A/N: thanks for all the awesome reviews guys :) it really means a lot to me. Btw I went to see twilight last night!!!! First night it opened!! I saw like a billion people from my school. It was awesome.

Song im listening to: Never Think by Robert Pattinson! Its really good. Go listen:)

"Edward, I love you"

"I love you too bella." he whispered to me while we were watching the stars. "this brings back so many memories, its unbelievable to be able to share this with you, and you taking it so well…"

"Can I ask you something?"

"anything"

"when we were looking at the pictures and I started crying, why did you think I wanted to leave?" I asked him and he look hesitant to answer. "please tell me."

"bella, im 108 years old and your 18, I didn't know if that made you think of me in a different way or not. I should be dead by now bella, and before I met you I always wished I was. I love my family but this is not the life I would have chosen for me. Its ok if you don't want to be here bella, I mean if you find this weird." He confessed to me. He thought that I cared that he was 108?? I grabbed his face in both my hands and kissed him. He was shocked but willing.

"Edward Cullen, how can you even think that? This is not weird for me one bit Edward. I love you so much that I don't care that your 108 or that you're a vampire. This all happened for a reason Edward. You were meant to live this life and I was meant to come to Forks to live with Charlie,…and there is a reason alice saw me as a vampire." His jaw tightened at that part and I realized he didn't know I knew but I ignored him and kept going. "It all happened because we were meant to be together."

I was overwhelmed by how much those simple words meant to me. They meant the world to me. After taking a minute to think about what I said he asked me "how do you know alice had that vision." Crap, the one question I didn't want to answer.

"bella" he said getting irritated when I wouldn't answer him. Then I started to remember that night alice told me…

I was crying on edward's bed but he didn't know I was because he was off on a hunting trip. Alice said if I wanted to I could spend the night. Since they all have vampire hearing it was only a matter of time before on of them came in to see what was wrong, since I was supposed to be sleeping. Right on cue alice walked in but to my surprise she had Rosalie with her.

"bella, whats wrong?" alice asked

"alice, I hate that when he goes on these trips I have to stay behind, I wish I could join him, be like you and jasper" then I turned to Rosalie "or you and emmett or esme and Carlisle! I want to be like you so bad alice! But why does he always say that he won't turn me! Does he not realize that I and going to die, every second I get closer to death, and yes I realize that's how it should be, but all I want is to be with him forever and when he says he won't turn me I can't help but think that he doesn't want me forever. I know that's stupid but I just feel that way!!! I hate being the fragile little human!" I screamed then I took a deep breath so I could recover from my rant.

"bella, edward loves you so much and he dosnt want to take your life. The thought of that for him is just unbearable. I swear sometimes if we could cry he would when we are talking about you. It kills him to be away from you bella. he is probably driving Emmett, jasper, and Carlisle crazy right now."Rosalie said in an attempt to calm me down. Alice and I just stared at her dumfounded. Rosalie, the Rosalie that hates me to the core, Rosalie is being nice??

"bella, im going to tell you something, but you have to promise you wont tell edward."

"ok alice what is it?"

" before edward even realized he loved you I had 2 visions. One was of your first date in the meadow, and you were covered in blood, but then he realized he loved you too much to hurt you. Then the other vision was about 80 years from now."

"and I was dead" I stated simply not even bothering to make it sound like a question.

"no bella, you were like us. And you wernt a new born. You looked to be about 18-19 maybe 20."

"oh my God, are you serious alice!?"

"yes bella" she said with a smile as wide as the Brooklyn Bridge.

"Bella swan, how can you think that I would not want you forever." He asked sounding offended.

"hey I thought you couldn't read my mind!" I said

"bella, you just said the whole thing out loud."

"oh. Well edward, I know it sounds stupid, but it's a natural thing to think when you wont do whats necessary to make it so you can have me forever." Then he grabbed me into a bone crushing hug, but I didn't care I just hugged him back.

"bella, im so sorry. I had no idea that that is what you thought. Love, I want to change you so bad, but I cant bare the thought that I would be taking you life away just so I can have you forever."

"Please edward"…