Chapter 10

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Viktor stood in the doorway to Yuri's room waiting for some sort of response from him.

"Is that want you thought Yuri? That if you left me your money you dying wouldn't bother me? Do you honestly still believe that I am after nothing but the cash value? I kept telling you that I loved you because I had actual feelings for you and you still thought I was in it for something. I just wanted you to love me back. That's it. No strings attached, no hidden meaning."

"Shut up Viktor. You know nothing!" Watching Yuri sit up he noticed he wouldn't look at him.

"How could I? You tell me nothing! It's all riddles with you! Tell me what you want!"

"I want you to go back! I want you to forget about me because I can't do this anymore, alright! I can't pretend I'm happy, that I believe everything will be alright! I can't look at your face and know all I wanted to do with you can never happen! Surgery will cost me three times more than what I gave you! Three times! I don't have that kind of money, my parents don't have it either. There is no guarantee it will work even if I did. There is no promise that it won't paralyze me. There is no guarantee this pain will go away! Don't you see! I'm done. I just want to lie here and rot because that's all I can do. So get out of my life because there is nothing you or anyone else could do for me!"

Moving towards Yuri he sat in front of him to bring him close. Feeling him struggle to pull away he kept him close refusing to let him go. He knew he could offer to pay for the operation himself, give Yuri back the money he gave him and pay the rest but he didn't want Yuri to feel like he owed him for it. "I'll figure something out Yuri."

"Just leave me Viktor. Leave me and move on."

"I can't do that. My heart is too far in love with you to just leave." Feeling his shirt being soaked from Yuri's tears he gently put his hand on the back of his neck. "I love you Yuri. I don't want a life without you and if you don't want me back than I'm okay with that so long as you keep living." Having Yuri wrap his arms around him he felt they had gotten to the root of his issues. He didn't want an easy relationship, he just wanted a true on.

Viktor stayed with Yuri all night, Phichit had gone into Viktor's room to sleep since they took the room he was using. Everyone rested easier knowing Yuri was doing better. They knew nothing was solved but they felt the little progress was better than nothing.

"Viktor?"

"Hmm?"

"Were you sleeping?"

"No… I'm up."

"Your eyes are closed. I'll stop."

Opening his eyes he saw Yuri watching him. "See. I'm not sleeping. Need something?" Smirking, he was glad to have Yuri near him.

"I just…are you sure…am I worth it to you? Even if I have nothing to offer you. You still want to love me?"

"You offer me plenty." Sliding closer he kissed the others forehead. "Never doubt your worth, Yuri, ever. Not to me, not to anyone that loves you. I want to love you for as long as you'll let me. Maybe even longer."

"Why?"

"Why what?"

"Why do you love me?"

"That's easy. Because from the moment I met you my heart went wild. You are passionate, you are a dreamer, you work hard, you are cute." Seeing him blush at the last statement he gave him another kiss on his forehead. He wanted to kiss those lips he loved but he didn't want to force things right now.

"I'm worth your career?"

"And then some. Yuri. Can I confess something to you now?" Having Yuri meet his eyes he took a breath. "I wanted to tell you this sooner but I didn't want you to feel guilty if things came up. Back home, back in Russia, I have nothing to go home to. No home, no family. If you come with me, well, it won't be easy. I don't want to do that to you but if you really wanted me to go back and if you wanted to stay with me than I would gain the courage to go back."

"What happened?"

"Well…" He was surprised by the question, did he really not know? "Back home…there are…laws Yuri…strict laws, and dangerous ones. I've lived on my own since I was a teenager. My parents were using me for my money and one day I told them something they didn't want to hear. I left, Yakov thought I wanted to train harder so he helped me get a place closer to the rink. My parents never told the public about me because they hoped to gain my earnings from competitions but I never let them see a dime. You know how your parents support you, support us? Mine would never. They would rather I be dead."

"Viktor…I…I never would…if I had known…how come you don't hate me?"

"Hate you for what? I've never told anyone this because I was scared. But, I'm not scared with you Yuri. For the first time in ten years I felt like I have a home, I saw people that cared for each other. I want you to see where I grew up. I just want you to know there are certain memories there as well." Seeing Yuri start to cry again he moved his hand to wipe his eyes. "Why are you crying?"

"Sorry. I'm sorry. I just…I love you Viktor."

"I love you too." Kissing those lips he had been dying to kiss he could taste the salt from Yuri's tears.

When they separated they got lost in each other's eyes. They weren't thinking about careers or making the other proud, they were thinking about how they loved each other and how they both knew deep down they couldn't live without the other.

"Viktor?"

"Yea?"

"I'm sorry. For slapping you. For yelling at you. And for…well…for telling you that I wanted to die."

"I forgive you. So long as you live a long time. Deal?"

"Deal."

Kissing their hands, Viktor saw Yuri smile. How no one could love him before was a thought he couldn't grasp.

"Yuri?" Seeing him open his eyes he smiled at him

"Yea?"

"I know it's not easy but…come to me more okay? The thought of losing you is a rough one and you don't deserve that pain. I know I can't make all the past disappear but I'd like to believe I can a rock for you. That when things get rough you can come to me instead of pushing me away."

"You're too perfect for me Viktor." Watching Yuri yawn and close his eyes he kissed his nose and kept him close so he could sleep the rest of the night peacefully. Tomorrow they would work out the other problems.

Once they were awake and functioning Viktor helped Yuri up and to the others who were lounging downstairs. He knew Yuri hated the fact that he was being carried but it was less strain on his back this way. Being greeted with smiles he placed his love gently on the couch and went to grab him breakfast. Coming back into the other room he heard Yuri apologizing for how he acted yesterday. Handing him a plate of food he smiled wider as he saw him actually start eating. There was no picking at it for a few minutes and putting it down. He was scared it's just an act but he knew relationships were built from trust and he wanted to trust Yuri.

Kneeling in front of him while he was eating he tapped his leg to get his attention.

"Yuri. I have an idea for you to consider. I want to see you happy, in fact I think I speak for all those around you when say that. I know you don't have the money to pay for your surgery and even if I gave you back what you gave me you wouldn't let me pay for the rest of it. But, what if we held a fundraiser? Let's get Yuuko and the others involved and let's hold a fundraiser at the Ice Castle for the money. If we don't reach enough then I'll pay the leftover." Yuri gagged on his food as he heard the idea, well it wasn't a flat out no.

"I'd join that event!" Phichit jumped up and ran to Yuri hoping he would say yes. "I don't know what I can do but I'd like to be a part of it."

"What do you say Yuri, can we do it?"

Still trying to clear his throat Viktor waited patiently, maybe he should have waited until after he ate.

"If you guys really want to then sure. Let's talk to Yuuko. But! I have one rule. No one is forced. The idea alone means a lot to me." Lunging forward, Viktor gave Yuri the tightest hug he could give. Only letting go when he told him he was hurting him. He knew he had tears in his eyes but he was so happy Yuri was okay with this idea. Not thinking he leaned over and kissed Yuri until he felt him pull away.

"Viktor! My parents are literally right behind you!" Turning to face them he waved and smiled at them.

"Mr. and Mrs. Katsuki. I think by now it's very obvious that I love your son."

"Well I'd hope so with that kiss on TV."

Hearing Yuri mumble a "oh my god," Viktor turned back to him and lifted his chin. "We are all good then." Kissing him again he noticed Yuri didn't pull away right away.

Viktor knew Yuri hated the idea of being carried everywhere. In fact it was so obvious Viktor laughed every time. Yesterday still played in his mind though despite the good mood Yuri was in today and worried it would crash sooner or later. He learned from the last time that these moods could come and go quickly. But, he also knew he was going to try harder so Yuri wouldn't push him away the next time he was feeling low. This relationship wasn't going to easy for either of them he knew that. He also knew that any good relationship took time and commitment. Both he was willing to do for the other.

"Yuri!" Hearing Yuuko as they walked in Viktor heard Yuri ask him to put him down right away. Carefully doing as he was told he kept his arms around him making sure he was steady. "How are you feeling? I've been wanting to stop by and check on you but I knew you needed rest so I didn't want to bother you. Oh! Phichit and Christophe…oh my god! My girls will flip out if they find out you are here."

"I'm getting there. The doctor said my concussion is getting better and I've noticed I can focus a bit more than I could. My back…well that's another story."

"And that is actually why we are all here. Can we sit and talk somewhere?" Not wanting to see rude but wanting Yuri to be resting again Viktor cut in.

"Yes! Yes of course! We can use the office." Leading the way the four of them headed towards the back to get this underway.

Explaining everything they watched her face light up at the idea.

"Yuri I feel awful it has to come to this but I would be happy to set things up for an event here. I know the town will be happy to support you. And if everyone is skating too than I'm sure you'll get the funds in no time."

"Thanks Yuuko. I appreciate the help."

"Yuuko, can the three of us use the ice?"

"Sure Viktor it should be all good to go. Let me know if you need anything."

"Appreciate it." Kissing Yuri's cheek he left them alone to show the guys where the event would be held. As he was shutting the door he heard Yuuko ask if Yuri was really doing alright, he was looking thin.

After a half hour of getting nowhere Viktor was glad the other two had something planned. Christophe had brought up just using Yuri's Ero's program and practicing his old ones but he wasn't sure he liked that idea. Ero's had become the beautiful Grand Prix Final piece that it was because of Yuri. Maybe he was thinking of this from the wrong angle. Moving towards the edge of the ice he grabbed his phone and scrolled through songs he liked hoping something would inspire him.

"Viktor! Quick question. Are we going all out? Like with outfits?" Hearing Christophe ask he looked over and nodded. "If we can, let's do it. Let's make this event the best it can be."

"Let's treat it like the gala!" Phichit's enthusiasm was inspiring. Viktor was getting really excited to see this all come together.

After spending hours at the rink Viktor was grateful he wasn't too tired to carry Yuri home. He could tell they all had fun working on everything today, even Yuri who had to just sit and watch from the benches. Getting Yuri in bed he brought him dinner only to watch as he moved it to the side.

"Yuri I…"

"Sssh. I'll eat in a minute. I promised Yuuko to try harder. I just wanted to say thank you Viktor. For everything. Really."

Moving closer he took their hands and moved it to Yuri's heart. "Never forget that even in your darkest days I love you. I want to see back on your feet just as much as you do. I just want to see you smile the way you used to."

"I have a request Viktor."

"Anything Yuri."

"Hold me tight tonight. The darkness in my mind is worse at night but being near you helps subdue it. I want to keep fighting Viktor, for you. For everyone that supports me."

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Please don't hate me! See they are getting better with each other! This was supposed to be the last chapter but they got cute again so that's not going to happen. The reviews are amazing and keep me going so thank you to each and every one of you.

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