Bella's Last Christmas Wish

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Thanks for reading, please leave some reviews! Everything was going great for Bella and Jacob but this tale is going to dark places…...jealousy can make you do bad things. Be careful what you wish for Bella….

Chapter 10

The Christmas lunch had been a success at Sue's everyone had enjoyed themselves. I was relieved and happy. This was my last human Christmas and it had been all that I had hoped for, apart from what it was doing to Jacob that is.

He knew something was wrong the moment he laid his eyes on me. Despite his attempts to get me alone I managed to always be near others and his anger showed with his frustration. Before long he had left, slamming the back door before taking off into the forest. Seth left shortly after no doubt to find him.

I knew the pack would know what had happened between us last night, the mood Jacob was in he would not have shielded his thoughts. They would know every damn detail. I looked up from the plates I was stashing away in a cupboard straight into the eyes of Leah.

"So it's true then?" she hissed "You slept with him? Let me rephrase that Cullen, "I know you did the pack knows too. Smelt him on you the moment you walked in here this morning" she growled

How I thought to myself I'd showered and spent ages washing away Jacob. The musky earthy smell of Jacob had clung to every pore and threated to drive me mad." I'm not going to reply to such a personal question Leah". I whispered desperate for no one to overhear

Leah looked furious "What's wrong with you?" She enquired "Get off on making his life hell? It was bad enough before but to mate with him, let him mark you as his own then leave him again. You are one twisted bitch!" She spat

My breath hitched, Bull's-eye I thought that hurt but what I deserved "You're wrong Leah" I replied "I love Jake really I do. I made a mistake marrying Edward but there is nothing I can do to undo it. I must return for everyone's benefit". I felt tears spring to my eyes and I turned away from Leah's unflinching glare.

Leah laid her hand on my shoulder "Don't ask me why" she groaned "but all my senses are telling me to help you…you are terrified..why?"

"I can't tell you Leah it doesn't concern you. The choice has been made for me. I must return I made a promise"

"To whom?" Leah pressed on "The leech you married?"

"No" I whispered

"Then who Bella …look at you…you're breaking out into a sweat ….who or what frightens you that much, answer me now!" Leah was right up in my face

"The Volturi" I whispered

Leah looked at me in shock "Jacob mentioned them once when you came back from Italy. Why do they scare you now Bella they are far away?"

I felt compelled to tell her "Leah" I choked "If I do not become a vampire, they will ensure I change or ….die. They will come here with an army of vampires and they will kill everyone I love". I turned away from Leah's shocked face. What had I done? I had told the person who hated me my deepest fears. I did not hear Leah move but the back door quietly closing told me she had gone.

I asked Dad if he would take me home as I had to get my things ready for Edward when he picked me up. By 8 o'clock I was standing in my old room looking round for the last time. Charlie had dropped me off and after an emotional embrace he had returned to Sue's.

The big black car quietly pulled up outside Charlie's house and I saw Edward climb out. He rushed up the path and drew me into an embrace. To be honest his cold touch sickened me. He kissed me lightly on the lips and all I could think of was Jacob's warm lips moulding to mine. Edward's lips were like stone.

"I have missed you my love" he purred his voice sounding more like Aro's each time I heard it. "Let's go home, the family are waiting they have missed you too". I watched Charlie's house disappear in the wing mirror as we drove off in the dark.

I sat on the end of the bed I had shared with Edward and watched him nervously as he paced the floor. Where were the others? The house was empty. I looked at Edward. I had never seen him in this state before, his mask of humanity had slipped and his true vampire nature was there in all its ugliness.

He turned and looked at me his lips drawn back from his teeth leaving them exposed and glinting with venom in the electric light, his once beautiful golden eyes were a flat dead black. I was terrified. This thing is what I had really married, for the first time I was seeing what Edward really was. I stood up to make for the door but he was there before me.

"Where do you think you are going my love?" he crooned in a sickly sweet voice. His breath washed over me and I felt nausea rising as the sweetness repulsed my senses. He reached around behind my back and pulled my long hair yanking my head back exposing my throat.

Hush my sweet one don't make a sound" he whispered as his cold tongue trailed against my skin from my ear to my throat. He made a revolting sound in the back of his throat "You taste of dog..repulsive" he spat.

He stood for a moment pondering what to do next. He still maintained a tight grip on my hair. He dropped his eyes to meet mine and leered at me as he suddenly started to drag me towards the bed.

"Edward please!" I cried "You are hurting me… please let go… let's talk" I whimpered

"The time for talking has gone my love" he replied as he pushed me back onto the bed. He looked down at me with pure lust on his face. I tried to get up but Edward slapped my face hard. I fell back dazed as Edward slithered up the bed towards me and to my horror he started to rip at my clothing.

.Mine. Bella, My wife..I know what you want, what you need to keep you happy" he smirked "I saw what that dog did to you and I can do it better" he licked his hard lips in anticipation. Panic rose from the pit of my stomach. He had seen us how, when?

"I want you Bella ….writhing under me… screaming My name. You are a slut Bella. In my human life you would have been cast out onto the streets, no decent man would have you". His voice changed, childlike. Eerie "But I cannot let you go my love" he whined on"…I need you and I know what you like." I felt his cold hands travel down from my neck, exploring places he had never dared to touch before, touching my breasts, squeezing them, hurting them.

"Please Edward!" I cried "Please stop". I begged "this is not who you are, please let me go"

"So you can go to him?" he laughed "I think not!"

"Edward please" and I struggled to get up.

He slapped my face hard again. "Shut up bitch" he snarled "Or I will punish you even more or is that what you like? He looked down at me "I have my rights as your husband, you are mine… I can do as I please …I own you…. I own your body" he hissed.

I felt his hands move down below my waist, ripping at my underwear, shredding the material like tissue paper. He forced my legs apart I could not stop him and tears began to roll down my cheeks. I felt him violate me with his hands, his cold fingers forcefully entering me, feeling me. I could not move because he had me pinned down. I felt bile rising into my throat as his cold hardness pressed against my inner thigh. He was hissing and growls escaped from his chest as his own excitement began to rise. I knew what he was about to do and I would not survive, I was terrified and from sheer terror I bit hard into my bottom lip. Blood oozed forth and as the scent reached Edwards nostrils, he stilled, as I waited for the final blow that would end this misery. I love you Jacob, I'm so sorry I thought.

Suddenly Edwards's weight had gone. After all these months of denying himself my blood his boundaries had some- how kicked in. He stood across the room where he eyed me with blood lust raging in his eyes. With one last effort he opened the door of the room and left.

I staggered from the bed into the bathroom and threw up in the sink. I glanced up and saw myself in the mirror. God what a state I looked. My lips were swollen form the slaps and split from the bite I had inflicted, one eye was almost closed. Finger shaped bruises were starting to take shape across my neck, shoulders and breasts…the room began to spin and I passed out on the floor.

I hope you are not too traumatised but we know Edward is not human and he's lost it big time. He loves Bella but his vampire side is in full control now. Thanks for reading.

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