10.
She takes hours to think of her wish. She takes a whole day, scribbling it in spare areas of her notes. They think the word 'she' in regards to themselves. They think of a friend. They think of the girls that weren't girls and the magic.
They think of the corpse. The set of corpses. They think of white. They think of a girl fighting in a wedding gown.
They think of their mother's insistently right voice.
Why me? They think in the safety of the daylight. Why me, compared to many other girls?
You have a wish that wants to be granted, do you not?
They jump in their seat and no one notices.
They don't speak again. Instead, they think on their wish further.
What do I lose?
Just the rest of your adolescence. You'll have to fight Demons, monsters that use humans, monsters that become part of human skin. If you're lucky, adulthood will come and your powers will fade, wish intact. If you are not, the Goddess will simply carry you away into the Law of Cycles.
Nagisa stares and wonders until they are called up to speak and. They speak perfunctorily. Someone laughs.
Nagisa ignores them. Their wish is decided.
Not now. Do you want a public execution?
Nagisa bites their lip down on it and thinks about it more. They acquiesce but the words burn in their mind.
"I wish to live on as the me I want to be."
It sounds so silly, there's no way she can say it out loud