I decided that I am going to take this story further then I had intended in the beginning. I hope you all stick with me through it!

Chapter 10

I wanted to hit Alice by the time five thirty rolled around. There was really no need in taking an hour and a half to just get dressed and fix my hair. I'm sure if I wore a paper sack then Edward would still think I looked good. That made me blush. I never liked to admit that he thought I was beautiful but every chance he got he was telling me.

"Are we done here yet?" I pouted like a child.

"Stop being so impatient." She grumbled behind me.

"Aunt Alice, you know how Mom hates when you do this." Masen must have entered the room. I went to turn around to look at him but Alice turned my head back around. "Where are you going tonight that you need to dress up?"

I can't believe I forgot to tell him about my date with Edward. He hadn't gotten home until a couple of hours ago from Seth's.

"Well, I…er…have a date with your father?" I hadn't meant for it to sound like a question. Alice actually let me turn around to look at Masen.

"I'm going to leave you two to talk now." She said and quickly got out of my room.

I smiled when I saw the smile on Masen's face.

"That's awesome, Mom." He walked over and sat on my bed. "I like Edward and I can tell you're still in love with him."

"So, you're okay with all of this? Because if you aren't you need to tell me now before I get any more involved in his and Alexa's life." I said to him.

"I'm more then okay with it. I mean it'd be easier to get to know him this way. I want to know him, I've lived so long without a father…" He trailed off but kept his eyes on me. I really did have an amazing son. "Plus, I like that I have a sister."

"I'm glad, Masen." I stood up and hugged him. He returned the hug. "I couldn't have asked for a better son." I told him kissing his forehead.

"Aww, ma." He groaned. "I need to get downstairs. Even if he is my father I have to make sure he's good enough for my Mom." I just rolled my eyes there was that father thing again.

"Tell Alice she can come back up and torture me some more if she pleases." I groaned wishing I hadn't subjected myself to Alice's torture but she was my best friend and she always knew what was best for me.

---

He looked amazing when I walked down the stairs. Masen was sitting across from him, it seemed I had interrupted them talking. I saw a smile on Edward's face as he watched our son. I really hope things would work between them. I wanted Edward in my life, Alexa too.

Edward glanced up then stood up from his spot. Masen turned around.

"You look great, Mom." He gave me a smile.

"Thanks, kid." I said walking over to them.

"I want her home by eleven, got it?" Masen said to Edward sounding stern but still with a lightness to his voice. I just giggled and Edward promised him that I'd be there at eleven and no later.

"I am a grown woman, Mase."

"Yeah, but you're my Mom. I have to protect you." He said.

"Here I thought that was my job to protect you."

"You need it more then I do. Judging by those heels Aunt Alice put you in I can already picture you falling. Make sure you catch her." He pointed a finger at Edward, once again using that stern but light voice.

After we had said our goodbyes to Masen we got into Edward's Volvo. I couldn't believe he was still driving this brand of car. After so many years of better vehicles being made.

"Where are we going?" I asked him.

"There's only one semi-fancy restaurant in this town, Bells." He said looking over at me.

I smiled. I knew where he was talking about. It was the same restaurant where had shared our first kiss. I was happy that he actually told me but I should have already known where we would be going.

We were seated and had already ordered our food when he decided to talk.

"Bella, I want you to know that I never forgot about you over the years. I need you to know that. I need you to also know how I imagined our life together. Just you and me and the many kids I knew we would have. I had that whole white picket fence fantasy, you know the one girls usually have." He chuckled then went on. "I never imagined that I would spend all these years without you. I honestly thought you had moved on. I was heartbroken. I used women, even Alexa's Mom. I never found anyone that could replace you. After all you are irreplaceable." I hated when he made me blush but honestly I loved it all the same.

"What I'm trying to say is…I need you in my life now. I can't go back to being without you, Bella. I can't even go back to not having Masen in my life. I want to be with you and him. I want Alexa to have a brother and a mother…like she deserves. I want her to have a family, Masen too." He reached across the table to take my hand.

I couldn't believe that all of this was happening so quickly. We had a past. One that I would never forget but maybe we could start over, start new. All four of us together.

"I don't want to forget our past. I know I won't be able to and I know you won't either but I want to get past it."

"I do too, Edward. I want all of that. I want it more then I've ever wanted it before." I shifted a little.

"Let's try this. Let's try being something more then friends." He says squeezing my hand. I squeezed his back and gave him a wide smile.

"We should finish that game of twenty questions." I declared.

"Who's turn was it?"

"I think it was mine." I said trying to think of something to ask him. "How come you changed? I mean you were such a different guy with me then you were in New York, or so you said."

"I didn't have you. I was alone most of the time and it got to be too much. So, I found whatever I could to get rid of that loneliness. It never worked, it'd take it away just a little but never enough. Not like it is with you." He sighed and looked away and then back at me. "Why Jacob? In High school you always told me how you hated how he talked about me."

"I guess I had that same reason as you. At first I tried to just focus on Masen and nothing more. Sure there were other guys…but nothing that was worth holding on to. Not even Jacob, he's still my best friend but I don't see anything more with him." I said and looked away from a second just as he had before. I didn't even know what number question we were on, but I knew that even after the twenty question game I'd keep telling him anything he asked me. "What's Alexa's full name?" I needed a lighter question.

"Alexandra Elizabeth." He says. "Was Masen easy to care for as a child." Now that was something I could talk about for hours. Masen's childhood.

"He was. As a baby he rarely cried, and I had Alice and Jasper's help plus…Moms and my Dads." I couldn't meet his eyes when I mentioned my Mom he seemed to notice that so I went ahead and asked my question. "Have you told your parent's yet?"

"I called them last night after you left. They were confused at first but then delighted to know that they had another grandkid. I'm sure they were already planning a trip here." Just as he was about to ask another question our food came. We ate in silence letting go of each other's hand. My hand felt empty without his in it.

I was home by 10:45. I walked into my house after my small make-out session with Edward. I knew Masen was already in bed so I walked my way up the stairs. I felt pure bliss as I collapsed on my bed. I was happy, happier then I been in awhile.

I woke up the next morning with a smile still planted on my face. No normal person should ever be this happy, but I was and I wanted it to last forever but I knew that wasn't possible. Something bad had to be around the corner. I didn't want to think about that though. I just wanted to think about how happy I was. How I was finally going to have a full family. Me, Edward, Masen and Alexa. I wondered how it would be raising a little girl. I was proud of myself that Masen was such a wholesome boy. I hoped I could do just as good a job with Edward's daughter.

It felt nice to think that she could possibly become my daughter one day. She was an adorable little girl and I would want nothing more then for her to call me her Mom.

I sighed happily then and hopped out of bed.

I was ready to face my day.

I could just tell it would be as good a day as last night had been.

We had a talk, at least a little bit of the talk. I'm sure there was more we needed to discuss but we would get to that along the way.

I went to my phone to see that Alice had already called me. Her pregnancy must cause her to wake up early. I hadn't had morning sickness with Masen so I had no idea how that felt.

"Good Morning, Alice." I said into the phone after she picked up.

"You seem to be in good spirits this morning." She didn't sound as awake as I was.

"I am."

"I take it the date went well." She yawned.

"Yep." I smiled pulling slipping my shoes on.

"That's really great, Bells. You deserve this." She said yawning once again.

"You sound tired, Alice."

"No shit, I haven't been able to sleep in the last few days. This child of mine seems to want to keep me up. Not sure why though." She mumbled.

"I need to get to work but I'll call you later with details. You should really get some sleep, it's not healthy for the baby to not sleep." I tell her. I was an expert on carrying a child, or so I wanted to believe.

"Yeah, yeah." I could tell she was rolling her eyes.

After our conversation I rushed out of my house. I only had ten minutes to get to work before I was late. I hated being late for anything. Being late wasn't good. The last time I was late for something I was pregnant with Masen. I laughed at that thought.

I was terrified staring at that pregnancy test. I was missing Edward like crazy and I was feeling irritable. Everything made me angry or sad. Alice had waved it off to me as stress. Sure I thought that could possibly be it. I was stressed with school starting and with Edward being gone. But it wasn't stress. It was in fact a baby growing inside of me. My wonderful little boy.

I had wanted a boy from the beginning. I wasn't sure I'd be able to care for a girl, but with a boy I knew I could handle it. I loved him from the second I felt little flutters in my belly. I've never stopped loving that boy.

He could murder someone and I would still love him. Although I wouldn't want that for him…I'm just saying how much I love my son.

Rosalie had finally gone on maternity leave which left pediatrics in a tizzy. I wasn't sure I liked her stand in doctor. She was a lot more strict then Rose was.

She didn't like me much, that I could tell from the beginning. But I had worked there for ten years and there was no way her opinion would matter to anyone about me.

I walked in Michael's room, the little boy who suffered from Leukemia. He gave me a wide smile before showing me the new truck his mother must had bought him.

"Masen had one just like that when he was your age." I said taking his vitals.

"I like when he visits." He tells me simply. "He tells me all kinds of stories. Mom likes him too." He glanced over at his mother who was smiling at me. She wasn't crying today, she was trying to be strong for Michael. It seemed to be working because he seemed to be in good spirits today.

"He's always been able to tell a good story." I said remembering all the one's he had made up as a little boy. He would tell me these off the wall stories that surprised me to no end.

"Can he come visit me soon?"

"Of course he can. I'll be sure to talk to him once he get's out of school." I say with a smile.

"Thank you, Ms. Bella." He drifted off to sleep after I put some pain medicine through his IV. This disease really took a lot out of the young boy. It was rather painful and sometimes got to be too much for him.

"You are truly an amazing woman, Bella." Michael's Mom smiled at me.

"You are too. You are much stronger then I would be." I say to her checking Michaels chart one last time making sure that I added everything correctly.

"After awhile you have to be. There's no reason to not be." She gives me a slightly sad smile. I just nod at her and leave the room.

I took a deep breath before finishing my rounds.