Hey guys! Can you believe we're already in chapter 10! Only five more chapters to go (at think at least). I'm so happy that you guys have been loving this story, and I hope the rest of this fanfic doesn't disappoint. Anyway, I hope you like this chapter!

10 years ago, Marcus's wedding]

Harvey felt… enchanted. He had just told his mother off. Even though he hadn't expressed any of his true feeling towards her. Somehow he'd managed to put her in her place, and make it known that she wasn't welcome in his life. Something he had been wanted to do for years. They hadn't come face to face in over five years, hell they hadn't even talked in five years. Unless you consider her leaving behind countless voicemails talking, which he sure didn't. When he had first seen her he wanted to cower in fear. There was the woman who had ruined his life, and respecting the person he valued most in the world. There she was standing right in front of him. He wanted to run the other way. He didn't though. Thanks to Donna. It was always thanks to Donna. He didn't want to look like a coward in front of her. He went into the crowd for her. It's not like he talked directly to Lily. He was civil though, and he didn't even make a peep when she mentioned Donna. He didn't even plan on talking to her. That was until she singled him out. Making it so he had to reply. He wasn't it nasty though. He was just honest.

Even though he felt proud for what he had done. He knew others would feel that way. He was cold towards her. Unfountably he was sure Marcus, his father and Donna would want to talk to him about it later. Especially Donna, she was never one to let him wallow in his emotions. Which was why it was no surprise that once he arrived at the bar he saw Donna follow in his footsteps.

Harvey was having a congratulatory drink. While simoutantouls preparing for his speech. He decided that he could splurge on his drink since he was paying for Marcus's half of the wedding. He was trying to focus on his drink and speech, but he could feel Donna glaring at him. She hadn't said anything since she'd gotten to the bar. She was waiting for him to glance up. He knew she was going to spoil his drink so he savoured him last sip. Then glanced up a her. I hate it when she does this. Can't I celebrate for one Goddamn minute.

"Harvey, what was that." She spat. Yes, he had expected her to be mad. She was fuming though. Shouldn't she be proud of me for confronting my demons. Also I could've been much worse. "You say two seven words to you mother. After five years. Then just leave!"

"Yeah," he looked at her confused. What had she expected me to say? I love you, mom. Surly Donna's not that naive. "I had nothing more to say."

She scoffed, which she only did when she was angry. Harvey could tell that she was trying to keep her cool. They were in a public place after all. The bartender was only a few feet away and could surely hear what they were saying. "That's all you had to say! Your so immature Harvey".

"How was I being immature, " he snapped. Now he was beginning to get angry. As expected she had come over to spoil his mood.

"After having not spoken to you mother for five years, all you can say to her is a jab. I know how you feel about her. I get it. She didn't deserve that though," she paused. She was trying to keep her cam. Trying not to lecture him. He had to know that wasn't right. "You shouldn't have said that."

"I'm sorry Donna," he mocks. "What would you have liked me to say."

"Maybe you could've gone with 'hi mom, i've missed you'." She suggested. "'There's been a whole in my heart ever since you left'."

"Watch it", he warned. "She didn't come to this wedding to have an emotional talk with me. She came here for Marcus. Just like I came here for Marcus."

"God Harvey! Your never going to be able to have a real relationship until you make things right with you mother."

"So that's what this is about!" Suddenly it all made sense. She wasn't angry at him over his coldness towards his mother. She was angry with him for telling her he loved her a few days prior. I told you that would come bite you in the ass.

"Yes Harvey i'm mad about that!"

"Why? It doesn't mean anything," he blurted. Immediately regretting it afterwards. Of course it meant something you idiot. He knew she'd be hurt by it. Even if she would've prefered for him to keep his mouth shut there's nothing worse than someone taking back an I love you. Also it wasn't honest. He may not fully understand his feeling towards Donna, however he was sure what he fet for her was love.

"It doesn't mean anything," she repeating. Trying to digest the harshness from that statement. "Then why'd you say it? Do you just get a kick from hurting people?"

"No Donna. That's not what I meant. What I meant was that were colleague, and good friends. That's all."

"So a day ago you loved me. Now we're colleagues."

"You don't go out with men that you work with, so I don't know why this matters." He spat. Reminding her of her rule that had caused him so much trouble in the past. Constantly reminding him of what they could've been.

"I'm sorry. I'd just like to know if my boss was is love with me," she spat right back. She knew Harvey hated being referred to as her boss. He always felt like that downplayed their relationship and was disrespectful to her. If anything she was his boss.

Enough was enough. Harvey could tell that they needed to have a conversation. If they didn't shit would brew, and there would be an explosion, and he wasn't prepared to deal with the fallow. This discussion wasn't one he was going to have five feet from a bartender though. He grabbed Donna's arm, more aggressive than he meant to, and pulled her into a quite connor. Now it was just them. Everything was easier when it was just them.

"Donna i'm sorry. Okay, i'm sorry for saying that."

"Did you mean it?"

"It doesn't matter if I meant it because nothing's going to change between us."

"Did you mean it Harvey?"

"Yes! Of course i'd meant it. I would be crazy not to. You made it clear though nothing can happen to us as long as we work together."

"So," she paused. Right than during her pause he realized something. He'd always thought there was only two reasons for him and Donna not being together; her rule and him. After the "other time" he'd always assumed that was what kept them apart. Her refusal to mix business and pleasure, and his refusal to commit. Her paused changed that. Made him realize he wasn't the only one who was scared. In Front of him he could see her standing terrified. Making him realize that she also hadn't been ready, and by the look on her face still wasn't ready "Where does that leave us."

"I'm not going to lose you Donna. Anyone but you."

"So?"

"Were coworkers".

"That's all."

"That's all!" Desperately Harvey wanted to know if she replicated his feelings. For the first time he questioned if where they were was where they were supposed to be, or were they both just letting fear get in the way of something that could've been incredible. He was sure he'd never felt for anyone what he felt for Donna. Deep down he was sure she felt the same way. He knew that everything he felt for her, she felt for him. As much as he wanted to express this to her for confirmation he was sure her admitting that to him would just make things harder, so he kept his mouth shut, like he should've before.

They stayed there. Awkwardly. Not looking at each other. He hated acting like this around her. Usually she was the one person he felt completely comfortable to be himself around, and he hoped they'd get back to that place fast. Before either of them could make a break from it a voice came on the stage. "Harvey Specter, will you come to the stage?"

Harvey knew what this meant. It was time to give his speech. The speech they had written together before things got so complicated. The speech he knew without her would've never been finished. She was his muse.

that he couldn't have written without Donna. Secretly he knew he had written the speech for her (although he would deny it to anyone who asked). In the writing process Donna had suggested to think about Scottie (who Donna assumed he was in love with), and describe how he used to feel about her. Instead of thinking about Scotty (his old girlfriend who he barely thought about) he thought about Donna. During the whole speech he had thought about her, and what it be like to marry her. "That's my cue to leave."

"Harvey", she beckoned him. As he bagan walking away to the stage. He turned his head around and smiled at her the way only he could. "Good luck!" She paused. To him it looked like she was making an effort to clear the air. Once again though something had caught her tongue. " And I love you too." Shit!

[Present Time, Day before Mike and Rachel's wedding]

Donna was keeping her word. She and Harvey hadn't so much as crossed paths in the past few days. She had been in the office, he was sure of that now. He had had to ask Louis of people to confirm that she had not just up, and left. She'd been in the building, but she hadn't been in her office. Though he wouldn't care to admit it he checked every fifteen minutes like clockwork. Nothing! For three days. Her work was still getting done, so he really had nothing to complain about. She was taking the whole not seeing each other till thee wedding thing very seriously. Too seriously. This wasn't there avage fight. There was nothing average about this. He had to do something. Fast! Or she really was going to leave forever.

Ever since she'd announced her pending resignation Harvey had been paranoid. PAranoid to leave the firm. Paranoid to even leave his office. She had meant what she said. At any moment he knew she could hand in her resignation. When she did he wasn't to be thee. To stop her, or at least try. Therefore, he stayed late every night, never left the firm to approach clients, and setup all his meeting in his office.

He wasn't sure how much longer she was going to have to keep this up for. The wedding was only a day away. The wedding that he and Donna were a part of. As the wedding grew closer and closer, he became more and more afraid. Afraid that he wouldn't be able to fix things. Donna had said; "I'll see you at the wedding." Seemily she was sticking to her word. Which meant there was a high possibility that Donna would hand in her resignation at the wedding.

On top of Donna's impending departure from the frim. Harvey's best man toast still wasn't complete. Donna and him were supposed to meet up and finish it. Of course that wasn't going to happen anymore since they weren't speaking. Now he had to finish it all by himself. He still needed it to be kickass. This was his last goodbye to Mike and Rachel. The other day Mike had let Harvey in on his plans to go backpacking for a few months. A plan Harvey was surprised Rachel had agreed to. Then open the clinic. If they went through with it, which Harvey was till praying they wouldn't. This would be both their last days at Specter Litt.

"Hey, there's cake." Mike waltzed unannounced into Harveys office. What an idiot! There were only two people Harvey would allow to waltz into his office, and they were both leaving.

"You brought wedding cake to work?" Harvey asked stunned. He knew Mike was excited for his wedding. Overly excited if you asked him. This was however taking it to a new extreme. The firm wasn't in the business of celebrating things. Even Harvey's birthday had gone unannounced, and uncelebrated.

"No," Mike paused. He had assumed Harvey had been aware of the celebration that was going on outside his office. "Donna brought cake."

"For your wedding?"

"No… for us opening the clinic. We finally came up with a name-"

"Mike," he interrupted. "If I cared about your stupid clinic. I'd ask about it".

He then proceeded to storm out of the office. Leaving Mike astounded in his office. Although Mike quickly jumped to the conclusion that it wasn't him who had set Harvey off, it was Donna. Over the past few months Mike had seen the tension rose between his two friends. He knew that tension would only continue to rise because Rachel let it slip that Donna was considering coming to work with them. Although Mike was thrilled by the news, he knew that if she would did it would have irreparable damage not only on her relationship with Harvey, but his as well.

Admittedly Harvey knew he had no right to snap at Mike like that, and he would definitely apologize for it later. Right now though he had bigger fish to fry. Right now he was going to confront the person who brought in the cake, and had the balls to avoid him for three days. Don't poke the bear. Your already on thin ice, he tried to convince himself. However, he was too angry to listen to reason. This was his firm; his name was on the wall, and he was the managing partner. She may be the COO, but that didn't mean she had more stature then him. A celebration was going on in his firm without him knowing. Nobody ran it by him. Nobody even invited him to it. This infuriated him to no end! She infatuated him to no end!

Once he got to the firms designated party area. A streak of fire read hari flew across his field of vision. Her he couldn't forgot the scent of no matter how much he may have wanted to. He had marched all the way to the party. Once he got there though he had halted to a stop. He wasn't in the position to do anything rash. They were still on thin ice. All he wanted to do was make it known to her and everyone else that he was incharge, and things needed to be run by him. He was a control freak who felt like everything was sipping out of his control. He needed to gain whatever control he could. ASAP!

Currently Donna was speaking to some intern who's name he didn't care to learn. Luckily she hadn't even noticed his arrival This gave him time to regain his composure, and think about what exactly he was going to say. He knew if he was careless with his words all that would do was push her further away. Whatever he said next matted. As he took in his surroundings he noticed that almost the entire firm had shown up for this celebration. Including Louis.

"Hey, Harvey!" Louis exclaimed. Chomping down on a piece of cake.

"Louis what the hell are your doing here?"

Louis looked at him blankly. He knew Harvey wasn't one for parties. Considering this was a going away party for Mike and Rachel he though Harvey would make an exception. He didn't expect him to celebrate, but he did expect him to do his best to fake a smile. Sending off Mike and Rachel."

"And Donna!" He blurted. Immediately regretting it. She still haven't handed in her resignation. She wasn't officially leaving.

"And who?" Louis asked dumbfounded. The fact that Louis had no clue what he was talking about comforted him. If she hadn't told him, that would mean she wasn't telling people. Which meant he still had time to convince her stay.

"Donna. She didn't tell you she was leaving?"

"No!" He exclaimed. "Harvey we have to stop her."

"Just don't tell her I told you." Suddenly Harvey become hyper aware of the fact that if Louis spilled the beans all that would do it push Donna further away.

"Harvey, what are we going to do. It's one thing to lose Mike and Rachel. Doona though we can't afford to lose."

"Louis i'm handling it."

"How?"

"That is none of your concern. Just know that she's not leaving!"

Suddenly in the middle of both of them was none other than Donna Paulsen. Who had seemingly overheard their entire conversation. The air between the three of them was tense. Harvey had not been this close to Donna in weeks. Immediately to this close proximity. Everything about him became submissive. He was a control freak who was used to being the dominant and having all the power. She was in charge though, and to make it worse she knew it.

"I see he told you," Donna observed. She wasn't in the mood to play games. She had spent the past decade playing games, and she was sick of it. Louis deserved the truth. Everyone deserves the truth. "Louis it's true. I am leaving."

"Donna how can you leave the firm? You love it here!"

"I do love it here. But I love myself more."

"What's that supposed to mean? Will do anything to make the firm better suited to your needs. Do you want a raise? A bigger office? More vacation time? I know we dismissed making you a partner a few months ago, but i'd be willing to fold on that. I'll do anything to keep you here."

"Louis there's nothing you can do. There's nothing either of you can do. I've made my decision."

"When are you leaving?" Harvey asked. Even though he was terrified to hear the answer. A date would make this all way too official.

"I was going to give my letter of resignation tonight. However, i'll still have two weeks after that."

"What's going to happen to the firm?" Louis asked. He sounded like a young child who was being left by his mother with a bbysitter for the night. However, in this scenario she wasn't just leaving for the night.

"Greten is perfectly capable of taking care of things. As for the COO position, that's up to you. You can fill it, or keep it vancnt. The firm didn't have one for years and it did just fine."

"Donna, you can't just leave-"

"Actually Harvey I can," see snapped. She was sick of him trying to dedicate her life.

"What's going to happen to us?The trio . The three blind mice. The three musketeers. The three mudding masters"

"Louis, it's not like we're never going to see eachother again. We just won't be working together anymore. But you know will always be friends."

"I know Donna. It's just going to be different. It's going to take a while to get used to."

"I know," she sighed. For the first time in the conversation she looked directly at Harvey. Who was staring at the floor. Something he often did when he was been bombarded with emotions. He didn't want to look at her. For fear that if he looked at her he may crack.

"This is going to be so hard," Louis sniffed. "I feel like i'm being-"

"Sucker Punched."