AN: See?!? I've updated in a reasonably amount of time. Aren't you proud?

Sirius' lips were soft and absolutely perfect. It didn't feel entirely physical to Remus anymore, it seemed as though there was a legitimate connection. He leaned down farther to push Sirius' head back slightly: Sirius happily obliged.

Sirius leaned onto his hands, easing onto his forearms to allow Remus to follow him down to the floor. He was in heaven; Remus was a wonderful warm weight pressing down on top of him, kissing him as though his life depended on it. The friction of the warm robes and warm breath was overwhelming and Sirius let out a whimper and felt Remus' passionate reaction press more urgently against him.

There were buttons coming undone and Remus was rapidly moving his mouth down Sirius' neck, sucking and kissing. Simply riding the high of the moment, being here with Sirius. Sirius, whose hands slid from his arse and made their way to his hair. He gripped clumsily, holding on for dear life. He was so lost but so close. Remus was instigating this, as he had wanted all along, but Sirius was utterly terrified and had never felt more embarrassed.

He pulled Remus up to him, kissing his teacher firmly. His nerves were physically hurting him; Remus seemed to notice and pulled back slightly. Remus starred down with those beautiful brown eyes and his face flushed with passion, breathing heavily. "What's wrong?" He whispered, and it seemed to Sirius that Remus was similarly terrified although perhaps with different reasons.

Sirius swallowed audibly and spoke. "I don't know what...what to do here. I have no idea what's happening." He absently rubbed his hands over Remus' shoulder and neck, trying not to sound as unsure as he was. "Help me..." he murmured into Remus' clean white shirt.

Remus began to pull away. "Sirius, this is too much...I think now would be a good time to stop and--"

"No!" Sirius let out a hoarse cry, struggling to pull Remus towards him. "Please, let's keep going. Don't stop me now. I'm fine."

"Sirius, this is getting completely out of hand. I'm obviously causing more harm than good here." Remus was nervous but reluctantly happy to have a good excuse to back away. Sirius' nerves made him realise what exactly he was doing to the boy. It would almost be rape, definitely an abuse of power. And privately he knew that his own secrets would prevent it from ever working and he wasn't ready to take his passion for his student higher only to feel it come crashing back down.

"Please, why not?" Sirius pleaded his lust diminishing and his stubbornness shining through. Remus winced and stood, brushing himself off as he did.

"Sirius, I'd be breaking every rule. I love teaching, I couldn't lose that!"

"So you'd rather lose me?"

Remus sighed, he'd set himself up for that one. He spoke slowly. "Sirius, I never had you. You have always been off-limits and I should have stopped this, prevented my emotions from getting in the--"

"Emotions? You feel something for me, don't you? Don't you?!?" Sirius seemed almost hysterical in his unwillingness to drop the issue.

"Of course, I feel something for you!" Remus snapped, "Obviously I want there to be something, but nothing would work! With or without my status as your teacher--"

"How do you know we wouldn't work? We get along perfectly...I can't stop...thin-thinking..." Sirius drifted off, a flush running to his face. He was too proud and much too afraid of rejection to finish that thought.

Remus felt a pang in his chest at the words of his student. He wanted this so much, and everything was coming down against him. Life isn't fair, he thought bitterly. This is completely the opposite of what I want to happen. "It wouldn't work, the reasons don't even matter, Sirius. We just need to take a step back, take a deep breath, and understand that things aren't going to go in our favour."

"Yes, I'm quite used to that, thanks. I'm not the sort of child that enjoyed being spoiled to death, you know. I don't expect everything on a silver platter. I don't know what you think of my family but I'm not one of their lit--"

'Sirius, I don't think you are just a puppet there, I know that! I know you aren't spoiled, but you are expecting this relationship to go somewhere that it simply cannot go. You need to except this and move on. Yeah, I know it hurts. But we. Can't. Do. This...please."

Sirius starred at Remus, with a look in his eyes that made Remus want to go and kiss the boy senseless, that perhaps more. "When you aren't my teacher anymore, would this work?"

Sirius was bargaining. Remus felt the desire to give this to him, but knew that Sirius would pursue this as the school year ended, and neither of them deserved the end that would invariably come with the discovery of Remus' secret. He sighed.

"Err, maybe. I'm not sure. You'll probably get a better offer." Sirius stepped closer and didn't respond to the ill-placed joke. 'I mean, you are quite the catch, Sirius. Don't give away your heart just yet."

Sirius pressed Remus up against the wall, nodding to Remus' words in an almost mocking fashion. "Hmm...you know for all the ways you have authority over me, Professor, I don't think deciding my love life is one of them. So sorry." And with that, their lips pressed against each other and Remus frantically tried to stop everything from happening.

He gently tried to pry himself away from Sirius, pulling back until his back hit the wall. Unfortunately, Sirius followed with a mixture of desire and desperation that broke Remus' heart. "No...we can't do this. Sirius! I already said to stop! Please, STOP!"

Sirius pulled back reluctantly, keeping one hand on Remus' hips, the other coursing through his messy hair. They both stood still, feeling the heavy breathing on their faces, nervous to make any move forwards or backwards. Sirius finally took a deep breath and tried to ignore the burning blush in his face as he spoke.

"I want you. I know it seems mad but this is what I want. That's all there is to it." There was a blaring silence that followed. Remus didn't know what to say, he had nothing left. Sirius wanted this no matter how many times they went through the rules. Remus dragged to the forefront of his mind the most serious reason that Sirius deserved someone better. He hadn't wanted to use this, but he needed this to stop, for the sake of his career and general sanity. (Although sharing this information with Sirius might end both.)

"Sirius...you can't date me, you wouldn't want to if you got to know me." Remus spoke quietly and winced as he saw the immediate reaction of stubbornness cross Sirius' face.

"What's there to know?" Sirius folded his arms and huffed impatiently.

Remus looked down than back up into Sirius' scared eyes. He barely could hear the words he spoke. 'Can you keep secrets? Important things, life or death things?"

It really didn't matter what Sirius said at this point, Remus realised. He was in far too deep to pull out and pretend the whole conversation and passionate evening had ever happened.

Sirius unconsciously took a step back. "Yeah, er yes. Yes, I can, Remus."

With a defensive and bitter tone, Remus let the words fall out of his mouth. "I'm a werewolf."

Another step back. "Oh...no..." Sirius was shaking his head and Remus felt sick.

Another cliffhanger, I'm evil! I've got finals this week, so the update might take another week, but no more than that!

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