.

"Cool" Clarke smiled. A nervous chuckled escaped her mouth once more.

Silence filled the air once again but it wasn't awkward. Little did they know how much they were thinking about the other. Clarkes eyes flickered up to Lexa's face at moments, catching her jaw clenching, or her lip twitching. She studied her hands. Her tattoos. Her muscles. Lexa did the same, catching Clarke looking at her for a split second, a smile aching to form on her face when she looked away. Does she even realize how beautiful she is?

"So you probably could have knocked Finn out cold, huh?" Clarke asked with a grin.

Lexa laughed. "Yeah, probably" It wasn't a lie, Lexa knew how strong she was. Her technique and skill were on another level. She could probably kick anyone's ass.

"Do you do anything else apart from boxing?" The blonde was curious. Always baring to know more about Lexa.

"I got to the gym, but no. Its really just boxing" Lexa smiled. "What about you?"

"Me?" Clarke laughed.

"Yeah, you" Lexa gave her a grin. "Do you do any sport?"

At those words Clarke barked a laugh. "Does it look like it? I don't do exercise"

"You look fit to me" Smooth Lexa.

Clarke smiled. The tips of her ears now with a hint of red. "I'm not a very active person"

"What do you like to do then?" Lexa wanting to know more about Clarke also. "For fun"

Clarke smiled. She liked this. The two of them talking. It felt right. "Well, uh I guess I'm kind of an artist. I like to draw and paint"

Lexa smiled with adoration. "You'll have to show me some of your work"

"Of course" Clarke smiled. She never liked showing her work. But for Lexa? Anything. "But on one condition"

"And what condition might that be?" Lexa smirked.

"I get to see you box" Clarke blushed harshly as soon as the words left her mouth. She will probably just think I'm a perv now.

"Sure, how about tonight?"

Lexa wasn't quite sure what her intentions were. Just friends right? A smile on her face as she watched Clarke but that was merely just a layer covering the circus that went on inside the brunette.

"You do realize she was checking you out, right?" Anya asked Lexa after they had dropped Clarke off at her house. The blonde went and watched Lexa box just like they had planned. Anya was right, Clarke couldn't keep her eyes off of Lexa's perfectly carved body. Her training was intense, veins and muscles were more prominent and Clarke couldn't not notice. She failed not to make it obvious. Well it was obvious to everyone besides Lexa.

"Mmhmm, yeah okay" Lexa slightly blushed a little, even at the thought of the blonde checking her out. Sure, Lexa was used to it, girls staring at her, admiring her, but Clarke? Clarke made her feel all sorts of different things. She wasn't like any other girl.

"You're so blind" Anya rolled her eyes.

"You are" Lexa shot back.

"The girl likes you, Lex, fuck!" Anya was beginning to grow irritated.

"No she doesn't" Lexa was clenching her jaw once again. Her feelings flooding back. Her thoughts flooding back. "And, if she liked me, things would be different. So stop, please. Just stop!" Lexa was almost choking on her words. Why was this so difficult? I feel so weak. So defeated. "Yes Anya, I like her, I like her a lot. And it's hard for me to admit that. So fucking hard. But I can't be with her. That's not me. I don't do relationships" Lexa paused taking in a few short sharp breaths. Anya felt a pin of regret, maybe she pushed Lexa to far. "Someone like me doesn't belong with someone like her". Anya put her arm on Lexa's shoulder, the other hand still on the steering wheel. "I'm not made for this, it wouldn't work"

Anya hushed Lexa quietly. "I'm sorry, Lex" She rubbed her shoulder to try and comfort her best friend. There wasn't much she could do while she was driving. "But you need to know that you are capable of loving and being loved in return"

Lexa shook her head in denial. Yeah, right.

She could feel herself breaking slowly. Soon it will all just come pouring out.

Friday night had come around. The gang were on their way to go see Ontari and her band play at Trikru Bar. Raven was driving, Octavia in the front passenger seat and Clarke was stuck between the two boys in the back.

"Put some music on Reyes" Monty said from the back.

Raven smiled and turned on the car stereo. Early 2000s songs were blaring, singing and dancing and laughing, as they made their way to their destination.

When they got there they met up with Bellamy, Niylah and Murphy. They walked to the entrance, being a bar they had to have their hands stamped to show they were underage and were not to be served alcohol. All but one.

"Sorry, I'm 21 I have ID" Niylah smiled at the security guards at the door, as she brought out her fake ID and showed them. They nodded her through. As they were officially inside, Clarke walked up beside Niylah.

"How'd you manage that?"

"I have my ways" Niylah gave Clarke a flirtacious smirk and winked. "Would you like me to buy you a drink?"

"Uh.." Is she flirting with me? "Maybe later"

"HERE THEY ARE" Anya's voice could be heard from across the room. The was music playing quite loudly so it was surprising just how loud Anya was. Raven made her way over the fastest. Wrapping her arms around Anya and giving her a kiss. Clarke spotted Lexa the same time Lexa looked up at her, a smile was shared between the two. Clarke sat next to the brunette, an accidental brush of Clarkes thigh against Lexa's sent both of them internally floating. A quick second of eye contact made and then Lexa forced her gaze down.

Octavia had made her way over to Lincoln and sat on his lap. "Hey babe"

"He-" Lincoln was cut off by Octavia's kiss.

"How'd you get here?"

"Anya gave me a ride" He smiled as they kissed again.

Clarke looked at her friends, Raven was with Anya, and Octavia with Lincoln. "Okay, okay" She cleared her throat. "No more kissing it's actually making me sick" She joked.

"Same here" Lexa added. Clarke smiled as Lexa took her side.

"Just because you two can't get any" Raven smirked. Wanting to make a joke about Clarke and Lexa but decided to leave It.

Lexa shook her head. She knew damn well she could get any girl she wanted at this bar. Except Clarke.

After about half an hour, Niylah had gotten them all alcoholic drinks discretely. They were all waiting for Ontari to come on stage.

"Have you been here before?" Lexa asked Clarke.

"Nope, first time" The blonde smiled. The smile that sent Lexa's stomach flipping. At this point even something small like Clarkes smile, little accidental touches, eye contact even if it was for a split second, sent Lexa insane. Why does she do this to me, fuck, I want the old Lexa back, I need to get a grip. Lexa was feeling consumed once again. Her thoughts and feelings were clouding her mind. She needed to escape. I need to drink. And that's what she did, and that's what she planned to do for the rest of the night. Hoping the alcohol would ease her mind.

Moments later Ontari arrived on stage with her band, who seemed to look just as punk as Ontari. They introduced themselves to the crown as Luna, Emori and Echo.

"They look hot" Raven said, now looking at Clarke. "Hey Griff, maybe you can get with one of them?" She joked, causing Clarke to glare and stick up her middle finger.

Even something as small as that, the thought of Clarke kissing someone else, made Lexa furious. And it shouldn't, it really fucking shouldn't. I shouldn't fucking care. But she did. Oh she cared so much. Lexa started to chug her 2nd beer that Niylah managed to give her.

Clarke was enjoying the band, they sure were talented. They had all started to get up and jump around with the alcohol in their systems. Clarke was feeling a little sweaty, and decided to sit down for a bit, octavia joined her.

"THIS IS SO MUCH FUN" Octavia yelled, attempting to be heard over the band.

"I KNOW" Clarke smiled.

The two checked their phones, taking a few selfies and pictures of their friends jumping around like idiots. A few snapchats and Instagram posts were made. Someone came up behind Clarke, and pushed themselves up against her as she was taking a selfie, Clarke laughed when she saw it was Niylah pulling a funny face and she snapped the photo.

Niylah joined the group again with Octavia, Clarke sat back down as she watched the band from her seat. Looking back at her friends she realized Lexa was missing. Maybe she needed to pee.

Clarke then scanned the back of the room and her jaw dropped at a sight that made her lip curl. Lexa, the girl she was falling for, the girl she had kissed more than once, the girl that made her heart flutter and her cheeks red, the girl that entered her mind every minute of every day, was pinning another girl up against the back wall of the bar, making out. And touching her just the way Lexa touched Clarke in the closet back at Bellamy's party. Her stomach dropped. She couldn't work out if she was angry or sad. Disappointed. She tried to peel her eyes away, but she couldn't.

The band had stopped playing. They were taking a 15 minute break. The rest of the gang made it back to the table. Clarke's eyes still on Lexa. In fact they were glued on Lexa. Raven looked at Clarke.

"Hey Griff" Anya stood right by Raven. "Clarke are you okay?"

Clarke didn't even hear Raven speak she was focusing on the way Lexa kissed the other girl. The way she touched her. She was jealous. Beyond jealous. Both Anya and Raven followed Clarkes gaze and quickly realized what had upset Clarke.

"Jesus Lexa" Anya muttered under her breath.

Raven put her hand on Clarke's shoulder and the blonde quickly jerked back. Before Clarke knew it a single tear rolled down her cheek. I don't have the right to feel like this. I'm making a fool of myself.

"I'm sorry" Clarke whispered.

Raven shook her head. "No, don't say sorry" Raven wiped away Clarkes tear. Clarke was thankful the rest of the group hadn't realized what kind of state she was in. Clarke didn't even understand herself, she had never in her life been jealous over anyone like this.

"Can you take me home?"

Raven nodded "Of course"

"I'll drive, I haven't had any drinks" Anya said as she looked between the two girls.

Clarke and Raven walked out to the car. While Anya made her way over to Lexa and the mysterious girl she had her lips locked with.

Anya dragged the brunette back, the other girl looked at Anya Ready to protest but quickly backed down when she gave her a vicious look.

"What the fuck, Anya" Lexa pushed her best friend back.

Anya's face was nothing but stern. She knew one thing, Lexa is an idiot. "You're a fool, Lex"

"I'm not following you" Lexa was confused. All she wanted was to hook up with a cute girl and forget about her problems. Just like the old Lexa.

"I know this is hard for you Lexa, but you need to face your real feelings" Anya stated.

"I don't know what you're talking about" Yes I do, that's just what I'm hiding from.

"Clarke, she likes you, idiot. And you fucked it up" Anya rolled her eyes as Lexa looked at her blankly. "She saw you making out with her, She ran out of here, she's upset, and I'm taking her home with Raven" Anya stood still waiting for Lexa to respond.

"Clarke?" Lexa was so confused. She was convinced Clarke wanted nothing to do with her in that way. Lexa's mind now filling back up with those thoughts of Clarke. Falling for her. Fuck.

"She's good for you, Lex" Anya said with less aggression. "Fix this" And that was it. Anya turned and Left Lexa to deal with what was just laid on her.

Clarke. I'm sorry.

First of all, I'd like to give a shout out to KellyDeaux for helping me out with some of the ideas in this chapter. I will update as soon as possible, hope this chapter wasn't too messy. Stay tuned if you'd like to find out what Lexa's next move is ;)