Max caught onto my fast-coming metal breakdown and grabbed my hand, and pulled me into his arms. I tried to pull away, but he was stronger. He started to stroke my hair and mutters how he wasn't gonna leave me again. I snorted. He looked at me.
"What?"
"That's bull. You will. I know it!" I said that, even though he and I both knew that he was sincere. I just didn't want to believe it.
"Meghan." He looked directly at me. I stared back, knowing that if I was human I would be bawling like a baby. "I will never leave you again. I swear." He said vehemently. I shook my head, to shell-shocked to think clearly. He pulled me closer and kissed my forehead. I almost gave in right then. But I didn't, because I knew it'd be too easy and I wanted to give him hell in a hamster wheel. He chuckled, reading my thoughts. I scowled. He put up his hands. I sighed and sat down, even though I really didn't need to. He sat next to me and pulled me into his lap. I didn't bother trying to pull away because it wouldn't work. But I stayed kinda away from him, even though it would've been nice to just sit in his arms like the old days. He sighed and nodded.
"I know. But I guess you're too pissed to do that?" Max muttered. I laughed, despite myself. Max cracked a smile and pulled me closer. I froze, knowing I had just crossed the line. I wiggled out of his arms, and told him everything, in my head, from the beginning. He 'listened' looking sick. I finished and looked at him in that 'I told you so' way.
"Oh, god Meghan. I…I had no idea. I'm so, so, sorry." He said, shocked. I grinned sadistically.
"Yeah, you are." I said, musing. He was hopeful. "But, I still don't trust you. You have too much power over me. So." I chuckled, feeing weirdly care-free. "I don't think I'll take you back. Maybe. It's complicated." I laughed out right, wondering what the hell was going on with me. Had I cracked? I kinda took a second to check myself. Yep. Some definite cracking going on. I giggled. Max stared, worried. I danced around him.
"I wonder if there are insane asylums for vampires. Oh, I wonder." I sang, really starting to get scared of myself. Max didn't do anything, just stared. "Hey Max!" I yelled. The sane part of me was screaming that I needed to get out of there. "Guess what!" The insane part of me sang.
"W…what?" He said quietly.
"You made me crack! Now I'm crazy! Isn't that great?" I giggled like a small child. Max backed up. I was in his face the next second, and he froze. In my head I was clinging to sanity. But it was like not knowing how to swim in the middle of the ocean and all you have was a piece of string: useless. Max was trying to figure out what was going on with me. In my head I was screaming Do something Max! PLEASE! He nodded and did what I guess was the only thing he could think of: kissing me. The insane part of me receded and sanity, thank god, took over. I kissed him back, wrapping my arms around his neck. He put his arms around my waist and lifted me up, so I was at eye level with him. I knew that this was wrong, wrong, wrong, but I didn't care. I let my little guard down, and let Max into my head. His emotion was only one thing; love. I pulled away and buried my face in the place were his neck met his shoulder. He stroked my hair and just held me. Despite myself, I was perfectly content in his arms. Max set me down and looked at me.
"Better?" He asked, keeping his hands around my waist. I checked myself, the insanity was gone, gone, gone. I nodded. He pulled me closer and hugged me. I buried my face in his chest.
"You wanna go back?" He asked. I shrugged, not bothering to answer. He chuckled. I sighed. "What's wrong?" He asked.
I wish we were human. Before Nathaniel. It would've been so much better. I thought. He nodded. And neither of us would've died and we could be together. I thought. Max pulled me closer and nodded. He was trying to stay calm, so I wouldn't get all frazzled. Its fine Max, you don't have to control your emotions around me. I looked at him. Then I was hit with so many different emotions I almost shoved him away. But I held on and tried to sort it out. Love, confusion, anger, sadness and many others I had no name for. I took a deep breath and stepped away for a second, so we weren't touching. He got himself under control.
"Sorry Meg, sorry." He said. I nodded and thought "Just one second please" He nodded and backed up just a bit. I closed my eyes and centered myself. I looked back at him and smiled then nodded. You were right. That was a lot. But nothing I couldn't handle. It was worse because we were close, and touching. I thought calmly. He was still wary. I hugged him and threw everything that he had felt right back at him. It shocked him and he when back to that. I laughed, feeling light, despite the tsunami of emotions coming at me. Max kissed me again. I sighed, feeling better than I'd ever had.