I didn't even know I hadn't put this up! I'm sorry! This has been done for some now you get two in one day. Enjoy.

Disclaimer: Final Fantasy VII and all parts of the contemplation go to Square Soft or rather Square Enix. I own Evelia and the things based around her.

We returned to Midgar and we headed for my room to talk for a bit. He left to his room and I'm not sure what he did in there.

The next morning he didn't look so good, "Zack the only way to get over it is let your emotions go," He nodded silently and left. My shoulders sagged and my jaw clenched. Sephiroth had yet to talk to me since we left.

I spent half the day staring into the bright blue sky, until I left for the Slums to talk with Aerith possibly. I figured Zack might be there too.

I was right. I walked around him silently and we talked lightly. I knew the realization of his death would come later, and when it hit me, I couldn't control the feeling of pain I had in my chest. Aerith took the outburst rather well, especially since it made poor Zack cry harder.

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Zack and I had training together with Sephiroth and as the days passed, Zack could handle the large sword easier. He also changed his hairstyle, suggesting I do something different. The ponytail thing being to childish. I laughed a bit and pointed out how Aerith had a similar look. He shut his mouth and my thoughts ran back to the conversation I had with Angeal before the Wutai mission.

The next time I saw Zack he nearly fell over from shock. I had decided on letting my hair down with a powerful layered look. I was noticed differently than before and twice as often. The day after there was an article in the Shinra News about my choice of hairstyle, where I had gone to get it done, the one who did it and how much it cost. These people got the play-by-play on the entire process. The day after the original article People said that they really liked the changed.

Zack included. While he enjoyed spending more time with Aerith now but he tried balancing his time between her and me. I found time to get him a birthday present, he was turning 17 soon. I left it on his bed in his room so he could find them when he got home.

A few days after Zack brought up the subject of our hairstyles again. "I like the new hairstyle... You cut it?" he asked with the giant buster sword on his back and the 'X' cut on his cheek.

"Yeah I did, and thank you. You look more mature than before but I think you looked cute before, eh, whatever you still look good." I elbowed him in the ribs gently with a wink. He smiled.

"Aerith laughed at me the first time she saw me." I chuckled.

"She's got nerve for a girl who's afraid of everything. I like that. What'd she say?"

"Well she laughed then said she couldn't get used to it. Laughed some more and apologized saying that I looked good, I asked her again and she laughed again." I snickered at his side and he looked at me incredulously.

And then… we were given a vacation.

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Not the "Hey, you worked you butt off lately, you need a rest" kind of vacation, but the "Hey, you've been here and done some shit, we need you out of our hair until you have some use, leave." kind of one.

As if it wasn't already bad that we had vacation but "coincidentally" so did Cissnei. I didn't particularly like her from the moment she said something, seeing her being so irritating didn't help much. I kept it in my best interest to avoid conversation wither. Fortunately, Zack didn't seem to pay much mind to her. She left soon because of this.

"I doubt that it's a coincidence." I mumbled over the wind.

"You really think so?" I nodded lightly as the ocean breeze flew through my hair. "You don't like her, do you?" I snorted.

"Isn't that obvious? I don't get along very well with other females. Only Aerith, even then I don't talk to her very often," I replied shrugging a bit before tugging on my black gloves. I shook my head, the feeling of a breeze running through it made me breakout in Goosebumps.

"That's because you're busy, and when you aren't she's with me," I nodded as he smiled a bit at the thought of her.

"She really makes you happy huh?" I stood straight looking at him. He glanced at me once before doing a double take and staring at me. He stood up straight and glanced at me before looking over the blue sea. I waited.

"Yeah she does," he started quietly. The tearing in my throat was terrible, and it rippled inside of chest. I looked away and my hair fell into my face as I gripped the metal bar that was at hip level. I took a deep breath trying to speak.

"Uh, I'm glad to hear it." I smiled towards him grimly. Anymore force in my grip and I'd create a dent inside of the bar.

"Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I hadn't met her," I sat silently holding back the tight feeling in my throat. "If I'd be the guy I was before or if I'd be with you," my eyes shot up to him with surprise and he met them with a cocky gaze.

"What do you mean by that?" he smirked a bit and continued talking.

"It's obvious, why ask. There's something about you that's different. You are a stark contrast to Aerith and yet there's something about you that has you etched inside of my head. Even when I'm with her, sometimes all I can think about is you." I shook my head a little with a smile.

"Why do I doubt that?

"I can't have a talk about my feelings for you that you can take seriously?"

"Not really Zackary, only because you're too cocky and stupid to speak about fluffy things without turning it over and ruining the whole thing."

"Look who's ruining it now?" I laughed gently and turned to him with a smile.

"Alright, Alright," I mumbled turning back to the Sea with him. The sun had begun setting and the light hit him at an angle the lit up his features gracefully. I felt heat rise to my face as I thought about it. I turned away using my new hairstyle to my advantage as it hid my face from him. The salty breeze continued to blow through my nose. We were silent as we let the moment sink in.

"Do you think about me?" I choked on my saliva in surprise and gave him an odd look.

"Zack, now you're scaring me…" He sighed and smirked before walking off.

"I'll take that as a no," My jaw dropped.

What was he thinking about that made him act so weird… and sweet? I asked myself before leaving myself. I weaved through the tables and chairs on the deck and to a metal door.

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They had booked us a place at Costa del Sol. It was sunny there, and peaceful. Zack and I lived in a type of apartment place when we vacationed there. He claimed the room closest to the kitchen. I shook my head and took the large room with the small balcony outside of it.

My boots clunked against the wood floor harshly before I stopped before the room to open the door and smile at its cleanliness. the room had Carpet instead of wood. That was good for my clumsiness. Usually when I was out of uniform, I was a total klutz. I assumed it was from the lack of balance I body had. A large chest, a thin muscled body, and a small round butt. This usually caused me to fall on my face.

I took an hour to settle in because we had arrived in the morning. So when I finished it was barely even noon. I removed the heavier parts of my uniform and walked outside to the balcony to look around. It was the prime time of the year for quiet. It was around this time that most people weren't given vacation. So for a couple of SOLDIER 1st Classes it was a good time to keep a low profile while out on vacation.

I let the breeze flutter my long soft hair. I sighed gently, my thoughts rushing as I stared out at the beautiful teal sea as the afternoon sun beat down against it making it seemingly glitter with each crash of a wave. My rushing thoughts were stopped when a knock came at my door. I turned around to glance at it. I knew Zack was on the other side; he was the only one other than myself in the apartment. I sauntered over to the door silently. I opened the door to see Zack in some black swim trunks, with a flame on his right leg.

"You busy?" he glanced over at my clothes. I followed his gaze and returned to look him in his Mako infused eyes.

"Why?'

"I wanted to know if you'd come outside with me or something. I'm getting antsy." I rolled my eyes I could tell in his face he was getting bored.

"Go see if Cissnei will go with you instead. I want to relax," I murmured as my shoulders fell a bit.

"How can you relax if you don't have fun?" I rolled my eyes.

"Like you're gonna have fun? You're gonna be a tense from them letting you duty and you're gonna miss Aerith and you're gonna try calling Shinra to see why they stuck us out here. I know you Zack; you don't know how to relax anymore," He stood silently in the threshold of the large room before pouting a bit and walking away.

I closed the door locking it. I fell back against the door when I heard him slam the front door. I was silent as I thought. "That's all I ever do when I have free time. Think! Why can't I just be normal?" I scolded myself. "Oh wait, I'm in SOLDIER. Now I know why." I whispered to myself, standing straight and returning to my balcony.

I've had a lot on my mind since Angeal's death and still do. I didn't know what happened exactly I just know he was dead when I finally got to see him.

Zack's words came back to me and I stood straight pulling my elbows from the white balcony and turning my body a bit to look inside the room. I glanced at the dresser with my other clothing inside of it. The sunlight was still hitting my starting to make me hot, especially in my all black clothing. I walked inside and opened my drawer I swore that was just for show. It held a few swimming suits and some towels. Tseng insisted that I bring some.

I gave my thoughts a second to reorganize themselves and closed the drawer so I didn't think to consider going again. I left the sanctuary of my room to see what I could do outside of it. I found absolutely nothing. No wonder Zack got bored so fast.

I gave a deep breath and saw Zack doing some squats all by himself. I felt bad. There wasn't anyone around. I checked a calendar and found that the villa would start have more people in a few days. Zack and I had vacation for at least two weeks. We had been booked back when Angeal had died, a few months ago. I sighed again, my bad habit.

I shook my head incredulous to the consideration of my actions as I grabbed a red swim suit and ripped it on. It was a bikini with a black swirl design on the top.

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When I placed the black towel down and I looked up to see Zack, he was smiling at me. I smiled back a bit shyly. The sand was warm beneath my toes as we walked towards each other.

"So you changed your mind?" I smirked a little.

"Unfortunately," he grinned thankful for the company obviously.

"Don't worry, you look good," he turned and grabbed my hand so we could run into the water together. A heated blush ran across my face. Two weeks with Zack… two hopefully normal weeks. I smiled at the thought. The heat faded a bit as I hoped for something close to a normal time with Zack.