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Chapter 10

Vines that grow

I am dreaming again…but I don't see my other self anywhere. The same tree stands on the right side of me the leaves blowing with the wind; it gives me the chills to the odd silence around me. Why am I here?

"Odd usually I come to you." I jump at the sound of my own voice behind me.

"Uh I have no idea why I am here…" My future self smirk's a little and leans her tattooed body against the tree.

"Getting a little more power in that body of yours it seems, you been stressed at all lately C? She's talking to me but looking at the sky above, the clouds are grey and angry with possible rain.

"I guess, I have been training with Max, Lara, and Jacob a lot and I don't see my parents as much but they do visit." My parents come in and out with the rest of the guardians, always giving me some encouragement and then disappear. I miss the old days of doing nothing but watching old movies and pigging out on popcorn.

"Sounds like old times. Can I ask if Jacobs's mood back to normal yet or is he still grumpy?" She always seems to be worried about Jacob and I have a feeling maybe I should now too.

"Good, just the normal arguing with Max and maybe a bit of flirting with Lara. Should I be looking out for something with him?" Jacob flirted with every female but I know he has a soft spot for Lara, but Max and she have some sort of relationship.

"Nah just keeping tabs on everyone since you came to visit me I'm not sure what I should be talking to you about?" She looked at me this time. "Something has to be worrying you to be here C."

"I've been thinking about my control…it's been a mess lately. The other week I had been in training with Max and I almost killed him, I felt like I almost couldn't stop and it scared me." Remembering my shaky hands holding the ax close to Max's face made my stomach churn.

"Peter made you relax didn't he?" She said almost a whisper while touching a ring on her finger, I never really looked at her jewelry before but she had two rings on her left hand and one on her right.

"Yah he did, he just calmed me and his voice relaxed me enough that I got control again. The thing is I want to be able to control myself not always depend on someone else." Peter and I had a connection and I knew that, so did he of course. I am still not positive on what we are right now or if what we have is called anything close to a relationship. He calm's me and makes sure I am safe, but I can't keep depending on him.

"You might want to let him know about that, it bugged me too and I never said anything. I think it would of help a lot of dead areas in our relationship if I spoke up more often. Peter's strong and stubborn so sometimes you have to make sure to not let him baby you. Have even figured out where you both stand at the moment in your relationship?" She read me like a book….guess she is me though… and I would know.

"He's been busy with the council and other guardians lately and I haven't seen much of him. I guess you can say we have both been distant." Or maybe I have been distant.

"At the beginning I hated being thrown into the situation you're in right now, having to change your life because the power you have, being away from mom and dad, having Peter a constant desire that you're unsure about. It sucks and it's hard, but we become stronger and you and Peter figure out the purpose of why you're drawn together. The thing is I wish as I said before talked to him more about things going on… a little advice from the future you, talk to him." She played with the same ring again on her hand and then pushed away from the tree.

"When do I start getting good at the wise speeches like the ones you give me?" I asked smiling sarcastically.

"Ha we've always been good at that C, you should know." She laughed all the way down the hill from where she came and I laughed back. Guess it's time to start talking then.

My eyes slowly opened from the end of my dream chat with my future self, the windows on the far right of my room showed sunlight trying to get through the cracks. Morning I guessed, I was suppose to train some more today but I wasn't in the mood. I could train for years and never be sure that I was ready to fight against Lucian and the Varians.

I showered and dress in my black shirt and jeans today, trying to show that training wasn't going to happen today. I passed by some guardians who I am starting to recognize each day; they nodded and continued their chatting. I only wanted to find one person right now and that was Peter.

"Hey darling, you look like you're on a mission." Jacob said with a mouthful of food sitting in the kitchen area.

"Uh yah I guess, umm have you seen Peter at all?" His eyebrows went up and he finished chewing.

"The Vampire is wondering around here somewhere, some guys from the council came back with him this morning, everything alright?" Great now he looked worried.

"Yes, I just have thing I need to talk to him about and uh …yah just we need to talk. He's been in and out of here like a damn ghost I never see him." He better not be avoiding me or something.

"Peter does that when he's working with the council on something, getting his head buried in work and doesn't know he ignoring people. Don't worry just smack him or shoot a bolt at him and that should get his attention." He laughed like a little boy after that comment, such a child sometimes.

"Oh yah and that will make him happy to see me; you're just trying to get me in trouble Jacob." He put his hands up like he was surrendering.

"Be calm darling just playing with you as always, speaking of someone who is never calm aren't you suppose to be training with my jerk of a brother?" I shrugged and shook my head.

"No I am not in the mood and I have more important things to discuss with Peter, Max can train with himself." Jacob busted out laughing again.

"Oh man please let me tell him you said that, he's gonna get all pissy and red in the face. I am all for taking a break though darling, I'll let him know if he comes trudging out of the cave looking for you." He patted my head and took an apple from the counter before heading out.

I wondered around for about twenty minutes looking for Peter and I only had to avoid an angry Max twice. Still I didn't find him…Peter and I have some weird connection and I always had a feeling he knew where I was. So I'm going to try to call him to me, if it doesn't work…well it would look like I was meditating at least.

"Peter…Peter I need to talk to you...Peter can you hear me?" I spoke loudly in my head hoping he would hear me and waited. Nothing…

"You called love?" I only screamed a bit when his voice spoke behind me.

"Damn Peter you could have said you were coming or made a noise, I think my heart stopped." I glowered at him. Peter as always looked gorgeous and exotic. His dark hair and green eyes always made my heart skip a beat.

"My apologies, I was a bit shocked and concerned you actually called for me this way. I came to you as fast as I could." He stepped closer and took a strand of my hair and placed it behind my ear. I hate it when he does that and I think he knew.

"You've been pretty busy for the past couple of days, barely seen you around the mansion." I felt him watching me closely, he seemed to of tensed up as well. "I had a chat again with my future self…she or I got me thinking. What are we Peter? Is there something I am not understanding that's going on between us, I know there's a connection and you make it clear sometimes that I am important to you. I just feel myself loosing the connection with you and myself lately. My control isn't any better and I myself need to be able to figure that out on my own…I am glad you helped me the past couple of times but I need to do it." I have no idea if anything that came out of my mouth made any sense. I turned to look at him and he was in the same spot staring at me with wide eyes.

"Sorry love I was trying to process everything… you really know how to shock me don't you?" He smiled and took me in his arms and held me tight. "You are and always will be that special surprise that blew into my life, I was unsure on how to bring you into this world and how to even begin to help you. The challenges that we have had and are going to occur I will always be right next to you through it all. Everything had started moving fast, your powers, training, and my growing attachment to you; I didn't know how to handle it. In the end… I will be here no matter what and will never rush you until you're ready." He took my face into his hands and kissed my forehead. "With your control I will guide you in a way where you'll be the one calming yourself down." He looked at me with those beautiful green eyes and a slight spark shinned through them.

"Peter…Thank you." It was all I could think of and I hugged him back.

"Of course love, I am sorry that I haven't really been here lately and I promise that together we can help each other." He released me from my hug and I felt a chill from our separation.

"Can I ask you something and you not say anything when I do?" He gave me the eyebrow questioned look but nodded. "Kiss me Peter." He stared for a long breath and came over to me; his long arms pulled me against his body. My breath caught but I still didn't speak.

We looked into each other's eyes and I felt one of his hands working up my back to land behind my neck. His other pulled at my waist to bring my hip against him, my pulse quickened and I am sure he could hear it. He hovered over my neck and lifted my head back, his lips kissed along my pulse and followed to a path to my cheek. My body melted in his and before I knew it his lips pressed into mine. It was gentle and careful, slowly massaging the top and bottom half of my lips. It lasted a little bit longer until I wrapped my arms around his neck to pull him closer. Then he growled and opened his mouth taking my tongue with his. I felt the tip of his fangs that had come out, meaning he was happy kissing me right now. He pulled back and we both took a breath, I could see that his eyes had changed to a more glowing green and gold.

"Love, I have been hoping to kiss you like that for a long time." He kissed my temple and stroked my face. "Why did you ask this of me though?" His lips were still close to mine as he spoke to me.

"I know everything has been moving fast, but with you I needed closure and to find an answer to what we are." His kissed my lips again.

"I hope you got the answer you were looking for love because this old vampire hasn't felt like this in a long time." He smiled against my lips as he spoke.

"Yes…I uh think I did." I blushed and giggled at his response. "Maybe we can have a day or dinner to ourselves once in a while too?" If anything was to work between us then just the passion, we had to learn about each other too.

"Anything love anything…" He took my hands in his and kissed my knuckles, we walked back hand in hand towards the mansion until Max stopped us.

"So I ran into Jacob small one and he said that you wanted me to train alone today…odd thing was I couldn't find you anywhere today either." He looked at Peter and an odd silent conversation passed between them.

"I need to train my powers and control right now Max…I'm sorry but I have to cut back on weapons at the moment and I'd like a life." He looked at me a long time and then to Peter and back again to me.

"Hmm growing up more I see, well as long as we train a couple times a week I am good. You gonna help her with that control of hers then Pete? "He smirked a bit and looked proud.

"I'll guide her but she is going to work on her control herself too, she's getting stronger and more independent. " He squeezed my hand in response.

"All right, but don't give Jacob another reason to irritate me again squirt, he really got a kick out of telling me to train with myself…he made it sound way dirtier than necessary." Peter and I laughed and Max's face turned red and he grumbled while walking away.

"Jacob and Max will pick at each other until their old and grouchier; I wouldn't have it any other way." I smiled as I watched Max enter back inside.

"So then is dinner tonight okay for you love?" He gave me a smirk and that cute eyebrow raise.

"Yep sounds good to me." My future self was right about communication with Peter, our emotions were just hanging over us and we couldn't quite figure out what was going on with us. Now that we both know our feelings are strong, were going to build into getting to know each other and come to trust.

As we step inside I looked down at our intertwined hands and notice my tattoo had grown up from my fingers to my wrap around my upper arm. A small vine like design looked like it grew from my fingers and wrist. I guess this meant that the growth in my relationship strengthened me more in myself as well.