The stars shine for you
Long ago, my heart was shattered into pieces. I thought it was impossible to mend. But then you came…
The night sky was strewn with sparkling stars. They where like diamonds on a background of black velvet. The window was open sending a light breeze through the room that was dimly lit. The open fireplace casting dark shadows, the flames sparkling within filling the room with a warm red color.
Fay looked at the ninja. He was sitting in one of the many cosy red cushions. His eyes where lit with the sparkling flames. Fay held the blanket close to himself and looked at the dancing of the fire as well. His heart was still frozen, his face still wearing a mask, but something was changing. Little by little, he had felt himself change. Warming up a little more for every day that passed. Each day a little less painful to endure. His wish of death decreasing by every minute. It was still a long way to go before he would feel that he was of value to someone. The hope kept him going. The hope of feeling loved.
"Why do you want to live like this?" Kurogane said from the red cushion. He looked around the room. Syaoran and Sakura where sleeping in another cushion, Mokona lay between them.
"Live like what Kuro-pon?" Fay said pasting his trademark smile upon his face.
The ninja sighed. Fay would never tell him the reason. But Kurogane had seen a difference in the blond magician. In the start he would have that stupid grin of his pasted on every second of everyday. But in the recent days he had seen something change in him. Sometimes when Fay and Kurogane where by themselves Kurogane was able to catch glimpses of the real Fay. A Fay filled with angst and sorrow. Sometimes he had let his guard down, and Kurogane had been able to see through the mask. He had seen a person filled with sadness. Filled with a fear Kurogane never had seen before in his life.
"You paste that stupid smile on your face all the time. You hide the real you, and shows us a fake you instead. I have seen you without your mask, but that is only for a few seconds, and when you notice you instantly put the guard back up" Kurogane said looking deep into the eyes of the magician.
"I don't want anyone to worry about me. I don't want anyone to be bothered with my problems" Fay said in a voice filled with sorrow. His guard where down and for the first time he didn't bother to put it back up.
"You know, by hiding your pain you make others worry more" Kurogane said looking at Fay who stared at the floor. Fay looked so sad and lonely. His eyes where gleaming with sadness, and his hands clenched the blanket. Kurogane felt really bad when he saw that the magicians eyes where filling with tears. They rolled down his cheeks and met the floor. Fay lowered his head, his blond hair covering his crying eyes.