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Chapter 10

It's been two weeks since I decided to keep the baby, and I was finally able to see an OBGYN.

"Hi Ms. Kmetko. My name is Dr. Heidi Smith. How are you feeling today?"

"Ms. Belov actually, and I'm feeling fine, thank you."

"Oh sorry. Any relation to Olympic Gold Medalist Sasha Belov?"

"Yes, he's my adopted father. He adopted me when my mom didn't want to take me away from my gymnastics training."

"That was really sweet of him. I have to ask is this your first baby?"

"Yes it is. Any advice?"

"Just be careful of what activities you do. And that means no gymnastics training till your baby is born and for the time it takes your body to recover after birth. Don't let yourself get too stressed out. Stress is bad for the baby. Drink plenty of water. If you get morning sickness try drinking some ginger ale to settle your stomach or saltine crackers. And then try drinking some gatorade for your electrolytes. Pass up on any soft cheeses and any unpasteurized dairy. Make sure you eat fully cooked meat. Juice needs to be pasteurized, skip the raw cookie dough. Though if you are craving cookie dough I can give you a recipe to make cookie dough without the eggs. Wash all fresh fruits and vegetables. Limit the caffeine. Expect to be very hormonal and sometimes emotional. And get plenty of rest."

"Thank you Dr. I'm not sure what I would do without my dad and my sister Amanda. They're there for me when I really need them."

"That's good. You will need a lot of support through this. Is the father of the baby in your life."

When she asked that I kinda seized up because I hadn't talked about the rape to anyone except my friends and my mom and dad and now I have to tell my Dr. about it.

"No the baby daddy isn't going to be around. He's in prison for rape. This baby is a product of rape but I will still love him or her no matter what. I couldn't imagine having an abortion and I couldn't imagine giving him or her up for adoption."

"I'm so sorry that happened to you. One of my other patients had that happen to her and I sent her to a support group for women who had been raped because she was very depressed and it's just the cause of being raped. Some people get very angry and some people get very depressed and blame themselves. If you want I can set you up an appointment at the support group so you can go if you would like."

"Let me discuss it with my dad and see what he says about it first. He's been my rock through it all."

"Ok well when you do get a chance to talk to him about it here's my number. You can call my office anytime and leave a message for me to call you back if I'm not in. And take your time deciding. This can be a difficult time."

"Ok thanks I will."

"Well I think we are done here for right now. I want to see you back next month and if you have any concerns or questions about your pregnancy don't hesitate to call me. I'll be here for you through the whole thing."

"Thank you. I'll save your number into my phone and set a speed dial just in case."

"You're welcome Ms. Belov. Take care."

"Please call me Emily and you too Dr."

I left the Dr's office and I headed to the Rock to go meet up with my dad and support my friends while they trained. I knew I couldn't train but I could still keep healthy for myself and the baby and I could exercise yet so I stay in shape and it would be a little easier when I go back to training.

I get to the Rock just in time as it was letting out for lunch. Kaylie, Amanda, Payson and Lauren all come running up to me.

Amanda: "Hey sis how did your appointment go?"

Kaylie:"Are you nervous yet?"

Payson: "Did you find out what you're having yet?"

Lauren: "Do you have names picked out for a boy and girl? Do you have a color scheme figured out for your nursery yet?"

"Calm down guys. Amanda my appointment went great. I really enjoy my Dr. And she even said that there is a support group I can go to if I need it and if I want to for women and teens who were raped. And Kaylie I think I was nervous when the committee member at World's told me I was pregnant. Payson I'm too early to tell what I'm having. Haven't even heard the heartbeat yet. I'm only 8 weeks. And I am thinking about the names Lauren. I think I have the girls name picked out. And no I don't have the colors picked yet. I was thinking about talking to dad about what to do first. He might want to keep the room the color it already is and just buy decorations accordingly to if I'm having a boy or a girl."

Amanda: "Glad your appointment went well. I'm going to go to the salad bar down the street. Anyone else want to go?"

"Kaylie: "I wanna go Amanda. And Em I really am sorry all this happened to you. I miss training with you."

Payson: "I brought my lunch with me this time guys. And Kaylie, Emily will have that baby soon enough and be back training as soon as she can and be kicking our butts again."

Lauren: "Ok well tell me what you and your dad decide. Since my dad was your lawyer to help you out in the prosecution case of Jerk Face he knows and he wants to put a fund together for you to help you out with the baby. He wanted you to come over so he can discuss it with you."

"I'll talk to you later Amanda and Kaylie. You guys go have lunch before time is up. And Payson I'll come talk to you if I have time after I talk to dad. Lauren tell your dad to call or text me details and when he wants me to come over and I will. See you guys later."

With that we all went our separate ways. I went into The Rock and went to the door of my dad's office which he shared with Kim. The door was shut so I knocked on the door.

I had to wait a minute for the door to open as Kim was about to step out.

"Emily dear how are you feeling?"

"I'm feeling ok Mrs. Keeler. Just a little tired. How are you?"

"I'm doing fine dear. Listen I know what you are going through with pregnancy. If you need anything just let me know ok Honey? I don't want to say I'll be a replacement mom like Sasha was your replacement dad but I want to be the mom you have here and can come to when your mom isn't visiting ok?"

"Ok thanks Mrs. Keeler. I really appreciate it. Is my dad in there?"

"Yea. He just had the door shut cause he was on a conference call with the NGO. He should be off the phone right about now. Why don't you go in there."

"Thanks Mrs. Keeler."

"Please dear call me Kim."

"Thank you."

I gave Kim a hug and then walked into the office. My dad was still on the phone. I just sat on the couch while I waited for my dad to notice I had come in.

I take a deep breath cause I feel like this is going to be a long wait and I smell something that makes me feel like I'm going to be sick. I get up and I run from the office and to the girls locker room bathroom.

I dry heave over the toilet because there was nothing in my stomach since I hadn't had a chance to eat lunch yet because I wanted to eat with my dad so I could talk to him.

I get done and I splash my face with some water then grab a towel and dry my face and hands. I go back up to my dad's office and he's still on the phone.

This time I knock on the door so he knows I'm there. He turns around and see's me and motions for me to come in and have a seat right across from him.

Sasha: "Yes in fact I do have Ms. Emily Kmetko Belov here right in front of me. Would you like to ask her yourself? Let me put you on speaker"

He puts whoever he is talking to on speaker and motions for me to say Hello.

"Hello?"

Mystery person: "Yes is this Ms. Emily Kmetko?"

I roll my eyes at him

"Yes this is Ms. Emily Kmetko Belov. May I ask who I'm talking to?

Mystery Person: " Yes my name is Josh Richardson. I am calling from the NGO."

My blood just runs cold and I feel my throat go dry and I try to swallow but can't.

My dad hands me a bottle of water from the mini fridge and I drink a little to help try to moisten my throat. It works a little and I'm able to speak again in a shaky voice.

"Yes hello. How are you today?"

Josh Richardson: "I'm doing good today. How about yourself?"

Sasha: "Josh enough with the small talk just tell her."

"Tell me what? What's going on?"

I start to cry as I panic.

Josh Richardson: "Emily I know about you being pregnant. I don't know how but I have seen your discipline and determination when you are competing. I haven't seen that determination anywhere else in the United States. I know you wouldn't break rules and have a boyfriend and I definitely know you wouldn't sleep with a random person. So it only leaves one option. Rape."

My throat ran dry again and I had a hard time swallowing and I looked at my dad like how can this be happening. How could he figure it out so well. What do I say? What do I do? I feel like a deer in headlights.

I take a drink again and I get up and I walk over to my dad and I whisper in his ear.

"How can he figure this out dad?"

"I don't know Em but it's going to be ok. You have Ellen Biels on your side and you just may have Josh on your side. Talk to him. I'll be right here with you."

"Yes Josh you are right. I wanted nothing more than to go to the Olympics and I still do so I wouldn't have a boyfriend or sleep with a random person and put my career in jeopardy. Eight weeks ago I was raped by a man named Jason who is now serving 25 years in prison. So he's off the streets and in the end I won."

Josh: "I'm sorry to hear that Emily. I really want to be on your side if you'd let me. I know Ellen Biels is on your side."

"Thank you Josh. It means a lot."

Josh: "Have you made a decision about the baby since you're only 8 weeks along?"

Sasha: "Her and I discussed it and we want her mental health to be in tact and so we decided it would be best if she kept the baby. Well more she talked to my other adopted daughter Amanda and she helped Emily decide. And if it weren't for her helping her I would have had to have the do what's best for you talk with her and I'm not any good at that."

Josh: "Well I'm glad you made a decision. I can't speak on behalf of the whole NGO but I can speak on behalf of me and Biels. We hope you have a safe and full pregnancy with no long term effects and we hope you make a comeback and be known as the comeback kid. You'll be out for 9 or more months till the baby is born and your body heals from birth so we will need to come up with a reason as to why you are out of the sport for so long and an estimated return day."

"Yes thank you so much Josh. I really need to talk to my dad about some things so maybe we could talk again. You, me, my dad and Ellen. And I want my teammates to be included in this."

Josh: "Yes of course Emily. I will call you later and we can set up a meeting date."

"Thank you Josh. Have a nice day."

Sasha: "Yes thank you Josh it was nice talking to you again."

Josh: "You guys have a fantastic rest of your day and I will call or email details on the meeting day."

My dad and I hung up the phone and I breathed a sigh of relief to have that over but I was dreading having the meeting.

"Well that was pleasant"

"You ok Emily? You look worn out?"

"I don't know dad. Sometimes I wish this was all over and things were different. But other times I'm glad it happened to me because it's causing me to grow as a person."

"You're very wise for your age you know that Em? No other 16 almost 17 year old would admit what you just admitted. I'm very proud of you."

"Thanks dad. So I had my first appointment today."

"How did it go?"

"It went really good. The Dr. that I have is really nice. She even gave me her card and told me that she would set up for me to go to support group for women and teens who have been raped when I told her what happened when she asked about the father."

"I'm proud of you for being able to talk about it openly to her Emily. And if you want to go to support group to help others and get a little help yourself you can. I think it might be good for you."

"I want to go to support group but I'm afraid. I'm not sure how I feel about it. I mean I don't think it could hurt going to support group and being able to help others with my story and me getting help in return. I mean I still have nightmares about it. And I blame myself still. I feel like I should have checked the back seat before I got in. If I would have just done things differently I wouldn't be in this mess."

I sit on the couch in the office as I start to cry. I just wanted the nightmares and everything to stop that started happening since that unfaithful day.

My dad sits down next to me and holds me in his arms. I can tell by his body language that he's worried about me.

"Emily, please don't blame yourself. Yea you could have done things differently but you did the things you did because you wanted to be home before your curfew so you could impress me and you didn't need to. Things are going to happen that no one can explain. I can't explain why that guy did that to you. I can't explain why things happen that do. The only thing I can help you do is figure out how this will impact the rest of your life. I love you sweetie and I hope you know that."

"I love you too dad. I think I will go to support group. Do you think I should see a therapist too?"

"It's up to you hun. If you feel like you want to see a therapist then I will set up an appointment for you with one."

"Thanks tatic. I think I want to see one. I just want to get better."

"I will make you an appointment with one ok? I won't let you fall Emily. I will help you get better."

I just hug my dad and I sniffle my tears away. I know I must remain strong for the baby.

"Dad, Lauren asked me if I had a color scheme picked out for a boy and for a girl for the nursery and I wanted to ask you what we are going to do with the room right next to mine? Are we going to make it into a nursery or are we going to keep it the same color as it is and just put baby stuff in there?"

"I had wanted to make it into a nursery for the baby when you told me you wanted to keep him or her but I didn't know how you felt about it so I didn't bring it up yet."

"You did? I wish you would have told me. Do I get to pick out the color of each gender that I want in the room? Like the boy color and the girl color so when I find out what I'm having we can go get that color?"

"Yes you can pick and I'm glad you brought it up now."

"Me too dad. Steve Tanner wants to talk to me so I told Lauren to have him text or call me when he wants to meet. I'll probably go over there again. And if I do go over there again can I just stay if Lauren asks me to?"

"Yes you can stay. I've got some paperwork to do for Ellen Biels about you. Saying you can't train or compete for so long. You may have to go to the NGO and tell them all. It may be the only option to ensure your spot on the National Team stays open for you."

"Ok dad and I'll think about it. If I do I'm taking the girls with me and of course you too."

"Ok. Go find the other girls. I'm going to get some paperwork done."

I get up and I walk out of the office and head outside. I really want to try to find Lauren before lunch is up.

I can tell Lunch is almost over because all the girls are heading back to The Rock. And then I spot Lauren on the "Meltdown Bench" and walk toward her.

"Hey Lo what's up?"

"Oh Hey Em. I'm just thinking."

"Thinking about what."

"About if I had only begged you to call Sasha and ask if you could stay the night you wouldn't be pregnant right now and we wouldn't be down the World Champion and the number one Gymnast in the World."

"I'll be right back Lo. I need to go get something for you."

"Ok Em."

I hear her crying harder as I walk back into the Rock and go back into the office to get my dad.

"Dad I need you to come outside with me. Lauren's on the Meltdown Bench crying. She's blaming herself for me being pregnant and getting attacked."

"Ok, I'm coming."

My dad and I walk out of the Rock together and back towards the meltdown bench and I sit down next to Lauren while my dad kneels down in front of her.

Sasha: "Lauren look at me."

Lauren looks at my dad with a tear stained face and cries harder.

Lauren: "Sasha I'm so sorry. I should have begged Emily to call you and beg you to let her stay the night. I could have stopped this. Emily wouldn't have been raped and she wouldn't be pregnant right now and she would be able to train right now and compete at competitions if it weren't for me. And Sasha I'm so so so so so sorry."

I could tell she was rambling. I knew she was frightened by what I was going through and what I had gone through before finding out I was pregnant.

I reached over and grabbed her hand and squeezed to try to comfort her.

Sasha: "Lauren you didn't know that was going to happen. No one knows when something is going to happen. It's a fact of life. I can't explain why it happened to her. I can't explain why anything happens. Things are going to happen and you won't understand and you won't know why. It's just how things are Lauren. Now I want you to take the rest of the day off and spend it with Emily and see how she's coping so you can see it's not your fault. And I mean it Lauren it's not your fault."

Lauren: "Are you sure Sasha? I mean...I don't know..."

I can tell Lauren is really depressed about all of this. More than me and that was the scary part. I could see it in her eyes how depressed she was because I saw the same look in Amanda's eyes since she found out about Steven. So glad he's not here at the Rock anymore.

"Lauren it's going to be ok. I'd love to spend the rest of the day for you. It would give us a chance to bond. And we can go look at color samples. Well pick out four colors for a boy and four colors for a girl. Then if your dad wants to meet we can."

Lauren: "Are you sure?"

Sasha: "Lauren go shower and change and then come to my office to get Emily."

Lauren gets up and walks back inside the Rock and I sigh.

"I don't like how she's blaming herself dad. It's not fair to her."

"I know Em. I'll have a talk with her dad after she leaves."

"Ok dad. I really appreciate you doing this for her. I really wish she didn't blame herself. And did you see how depressed and down she is about all this?"

"Yea I saw it in her eyes. Poor girl. I think she could benefit from a depression support group."

"Dad don't meddle. Just talk to her dad about how she's feeling and let him decide what's best for her. I'm ready to go in cause I'm kinda cold."

We go inside and I sit down and wait for Lauren to come out of the Locker Room and I decide I should text my mom about my appointment.

*Mom, had my first appointment today. Just figured I'd let you know.*

Right as I sent that my phone dinged with a new text message.

*Hey Emily it's Steve Tanner. How are you doing today?*

I just about forgot that I told Lauren to have her dad text or call me about what he wanted to talk about.

*I'm doing good, thanks for asking. How are you doing Mr. Tanner?*

I send that and I get a text from my mom

*Hey sweetie. Glad you had your first appointment. How did it go?*

*It went good mom. I really like the Dr that I have. She's really nice.*

*Please call me Steve. I'm doing good too. Emily I was wondering if you would like to come over tonight and discuss something with me about the baby.*

I was expecting that so I knew the answer right away.

*Yea sure I can come over tonight. My dad wants to talk to you so he's going to call you. You probably won't like what he's going to say but please keep an open mind. He only wants what's best for Lauren.*

*Good I'm glad your appointment went good. I love you sweetie.*

*Love you too mom. I hope Brian is doing well.*

I get a text from Steve Tanner right after I finish texting my mom.

*Is Lauren ok? She didn't get hurt did she? I hope she didn't get hurt. I don't know what I'd do if she got hurt.*

*She's not hurt Steve but she's hurting inside for what happened to me. She blames herself. Dad and I are both worried about her. Dad gave her the rest of the day off to spend it with me and to go color sample shopping and baby window shopping.*

I really hope Steve doesn't worry too much about Lauren right now. I hope I didn't say more than I should have.

*Brian is doing good sweetie. He told me to give his love to his big sister Emily if I talked to her today. You should call Brian sweetie. He really wants to talk to you.*

I felt guilty for not thinking of calling my brother since I got back from Worlds. I made a mental note to call Brian tonight when I get home.

*Sasha just called me about Lauren. I will help her through this Em. I really don't want her blaming herself. There's nothing she could have done to stop it and she didn't know it was going to happen. I will talk to Gran Tanner and ask her to come up and help me with Lauren. And thank you for being there for her Emily. You're an amazing friend to her.*

I text my mom back first.

*Mom if I remember I will call Brian tonight. I've got some stuff to do before it gets too late.*

*Steve I will always be there for Lo, she's my friend and she may have felt threatened when I first came here we have become close friends. I won't let her deal with this alone.*

Right after I sent Steve the text I saw Lauren come out of the Locker room. I send my mom and Steve both a text telling them I will talk to them both later because I will be driving. I know just where to head for the best shopping.

I walk up to Lauren and I hug her.

"I'll be right back ok. I'm going to go tell my dad that we're going to Denver because it's got good shopping there and we will hit a few places here on the way back."

"Ok"

I walk up to my dad's office and knock on the door because it's closed again.

"Come in"

I open the door and pop my head in.

"Hey dad Lauren and I are off. We are going to go to Denver to go shopping and then on the way back we're going to hit some places here in Boulder. Is that ok?"

"Sure Fiică. Just be careful. I also talked to Steve Tanner he said he'd help Lauren and he said you mentioned some to him also and that you were going over to his place later tonight to talk to him. Why don't you stay the night there tonight."

"Thanks Dad. And I want to be close to Lauren at this time. She really needs me. I will see you tomorrow and I will call you when I get back."

"Just be careful Em. I'll call you when all the girls head home at the end of training today to see how you girls are doing."

"Ok dad and I will. I've got Lauren with me."

I close the door and walk down the steps of dad's office and start walking out the door with Lauren walking next to me.

I get in my car and turn on a radio station that Lauren and I would like. Then start the car and slowly back out of my spot.

A.N. Sorry it took me so long to update. I didn't have a computer and then when I did I typed like half of this chapter and then got writers block. Then I came back with some inspiration only to get writers block again. Then I was finally inspired to finish it. The next chapter will be of Lauren and Emily's shopping trip. We will even see Leo in the next chapter.

Fiică - daughter in Romanian.