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Chapter Ten: Omega Four Relay
(Serah's POV)

The entire crew was there when I came in the debriefing room. Or so to say, the crew that wasn't on the Normandy. Joker was sitting on the table, with Shepard and Miranda closeby him. Miranda didn't seem happy. Not at all. I walked over to Joker. "Are you alright?", I asked him. Maybe Miranda gave him a hard time, because he didn't really answer me. "We have to go get the crew", Shepard said. Then she took a glance at me. "I know your a biotic, but I also know you've never used them, so using them now would be a huge risk", she told me.

I gave a nod. "I wouldn't want to be responsible for anyone's death", Shepard walked toward the back of the room, so she could look at us all. "This is it. Once we go through the Omega 4 relay, there's no turning back now", she looked at all of us. "The collectors will pay for what they've done to us and we'll show them what we can do",

Nice speech, but that didn't stop me from freaking out. Not that I'd jeopardize the mission, never. Even though I should be considered a freakin' traitor. But staying on the Normandy granted me access to the full ship. I stood there as Shepard assigned people to their tasks. Tali would go through the vents to get the other teams to the next area, which is mainly unknown what there was but I could guess.

As soon as I thought that, my brain went haywire. I didn't see the crew anymore, I saw... What I believed to be the inside of the collector ship. It felt like I had taken control of one of those... collectors. My thoughts weren't mine, but that things.. Or better said, Harbingers. So this was what the Illusive man meant with 'being Harbingers eyes'. If I was in control.. maybe I could..

I tried to turn my head in the hopes to get a better view of the inside of the ship, but a shake made me wake up. I blinked a few times to gain my sense back into my own mind. The mess in my head died down and finally I could open my eyes again. Once I managed to open them, the vague look of a.. quarian came to me. Oh! Again I blinked but this time to gain sight. "Tali?..", I said weakly and moved my eyes a bit to find my surroundings. I was on the ground as far as I could tell. Tali kneeled down in front of me with her omni-tool and..

I moved a bit to get up but someone was holding me. I craned my neck to see and it was Garrus who held me. "Don't crack jokes about me falling for you, please", I said and chuckled a bit. Garrus shook his head a bit before helping me up.

"What happend?", Miranda asked, crossing her arms over her chest. "I uh", I couldn't simply let them know what happend, they'd be onto me very, very quick. "I don't know actually", I said and grabbed my head. Man the room was a bit swirly. Garrus helped me up and I sighed. The dizziness subsided. "Serah, go lie down", Shepard said to me. I gave a nod and proceeded to my room.

Once in my room I felt the urge to cry. I never wanted this to happen. Stupid Ceberus, stupid creating... stupid, everything! I didn't chose this, not the mission, not this whole life. I sighed and let myself fall on my bed. How was I supposed to know what to look for in Shepards room? Arcen said I'd know it when I saw it. But right now was the hardest part. These people didn't desserve to be betrayed like that.

But I did know Cerberus, if I didn't do what they'd want me to do, they'd find a way to kill me. I shivered at the thought of that. After a stare of five minutes to the ceiling, I closed my eyes, trying to get some sleep.

Maybe I napped for about 20 minutes, but a knock on my door made me wake up. I stood up from my bed and slouched over to the door to open it. Garrus quickly walked in and sat down on my bed. I frowned while closing the door. It was strange to see him outside his armor. "Can I help you?", I asked. I rubbed my eyes to clear the sleep.

"Well, I..", Garrus started and stood up again. I leaned against the wall. Garrus kept pacing back and forth. "Something happend?", I asked. Man, he was getting on my nerves with this. "I...", he was about to tell me. I walked over to him and crossed my arms. "I slept with Shepard", he admitted. My jaw dropped. "Holy..!", I exclaimed.

"How was it?", I said. I recalled him mentioning it'd be 'either a night to treasure or a horribly interspecies thing'. Garrus showed somewhat of a smile. "It was... special",

It looked so cute to see him like that. What I've learned about him was that he was a tortured soul. So for this to hopefully work out, was great. I grabbed his hands. "I'm really glad it was... well, nice", I said. Garrus gave a nod. "Well, we have to go", he said and I noticed he was a bit scared. Just a little bit. Man that dude got nerves of steel.

I gave him a quick but tight hug. "Go kick some Reaper ass and... it was an honor to serve with you".

Garrus returned my hug. "Same here and hopefully the worst thing that can happen is that you need to patch us up", he said and left my room. I walked over to my vidscreen and awaited for Arcen to answer.

"Serah",

"The crew is leaving for their suicide mission, when shall I go through the rooms?", I asked. Arcen looked over his shoulder. "I'd wait until they've gathered information from the base. Then they'll know more", he said. I frowned. "I thought this was going to happen now?",

Arcen nodded, but he seemed hesitating. "It was, but I don't think we can trust Cerberus anymore", he told me. I frowned. What changed his mind? "Through some old contacts of mine I found out what Cerberus intentions really are with the Collector base",

I tilted my head, still not understanding where he was headed with this. "I think the Illusive man wants to use the base to create a Reaper",

My eyes widen. No way.. why would a human want to create such a monster? It felt nauseating. I stared at my terminal. How could someone go so far as to betray his own kind for the Reapers..

I looked up again. "Is this what your uncle did too?", I asked. I knew Arcen didn't like to talk about Saren, but I was curious. Arcen flared his mandibles, he was obviously not looking foreward to answering me. "Sort of yeah, but my uncle was indoctrinated", he answered me. That saddend me. One of the guys he looked up to in his life to go down like that.

"I don't think it'll take to long for the Illusive man to go that way too", I said and looked away from the screen. I thought it over and Arcen was right, Cerberus wasn't right. This whole situation was wrong. I got up just in time to hear the Normandy starting to move. "Serah?", Arcen looked all over the screen. I appeared in front of mine again and smiled. "I think the mission is over, I'm going to check on the crew, talk to you later",

I walked out of my room and made my way to the cargo bay. It was an easy figureing. That was the only place big enough for bodies to be stacked in coffins. When I entered the cargo bay, I saw to my delight that everyone made it! Shepard walked over to me and showed a smile. She handed me a datapad with information about the Reapers. It was all new and unfamiliar information to me.

But I was willing to study it if it could prepare us against the Reapers and stop Cerberus from helping them.