Spencer's POV (A Few Days Later):
It's been three days since I've spoken to Ashley and I miss her so much. As hurt as I was by her words, I still love her. I can't help it, she's changed everything for me. I want to call her but I know I'm still slightly pissed off and I don't want to say something that I'll regret. But I need to stop avoiding this. I'm going to call her after work.
A few hours later I'm anxiously headed home to call Ashley. Kyla called me this morning asking how I was and by the sound of it Ashley isn't doing any better than me. I get in and immediately dial Ashley's number, which is obviously on speed-dial.
"Hey, Spence−Spencer, is that you?" Ashley answers speedily. Good to see she's missed me as well.
"Yeah it's me. Hi," I respond. I'm not sure what the protocol is here, but she sounds super sad and I just want to hold onto her for dear life.
"I'm glad you called. I've been wanting to talk," She responds quietly.
"Well I just got home from work. How about you come over?" I ask.
"Okay great. Yeah sure, I'll leave now," I hear shuffling which means she's literally leaving now.
"Alright see you soon," I reply then disconnect the call. I really hope this goes well.
A few minutes later I hear a knock at the door. Ashley does have a key but I'm glad she chose not to use it this time. I go over to the door and let her in. She's wearing gray sweatpants and a white tank top. Pretty much the same as me, except I have on basketball shorts instead of pants.
"Hey, thanks for letting me come over," Ash says walking over to the couch but stopping short of sitting down. She looks at me as if she needs permission to sit.
"Have a seat," This all feels so clinical. Like we don't know each other or anything.
"Thanks. So I really just want to say again that I'm really really sorry. I know my words were disrespectful both to you and our relationship. I'm really sorry," Ashley ends with tears coming down her face. I remain stone-faced. Reacting to her crying is just going to make me break sooner.
"I've had a few days to think about our argument and I've pinpointed that the main reason I was upset is that you refused to see why I was upset. You just brushed it off like my feelings didn't matter, which just pissed me off. I later realized that you do this often. Whenever I fuck up I hear you out. Always. Point−blank−period. But, when the shoe is on the other foot I'm somehow overreacting. I'm just tired of the stupid fights Ashley," I reply already exhausted, but still calm.
"I know, I know. But I promise I will do better Spence. These past few days have given me a lot to think about too and I know that I don't want to lose you. Ever. I promise to hear you out and take your feelings seriously. I didn't mean to disregard your feelings, I just−I don't know," Ash states with tears still coming down her face. I know her tears are genuine, but I just don't know how to feel right now.
"I honestly don't know where to go from here Ashley. Part of me wants to just forget this whole thing but it's not that easy," I respond confused. Ashley brings her hands to her face and cries into them.
"So are we done then?" Ash asks after her tears subsides a few minutes later. She isn't even looking me in the eye.
"Don't get me wrong Ashley, I love you. But I don't want to continue this never-ending cycle. We fight, make-up, and fight again. We say some hurtful things to one another and then try to kiss it better. It's just all too much," I reply honestly. Ashley is just listening quietly, not saying anything. I guess she's taking this seriously. Randomly, she breaks into sobs again and gets up headed to my bathroom. I get up to follow her. I have to knock on the bathroom door because it's locked.
"Ash c'mon open the door," I demand laying my head and palms flat against the door.
"I ca−I can't. You're go−going to le−leave me," She sounds like she's having a panic attack or something.
"Ashley just open up the door. We aren't done talking," I reply, jiggling on the doorknob.
"I didn't t−tell you something. You're going to leave me!" What the hell is she talking about? I don't have time to process her words because she suddenly opens the door.
"Aiden kissed me," she blurts out before burying her head in her hands and falling against the wall. What the fuck!
"So we separate for a few days and you go fuck the very subject we split for!" Now I'm pissed. I back away from her before I do something I will definitely regret.
"No no−that's not−" Ash says quickly following behind me. She tries to grab my arm and I swiftly pull it away from her.
"Spencer please! I didn't have sex with him, I swear. He kissed me unexpectedly but I didn't even kiss back. I pushed him off, I swear!" I am shaking with rage right now. I can't even look her in the eye.
"Spencer please, you have to believe me," Ashley responds keeping her distance but speaking directly to me.
"I don't have to do shit," I reply through clenched teeth. I really want her to leave but I know that won't help anything. I'm trying to change this cycle.
"Spencer−please," Ashley whispers out dejectedly. I don't know what she's asking for but I know that I really really don't want to give anything to her right now. I go over to the couch and sit down with my elbows on my knees and my head in my hands. I feel the couch dip slightly next to me so I know she's just sat down.
"Spencer he came over uninvited to hang with me and Kyla. I thought it was just going to be a chill night but he−" she begins to cry, "You were right Spence, he wanted to break us up to try at 'us' again," she finishes. I don't even want to know the rest of the details. I'm still shaking with anger. I abruptly stand up and begin to pace. I don't want to speak in fear that I'm going to go for the jugular.
"I'm sorry," Ashley states dejectedly. I throw my hands up in anger.
"I know that. Please stop saying you're sorry, it isn't going to change anything right now," I reply. She doesn't say anything after that. I go sit back down on the couch, still not too close to her.
We sit there in silence for a long time. If I didn't know where to go before I certainly don't now. After about thirty minutes of silence I get up to get something to eat. I'm hungry and this whole situation is draining all of my energy. I hear Ashley follow me and we slowly begin to make sandwiches, moving around one another like everything is grand again. We both walk back to the couch and begin to eat, still with no communication whatsoever. After a few minutes I throw the rest of my sandwich down and turn towards Ashley to speak.
"Look this whole situation is just shit. But I know that I love you and I don't want something as stupid as this to be the cause of our break-up," I tell her looking her directly in the eyes. I see her body visibly deflate with relief.
"Spencer you don't know how much that means to hear you say that. I tho−I thought we were done," Ash says pulling me into a hug. I hug her back with equal devotion. I missed how soft she is all the time. I feel that familiar warmth spread through my body and I know Ash feels it too. She pulls back and looks me dead in the eyes.
"Spence I know everything isn't resolved right now, but I really want to make love to you. I just−I really need to feel our connection again because I just came extremely close to losing everything," Ash asks with a single tear coming out. I wipe it away with my thumb and pull her into me.
We kiss passionately for a few minutes just grabbing at each other desperately. She tries to straddle me on the couch but I lift her up to go to the bedroom. Everything is happening so haphazardly I can't even see straight. I bump into walls, stopping every few seconds just to kiss her. We finally make it to the bed and I let my animal instincts take over. I quickly remove her sweatpants and underwear as she removes her shirt. As I lay near her lower half I kiss any skin in sight, even giving her pelvic area a few licks. She moans while grabbing me to remove my clothes. I slide off the bed to stand to take my shirt off while Ash slides down to pull my basketball shorts and boxers down. My penis springs out and I see Ash's eyes turn darker immediately. She leans forward to take me in her mouth but I push her back. She looks up at me confused but I just push her enough to lay flat on the bed. I take her thighs in each of my hands and spread her legs apart enough so that I can be eye level with her center. Usually I take my time to tease her, but today I'm not in the mood for games. I head straight for her clit, taking it into my mouth as if it were my only meal for life.
"Oh fuck Spence!" I don't think she was expecting that. I draw circles on her clit with my tongue, quickly bringing her to climax. The longing was too real because that took no time.
"Fuck Spen−you made me cum too quick," Ash gets out trying to catch her breath from that intense orgasm. I can't even talk right now, I just flip her over on her stomach and grab her thighs. I pull her up so that her ass meets my hips and I immediately fall in love with this sight. We rarely do doggy-style because Ash likes facing me but this has always been my favorite position.
"Fuck Spence! Wha−" I don't even give her time to speak as I enter her from behind. I grab her hips for balance and begin to slowly rock back and forth. I don't want to hurt her so I always try to start off slow. Her moans deepen and I know she's ready for a faster pace. I begin to speed up, my hips slapping against her ass. She grabs the sheets and I know she's not far from cumming again. I reach under and grab her breasts and softly massage them while continuing my pace. Her moans are driving me crazy and I feel my lower abdomen tightening awaiting sweet release.
"Fuck Ash, I'm close," I tell her through gritted teeth. She reaches up to grab my hands which are still massaging her breasts, pulling me further into her body.
"Cum for me baby," Ash moans out. She's so wet I can't even describe it. Ash lets my hands go and grabs the sheets and I know she's about to cum. I'm just as close as I bring my hands back to her hips and push deeper into her.
"Fuck Spence, I'm cumming," Ash cries out. I feel her walls tightening around me and I begin to cum inside of her. I pull out as quickly as I can and before I know it Ash has me in her mouth. She starts to suck me off wildly like never before. I finish in her mouth, and fall back completely spent. I have to say that was the most intense sex me and Ash have ever had.
"Fuck Ash," I say trying to get my breathing together.
"We've let out a lot of 'fucks' today haven't we," Ash replies cuddling up to my chest.
"We have indeed," I reply leaning down to kiss her.
"I meant it Spence, I'm really sorry. Things are going to be different now I promise," Ash states while biting my lower lip. She plants kisses all over my face then proceeds to climb on top of me. She trails kisses down my chest and I grin widely.
"Round two babe?" I ask looking at her with nothing but love.
"Definitely," She replies in between kisses. Things are definitely going to be different.