Derek was standing on Meredith's porch, praying that she answered the door. He hadn't been able to catch up with her at the hospital, her car was outside her house but that didn't mean she would answer the door to him after what had just happened. So he rang the bell and he waited.
Then he saw her, coming down the stairs with her blonde hair bouncing as she ran down the stairs. She was wearing sweats, a white t shirt stretched over her swollen belly and what looked like a man's shirt. She was still glowing. Derek noticed with a pain in his heart that the smile slide off her face when she saw him standing there. She walked cautiously to the door, and he saw that she was relieved to see that he was alone.
"What do you want?" she demanded opening the door, but not enough to let him inside. "I signed your contract."
"I came to apologise," said Derek. "I am so sorry about the contract and Addison."
"Fine," said Meredith curtly.
"Meredith can I please come in?" said Derek, he really wanted to make things right with Meredith. He knew he had been ass to her and treated her badly and he wanted to make it up to her.
"Fine," she said leaving the door open and going into the kitchen.
"I'm really sorry," he said again.
"So you've said," said Meredith taking a brownie out the fridge. "Don't you have to be somewhere?"
"Don't be like this Meredith," said Derek sadly.
"Like what?" she snapped. "Less of a doormat? Because I'm actually pissed off for once. My baby deserves better than that crap you pulled today!"
"I know," said Derek.
"Ugh just go," said Meredith waving her hand towards the door. "If all you have to say is 'sorry' and 'I know' then just go!"
"I don't know what to say," said Derek. "The contract was wrong…that is no way to raise a child, allocated time slots and percentages, I know that."
"The baby deserves better."
"So do you," said Derek. "You've been going through so much and I…I haven't been there. I could be doing more to help…like crib shopping and getting the nursery ready and helping you…you must have some cravings or something, I could do…something."
"I'm fine."
"You're not fine," said Derek.
"I am," Meredith insisted getting defensive because Derek thought she couldn't cope. "I already told you to go." Meredith stormed out of the kitchen, up the stairs and into her room Derek following closely.
"I am not leaving until we talk, you can't avoid it forever."
"Why not?" Meredith shouting flopping down on her bed. "I don't even know why I'm still here."
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"It means I should have asked the chief for that transfer," Meredith blurted out. "Then I wouldn't have to deal with all this crap. You, your wife, your contract and everyone whispering about 'poor knocked up Meredith'"
"Meredith…"
"No don't 'Meredith' me. I hate this! I hate all of this…I'm fat and emotional and crying all the time and I hate it!"
"I'm sorry," said Derek lying down next to Meredith, he pulled his arms around her and held her. "I'm sorry for everything I have put you through and everything people are saying about you!"
"That I'm a pregnant dirty mistress and a whore to boot."
"You aren't, you're not any of those things," said Derek inhaling the scent of her lavender conditioner.
"I am having my married boss' baby, I'm a little those things."
"You're not. I'm the bad guy here."
"You are," Meredith agreed.
"I'll burn that contract, our baby deserves better than that. We can do better than that, the two of us we can do better."
"You think?"
"I know."
"I felt her move today," said Meredith with a cute little smile on her face.
"Her?"
"I think so," said Meredith silently cursing herself for not being able to stay mad at Derek. "Obviously I don't actually know."
"Right but the baby…it moved actually?"
"Yeah this morning just after rounds. I kept thinking I could feel her moving for the past few weeks but this time it was stronger, she definitely moved."
"Wow," said Derek shifting his hand so that it was on her belly and that was the first time he realised that he had ever done that, he had never felt his baby growing before.
"Hmm it's amazing to feel when she moves," said Meredith.
"It must be," Derek murmured.
"I'm just going to take a little nap," said Meredith meaning he should get off her bed and leave.
"Don't let me stop me," he whispered teasingly into her ear.
"Fine but I still snore," she said sleepily.
"I don't mind."
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"You're still here?" said Meredith sleepily, she had just woken up and was a little shocked to find Derek was still lying in her bed, touching her stomach.
"I'm still here," he said McDreamily.
"Why?"
"To see if you needed anything when you woke up."
"Oh right…" said Meredith a little thrown. "Actually my feet are freezing, could you pass me some socks?"
"Sure," said Derek rolling over and reaching into a drawer on her bedside table. Then he came across an object that was definitely not socks. "What the…"
"Oh no," groaned Meredith, she had forgotten that she had put her vibrator in that drawer. She pulled a pillow over her head.
"Is this…" laughed Derek, he tried to pull the pillow off Meredith's face.
"Oh please just let me suffocate," she moaned.
"It's…perfectly healthy…and uh…" started Derek but he couldn't finish because he was laughing so hard.
"Shut up," called Meredith throwing the pillow at him. "It's not funny!"
"You're right it's not funny…it's a little sad Mer," laughed Derek.
"You know this is all your fault!" she said hitting him more with the pillow. "I have raging pregnant lady hormones because you got me pregnant and because I'm pregnant I'm told I am not allowed to pick up guys in a bar for sex!"
"But a vibrator," laughed Derek.
"Yeah it's sooo much better than the last guy I slept with…boy he was a disappointment."
That shut Derek up.
"HEY! That was low!"
"No that was truthful! So leave my vibrator alone…"
"Alright I'm shutting up now," said Derek holding his hands up in defeat.
"Good," said Meredith getting up. "I'm starving!"
"For food or synthetic orgasms?"
"For food!" Meredith shouted.
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"So you're sure you don't need anything else?" asked Derek for the tenth time. He was just about to go back to the trailer and he wasn't looking forward to it at all, Addison would be home and she would want to know where he had been for the past six hours.
"I'm sure," Meredith insisted. "You have a surgery in six hours."
"I know I was just checking," said Derek, he kissed the top of her head. "I'm going, bye."
"Bye," said Meredith checking out his ass as he went to the door. "Derek!"
"What? What is it?" said Derek a little panicked, jogging over to her.
"She's moving," said Meredith taking his hand and pressing it to her stomach. "It's only a little one but…"
"I feel it." Said Derek completely amazed. The both just stood there for a few minutes until the baby stopped moving. "Thank you."
"For what?"
"Letting me feel that," said Derek moved that he had just felt his baby move, it was really real now there was a person growing inside Meredith that was part of her and part of him.
"No problem," said Meredith making the mistake of looking into his eyes.
Before Meredith knew what was happening Derek was kissing her, and she was letting him. She gently pushed her against the wall as he caressed her cheek and kissed her with such passion she thought she would fall to the ground if he wasn't holding her up. As much as she hated to do it, she pushed him away.
"You need to go…your wife and…no we can't…never," she mumbled looking at the ground.
"Right I…sorry," said Derek.