Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts or the characters that appear in those games. I do own Megan, not that I want too. I do not own the song "False Pretense" by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, but I do own the lyrics "Keeping Lies" by a fake band. The song is intended to be a rock song. SoraSakura yes, this chapter tells what Megan is up to, then I probably won't use her anymore. Ashlee-chii yep, and evil is fun. I guess the girls have been a little left out, so they don't know what is going on. Riku's no.1 Fangirl yes, very awkward, does she think she is someone important? Would just like to point out that in this story Sora and Riku are around 19, 20 and Xenmas is about 24.
Chapter 10
The group was finally sitting inside a medium room that Kairi had reserved for them. Sora had introduced everyone. Cloud and Roxas had kept their gaze on Riku, knowing he was Sora's ex. Roxas then glanced over to the guy beside him. The style of his hair looked familiar to him, like the guy from the beach. Roxas couldn't believe Sora would be friends with such an prick. Roxas noticed the red head was staring at him.
"Why are you staring at me?" Roxas asked Axel.
"You look familiar." Axel answered.
"Could that be because you know Sora, and we look alike?" Roxas asked a little harsh. He wanted him to quit staring at him.
"No, you two don't look completely alike. Were you at the beach last night?" Axel asked. Roxas didn't see any reason to answer this.
"I ran into this kid on the beach last night. He was scared of us and in a big hurry to get away." Axel said, giving Roxas the same smirk he had the night before.
"I'm not a kid." Roxas said, glaring at him. Yep, the guy is a prick.
"That's the same thing he said before he practically ran away." Axel laughed. Roxas glared at him even more.
"Axel, cut it out. You gave him enough crap last night. Just leave him alone." Riku said. Roxas shifted his gaze back to Riku. Had he just done that to look good in front of Sora? If that was the case, it wouldn't work. But, then again, he had done the same last night and had not know Roxas was Sora's brother. Even if he had seen a picture of him, it was too dark for him to recognize him clearly.
The three turned the attention back to Kairi, who was getting impatient waiting for them to listen to her.
She had decided that they all should sing at least one song. If they wanted to dedicate it to someone they could. They could sing whatever they wanted. Selphie volunteered to go first. The song she chose was one that went well with her hyper attitude. There were a few winces as she attempted to hit a note that was out of her range. Kairi followed her with a slow song. Neither one had dedicated their songs to anyone.
Riku could not help but look at Megan and Sora. Megan was throwing herself all over Sora, who did not seem to comfortable with it. By the looks she was sending to Riku, she was doing this to get at him. He sent a glare towards her that Sora happened to see. Sora misunderstood the reason for the glare, which he would since he did not know that Riku and Megan knew each other, he just thought Riku was trying to scare off a girl that liked him. And this made Sora mad, so he agreed to the song Tidus had said he should sing.
"So next is, how about you Sora?" Kairi asked.
"Sure, I'll go next." Sora walked up and set his song up. "This song is for someone, I think you'll figure it out." The music belted out and when it was time he started singing. (False Pretense by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus)
Oh, it's time to let it go
The world's got a funny way of turning round on you
when a friend tries to stab you right in the face
Losing faith in everything I thought I hoped I knew
Don't sweat it, it was set on false pretense
Betrayed but not going to be willing to change
And it doesn't seem likely to fade
Betrayed but not going to be willing to change
cu cu cu cuz you know
It's sacrifice
False pretense you'll hurt again
Stop pretending to deny
False pretense you'll hurt again
All along you know you thought you got the best of me
But you were wrong and I'm laughing right in your face
I cannot believe you claimed you were my family
Don't sweat it it's set on false pretense
Betrayed but not going to be willing to change
And it doesn't seem likely to fade
Betrayed but not going to be willing to change
cu cu cu cuz you know
It's sacrifice
False pretense you'll hurt again
Stop pretending to deny
False pretense you'll hurt again
Oh, it's time to let it go
I can't seem to understand it how you turned out to be so cold
You tried but were caught red handed, are you happy with your role?
It's funny to me how you've turned into such a joke
It's sacrifice
False pretense you'll hurt again
Stop pretending to deny
False pretense you'll hurt again
So play the game until you run out
And play the game into my hand.
Riku could not believe it, the implications Sora made with that song. He was making there relationship seem like it had been nothing to him. He had called him a joke. After everything, this is what Riku got. Riku was pissed, if Sora wanted to play this game and make him look like an ass in front of everyone, then he could too. Riku had noticed the constant glances towards him during Sora's song.
"Next will be Tidus." Kairi said, taking the mic from Sora. Riku stood up.
"I'll go next." It was a demand. Kairi could tell he was angry and was too scared to tell him no, so she handed the mic to him as Tidus sat back down.
"This is for my wonderful, prefect, completely innocent victim of a ex boyfriend. I think you will figure it out." Riku said venom in his voice. He had purposely stressed certain words. (Keeping Lies by me.)
Woke up late again, hungover
From another night spent wasted.
Drinking to kill the pain
Drowning to forget why
I live this life of lies
Memories fade
And the pain goes away
Maybe it won't last
But I have to try anyway
Keeping lies that aren't mine to keep
Holding truths that would cut too deep
I'll be the villain to your superhero
Cause I'm keeping lies to protect you
I might as well be the bad guy
No one would think I'm a saint
Might as well let you play the victim
With your innocent grace
That's a role I could never take
But I know the truth
I've seen the evidence
I have the proof
They say a picture's worth a thousand words
So what's a heart ache worth these days?
Keeping lies that aren't mine to keep
Holding truths that would cut too deep
I'll be the villain to your superhero
Cause I'm keeping lies to protect you
When the pain runs too deep inside
I run away and try to hide
I know I shouldn't have ended up here
I got lost in the darkness that was there
Memories fade
And the pain goes away
I know it won't last
But I do it anyway
Keeping lies that aren't mine to keep
Holding truths that would cut too deep
I'll be the villain to your superhero
Cause I'm keeping lies to protect you
Cause I'm keeping lies to protect you
I'll hold the truth cause I don't wanna lose you.
Riku finished the song and dropped the mic on the floor. He didn't bother looking at anyone, walked over to the door and left, slamming the door behind him. The group was quiet, not knowing what to say. Sora looked like he didn't know what to think. Axel smirked and got up to go to the door, looking back at Sora as he got there.
"Can't believe he actually did that. I'm so proud of him. Now let's see how long it takes you to figure out what it means." Axel said to Sora and opened the door. "Oh, and once last thing, what I said the other day, I take that back. I'm am siding with him on this. I don't think what he did was all that wrong considering..."
And with that Axel left to find Riku. What he said to Sora had been the truth. Axel could see now whose pain ran deeper.
Sora sat there stunned. Stunned at the song Riku had song and stunned at Axel's words. What did it all mean? He didn't know unless..., 'No that's not possible.' Sora's eyes went wide and he too ran out the door after Riku. The rest of them sat there, some having more of an idea of what had just happened than others. But even the ones who knew about Riku cheating on Sora did not understand what all that had meant.
Sora ran as fast as he could out to the parking lot, but was too late to catch up with Riku. He spotted Axel getting into his car and ran over to him.
"Axel, what did that mean? Tell me." Sora said, Axel could see the fear in his eyes.
"I told you that you had to figure it out for yourself. Besides it's not my place to tell you anything. You want to know, try talking to him."
"Fine, I will. I'll go to his house and talk to him." Sora said. He turned and started walking towards the road, he would walk if he had to, but he was going to talk to Riku and find out what all that had meant.
"You do know that he moved, don't you? No, I guess you wouldn't. Oh well, not my problem." Axel called after him causing Sora to stop.
"He moved? Where did he moved too?" Sora asked.
"Now, why should I tell you that?"
"Because I need to talk to him."
"So, no one would tell him where you moved to when he needed to talk to you. So,no, I don't think I will tell you. And that girl that was hanging all over you, she kept smirking at Riku all night. Seemed like she was trying to get back at him for something." Axel said. Axel got back in his car and drove away.
Sora stood there thinking. He was very confused. Sora did not look up as he heard the footsteps coming towards him.
"Sora, are you alright? You seemed pretty upset." Megan asked, wrapping her arms around him. Sora looked over and saw everyone else was there too. Sora pulled free from Megan's hold.
"You know Riku, don't you?" Sora asked.
Megan looked confused, "Know him? I just met him."
"I don't think so. Axel said he saw you smirking at Riku all night, like you were trying to get back at him. You know him, don't you? That's why you took an interest in me. Somehow you knew about us."
"Is that true?" Cloud asked her, walking to her with an angry look on his face. "Were you just messing with my brother to get back at Riku? Don't even try lying to me either."
"Yeah, it's true. I met Riku a couple of weeks ago. He had said he would go out with a me and a friend and then the night we were going to go out, he said no. He said he didn't want to lose his boyfriend. I really liked him and here he was talking about a boyfriend. He rejected me for a guy. Not another girl, but a guy. I found out from someone else who is boyfriend was and starting playing with him. If I can't have him, then I'll just have to break them up. Seems like that already happened though." Megan said, giving a smile that so she was proud of herself.
"You better just leave now, before I hit you. I don't like to hit girls, but you just made me mad. You don't play with someone just because you didn't get your way." Cloud said. Megan looked around and saw all the others sending the same look towards her. Without saying another word, she left.
"Sora, are you okay?" Roxas asked.
"I think I should talk to Riku." Sora said.
"What? Sora, no, you just got away from him. Why should you even be thinking about talking to him after what he did? The guy is a bastard, through and through." Tidus said.
"You shouldn't have anything left to say to him, ya." Wakka added.
"I want to talk to him. I have to talk to him." Sora said, he was almost shouting.
"If you feel that strongly about it, then you should talk to him." Roxas said.
"I'll take you to his house." Leon said.
"Axel said Riku moved and he wouldn't tell me where." Sora said.
"You could call him." Kairi said, feeling left out. After all she had just found out that they had broken up.
"I guess it is worth a try." Sora pulled out his phone and dialed Riku's number. Sora was beginning to think that Riku was not going to answer when he heard a voice on the other end.
"What?" Riku said, anger still in his voice.
"Riku, I need to talk to you." Sora said.
Riku laughed, "Funny Sora, I remember saying those words to you and I was told no."
"I know, I'm sorry, Riku let's just meet so that we can both talk." Sora said. Riku was quiet for a few minutes.
"I have to think about it. I don't know if I even want to talk to you anymore. I'll call you and let you know." Riku said. Then all Sora heard was the dial tone. Riku had hung up on him.
"Leon, will you just take me home. I need to be alone, to think." Sora said. The others weren't to happy about this, but they could see it in Sora's face that he did need time alone. Leon headed towards the car. Sora apologized to everyone and walked off, followed by Roxas and Cloud.
"Are you going to talk to him, Riku?" Axel asked. Even though he had left after Riku had, he arrived at the apartment complex to find Riku still sitting in his car. After getting him into his apartment, Axel had made him sit down and handed him a beer.
"Should I?" Riku asked, taking a drink. Axel was quiet, not knowing the answer. But it was fine, Riku continued.
"What he did in there hurt. He belittled our relationship. He called me a joke."
"Tidus told him to sing that song."
"I know, but he didn't have to. And he seemed pretty happy about doing it. I'm tired of feeling nothing but pain. I'm tired of feeling dead inside. And that is what I have felt for the last six months. Wouldn't it be better to just forget him and move on?"
"You really think it will be that easy? To just forget him? If I remember correctly he is the only one you have ever loved. You said the only one you ever will truly love. Can you just give him up that easily?" Axel asked, getting up to get them another beer.
Riku shrugged and took the beer from Axel. "Even if it isn't going to be easy, wouldn't it be better if there is a chance I could feel alive inside again. I was a fool to think that things like true love existed. He maybe the only one I have ever loved, but I am not the only one he has."
"Are you sure about that?" Axel asked. Riku had never really talked about things like this with him before.
"When we were growing up, he was about 13 I guess, I realized he had a feelings for my brother. He would always stay around him when he was at our house. At first I thought that he just thought Xenmas was cool since he was 5 years older than us, but then I realized it was more. He kept blushing around him. Would get shy at times, and heaven forbid anyone embarrass him in front of him. He had a huge crush on him."
"But he accepted you. Why would he do that if he was in love with your brother?" Axel asked.
"Xenmas didn't show that kind of interest in him. Sora was just a little kid to him. Maybe Sora thought it would always be that way." Riku told him. He finished off the second beer.
"When did you start to like him?"
"I have liked him as long as I can remember, before he started showing signs of liking Xenmas."
"Then it must have hurt you to know he wanted your brother and not you."
"Yeah, but at that time I thought I would never tell him how I feel. I didn't want to ruin our friendship. But after a long time, I could not hold it in any longer. So I confessed. I honestly thought he would reject me. But he didn't, and he said he loved me too."
"I think you should talk to him, even if it is not to try to fix your relationship with him. I think you should tell him everything that you have been keeping from him. He hasn't hesitated to let you know how much you hurt him. Telling him is the only chance you have at healing inside." Axel said.
Riku looked up at him, "Maybe you're right. Maybe it's time I stopped keeping his lies."
Sora was sitting on the bed in his room. Roxas had respected his wish to be alone and stayed in the other room with Leon and Cloud. Sora sat thinking about what had happened earlier. He had seen Riku glare at Megan, but he had thought it had been from jealousy. But it wasn't, Riku had known what she was up to.
Sora thought about the song Riku had sung. Sora was familiar with the song. And Riku and Axel had both said something about figuring it out. It was clear Riku had chosen that song for a reason. Did the song fit him? He had started drinking a lot towards the end of their relationship. Was he doing that to kill pain as the song had said? And if so, what was the cause of that pain?
Sora could think of one thing it might be, but he didn't think that was possible. But what if it was the reason? With some many things running through Sora's head, he knew he would not know the truth
until he talked to Riku. But now he didn't even know if Riku would talk to him.
As Sora sat there thinking his phone rang. He picked it up and looked at the caller id. It was Riku. This would tell Sora if Riku was still willing to talk to him or not. Sora hit the answer button.
"Hello." Sora said.
"Do you remember where Axel lives?" Riku asked.
"Yes."
"Come to that complex, apartment 46A." Riku said then hung up.
Sora wrote the number on his hand and walked out of the room, heading for his car. The others looked up as he walked by, but he didn't say anything to them. All he could think about was talking to Riku. Riku had taken him to Axel's apartment a few times, so he knew exactly where it was. Sora pulled into the complex and started looking for 46A. It did not take him too long to find it. Sora knocked on the door and heard as footsteps approached from the inside.
The door flew open. Riku stood there looking at him a minute before stepping aside and letting Sora in.
TBC
This is a good place to stop. Or a bad place, depending on who you are. Anyway please tell me what you think of my song. I wrote it just for this fic. Now we know that Megan's only reason for being there was to set off a chain of event. Sora got mad, sang a song, which made Riku mad, who sang a song. Riku song makes Sora question things. Another song that I thought about using for Sora's song was "Stab my Back" by All-American Rejects. I chose the one I did because I thought the lyrics would make Riku madder than the other one would. And I wanted Riku angry enough to song that song. (Hint-- Riku's song important, Sora's not.) Oh and envelope contents revealed next chapter. Please Review. Thank you.