Chapter 10

Newt and I walked out of the lining of trees in silence, I felt calmer than I had ever felt in the Glade and a soft smile was on my lifts which Newt was mimicking on his own facial features. His arm was draped over my shoulder as we walked past the many staring gladers but I couldn't find it in me to be shy or annoyed when I felt so peaceful. I probably sound very bipolar but after talking to Newt and having a moment with one of the few loved ones I remembered I just felt calm and secure, Newt being so close to me did help too.

Instead of going to the room I had been sharing with Newt like I thought we would have done, Newt led me up a rickety ladder a few flights of stairs higher than the one I was already in. When we got to the top I realised it was the roof of the homestead and it had an amazing view. For safety reasons there was a wooden fence around the outside of the roof along the edges so no one would fall of and Newt sat down behind it, ushering me forward to do the same.

I sat down next to the blonde haired boy and looked out over the glade where I could see everyone working or packing up for the day. It was an amazing place to see and I was honoured Newt had shared it with me but the view wasn't what caught my attention, it was the sun. As it gradually started lowering itself out of view for the night the sky began turning an amazing variety of colours. First it started fading from light blue to a faint pink which grew and grew until it was hard to miss, the colour didn't last for long and slowly an orange tint took over the pinkness of the sky and then gradually became darker and darker until the sun was no longer in the sky anymore.

"That was beautiful." I mused as I stared out at the Glade

"I know." Newt whispered

I turned to look at him with a smile on my face to find him already staring at me with something glistening in his eyes. I didn't know what it was but it made me feel happy that he was looking at me like that. I don't know how long we sat up on the roof of that building but after the remaining light of the sky was gone and it was replaced with darkness with only the stars to show there was an actual sky above us, me and Newt had both lay down to stare at all of the many stars as we talked. We didn't talk about anything specific, it was just random things that popped into our heads.

Occasionally, one of us would say something that would have us both laughing hysterically for minutes on end without calming down and it was during those times that I loved watching Newt laugh. His eyes bright, his lips curved into a genuine smile and the laughter spilling from his mouth was all it took for me to know that I did indeed like this boy. He was making me fall for him and I was falling fast and hard.

"When will I be trying out the other jobs then?" I asked after a few minutes of silence

"That depends, do you want to try out the other jobs or do you think there is one that you definitely want to do?" Newt questioned

"I don't know, I don't fancy being a slopper and being a runner doesn't really interest me but being a Med-jack or cook wouldn't be too bad." I said

"I might be able to get Alby to get you that if you want." He said after a moments silence

"Thank you Newt!" I said happily

He chuckled lightly before a serious expression took over his features. He sighed deeply before sitting up and rubbing his mouth as if deep in thought.

"You okay?" I asked as I too sat up

"Yeah," He sighed "I just - you make me want to trust you. That's something I don't usually do easily."

"Is that a bad thing?" I asked worried

"No its just that you opened up to me today and I feel like I should do the same." He mused. I started shaking my head frantically in response.

"You don't have to do anything you don't want to." I said quickly

He laughed at this, shaking his head softly and letting his hair fall over his forehead more than usual.

"Have you ever noticed I have a limp?" He asked, the smile and laugh gone from his voice

I nodded my head, not knowing if I wanted to know the story behind it if it affected him so much.

"Before you got here I used to be a runner, I searched the maze like the others tryin' to find a way out of this place. But one day a few months back now, I realised it was hopeless and I got really depressed. I didn't want to live in this shucking place anymore when there was no way we would find a way out so I tried killing myself. I climbed halfway up one of the walls in the maze and jumped off." He said

My breath caught in my breath as I heard this but Newt was too far gone in a past memory to notice so I let him continue.

"Obviously, I didn't actually succeed in killing myself because my leg got caught in some bloody ivy and broke it. Minho found me and took me back to the glade before the doors closed and Clint and Jeff did what they could to my leg but I would never be able to walk properly or be a runner ever again."

I felt like crying at the thought of not having Newt with me. I didn't want to think of my life without him because I knew it wouldn't be one worth living. He sighed as he finished his story and I did let one tear escape my eye but I brushed it away quickly before he noticed. I didn't hesitate in wrapping my arms around his tall body, feeling it was the right thing to do in the moment and snaked his arms around my waist just as tightly as I did.

"I thought you should know." He mumbled into my hair

I nodded and lifted my head to meat his gaze and didn't think about what I was doing before I did it. I leaned forwards at kissed him smack on the lips. It wasn't a long kiss but it wasn't a peck either. After I pulled away I moved away from Newt and stood up, feeling hugely embarrassed by my actions as I started walking towards the ladder to take me back into the homestead. I felt so stupid for ruining what had been such a sweet moment with my rash actions and probably ruining a friendship in the process.

Just as I was about to step down the ladder I was pulled back and spun around quickly and the next thing I knew a pair of deliciously soft lips where attached to my own in a breath taking kiss. I sighed and sunk into Newts body as he held my waist and kissed me passionately which I undoubtedly responded to eagerly.

My hands found their way to the back of his neck and I played with the hairs that rested their as we kissed without breaking a part. After a while we did need to come up for air but when we did we rested our foreheads together and breathed in gasps and pants.

"You don't know how long I've wanted to do that." He whispered

I giggled at the need in his voice and barely had time to regain my breathing properly before he pressed our lips together once more in another kiss but it wasn't as desperate as the first. We took our time in moving our lips in sync and I smiled into it as he bit my lip lightly.

"You don't know how long I've wanted you to do that." I whispered as we broke a part once more

He laughed whole heartedly and took my hand, intertwining our fingers together and swinging them back and forth. We decided to descend down the ladder after that and went into Newt's room to sleep but on the way we passed Alby who only raised his eyebrows at our hands and shrugged. Just as the door closed behind us I was sure I heard him mutter under his breath,

"About damn time." Which made me giggle

I kicked my boots of and untied the huddy from around my waist before I crept into Newt's bed and rolled to my side. I felt the bed dip under his weight and he rolled me over to look at him and my eyes widened in surprise when I saw he was no longer wearing a top so his chest was bare and mine to gawk at.

"You're awfully confident now for someone who was stuttering over sharing the same bed as me." I mused with laughter and a smile on my face.

He just shrugged his shoulders in response with a smile on his face as well as he tugged me closer to him so my front was pressed flush against him. I squeaked in surprise but quickly moulded into his body, attracted to the warmth that radiated off of him and ... lets be honest here I loved the feeling of his six pack right next to me.

"I could get used to this." He mumbled sleepily as he traced patterns on m hip where my top had risen up.

I laughed lightly at this and started dosing off into a peaceful sleep with Newt holding me and keeping me safe.