Okay, so I haven't updated in a while. But I've had a lot going on and it took me a while to write a chapter that I really liked. I'm not even sure if I'm completely happy with this one. I had some real writers block with this one. And I'm really, really, really times infinity sorry for not updating in a long time. Hope you lovely readers will forgive me. :P

We'll anyway, here it is. Hope you like it. And it may change later if I write something I'm more happy with so expect that.

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or any of the characters.

It was all a dream. That's what I convinced myself before opening my eyes. I had fallen asleep at Jake's house and the whole... werewolf thing was all a dream. I would get up and see Jacob sitting on the floor waiting for me to wake up and he would crack some joke about me falling asleep. We would hang out for a little bit longer, and then I would get home to Violet and it would all be completely normal.

Of course, things never seemed to go the way I planned.

Billy was rolling around the living room when I fully opened my eyes and I could finally focus. The house was silent except for the roll of his wheels. I leaned up, moving the hair from my face and glancing around the tiny house. Billy glanced at me wearily as he moved toward me, setting a glass of water on the table next to me. "You've been out for a couple hours." He mumbled, slowly moving back from me. He was watching me carefully, like he was waiting for me to start screaming and freaking out.

"Where's Jacob?" I asked, glancing back out the window. It was barely light out anymore. The sun was sinking behind all the trees surrounding the Black house. I glanced back at Billy, waiting for him to call for Jake and then go back to what ever he was doing. My heart was beating out of my chest as I waited for him to act like normal, but it never came. My heart sank and I felt the terror slowly work it's way back into me.

Billy frowned, following my gaze out to the yard. "He ran off after he brought you back." Billy muttered and I felt my skin prick with goose bumps. "After he showed you and you passed out... he was pretty upset."

I felt my stomach churn and almost gagged. Billy seemed to see it on my face because he shoved the trash can at me quickly as I closed my eyes to steady myself. I felt overwhelmed and completely insane. "That was real?" I gasped, flickering my eyes up to his dark ones. Billy didn't move, didn't nod, but I could see the answer in his eyes. I whimpered, closing my eyes again. I lay my head between my knees, taking deep breaths to stead myself. It took me a good ten minutes to finally get the nerve to ask Billy the one question that was on my mind right then. "Are you too?"

"No." Billy said, leaning back in the wheel chair. "But my father was. Skipped a generation." I felt the fear recede a bit but I was still completely terrified. Where was Jacob? Was he still... running around like that? Billy had said he was upset. Would he go out and attack some innocent person?

"God..." I whispered, pressing my hands against my knees to stop them from shaking. My whole body was shaking. I'd never been this terrified. "What the fuck is wrong with this place?" I gasped. I felt Billy's hand press into my shoulder to steady me but I jerked away. "This is insane, okay?" I snapped, ripping the blanket off and standing. I felt a bit dizzy, but I pushed it back and backed away from Billy. "There is no fucking way that was possible! Because things like that aren't real!" I cried, backing around the couch. I felt like I was gonna have a panic attack, but I had to get out of this house.

"I understand this is overwhelming, Roxanne, but-"

"Stay away from me. You and Jacob." I hissed, grabbing my jacket and heading out the door. I heard Billy trying to catch up to me and calling my name. I was about to head down the driveway to Aunt Selene's car when I heard a loud whine from behind me. I whipped around, wondering what the hell was wrong with Billy when I saw... it.

The sight of Jacob like that again almost made me pass out all over again. My head spun and I staggered a bit. He was so huge, the size of a freaking horse with shaggy russet fur and dark eyes. Jacob's eyes in the wolves face. My God... My breath got short as I shook violently again, my legs turning to jelly.

"Dammit Jacob..." I heard someone grumble from behind and I caught a glimpse of Sam running up behind Jacob and shoving his pants on. Jacob's tail twitched but he didn't take his eyes off me. My legs gave away finally and I fell to my knees in front of him. Jacob slowly inched forward, his large head down and his ears flat against his head. Tears popped up in my eyes and my vision of the huge wolf blurred. "I told you not too. I told you she'd-"

Jacob growled then, whipping his head around to glare at Sam. Sam didn't even blink but I gave a small scream and put my hands over my mouth. "Please..." I begged as Jacob's head whipped back to me, his ears flattening again and he gave me this look that almost seemed... sad. How the hell could he still look sad like that? It wasn't possible for a giant animal to look like that.

"It's fine, Roxanne." Sam said, coming to Jacob's side and holding his hands out. I couldn't really put together what he was saying though because I was too worried about the fact that he was so close to Jacob... like that. Would he attack? Was it like the movies where they went insane like that, killing everyone? Why hadn't he attacked yet? "He's not gonna hurt you."

Jacob whined like he was seconding the statement. But was that really Jacob in there? He lifted his great head and took a step toward me again. I felt my stomach lurch as he kept coming even with Sam's protests. I wanted to run, to get up and get away from the giant beast that was supposedly my Jacob. But I was frozen with fear. I couldn't move at all. My body was betraying me. So I just closed my eyes and waited for him to charge and sink those huge teeth into me.

I let out a scream as something wet touch my cheek and gave an involuntary jerk backwards to land on my butt. Jacob stood above me, his ears perked up and his long tongue hanging out of the side of his mouth. Had he just... licked me? He lowered himself to eye level and I saw his tail moving back and forth. I shook as he took another step forward, half his body over mine to press his nose to my forehead.

"Jacob?" I gasped, glancing up at him. He nodded his head, pressing his nose against my neck this time. I gasped again, half because of the cold and half out of shock. Jacob stared down at me and I stared back, the fear slowly receding. Jacob really was in there. I knew it the second I really looked into this eyes. "You can... can understand and stuff?" I asked, my voice barely a whisper. Jacob nodded though, slowly moving back for me to stand up. As soon as I leaned up he plopped down on his butt and stared at me, his tongue hanging out again. He looked like a puppy. If I still wasn't slightly scared I would have giggled. "I don't understand..."

Jacob glanced over at Sam before standing and turning to head toward the forest. "Jacob!" I cried and despite myself, I reached out for him. He glanced back at me for a moment, making a sort of coughing sound that almost sounded like a... laugh, before sprinting out toward the forest. "Where's he going?" I asked, glancing back at Sam in a panic. Sam glared at where Jacob had ran into the forest before sighing and looking back at me and answering.

"He'll be back in a minute." Sam said, moving forward to help me up. I was a bit dizzy as I stood but Sam helped steady me. "You need to sit or-"

"I'm... I'm fine." I mumbled, still staring out at the forest to catch a glimpse of Jacob. I turned to Sam after a minute, backing away. "Are... are you too?" Sam nodded slowly, folding his arms as Billy wheeled himself toward us. "And Emily... she knows?"

Sam's lips pursed before he nodded again. Pain flitted across his face for a moment and I wondered if I had pushed to far. But Sam sighed, and folded his arms. "She knows." He mumbled before slowly moving me back toward the steps. "Sit. You look like you're gonna pass out again."

I did as I was told, laying my head in my hands to think for a moment about how completely insane this was. God, I had just wanted to come live with my Aunt to get away from my parents and have at least a little bit of a normal teenage life. Was that so much to ask for? Of course, I had to go and make friends with some fantasy creature. A freaking werewolf! What the hell kind of town was this? And if werewolves were real, what else that was supposedly mythological waiting out there?

"Roxanne?"

My head snapped up at the sound of Jacob's voice. He stood before me looking completely normal again with just some pants shoved on. He looked worried and slightly weary of me, standing a couple of feet back with his hands held up. "Hey..." He mumbled, taking a step forward and watching me closely. I wasn't sure what to say. I mean, what was there to say? 'Hey, so your a freaking werewolf?' That seemed a little bit stupid right now. And this hadn't exactly happened to me before, so I wasn't sure what a conversation afterward was supposed to go like.

"Hi." I breathed. I heard Billy mumble something to Sam and they both drifted off to leave the two of us alone. I felt my stomach lurch again. I wasn't exactly sure I wanted to be left alone with him just yet. Half out of fear and half because I wasn't sure what the hell to say or do. I wasn't even sure how I felt. I still wanted to run the hell away from all this craziness, but then I wanted an explanation.

"I won't hurt you." He said immediately, like he sensed my fear. I felt my cheeks burn red as I tore my gaze away from him to glance at my hands. "I've got control." He said calmly and he continued to take steps toward me.

"Why did you show me?" I asked, suddenly near tears again. Jacob's lip stuck out as he frowned and finally closed the space between us. His large, warm hand brushed the hair out of my face and lifted my chin.

"You wanted to see it." He mumbled, brushing his large thumb across my jaw. I jerked away, glaring up at him. Anger whipped through me so fast I wasn't sure where it had come from.

"I didn't know that you'd turn into some... some monster!" I cried as he vigorously shook his head. "I so didn't ask for this, Jacob! I thought maybe you were gonna tell me some... some weird stuff about Bella or something. I didn't expect you to turn into a giant wolf! God!"

Jacob sighed, running his hand through his hair and pulling his hand away. "Look, I know it's... hard to process but-"

"Hard to process, Jacob?" My anger seemed to grow now, overwhelming my fear, which in the back of my mind I knew was dangerous. I mean, if I got mouthy with a werewolf and pissed him off, what the hell would happen? But at the moment I didn't really care. "You're a... a werewolf! A mythological creature! You aren't supposed to be real!"

"I know." He mumbled and for some reason his voice turned bitter. "This isn't exactly easy for me either. If I hadn't become... this," he snapped, waving his hand over his body and his face twisting in disgust, "I wouldn't have fallen for Bella like I had. I wouldn't have had to be some monster and feel like I'm loosing myself and my control half the time." He sighed, his shoulders slumping a bit as he shook his head. "I'm sorry, Roxxie, but I thought you'd understand."

I bit my lip, staring up at Jacob's torn face. It cut through me to see him like this, after all these months of friendship. Jacob had accepted me, been my friends though these last few months. I wanted to turn off the caring feelings I had for him, but I just couldn't. I wasn't sure if it was the mother in me, or just a soft spot for Jacob himself. "How do I know you won't hurt Violet? I mean, don't werewolves usually go crazy... at least on the full moon or something-"

Jacob gave a smirk, shaking his head. "We're not exactly... classic werewolves." He said, gently taking a seat next to me. I could feel his heat from the foot he put between us. I wondered idly if that was a werewolf thing too... "We're more... shape-shifter's." He shrugged, leaning back against the steps. I watched him, waiting for more of an answer. "Not like... X-Men or anything. We just change into wolves. But we can control the change... unless we get uncontrollably angry." He glanced at me out of the corner of his eye, his lips pursing and a shamed look coming over his face. "I'm sorry for scaring you Roxy." He whispered, reaching out a hand to take mine. I let him and despite myself I felt my anger and fear slowly receding. The feel of his touch, so gentle and soft... so Jacob, I felt myself giving in.

"This is so... weird." I mumbled, watching his thumb move back and forth over the back of my hand.

"I know. But it's a lot easier now. I don't have to lie to you." He said, wrapping his arm around my waist and pulling me closer. "I hated lying to you." He mumbled before pressing a soft kiss to the top of my head. I felt like I should be at least a little scared but the feel of Jacob around me only made me feel... protected. And cared about. And it made me realize this was still my Jacob.

"Me too." I whispered, leaning into him. "This will take a while to get used to. But... But you're my friend." Jacob squeezed my waist and I wrapped my arms around him, no longer scared at all. This was my Jacob.

"Thank you, Roxy." Jacob whispered, and I could hear the smile in his voice.

There ya go. Hope you liked it. Like I said before, it may change, it may not.

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