Eyes of Mine
I AM SO SORRY FOR SUCH A LATE UPDATE!!! -Originally for the previous chapter, but that was finished and I can't be bothered to edit things out... meh.-
Yuki has given Mikan an ultimatum... Who would she rather be with. Natsume, or her daughter? Mikan haas to make a decision, but whatever she decides, will it make her happy, or just sadder? What can she do...?
Me: It is so hard to relate to Yuki at the moment... I actually hate doing this sort of thing, but I had already planned this, so I don't really want to go back on my plans... meh. Anyways, thank you for reading the previous chapters and supporting my works.
I helped my friend to write a shounenai fanfic, which was funny, as I kept cracking up at my chessey lines. I had to write the kissing scenes and such... Haha, what a laugh!
Previously, my USB memory stick, Claire, died, as I broke it -my record, actually. I don't normally end up killing my possessions for a few years, but this one took barely a month, haha!-. Yes, I am pretty miraculous to do that, not. Anyways, I got a new one, which is lilac coloured and I named it Trinity Claire, but seeing as it only fits 'Trinity Clar' on my thing, it's named Trinity on my computer, but it's real name is Trinity Claire... yeah.
Anywhoo, other news... I need a penpal. If anyone is willing to become a penpal for me, then yay, contact me through PM or review. I don't mind. I would like another friendy... Yayness.
Disclaimer: I diasclaim to owning all rights to the Pizza Hut company... Oh wait... Pizza Hut is now Pasta Hust, so yeah... Anyway, I own nothing that is Gakuen Alice related, other than my character, Yuki.
I think there may be another flashback in this... I swear, the flashbacks are like fillers. I am a bad person for creating these, ha... But I loveth flashbacks, mwahahaha.
Oh, gasp! I have a normal title. It is nothing like the other chaoter titles, yes!!!!
Chapter Ten: Yuki's Disaster
"You are not losing me." Mikan said quietly, stroking Yuki's hair. Yuki gripped the back of her mothers shirt.
"... Tell me. Tell me, who would you choose out of me and Natsume Hyuuga? Who would you prefer to be with?" Yuki asked. Mikan stopped crying, and stared at a far wall as Yuki waited for an answer...
Mikan slowly turned her gaze to the back of her daughters head, then pulled Yuki away from her. Yuki's face looked serious, the same as her eyes. Mikan gave a small gasp, her head shaking.
"You have got to be kidding me, Yuki... you are kidding, aren't you?" asked Mikan, holding her daughters shoulders tightly. Yuki did not try to wiggle free, she just stared at her mother, as serious as she had ever been in her life.
"You think this is a joke? Momma... I couldn't be more serious! Now tell me... who do you choose! Me or Natsume Hyuuga? I want to know now!" snapped the girl as Mikan dropped her hands from Yuki's shoulders, letting them fall to her sides pathetically.
"How can I choose, Yuki! i love you both!" cried Mikan. Yuki narrowed her eyes at her mother,
"Tell me!" she snapped, stomping a foot as Mikan stood there, feeling the salty tears prick in her eyes. Her daughter was someone else, someone that Mikan didn't know. Why had she changd so drastically before her very eyes? Where was her precious Yuki Rari and who had taken over?
"... Yuki, of course I would choose you over Natsume, any day! You;re my daughter! You are the most important person in the world to me, but that doesn't change the fact that I want Natsume in our life, too!" sobbed Mikan as Yuki stomped her foot again, clenching her fists.
"But I don't like him, momma! Doesn't my opinion count anymore!?" she yelled out as Mikan wiped away her tears,
"Honey, of course your opinion coutns, but please understand that I love Natsume very much. Why can't you accept that?" cried Mikan as Yuki folded her arms,
"Because he will only make you sad! He'll ruin everyones lives if he gets the chance! I don't want him to make you sad again, momma!" Yuki cried out as Mikan started to sit on the floor, her had in her hands as Yuki watched Mikan, her own tears starting to dribble down her cheeks.
"Listen to me... I don't want you to cry anymore, I don't want to see you sad... Natsume will only make everything bad again, momma... I don't want him in our lives," whispered Yuki as Mikan looked up through her tears, and for the first time, she saw her daughter through the eyes of someone who was sad.
For all her life, Mikan had looked at Yuki through happy eyes, and she knew that looking at her precious daughter she was happy and loving, but at that precise moment she just couldn't be happy, she couldn't love Yuki the way she usually did.
She could not see Yuki as her sweet, selfless daughter. All she saw was a different person who wanted everything and anything their way. Yuki was gone, and Mikan couldn't change that.
"If you don't want him in your life, then I won't have him in mine. I'll do whatever it takes to make you happy, honey." she whispered, then stood up and walked towards her bedroom. Yuki watched Mikan, nodding, and a small smile formed on her lips. She was sure that she and her mother would be truly happy once again...
Later that night, Mikan sat in her bedroom, unaware that Yuki was leaning against the door, listening to her mother, who was speaking to Natsume on the phone,
"Natsume, we just can't see each other now," Mikan whispered into the phone, her voice hoarse from all her crying.
"What? But why, Mikan? You still havent' answered that! I want to be with you... don't you want to be with me?" asked Natsume down the phone as Mikan forced back her tears that were threatening to return.
"Look, Natsume, I just don't want to be hurt again. You have hurt me so many times before, so I don't want to go through heartbreak again... we have to say goodbye once and for all," Mikan told him sadly. Natsume caught the sadness of her tone,
"Are you... trying not to cry?" he asked her gently. Mikan blinked, and could no longer hold back her tears,
"Natsume... it's over!" she told him, then quickly pressed the end call button so that Natsume couldn't make her cry anymore. Mikan then threw the phone down and fell backwards onto her bed, tears dribbling down her cheeks as she wept silently to herself.
Yuki stood up, and went to her bedroom slowly...
"Natsume... I'm pregant," Mikan said to her reflection in the mirror, a hand wavering over her stomach as she shook her head quickly, then paced up and down her bedroom.
"No... I can't tell him like that... well, until I get his number, I can't tell him at all... oh, damn this all!" Mikan muttered to herself, then stopped pacing to stare at her reflection. She hesitated, then placed a hand over her stomach which was slightly bulging, and she gave herself a small smile,
"Hello... little baby. I'm your mommy, or momma... or mother. I'm Mikan, and you must be...? Well, I don't know, but you're my baby, aren't you? You'll be so cute and tiny... I'll love you, and so will daddy... hm, daddy." Mikan said to herself, smiling as she sat cross-legged on the floor, rubbing her stomach.
"Will he like being called daddy? I think so. I think that Natsume will be very fatherly, if he found out... Oh, you'll look like him, and me, too... I want you to have his eyes, okay? I order you to have his eyes!" Mikan told the baby, then giggled to herself,
"I'm just silly... but you'll be such a beautiful kid, even Natsume would think you're a treasure. He would take one look at you, and know that you were beautiful and special, and he would see himself inside of you, and also me. Natsume will know, right?" Mikan asked her stomach, then with a small sigh, she lay down the floor, and stared up at the ceiling.
"What are you? A boy or a girl? Have your genetics been decided yet? I dunno... I'd like it if you were healthy and lively, but it would be so nice if you you had your daddy's eyes, but seriously, mommy doesn't mind. Mommy will love you the way you are." she whispered to her stomach, patting it fondly.
"I wonder what Hotaru will make of this..." she muttered, then turned her head slightly to stare at the phone laying on her floor beside a random magazine she had picked up. Mikan paused shortly, then reached for the phone, and dialled Hotaru's number in.
The phone rang a few times before Hotaru finally picked up, sounding disgruntled about something,
"Oh my god, what now, Mikan? I am busy with my boyfriend, so if this is some ridiculous thing like how you turn on a microwave, I don't care!" snapped Hotaru's voice as Mikan furrowed her brows. Did Hotaru seriously think that she was that stupid?
"It's nothing like that, Hotaru... I'm pregnant." Mikan told her calmly. There was a pause, then an emotionless laugh,
"Oh, haha, very funny Mikan, now can I get back to whatever I was doing?" asked Hotaru as Mikan sighed to herself. Hotaru knew when Mikan was lying, and Mikan could not lie for toffee.
"Hotaru... this isn't a joke. I really am pregnant. I took two pregnancy tests and went to see a doctor... plus I'm fatter." she stated as there was anothe rlong pause of silence, then Hotaru spoke again in her calmest tone,
"You always get fat, Mikan... so, you're pregnant? Who's baby?" she asked, knwoing well who he was.
"Natsume, of course. I'm keeping this baby, no matter what." she told Hotaru,
"I wouldn't expect anything else, Mikan. So, will you tell him, or not?" asked Hotaru quietly as Mikan sat up, staring at her reflection again,
"I don't think I can, seeing as I don't have his number. Let's just pray that he turns up one day, then I'll tell him." Mikan said. Hotaru just sighed a lot after that, adn Mikan put the phone down, then went to find some food to eat, as she wanted to let her baby have some food, but she didn't dare eat too much. She did not want to become a blimp,
Mikan smiled when she thought of the little life inside of her. She hoped that she would become the best mother that she could be...
As the days progressed, Mikan became sadder because of her having to break up with Natsume, who she really did love. Of course, Yuki noticed this, and became more and more worried about the decision she had made.
Some nights she started to wonder why she had turned Natsume away and why she wasn't letting her mother have another person in her life. Yuki started to see the flaws in her paln to have her mother all to herself, and she started to regret doing anything at all.
Yuki even started to regret being born altogether, but she would never tell Mikan that.
The more that the girl thought about it, the more Yuki became sorry. She dearly wanted to right her wrongs and to make her mother happy again. It wasn't right for her to butt into her mtohers relationship with Natsume, she had realised this a little too late, but things that were broken could always be put back together, it was just a case of finding the right pieces to fit together.
Yuki needed to sort out her puzzle, and the first thing to do was to start apologizing to her dear mother.
She stood up, walking out of the bedroom and towards her mothers room, where she heard soft snobs that were muffled by a pillow or blanket. Yuki rapped her knuckles on her mtohers bedroom door a few times before entering.
The place was a swamp of tissues and chocolate bar wrappers. Mikan was worse than Yuki had anticipated,
"M-Momma?" Yuki whispered, closing the door behind her. Mikan slowly lifted her head, and Yuki saw the red swollen eyes and tear stained cheeks. Mikan's hair was a mess from days of no brushing, and she was in her pyjama's whilst holding another tissue which was crumpled and almost soaked,
"What's wrong, honey?" Mikan sniffled as Yuki stared at Mikan from where she stood, scared a little to go near her teary eyed mother who didn't seem to end her leakage. Yuki held a hand to the door knob, hesitating.
"I... I'm sorry," she whispered. Mikan blinked her red eyes, wondering what her little girl was talking about,
"Yuki, what are talking about? You don't have to be sorry for anything... you didn't do anything wrong," Mikan said in her hoarse voice as Yuki walked towards Mikan, shaking her head.
"I did a bad thing, momma. I made you stop seeing Natsume because I was jealous. I shouldn't have done that... I was a stupid little girl," Yuki told Mikan quietly. Mikan stared at her daughter momentarily, then shook her head,
"No... you aren't stupid, I am. I never even considered how you would feel if I brought someone new into our life. I guess I sheltered you too much. I should have told you about him a long long time ago so that you would know him, and I should have told him about you, too. If anyone's to blame, Yuki... it's me. I was the one who caused all this," she said, and then held out her arms to Yuki,
"Do you still like to hug me, even though I look like something from a horror movie?" she asked, and Yuki fell into Mikan's arms, bawling as Mikan rocked Yuki in her arms slowly,
"I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" wailed the teenager as Mikan soothed her, trying not to cry herself. After a while, both their tears died down and Yuki hugged her mother back tightly,
"I want to make amends... I want you to be happy, with Natsume." Yuki told Mikan as her mother smiled gently, kissing Yuki's forehead.
"You still mean the entire world to me, Yuki, and Natsume feels the same way, you know. He loves you," Mikan whispered as Yuki smiled, nodding.
"I know he does, I was just too blind by my selfishness to realise that... I should really apologize to him, too." Yuki muttered as Mikan stroked Yuki's hair, letting the strands fall through her fingers.
"You know that it doesn't hurt to be selfish once in a while, Yuki. Just try to be selfish in tinier chunks next time, okay? It causes less damage and less hassle." Mikan said, and Yuki giggled, then squeezed her mother before sitting up, nodding.
"Yep... I'll try harder next time!... but now I need to go and say I'm sorry to Natsume. I don't think he should be left out any more... he needs to be here with us," she told Mikan, who took her daughters hand in hers, nodding.
"Yes, and we'll be a family." she said, tilting her head as Yuki smiled,
"A family... it sounds nice." she whispered, then jumped off the bed and ran out of the room to get her shoes. She knew exactly where Natsume would be...
Yuki ran all the way to a certain mall, the place where she had first met the infamous Natsume Hyuuga, a writer and lawyer. He was devilishly handsome, rich and probably extremely powerful. He had everything that he wanted in his grasp;
But the thing that he didn't have before he met Yuki was a family, and he now had that, but he wasn't with them. Yuki knew that stepping into that mall would be the first step to getting the family she had always dreamed of. She knew that it was one step closer to happiness for both her and Mikan.
Yuki took that crucial step into the mall, and found a long line of eager fans waiting for their books to be signed by Natsume Hyuuga, who sat at a small white table in front of the line, facing his fan girls, and boys, who wanted to greet him and dream of a wedding that would never become.
With a line so long, Yuki knew that she wouldn't be able to get to Natsume for the longest of times, or at all, if anything. She wanted to see him, to apologize. She just needed to get to the front of the line...
So, using the athletic running skills she had obtained from her mothers side, Yuki sprinted down the line of ignorant people who hissed at her for butting into the line and trying to get to Natsume before they did. People started to object and yell at her, some even tried to trip her, and they were successful in causing Yuki to hit the ground.
"Ow!" she cried out, which caught Natsume's attention instantly, and he looked up to see his daughter on the ground, glaring at a random person who just laughed at her,
"Yuki!" he yelled out instantly, and the crowd looked up, surprised at hwo Natsume had yelled out to the girl. They were even more shocked when he stood up, ignoring the autograph he was signing, and ran towards the fallen girl who stared up at him,
"Are you okay? What are you doing here, Yuki? Where's Mikan?" Natsume asked, hoping that he would see the love of his life there. Yuki was helped up by Natsume, and tears sprang into her eyes as she stared at him. He was worried for her, and for Mikan. Yuki saw that she had got Natsume all wrong...
"I'm sorry!" she burst out, stunning Natsume.
"H-huh!?" he cried out, and Yuki went on;
"I'm so sorry for what I did, Natsume! I shouldn't have been jealous of you for loving momma, but I didn't know how to react! I was going to have to share her with someone else, and I've never done that before, so I didn't like it! I didn't mean to be horrid to you or momma, Natsume, I really didn't! I really love momma, and I just want her to be happy, but she can't be happy without you, so please come back and be with her! She's been crying for a long time and I can't bear it anymore, so... come home and make her happy! Let's be a family and start a new chapter... I accept you, Natsume." she told him, the tears sliding down her face slowly as Natsume took everything in, then suddenly grabbed Yuki and hugged her.
"You are a good girl, not bad... and I love you just as much as I love your mother. I'd be happy to go home with you, Yuki... you're my daughter, after all." he grinned, and Yuki threw her arms around his neck. Natsume lifted her up as the crowd of people watched, astounded at the scene that had just happened. They were so stunned and moved by it that no one dared to say anything about Natsume leaving his signings unattended, not even his manager seemed to care. She was moved to tears, and was a blubbering wreckage.
Natsume walked out of the mall with his crying daughter in his arms, smiling to himself. He finally had the family he had always wanted with the woman he loved...
A few weeks later...
"Hey, hey! What are you doing, Natsume? Trying to burn the place down!?" cried Mikan as she ran into the kitchen to see Natsume grinning as he lit the candles to a birthday cake whilst Yuki watched, waiting patiently,
"No, I'm lighting the candles to our daughters' birthday cake, you dimwit. Boy, you jump to conclusions to fast," he said, standing up straight, pulling Mikan close to him as she blushed, then smiled at Yuki,
"Honey, make a wish before blowing out your candles, but think carefully!" Mikan told Yuki, who nodded, closing her eyes then starting to blow out the candles on her birthday cake as everyone around her clapped loudly, Mikan kissed Yuki's cheek as Natsume mussed up her hair. Hotaru took a photograph, and Ruka cheered, alongside Kiori and Hana, who just wanted some cake, really.
"Whoo! Now it's official, our little girl is thirteen and a real teenager!" Mikan cried out happily as Yuki blushed,
"Momma! Don't say I'm a little girl!" she trilled. Mikan giggled, then turned to Natsume, smiling brightly as he stared at her,
"You'll always be a little girl to us, Yuki... you're our daughter. No matter what, you'll be a kid forever, never an adult." Natsume told her as Yuki pouted, folding her arms. She then decided to please the grizzly children of Hotaru and Ruka by feeding them some cake, because they were trying to grab it with their mucky hands covered in what looked like mud. Luckily, Mikan trusted Yuki with a knife, but not the brats.
Mikan smiled, then turned around, going to get some plates. Natsume stopped her, though, and pulled her back towards him.
"Heeey, we need those plates! Let me get 'em and then you can hug me," she told him as Natsume shrugged, tightening his hold on her so that she couldn't escape. Mikan sighed to herself. There was no ise in attemtping to escape the grasp of Natsume Hyuuga,
"The plates can wait, I need something, and I haven't had it for a while," Natsume told her in a gentle voice. Mikan blinked, wondering what in the world Natsume could want. She fund out when he showed her,
Yuki's eyes widened as she stopped cutting the cake, Hotaru turned her camera towards the pair, Kiori and Hana started to mimick being sick whilst Ruka just shook his head, because in front of them, Natsume was kissing Mikan for the first time in thirteen years. Mikan's eyes were gradually widening, because she had not expected a kiss from her boyfriend, but there she was, being kissed.
And she had missed Natsume Hyuuga's kisses more than anything else in the world, other than Natsume himself.
When Natsume pulled away, he placed a gently peck on his girlfriends' lips as she turned crimson, covering her mouth with her hands. Natsume held her tightly as she stood there, bashful whilst Yuki's mouth dropped open.
"Your lips taste as sweet as they did the last time I kissed you," he whispered. Mikan turned a deeper shade of red, closing her eyes shut tight. She then turned around to Natsume, her eyes opening, and she beamed, then kissed Natsume so suddenly that he almost toppled over.
"I LOVE YOU!" she yelled out, and Hotaru suddenly burst out laughing...
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Yes! The penultimate chapter is finally finished! One more chapter and then it is doney done done, guys! Sad to say... I loved this hcapter! It made me smile so much, because Hotaru just laughed. So yay, I am happy with it, I hope you are too. Thank you for reading, everyone!
Lots of love, Blue -Niagra
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