Were All Messed Up Chapter 10
Sara POV:
Its been a week since Tegan Asked me to be her girlfriend, Everythings going great. During the daytime we sometimes go for walks in the park, or we sit on the couch all day and watch movies on netflix,Then at night we cuddle, watch movies, read to eachother or have the most amazing sex. I can honestly say that im happy. I get up from Tegans bed, that I've been awak in for almost an hour and go to the kitchen. I prepare breakfast for Tegan and I. I finish and take our plates to the bedroom.
"Tegan, Baby wake up."
She groans and I can't help but smile.
"Sara, I dont wanna"
"I made you breakfast" I say knowing that'll make her get up.
She picks up her head and whips it around. She moves the hair from her face and smiles when she sees the plate.
"Gimme!" She says like a little kid in a candy store.
I chuckle and sit down on the bed and hand her her food. She sits up and starts to dig in.
"Oh god french toast and Eggs, be my wife Sara?" She says with her mouth full of food.
I laugh and we finish our food. I take our plates back to the kitchen and walk back to the bedroom.
"Mums comming over today member so we gotta clean." I say
"Man that means you cant walk around naked anymore!" Tegan says staring at me, she has a smirk playing her lips.
I look down at my body and notice that Im completely naked. I start to blush and head to the dresser to find some clothes. Tegan gets up from the bed and grabs my waist. She snakes her hand down to my pussy, she cups it and Im instantly moves to my clit and starts to circle it. I moan into the open air and she kisses my neck.
"Tegan we have to get ready for mum," She tickles my neck with her tongue and I can't help but laugh.
"So while shes here I can't do this?" She flicks at my clit and my legs go weak.
"No you can't" I resist the urge to tackle her on the bed and ravish her.
"If you say so then." She pulls away from me and heads to the bathroom. I look for some clothes that are cleaning type and settle on a wife beater and a pair of Tegans batman boxers. I go and clean the Kitchen, once thats done I straighten up the living room. I walk to the bathroom and see that its already clean, And so Is Tegans room. She walks out of the bathroom sweating.
"You cleaned?" I chuckle.
"Yea, that why Im sweating."
"Well you could've been playing with yourself in the bathroom." I say sarcastically.
"Oh yea cause the smell of bleach Turns me on." She says rolling her eyes.
We both laugh and lay on the bed. I check the time an it 1:30.
"Mums comming at 2:30, we should get ready." I say.
"Sara?"
"Yea Tegan?" I look at her and she looks nervous.
"Our we ever going to tell Mum about us?"
I bite my lip and think. I've been living in a Fantasy that I forgot about reality. What will our Mum think when we tell her. Should we tell her now? Today? Or should we wait until one day she cathes us kissing.
"Do you want to tell her Today?"
"Don't you think that that's a little to soon?"
"Better now, then explaining it to her when she catches us?"
"True, how do you think She'll take it?"
"Shes our Mum Tee, she should Understand, Come on lets shower."
We walk to the bathroom and Tegans starts to the water. We step into the hot steam and Im instantly washes my body and I was hers. Once we finish we step out and dry ourselves. When I finish brushing my teeth and combing my hair, I let Tegan do the samething and I go and pick out our clothes. Tegans outfit is cute and simple, A white V-neck, Brown skinny tight pants, and well she can pick out her shoes. As for me, I wear one of Tegans T-shirts that has a lion on it and a pair of regular denimn skinny jeans. Once we get dressed we go to the couch and wait for our Mum. Tega sits up and I rest my head on her lap. We start to doze off until a knock wakes us up. I get up and walk to the door,I open it and see mum standing their with a suitcase.
"Hey Mum."
"Sara! Oh my baby, how are you feeling, are your ribs better?"
"Yes mum Im fine"
She oulls me into a big hug and then releases.
"Tegan!"
Tegan POV:
"Haha Hey Mum"
"Oh Hunny, you've taking such good care of your sister, Your like her wife"
Even though I know shes joking I still get nervous and look at Sara, She waves it off and I hug my Mum.
"Why do you have a suitcase Mum?" Sara asks bringing it in from the hallway.
"Well I was gonna ask if I can stay here for a couple of Days. If not I can go to hotel?"
"No thats Fine Mum, Me and Tegan will sleep in her Studio And you can have Tegans room."
Sara sends me an approval nod and I nod back.
"Great" Mum says with a smile.
Later That Night.
"Tegan what are you reading Hunny?"
I look up and look at my Mum.
"The hotel New Hampshire"
"Isn't that the book about the brother and sister ?"
I look at Sara and she replies for me.
"Yea its is"
"Oh, I thought you read that book along time ago Tegan?"
"I did Mum but Just wanted to read it again."
"Hey Mum" Sara ask.
"Yes Hunny?"
"What do you think about incest?"
I look at Sara and she gives me a nod and I follow along.
"What is there to think about it, its wrong. "
"So if Sara and I told you that We were in love you would get mad?" I say.
I dont know where that came from. I look at Sara and her eyes are big, shes staring at me. My mum looks over to me on the couch.
"Of course, thats not natural"
Sara puts down the dish that shes washing and sighs.
"Why would you even ask that Tegan?" My mom ask.
God I can't lie to my mom, I can't Its literally Impossible.
"Because Mum, Tegan and I are . . ."
Sara again sighs and looks over to me. I stand up and walk to her at the sink. I grab her hand and we face our mum, whos looking at us with a very confused and scared exspression.
"You what Sara?" My mum stands up and waits for us to answer.
Sara puts her head down and I see a tear rolling down her cheek.
"Mum Sara and I love eachother." I blurt it out fast so I wont regret it.
"Thats good you're supposed too, shes your sister."
'' No Mum" Sara interupts her. "Were in love with Eachother."
My moms face goes pale and she looks sick.
"Whats she talking about Tegan, And why are you holding her hand?Let go of it!"
She walks to us and tries to seperate our hands but I dont let her, I pull mine and Saras hand behind my back and my mom finally gives up.
"No you shouldn't love eachother like that!"
"But we do mum, We dont expect you to understand because you dont know what this feels like!" I shout.
"Mum, were no different were still your kids, we just. . ." Sara says.
"We just dont have to search the whole world to find our soul mates mum," I look at Sara and continue." Because we've been right in front of eachother this whole time." I bring Saras hand up to my mouth, Im about to kiss it, when I see my mum slap Sara across the face.
"Dont you dare let her kiss your hand.!" Sha gnarls at Sara.
Sara has tears on her cheek and her mouth slightly ajar.
"Mum dont hit her!" I yell at her and pull Sara to me.
"Your kids are sick! You're not my children!"
Before I have time to speak she goes into my bedroom and comes out with her suitcase. She walks to the dorr, opens it and closes it, disapearing behind it.
I look at Sara and notice that shes crying into my neck. I rub her back and whisper soothing words to her. I lead us to my couch and I lay down and pull her on top of me. After hours she finally stops crying and falls asleep. Her chest is rising and falling on mine and it makes me think about everything. If our own mum acted this way Imagaine what the fans would think? My mind starts to spin and I get sick to my stomach.
Sara POV:
Im awoken by Tegan stomach clenching and her bodys sweating. I look at her and she looks like shes about to vomit. I get off of her quickly and she runs down the hall to the bathroom. I run after her. When I get to her bathroom, shes perched over the toilet her hands clenching the sides. I aproach her and pull her hair out of her face and rub her back. She emptys her food into the white bowl and sits back. I get some paper towels and wipe her face. She starts to breakdown, her tears are running down her face and her sobs cause her body to jump up and down. I pull her into me and she grabs my clothes in a death grip, afraid to let me go.
"Tee, its okay."
"S- Sara "
"Shhh Its okay Im here,Were going to be fine."
After a couple of mintutes she stops crying and I pick her up and lead her to her bed. I slip off our clothes and leave our boyshorts on. I lay her down in the bed and cover her, I lay down right next to her and we shift to face eachother.
"Sara?" Her tear stained cheeks glisten from the moonlight.
"Yea ?" I reply.
"I love you. . ."
"I love you too Tegan."
"Move in with me Sara, we can take care of eachother, we could be happy, just like this."
"Your happy Tegan?" I ask her
After what just happened I would've thought she would have been so unhappy.
"Honestly, I am. I have you, I dont need anyone else. Even if Mum doesnt like it, she doesn't understand that I need you, you keep me sane Sara."
I smile at the last part. She really knows what to say.
"We'll talk about it in the morning okay, for now get some rest okay."
She nods and I give her a peck on the cheek. We fall asleep in eachothers arms.
Tegan POV:
I wake up and suns piercing through my windows. Flashbacks of last night enter my mind and I feel myself wanting to cry again. I turn over and see empty sheets. Saras gone? I get up and walk into the bathroom, I do my business and then walk to the living room. Ted and the rest of the band are sitting on my couch. They all turn and look at me and cover their eyes.
"Tegan what the fuck! Put some clothes on" Jasper yells.
I look down and notice Im only in a pair of boyshorts, my face gets red and I run back to my room and slep some pj shorts on and a shirt. I walk back out and all the guys are laughing at me.
"Do you usually sleep naked Tegan?" Ted asks then laughs.
I chuckle ans Sara sets a basket of Bagels and cream cheese right in front of me. We all dig in.
"So why are you guys here?" I ask with my mouth full of food.
"Oh Sara called us and said you guys want to have a talk with us?" Ted says back, his mout is full of food too.
I look over to Sara and she clears her throat.
"Oh yea, well um okay I called you guys because Me and Tegan have to tell you something."
"Sara?" i ask really confused.
Oh god is she going to tell them
The guys set down their bagels and listen to Sara.
"Tegan and I were, were together."
I put my head down and listen to the silence until Ted speaks.
"Like a couple?"
I look up and Sara nods to him.
"Well thats cool with me, your guys are still the same" Jasper says.
"Yea me too, im totally cool with it, as long as you guys dont break up and then quit the band, cause this pays my bills." Ted says laughing.
"Your really okay with this you guys?" I ask in disbelief.
"Haha yea look Ive known you two for so long that it doesn't matter, you've never judged me when I've done shit, so who am I to judge."
I get up and hug Ted. Hes the most Understanding guy I gave ever met.
"Weres our Hugs?" Jasper ask with a puppy dog face. I give the rest of the guys hugs and then sit on Saras lap.
"Your guys are cute anyway!" Ted says.
"Well thanks you guys, this really means alot. And we'd appreciate if you didn't tell anyone?"Sara ask.
"Of course not, we couldn't do that to you" They all say at the same time.
I may not have my mothers approval but I have my "Brothers" Approval. We spend the rest of the day with them at my house, playing drinking games and ordering chinese food.
"Lets go to a club tomorrow night?"Ted asks everyone.
"Im down." Jasper says.
Sara and I nod. We haven't been out like that in a while.
"Okay cool Ill we'll meet her at 8?"Ted says.
We all nod again and they leave without another word.
Its 1:30 in the morning and Im exhausted and maybe a little tipsy. Sara on the other hand is drunk, She had 7 beers and 2 coke and rums. Ted used to be a bartender so hes was mixing drinks all night.
I take Sara and Lay her down on the bed. She snuggles into the sheets and I lay down next to her.
"Sara, I thought we were going to talk about you moving in this morning."
Tomorrow baby okay." She slurs. And turns over and passes out. I stare at the ceiling and just think. Was she avoiding my question?Does she not want to move in with me? This is gonna be a long night for me.