Chapter 9:
Rachelle knew something was going on with Christian. He was avoiding her, and she knew it could only mean he was lying to her. Or rather, he would. That was what he'd done when they were children. She could tell then, just as she could tell now. Rachelle ran a hand through her hair, grabbing one lock and twisting it.
She knew Fleur could feel the distance too. He hadn't spoken to either of them for weeks, and just the other day he had announced he wished to sing in the new show and gave Mr. Hoggart a sheet of music. Since then all she had heard from Mr. Hoggart was how beautiful the song would be. Christian kept himself locked in his room.
Fleur, meanwhile, was trying to work on getting Christian outside. It was May and the flowers were beautiful now, she dearly wanted him to be with her. She worked up the courage to go to him. But before she knocked she listened. He was singing. And, to her surprise, beautifully. She knocked weakly on the door.
Christian, who had been working profusely, opened the door. And suddenly, he realized he'd forgotten her. He'd left her alone, confused and hurt. He began pitying Fleur, it was not his intentions. But, there was a part of him who knew he was playing games. It wasn't suppose to be that way, but he knew it had happened. It had been two whole months since he met Elysia, and he couldn't pretend he loved Fleur. Christian knew what he needed to do.
"Fleur," Christian sighed, "Come in, I've needed to say some things for a long time And I should say them now." Fleur smiled and entered, sitting in the chair by his bed. She noticed there were several papers scattered on the bed, and watched Christian gather them, sit down, and sit them on the nightstand. Fleur knew something must he wrong, but decided to act as though she knew nothing. "What did you want to speak to me about Christian?" "Fleur…," he said, his eyes falling down to his feet. What was he to say? "Is something wrong?," she asked.
Christian felt saliva and fear build up within his throat, but he swallowed it back and shakily began speaking. "Fleur, I know we are engaged. But, I…I don't think I have been right about us. Our mothers always wanted us to marry, and I wanted to respect their wishes. But, Fleur…you've always been like a sister to me, a dear friend. I just don't love you as a wife, and I've come to realize I never can. I tried Fleur, and I even thought it would be so simple not to get hurt. But, my heart aches and longs for…someone else…So I am breaking off the engagement."
Christian grabbed Fleur's hand an began massaging it tenderly. "Please understand," he said pleadingly. Fleur was stiff. He couldn't even tell what her emotion was. She smiled and spoke. "Thank you for telling me Christian…" she stood, walking out. Christian could almost feel her pain, though she dare not show him. He truly was sorry, but he couldn't do this anymore.
Fleur made it to her door before tears began to fall. She threw herself on her bed and began crying loud into her pillow. Several hours later, she awoke on the damp pillow. She looked up to the wall:
Who would have thought that you could
Hurt me?
The way you're done it
So deliberate, so determined
Since you've been gone
I bite my nails for days
And question my own questions on and on
Tell me now, tell me now
Why you're so far away
When I'm still so close
You don't even know the meaning of the words I'm sorry
You said you would love me until you die
As far as I know you're still alive
Baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words I'm sorry
I'm starting to believe, it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart
I tried so hard to be attentive
To all you wanted, always supportive always patient
What did I do wrong
I'm wondering for days and hours
Anyhow, anyhow
I wish you both the best
I hope you get along
You don't even know the meaning of the words I'm sorry
You said you would love me until you die
As far as I know you're still a live
Baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words I'm sorry
I'm starting to believe, it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart
Open heart, open hear, It should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart
Open heart, open heart, it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart
Fleur pushed her pillow away. Her heart was utterly breaking. She wiped her tears, and sighed. She then cried out, releasing emotions within her.
Rachelle jerked as she heard the cry. She looked at Fleur's door as she passed by it. She immediately went to Christian's room. Rachelle banged on the door, and Christian answered quickly. She walked into his room and looked at him as he closed the door. "Don't lie to me Christian," Rachelle spoke, "What have you done?" Christian looked into Rachelle's aqua eyes, which were growing deeper. "I broke off our engagement," he answered.