Shawn's POV
Monday morning, I woke up from the sound of screaming. My eyes blink open and I hear crying, I know its Penny's so I quickly get up and run towards the sound. I see her at the hand of Mike, my foster father. "What are you doing!?" I yell. "Leave her alone!"
"The little bitch was touching my things!" He yelled back at me as he put her down and she ran over to me, grabbing onto my leg. She hid more as Mike came towards me. Mike looked at me for a second and punched me and I fell to the ground and he did twice more.
"That was for talking back! Do it again and she will really get it next time." He said and I sighed as he walked away, probably back to bed. I look at Penny, who looked terrified.
"Are you okay?" I ask her as I sit up.
"I w-was hungry." She cried and I pulled her into my arms.
"It's okay." I told her softly. "Just next, wake me up." Sure, I would end up getting more than the beating Mike gave me for talking back, but I would rather have that than have Penny get hurt. I didn't want that for her. I could take it; I would only have to live with it for another 2 years at least. "Come on." I said and took her back to my room and sighed to see Katherine as I got there.
"If that brat wakes me up again I'm—" That was the last thing I heard from her before slamming the door in her face. I would pay for that later, but at this current moment, I did not care. I just wanted to get myself and Penny ready for the day. Once we were dressed, we left the house, I even managed to avoid Katherine and Mike before leaving; if only it was like that every morning.
I walked for about a block until we got to a certain house. I checked my watch and grinned, right on time. I knocked on the door and was answered a few seconds later. "I swear, you are always on time." Sierra said and let me and Penny walk through the door.
"Didn't wake you and Brady, did I?"
"No, he is up before dawn." Sierra told me and I smiled. She took Brady into the room that had toys all over the floor and put him down. Penny looked at me and I gave her a kiss on the cheek before she then went over to where she was. "Shawn, are you hungry? Would you like something?" She asks me and I shake my head. I didn't want to be a bother to Sierra, especially after all she has done for Penny and me.
"No, I'm fine." I told her.
"Its fine, I insist. I have plenty—" She tried, she did every time I dropped Penny off in the morning. Every time I took her, she offered me food, which I always denied.
"Sorry Sierra, but I have to get going." I said as I waved goodbye to Penny. "I'll pick her up after school." I told her and then left the house and started to walk towards school. Sierra was honestly the best person I knew. Ever since I had gotten Penny, she had helped me. While I was at school, she would look after Penny. It was also a way for her son, Brady, to have a friend. She was very kind to me, but I never understood why. I mean, she was being way too nice with taking care of her during the day and not asking me to pay her.
I got to Glee Club and sat next to Steve. I wanted to talk to him because for the last week, I noticed he hadn't really been eating and I was worried. Of course, I didn't want to be that guy because it was none of my business, but I guess it comes with the price of being a parent.
I couldn't now because Mr. Evans and Emily walked in and it was time to start the lesson. As she sat down in the front row next to Melody and Bridget, he wrote Pink on the white board. I was glad that my first thought about that didn't go to the color pink.
"So we are going to be singing songs by someone who likes to be in the nude during music videos?" Someone behind me questioned. I didn't bother to look. But I think whoever said that was confusing her for Miley Cyrus.
"It doesn't matter if you like or don't like P!nk or her style. But a lot of her songs have reached the billboards and have been covered on numerous reality singing competitions." Mr. Evans said. "I want you to pick one of her songs to sing for this week."
"Would anyone like to go first?" He asked and I decided to go up and sing one.
You took my hand, you showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh, that's right
I took your words and I believed
In everything you said to me
Yeah huh, that's right
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever, who knew?
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we, until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened?
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
And that last kiss I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling, who knew?
My darling
My darling, who knew?
My darling I miss you
My darling, who knew?
Who knew?
After Glee Club, I went to my locker to get my things for my next class and that was when Elsa came up to me. Once I saw her, a part of me wanted to slam my locker and step out of way, but then I realized there wasn't a point to that. I really didn't care about what people did to me here, I just cared about getting through the day so I could pick Penny up and send whatever time I had with her.
"Hi." I said awkwardly, when I realized that Elsa actually wanted to talk to me after a few moments of staring at each other.
"Hi." She repeated back. I didn't really understand what she wanted from me. "You sounded great in there. Back in Glee Club."
"Thanks." I said, I knew I should really appreciate it, since it was coming from Queen Elsa Matthews, but I didn't. I got another book out of my locker and realized she was still there. "So is there something you want from me?"
"Listen, I'm new to this Glee Club thing and you sounded good in there and I was wondering if you could help me with this assignment. P!nk isn't exactly my favorite artist." Elsa told me, she was asking me for help? That was the thing I didn't understand. "So what do you say? Today after school?" I wanted to, I really did, but Penny. And I honestly did want to keep the fact about me being a father a secret and I doubted that she would keep that secret; I didn't think anyone would really keep it.
"I can't." I said and tried to walk away, but she followed me. Why couldn't people these days just accept the I can't?
"Why not?" She asked me.
"I have my little sister to look after." I lied, it was better than telling her that I had to take care of my daughter.
"It doesn't matter to me, I mean, would she mind if you just worked on something with me?" Elsa asked, maybe it would help if I told her Penny's age.
"She's 3."
"She could watch. Has she ever met one of her older brother's friends?" Wait? So I'm Elsa's friend now? The only one that was said to be her friend was Ally Puckerman and I think they knew each other a little while. I have talked to her, for what? 5 minutes?
"I don't have friends." I told her, it's not like I was going to let them come over and see how great my life is. I mean, my foster parents would put on an act until they left and then beat me.
"Come on, we can pick her up from where ever she is and take her to my house. It could be fun." She said and winked. Yeah, if I was doing this, no fun would be happening. The last time I had that kind of fun, it didn't really end well.
After school, I took Elsa to Sierra's house to pick up Penny. I told her to wait outside, but insisted on coming in. I sighed as I didn't want to explain to Sierra who that was.
"I'm Elsa." She told Sierra.
"Elsa, this is Sierra and that's her son Brady. She watches Penny for me and anyway, we have to go." I said, quickly. "I'll see you tomorrow."
"What are you such in a hurry for?" Elsa asked me. I was rushing because I didn't want Elsa to hear Sierra anything about Penny being my daughter. And even though both Katherine and Mike worked late tonight, they would kill me if they came home neither Penny nor I were there.
"So you don't have a car?" Elsa asked me. "I mean, aren't you sixteen? It would be easier to get your sister around, wouldn't it?"
"Yeah, but my family doesn't really have money to get me a car." I told her. And I don't have time to get a job to even buy a used one. I could tell Elsa wasn't one who enjoyed walking, even though she was a cheerleader and did things that required more effort than just walking.
We got to her house soon enough and when we came in, I saw this tall blonde hair guy who was watching TV. "Jason, what are you doing here? This is my house." Elsa said, she obviously knew him. I knew at that point that it wasn't her brother; a neighbor maybe.
"Who's this guy?" Jason, asked, eyeing me.
"This is…" Elsa stopped, realizing she didn't remember my name. I didn't blame her, we never really did the whole exchanging names or ordeal.
"Shawn." I said.
"…Shawn. Shawn, this is Jason." Elsa said.
"What about the kid?"
"That's his sister…Penny! Penny." I grinned, she remembered her name. I wondered if she would remember mine…tomorrow. "Now anyway, Shawn and I have work to do, so if you will excuse us."
"You two better not be having sex up there." Jason commented as we went up the stairs. I for one hoped we wouldn't be doing that too; I had a feeling that wouldn't be a possibility though.
"Shut up!" Elsa yelled back and closed her door. She started laughing a little, it was weird. She wasn't exactly like how people at school described her; she actually seemed kind of cool. But what do I know?
"Where are we?" Penny asked. I am kind of relieved that she didn't call me 'daddy' or I would be explaining that and I don't think I had a lie that could ever cover that.
"My house and this is my room." Elsa said, softly. "Shawn and I are going to work on something for school. It's music."
"I like it when he sings to me." Penny said and I couldn't help but smile.
"You sing to your sister?" Elsa asked me and I nodded. I couldn't deny that.
"Yeah, my parents aren't really into it, but I am so…yeah." I said awkwardly, it didn't sound right like it did when it was in my head.
"That's sweet." Elsa said. "Maybe we could sing a duet…to her." That was actually a good idea, I liked it. I mean wouldn't mind practicing a duet with Elsa and singing in front of Penny and then tomorrow in front of the Glee Club.
"What song should we sing?" I asked her and she grinned.
"Well, this one is one of my favorites." Elsa said and then she started to sing.
[Elsa]
White knuckles and sweaty palms from hanging on too tight
Clenched shut jaw, I've got another headache again tonight
[Shawn & Elsa]
Eyes on fire, eyes on fire, and they burn from all the tears
I've been crying, I've been crying, I've been dying over you
Tie a knot in the rope, tryin' to hold, tryin' to hold,
[Shawn]
But there's nothing to grab so I let go
[Shawn & Elsa]
I think I've finally had enough, I think I maybe think too much
I think this might be it for us (blow me one last kiss)
You think I'm just too serious, I think you're full of shit
My head is spinning so (blow me one last kiss)
Just when it can't get worse, I've had a bad day (Yeah!)
You've had a bad day? (Yeah!) we've had a bad day (Yeah!)
I think that life's too short for this, I want back my ignorance and bliss
I think I've had enough of this, blow me one last kiss.
Blow me one last kiss
[Shawn]
Blow me one last kiss
[Elsa]
I will do what I please, anything that I want
I will breathe, I will breathe, I won't worry at all
You will pay for your sins, you'll be sorry my dear
[Shawn & Elsa]
All the lies, all the why's, will all be crystal clear
I think I've finally had enough, I think I maybe think too much
I think this might be it for us (blow me one last kiss)
You think I'm just too serious, I think you're full of shit
My head is spinning so (blow me one last kiss)
Just when it can't get worse, I've had a shit day (Yeah!)
You've had a shit day? (Yeah!), we've had a shit day (Yeah!)
I think that life's too short for this, want back my ignorance and bliss
I think I've had enough of this, blow me one last kiss.
[Shawn (Elsa)]
(Na na na na - da da da da
Na na na na - da da da da)
Blow me one last kiss.
[Shawn & Elsa]
Blow me one last kiss.
When we finished, Penny clapped for us and I looked at Elsa and smile at me. I did too. At least I knew there was someone I knew I could count on for the encouragement; Penny.
Emily's POV
My dad waited for me outside the school, like he did every day. "How was your day?" He asked me and I sighed. Today would never really be a good day for me.
"Fine." I told him so he wouldn't have to worry about me.
"Anything interesting?" He asked and I shook my head. I just wanted to get home and for this day to be over. I got home and I went straight up to my room and closed the door. I just plopped onto my bed and buried my head in my pillow.
I was not in the mood for anything today because this was the anniversary of the worst day of my life.
When I was like seven, my mother died. She was diagnosed with cancer when I was six. She fought for a year and was in remission. When we were leaving the hospital and they got hit by a drunk driver; my mother died on impact so there wasn't any pain for her. But it left a lot of pain for me and my dad.
I love my dad, he has done everything for me and I am apparently his world, but I miss my mom. It's been like ten years but I remember what it was like when she was alive, and not in the hospital being treated for cancer, but when we all were happy.
We would make home movies and watch them; a lot of them were of dad's funniest moments. We would eat junk food until one of us got sick, dance, and we would make these craft jewelry; that was one of my favorite things.
I still have this one that she made for me. It's basically just a dream catcher around my neck, but I love it. I never take it off because, besides the memories, it's the only thing I have left of her.
"Emily!" I heard my dad call from downstairs a little later. I sighed, because I didn't want to leave my room. But I got up and slowly went downstairs. "Are you hungry?" He asked me and I shrugged. But looked and saw that he made baked chicken with potatoes and carrots; that was my mom's favorite dinner.
"I figured this would be appropriate." He said and I grinned. He then walked over to me and put his hands on my shoulders. "You're mother loves you."
"I know."
"We both miss her, but hey, we got each other." He said and I turned and smiled at him. That was true.
The next day in Glee Club, I decided to sing a song.
Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Closed your eyes and trusted, just trusted
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said I just don't care?
It's only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg, the sun before the burn
The thunder before the lightning, and the breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee, calling me sugar
You called me sugar
No no no no no no
Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight
Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself
Will it ever get better than tonight? Tonight
Bridget's POV
After Glee Club, I went home. I was exhausted because I haven't really slept the last week. Well, in reality, I don't really sleep that well. I always wake up in the middle the night; nightmares can do that to a person.
As I was walking out of school a couple of cheerios decided to block my way to the door.
"Excuse me." I said, trying to get by, but they moved so I wouldn't be able to. One of the girls in the front moved forward quickly, which startled me and I hit the locker behind me and fell to the ground. The cheerleaders in front of me started laughing and then walked away.
"What a loser." I heard one of them say as they walked away. I sighed and watched as they laughed at my misery. I turned to see that this hand was in front of me, I took it and that person pulled me up onto my feet. I see now that it's one of the guys from Glee Club—no two guys from Glee Club.
"Are you alright?" The shorter one asks.
"Yeah." I tell him.
"Did they hurt you?" The taller one asks me; he is cuter too.
"No, I did it all myself." I said, nervously. Sometimes I just asked myself why I let people hurt me, but then I realize most of them don't lay a finger on me; at least not now, they don't. "Steve, right?" I asked, the cute one. God, I sounded like an idiot.
"Yeah and this is Josh."
"Thanks." I told them and was about leave, but Steve stopped me from leaving.
"You in a hurry? Because…maybe you could hang out with us." Josh suggested. He looked at Steve, who seemed a little uncomfortable and I sighed. Maybe he didn't want me there.
"It's be fun, we were just waiting for our other friend, Jamie, when we saw you and—it could be fun." Steve said, I was sure that they wouldn't want a girl ruining their fun, so I shook my head as a blonde came in between Josh and Steve; I guessed that was Jamie.
"What's going on?" Jamie asked.
"We were asking…"
"Bridget." I told him.
"…Bridget, if she wanted to hang out with us." Josh said. I wasn't sure that they all wanted me there.
"You should." Jamie said.
"Maybe another time." I said and left them there. I didn't look back, I mean, I'm sure it would be more fun for them without a girl—or me, ruining their fun. They didn't know me anyway, and if they did, they probably would wish they hadn't invited me; I'm not the best person in the world to be around.
My older brother, Tanner, picked me up and took me home. I went straight up to my room and closed the door. I liked to be alone, it wasn't like I needed to bother my siblings or parents with any teenage things that I had; I was on my own before and I am okay.
I was really tired so I feel asleep for a little bit, but I woke up about twenty minutes later, I was breathing heavily. They have been happening more lately than they did before, it was horrible. They were even worse than they were before.
Once I had finally calmed down a little, I realized I was crying. I started to rub my hand together.
I hate feeling this way. I hate feeling this way.
I hated being me.
I went into one of my drawers and looked at a pair of scissors and a razor blade I kept in there; my sister Kennedy liked to use mine, so I kept them in my room so she wouldn't touch and also so my little sister, Natalie would hurt herself.
I stared at them for a few seconds, I didn't want to. But I wanted to. It was bad. But I already felt. I wouldn't. I wanted to. My thoughts were all over the place and until I got up and locked my bed room door.
I sat back down in front of the drawer and took out the razor blade. I stared at it again and my thoughts went back and forth again.
I pulled up the sleeve on my left arm, I saw a scar from last time; it was almost healed. I rolled that sleeve down and rolled up the other one; no scars on that one. I took the blade and made a cut on my wrist, it stung, but I had stopped thinking about my nightmares and everything else; the small pain it made took the other pain away. I didn't care how long it was, I just wanted a moment's peace.
A few minutes later, I put it back in my drawer and sat on my bed. I wrapped a towel around my cut and laid down on my bed.
I didn't use to feel like this. I hated feeling this way. Why couldn't I just be like the other girls at my school?
At that point, I started to sing softly to myself.
Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated
Misplaced
Misunderstood
Miss no way it's all good
It didn't slow me down.
Mistaken
Always second guessing
Underestimated
Look I'm still around
Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than
Less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You are perfect, to me
You're so mean
When you talk
About yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head
Make them like you instead
So complicated
Look how we all make it
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It's enough
I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same
Oh
Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than
Less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You are perfect to me
The next day in Glee Club, Mr. Evans was having us do a group number, he said it would help prepare us for Sectionals since we would also be performing as a group. Lucy, Melody, and Steve were singing leads.
[Steve]
Right, right turn off the light
We gonna lose our minds tonight
What's the deal yo?
I love when it's all too much
5 a.m., turn the radio up
Where's the rock and roll?
[Lucy]
Party crasher, Panty snatcher
Call me up if you a gangster
[Melody]
Don't be fancy, just get dancey
Why so serious?
[New Directions]
So raise your glass if you are wrong
In all the right ways
All my underdogs, we will never be, never be
Anything but loud and nitty gritty, dirty little freaks
Won't you come on and come on, and
Raise your glass
Just come on and come and
Raise your glass
[Lucy & Melody]
So if you're too school for cool
And you're treated like a fool
You could choose to let it go
[Steve]
We can always, we can always party on our own
[New Directions]
So raise your, so raise your glass if you are wrong
In all the right ways
All my underdogs, we will never be, never be
Anything but loud and nitty gritty, dirty little freaks
So raise your glass if you are wrong
In all the right ways
All my underdogs, we will never be, never be
Anything but loud and nitty gritty, dirty little freaks
[Steve]
Won't you come on and come on and
Raise your glass
[Lucy]
Just come on and come and
Raise your glass
[Melody]
Won't you come on and come on and
Raise your glass for me
Just come on and come and
[New Directions]
Raise your glass for me
So this week they covered P!nk songs. Elsa met Penny, even if she doesn't know she is Shawn's daughter. Emily and Sam shared a moment remembering her mother. Also Bridget has some emotional issues and uses cutting as a tool to help. And there was an appearance by Shawn's neighbor, Sierra Nelson and her son, Brady. Sierra is portrayed by Paget Brewster and Brady is portrayed by Logan Moreau.
Songs: Who Knew, Blow Me (One Last Kiss), Glitter In the Air, Perfect, & Raise Your Glass.
Also, I need some ideas for the fall musical so let me know what you think it should be.
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