Title: Just A Glimpse

Author: Lili44

Genre: (AU) Romance/Fluffdom

Disclaimer: Sorry I do not own Robin Hood or any related characters.

Synopsis: Ever wondered how Will and Djaq fell for each other. This fluffy fic explores the feelings for the gangs youngest members and how true love can be found in the simplest of things. For Will and Djaq the past was dim, their present situation dangerous and doubtful but their future hopeful when they find each other, despite everything. Only one question remains; do they have the courage to make their feelings known to the other? Can they take that small step that appears to be a giant leap and find true happiness? Please check out the Banner for this Fic at my profile page.

Chapter 10 - Much's Unknown Genius

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Her fingers were half numb in the icy water of the river, water trickling between her fingers, cold but surprisingly refreshing. She had a strange fearful feeling inside of her that grabbed her stomach and wrenched her gut. Why she was fearful she did not know but she had felt a lot of strange unexplainable feelings in the last few hours.

'In love with Allan?!?' that she could NOT understand. She suppressed a smile 'they all think of me as a woman, even if they don't treat me like one'. It seemed she had finally achieved the perfect balance she had been seeking. She was finally recognized for being the female she was yet she was still one of the lads, her gender was truly irrelevant – she was simply Djaq.

'Me in love?' she smiled lightly. She had cleared it all up when she said she loved Allan like a brother. 'These English seem to hold a great deal by romantic love' she thought. 'They treat it as if it is the most important thing in the world'. She laughed aloud at the little charades Robin would pull off to secure Marion's affection. Did they not understand that two people of the opposite gender could love each other with out it being romantic, just like brother and sister? She felt the fearful throb in her gut again.

'Like brother and sister' she repeated. She loved them all like brothers. Allan with his brotherly teasing, Much with his constant worrying, John with his older brotherly steadiness, Robin with his leadership that kept them together as a family and Will. Will with his passionate words, his avid fighting for the poor, those gentle carpenters' hands that could create anything and those eyes…those eyes that would send inexplicable shivers down her spine. 'Yes I love them all like brothers' she soliloquized firmly.

Even as she said the words she knew they weren't true. They were all brave, honorable men and she would fight to save the lives of any of them. But Will, for Will she would fight of an army of soldiers, she would cross miles and miles of desert and sea, she stand against the world just to see those eyes, to feel those feelings they created in her. For Will she felt something different, 'something more'. 'There I have finally said it, I have finally admitted it now what?' The fearful pulsing would not leave her stomach. She wondered what exactly she felt about him.

Her feelings about him were….indescribable, inexplicable. She could not think of any other name to explain them.

Something ticked in her mind….
"YOU don't really mean any of that stuff you said, you're just trying to justify what he's done because you're IN LOVE with him!"

"you're IN LOVE with him"

"IN LOVE"

Much's words came back to her in a way she had never considered before and suddenly everything made sense. She could try to deny it but that would get her nowhere. The way she blushed when he looked at her with those eyes, the way he made her feel so vulnerable but so safe at the same time, the warm flowering feelings in her chest….all him, all because of him. She thought back to the snowball fight when their faces had been so close. There had been a third dimension to that moment that she hadn't understood. She tried to analyse it but she couldn't – because at the time she had given herself completely over to the moment, to her feelings.

'I Love Will Scarlett' she said in her head – testing out the words.

'I Love Will Scarlett' she repeated softly aloud – it was strange but she liked the way the words sounded.

The fearful throbbing in her gut was still there.

'I Love Will Scarlett' she repeated softly and then in her mind she said shakily 'but what if he does not care for me in return?'

Throb

Now she finally understood the fearful, wrenching, feeling in her stomach. Her heart had been two thousand miles ahead of her head, and that certainly was new for her. It was one thing to admit her love for him, but what if he didn't return the feeling? This one mans feelings could cause more harm to her than a whole army of mercenaries.

'Allah guide me, lead me to do what is right' she said aloud.

She sat by the river gazing into the running river until evening came and she heard Will's voice calling her back to camp, calling her to her home. She pulled herself up and began walking back to her family, returning, whether he knew it or not, to the man she loved.
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