I'm so sorry I have not updated. Please school started a little over a month ago and I already have 3 F's. I am trying to get up. He he but here's another chapter to how my ugly story is going. I was listening to a very good song while writing this and will be doing it on Gwen and Courtney on my you tube account.

Song:When She cries

Artist:Britt Nicole

Please try to go and listen to it while reading or after/before.

It's very sad ;(

he he. I hope Duncan and Courtney will get back together at the reunion now the series is over/

It was Insane how me and Duncan could take a step forward, and In the end take 5 back. He had went phys-co on me for no complete reason. Worrying on my safety?

Pshh yeah right. That would be the day Duncan would come out of the closet, and tell everyone he loves teddy bears and he preferred a pink Mohawk over the neon green that was dyed onto his black hair.

Walking from the heated room filled with my and his antics I was now In a classroom with my other friend, Sarah.

"Hey Courtney," She greeted as I sat in the seat beside her, giving her the best smile I could force up. My face had probably been all scrunched up, since she had changed to a weird expression.

"Is there anything wrong? You just made this face that looked like you ate a lemon."

Shaking my head no, I did not want to bring my newly friend up into Duncan drama. Even though... maybe I was a tad bit jealous of how the circumstances would turn out. He sure had an eye for the female population at school.

What If he though Sarah was better than me and Decided to dump me in the streets and drive her home and be all drama type with?

She was pretty, I could be compared to anyone and still be called ugly. I was short with too many curves and wore a messy bun that had never be seen let down. I was a beast, she was the beauty...

The thought made my insides churn and my heart hurt so I changed the subject.

"Are you busy this Saturday night?" I wrote passing the lined paper over to her.

"No, not that I have anything in mind..." She said trailing off thinking of any events she could have missed.

"Would you like to come see a movie with me?"

"Sure!" Sarah said with a smile on her face, "That would be a lot of fun considering I've been stuck in a tiny apartment since I have came here."

"What's your number so I can call you?"

"Hmm 8596681914, You can call or text it. It's whatever but be warned I text pretty slow."

Shaking my head with a smile I tucked the note away as the class continued on.

My mind though had not gotten the picture of the said delinquent out of my mind, replaying the situation over and over again.

I had been a little mean, sure he was only mad because yes, Gwen had looked as If her and Trent were having a fling behind Duncan's back... Gosh I was suck a bitch... Here he was just looking out for me, thinking I could get broken by Trent.

Though Duncan did not know... there were little pieces left to be broken. Most were cracked and ready to split.

A feeling of guilt washed over me. I could blame it on the time of the month all I want but really... I should trust him and tell him straight that Trent is my friend. Like he is friends with Heather and all the kids that would bully me.

Sneezing Into my elbow I could only hope Duncan would spare me the time to talk.

"Looks like someones thinking about you." I heard beside my left ear from Sarah.

Maybe Duncan was thinking about me...

Nope.

The craziest thing though was that a little ounce of me, no wait a big ounce of me was hoping that he was thinking of me, and thinking of a way for us to become tied once more.

I was going to go to him, Yes. I was going to tell him, not beg, for an apology.

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The final bell rang finally at the end of the day. I quickly ran out the class and straight to the parking lot to find Duncan. Running to where his car should be, I stood and looked around. Duncan's car was there but... he had his arm around Heather and was casually leading her to his car.

Feeling unknown tears build up in my eyes I stood and watched. Feeling as if the people around me where going normal speed, though Duncan and said girl were moving slowly. Like a movie where I can only stay in the side lines and wish I was the other girl.

I stood, my legs shaking. Waiting for Duncan to turn around and laugh saying

"Got you!, You should have seen your face." Though there was nothing.

I would not or maybe even couldn't move, Duncan had started his car and was about to drive away. Heather beside him was laughing and touching his arm.

I looked down and back up, giving up on my hope. Though I didn't miss the connection of mine and his eyes locking. The way his were saying "I'm sorry" and as mine saying, "Why aren't you here for me? But her?"

He just looked away turned to heather and smirked his usual facial expression and drove away. Not looking back as I stood for who ever knows how long. Wishing I wasn't so stupid. Wishing I was not some stupid mute. Wishing my father really loved me. Wishing that I my mother wouldn't have used her life over mine. Maybe that Duncan would be here. Mostly wishing that maybe... I had feeling for Duncan.

I turned around and ran for the bright red light that hung above the traffic. Running across, running towards the wrong direction of home. Towards unknown places.

Just trying to run away from everything that has been my life.

I run more and more and end up somewhere in the city. I sit in a dirty ally with stray animals and lurking shadows and just cry against the wall.

I sit and lay down, hands covering my face and letting the tear drops falling and dampening my shirt and my eyes becoming puffy and swollen. Maybe about 2 hours later the sun was becoming night and I sit up.

Realizing that I was lost. I panicked and remembered a gas station where I could call my aunt.

Walking feeling very paranoid of everything around me I walk alone in the cold earth, and hope that maybe everything will become better. Walking in the doors I had asked the manager to use the phone where he politely said yes and I called my worried aunt who frantically told me she would be there soon.

I went outside and sat on the curb, waiting 20 minutes seeing my aunts face and her coming out and hugging me.

"Courtney! Courtney baby I was so worried. I've been trying to get a hold of you for so long, but every time I called your father he said he didn't know and would hang up, I miss you. Oh, oh I just..."

I could barley breathe though I had pulled out of the hug and asked

"Why had you kept calling me?"

Trying not to sound to mean, just my mind had been abused so much today I needed anything.

"Courtney... I think I found a cure so you can speak again..."

Last thing I remembered was my head becoming dizzy and feeling the hard ground, My aunt screaming my name, and the manager of the little gas station pushing buttons on the phone.

I just wanted to run away...

Ahh very rushed, and I have not decided if Courtney will become cured. Her aunt thinks she may have found it, though there are risk. Duncan and heather will not end together. And again sorry to not updating so long.

I did not proof read this to make sure things are correct so if any mistakes I am very sorry, and for the mess of this.! :( Love you all