Sorry for the huge hiatus. my computer stopped working and I couldn't update on this website on my phone so now i will add the chapters so yepperoni
"Why are you making me go to TA? We don't even do anything in there." Lapis leans against Pearl's locker.
"Apparently I was called down to the office to fill out some papers yesterday and when the note was sent to class they realized I wasn't there and marked me absent. The school emailed my mom to let her know I wasn't there and she gave me a huge lecture last night." Pearl sighs. "She said if I kept ditching then she would send me to boarding school which is absolutely ridiculous but I'm not going to risk it. You don't have to come with me."
Lapis rolls her eyes. "Nooooooo."
Pearl shrugs, walking towards the classroom, knowing Lapis is following. "Just come to class with me from now on, it should start to get easier. Plus, I'm still going to be there."
The younger groans as they enter the room just in time for the bell to ring. "I just hate socializing." She says under her breath but loud enough for Pearl to hear.
"Oh, look who decided to show up finally." Peridot sits with her feet kicked up on their table. Amethyst is leaning on her and staring at the phone in the others hands.
"Why are you in here?" Pearl asks Amethyst. "You didn't change classes, did you?"
Amethyst shakes her head. "Nah, you have a sub today so I'm just gonna chill in here."
Lapis looks over to the teacher's desk to find an old man who looks like he's about to die sitting there. "See, we didn't even have to come today." Lapis nudges Pearl.
Peridot puts her phone down. "So where have you two been? You haven't been here for like two weeks."
"This class is pointless." Lapis says, sitting down and resting her chin on the table. "She doesn't take roll and we don't do assignments so we just stopped going." She finds it strangely easier to talk today.
"Pearl? Ditching? How the hell'd you make her do that?" Amethyst asks, dumbfounded.
Pearl blushes. "What do you mean?"
Amethyst laughs. "Holy shit- Okay, okay. Storytime." Pearl finally sits, embarrassed and certain the story is about her. "So we were in like seventh grade I think and me and Pearl had the last two hours together and I really didn't want to go because. School. And so I drag her into the bathroom and I'm trying so hard to convince her to ditch and eventually she just starts crying- funniest shit. Then the hall monitor came in and sent me to detention and Pearl to class."
Lapis smiles at the short story and looks over to Pearl. "You're not like that now."
"Well, I'm not technically 'ditching'. This isn't even a class, really. More like a study hall." Pearl tries to explain. "If you tried to persuade me to skip a class with an actual grade, then it would be a lot harder."
Amethyst rolls her eyes. "Whatever, loser. Just accept the fact that you have ascended into ditching hell."
Peridot shoves Amethyst to shut her up. "What are you guys doing at lunch?"
Pearl looks over to Lapis who shrugs, not really caring anymore. "Nothing, I suppose."
"Then you should come out with us. You guys never hang with us anymore." Amethyst says. "We were gonna go get burritos then hang out at that one park behind the rec center."
"Is it just you two?" Pearl asks.
"Nah, Ruby and Sapphire are coming too."
Pearl considers it for a moment. "Alright, I'm in."
Lapis looks over to Pearl and decides she doesn't want to spend lunch alone too. "Sure."
"Sweet, we're meeting by the south doors. If you're not there within five minutes, we're leaving you." Amethyst runs her hand through her hair.
Lapis nods and takes out her phone from her back pocket. While the three conversate, Lapis sends Pearl a text, not wanting to say it out loud. /Please don't leave me at lunch/. After it's sent, she bounces her leg, not really paying attention to whatever they're talking about. Pearl gets the text and glances over to Lapis before nodding. Neither Peridot or Amethyst seem to notice to Lapis' relief. If they did, they would probably keep asking about what they were talking about and why she couldn't just say it. Today is going good for her and she's glad a small thing like that didn't happen to ruin it.
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Lapis meets Pearl and the rest of the group at the south doors. Once Ruby sees the blue haired junior, she throws her arms up. "Everyone's here, let's go!"
As they all walk out, Amethyst hops into the small space between Pearl and Lapis, nudging the older one. "You bring your car today?"
Pearl nods. "Yes, I did."
"Sweet then we're riding with you. Ruby's car is way too small."
"My car takes offense." Ruby turns to say.
Lapis wonders if the only reason they were invited was for the ride but Pearl doesn't seem to be too concerned so she drops it. Ruby and Sapphire part from the group, leaving them with directions to meet at the restaurant. The rest make their way to Pearl's car and all pile in with Peridot and Amethyst in the back seats.
Lapis stares out the window as they drive away from the school. The last three begin talking to each other and she hears Amethyst mention something about wanting music so she turns on the radio, not wanting to worry about them judging her music. It's a short drive to the small shop and before Lapis knows it, they're all unloading from the car. Ruby and Sapphire step out of Ruby's deep red Juke and twine their fingers together almost immediately and Lapis has to make herself not roll her eyes to that. Jealous and maybe more than a bit annoyed remembering that they're /that/ couple.
They all follow Amethyst in and wait at the counter. Peridot nudges Lapis, leaning on her slightly. "What are you getting?"
Lapis shrugs, spitting out the first excuse that comes to her mind. "I don't have money."
Peridot looks over to Pearl as if asking her the same question. "Not hungry."
The blonde laughs. "You're never hungry. I don't think I've seen either of you eat anything this year. What are you anorexic?"
Even though she said it in a joking way, neither of them said anything to that. Before she could say anything else on the matter, Amethyst pulled Peridot over to order her food. Pearl let's out a broken breath and turns away from the group. Lapis looks to Sapphire whose attention had shifted to them. "We're gonna go wait in the car."
Sapphire nods knowingly and Lapis grabs Pearl's arm and begins to lead her back outside. Once they're back in the car, Pearl let's out a frustrated noise. "Why are people like that? Like maybe I /am/. Maybe it shouldn't matter, it's none of her business any way!"
"She's always been like that. I'm not saying it's okay for her to say that shit but she's insensitive and. I don't know what I'm trying to say. I'm sorry."
"Don't be. It's not your fault. I'm just-! It's 2016 why are people still ignorant like this?!" Pearl shouts, her hands reaching up to run through her hair. "When will people learn that those things shouldn't be joked about?!"
Lapis grabs her hands after a second of watching her. "I'm sorry."
Pearl sighs, allowing Lapis to lean over and kiss her forehead briefly. "It's fine. I'm fine."
"I hope so." Lapis looks around for any sign of their friends. No one is out yet so she pulls Pearl over and places a kiss on her lips this time.
Pearl blushes and crosses her arms. "Why do you have to be intimate like that when we're with people?" It's not actually a question though.
Lapis shrugs before a pound is heard on the window. Jumping in their seats they see Amethyst laughing along with Ruby who's getting in her own car. Peridot gets in followed by Amethyst. "Amethyst! You could have broken my window!"
"Oh hush. You coulda just made your rich-ass family fix it for you." Amethyst says, taking the bag of food from Peridot.
"We're not rich." Pearl huffs, starting the car.
"Only rich people say that." Peridot joins in.
Pearl mutters a "whatever" before backing out and following Ruby's car. Lapis turns on the radio again, Amethyst immediately telling her to turn it up. She does, realizing it's twenty one pilots. Amethyst and Peridot sing along from the back seat loudly.
"I just wanna stay in the sun where I find, I know it's hard sometimes. Pieces of peace in the sun's piece of mind, I know it's hard sometimes. Yeah, I think about the end just way too much, but it's fun to fantasize on my enemies who wouldn't wish who I was, but it's fun to fantasize."
Lapis can't help but smile at their singing, deciding to join in as Pearl does also.
"Oh, oh, I'm falling, so I'm taking my time on my ride. Oh, I'm falling so I'm taking my time on my ride." The four teens sing together, everyone but Amethyst stopping after the chorus.
"I'd die for you, that's easy to say. We have a list of people that we would take a bullet for them, a bullet for you, a bullet for everyone I'm this room-" The music shuts off as Pearl turns off the car.
"Hey! You could have at least waited until the song was over!" Amethyst flicks Pearl in the back of the head.
"I'm the driver!" Pearl turns around in her seat.
Lapis rolls her eyes and steps out of the car, greeting Ruby and Sapphire with a small wave before shoving her hands in her pockets. Sapphire approaches her, pulling her arm lightly to get her out of earshot.
"Is Pearl okay?" She asks below a whisper.
Lapis looks back at the group, now all heading over to the park. "Yeah." She says, deciding against going into anything.
Apparently she's convincing enough because Sapphire nods and follows the group, Lapis catching up with Pearl. The older one sits on a swing and Lapis takes the one next to her, the other four opting to sit around on the playground. Pearl grabs a chain on Lapis' swing, pulling her closer.
"What did Sapphire say?"
Lapis shrugs. "She just asked if you were okay. Does she know?"
Pearl nods, letting go of the others swing. "She's my best friend, of course."
A pain of panic crashes through Lapis. "Did you tell her about me?"
"Oh, no. I wouldn't unless you tell me to." She begins swinging back and forth.
Lapis sighs. She begins swinging also, quickly getting higher than Pearl. Amethyst runs between their moving swings to the next available one. "Peri come push me!" Peridot follows, going around the swings this time.
"No, pump ya clod." She takes the last swing.
Amethyst stands up on the small seat and swings that way. Peridot follows Amethyst in standing. Soon Pearl and Lapis are swinging in sync with each other unknowingly. Amethyst notices and laughs her thick laugh.
"Y'all are married! How sweet!" She points to the way they go back and forth at the same time.
Pearl blushes. "Be mature."
Lapis laughs at her girlfriend's pink face, twisting her body around to make the swing spin in the air. Pearl squeals and yells something about how she's gonna hit her. Which she doesn't even come close to, but Pearl jumps off her swing anyway. It isn't long before Ruby is climbing on the bar the seats hang from. Sapphire takes Pearl's swing and Lapis lets Ruby take her swing. Amethyst and Ruby have a short competition to see who can jump the farthest off of their swing. Lapis joins Pearl on a patch of grass and helps Peridot judge. Ruby obviously won but the blonde is thoroughly convinced it was Amethyst. They don't have enough time to discuss it before they have ten minutes to class.
They all get back in the cars they came in and drive back over to the school, this time without music.
"Peri and I were gonna go have a fire on the beach on Friday," Amethyst says from the back seat. "Do you guys wanna come? Sapphire has a family dinner and Ruby doesn't wanna go without her so they're out."
Lapis looks over to Pearl waiting for her to answer. "Sure. I'll double check with my parents but I'm sure I can."
"I can go." Lapis says once the other is done.
"Sweet! So we're doing this?" Amethyst asks.
"I suppose we are." Pearl smiles slightly, parking her car.
Amethyst and Peridot part from the couple shortly after. Pearl and Lapis stop by the formers locker just to talk.
"Can I sleep over Friday?" Pearl asks, not wanting to tell her parents what she's actually going to do in fear they'll say no.
"Yeah. Are you coming over after school?"
Pearl nods, looking down for a second then back up. "Do you think we can maybe talk about boundaries then? If you've thought of yours yet."
Lapis can feel her cheeks get warmer. "Yes. I'll think about them and if I come up with anything, I'll tell you."
"I don't want you to trigger yourself, though. This is up to you, we can just leave it alone if you want-"
"You deserve to know at least," She sweeps her bangs from her face as the bell rings. "I'll let you know after school okay?"
All Pearl can do is nod before they have to walk to their classes.
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The couple sit on Lapis' bed, wondering how to start the conversation. After some time, Pearl shifts positions, now cross legged, and decides to speak first.
"I'm alright with…" Suddenly she's not so confident. "Uhm. My chest. It's alright to touch me there. Just…" She catches Lapis staring at her and she casts her head down to look at her hands rested in her lap. "Not under my bra." Pearl says quickly before covering her face with her hands. Her face is hot and her palms are damp.
Lapis bites her cheek and nods before realizing Pearl can't see her so she corrects herself. "Okay. I'll try." The last thing she wants to do is disappoint Pearl.
Pearl nods. "I mean maybe under… I want you to like it too, I mean." She shuts herself up after that.
The younger one nods again, not caring if she can't see. Her cheeks are burning by now and her mind is racing to too many different things. The most prominent one being the fact that Pearl actually wants Lapis to touch her. For both of their pleasure and not just Pearls. She wants Lapis to feel something and not just herself. Not just one-sided. Lapis takes a deep breath, reaching over and running her hand through Pearl's short hair softly. "I want you to like it to."
Pearl sighs at the hand in her hair, not wanting to lift her head just yet but does it anyway. "I know. And I'll let you know if I'm not." Lapis removes her hand and places it in Pearls.
"Promise me you'll tell me. Please."
"I promise."
Lapis mouths a thank you and stares down at their hands. "I guess I have to tell you mine now…"
"If you want to, of course." Pearl says.
"I do," She thinks for a moment. Thinks about how Pearl won't hurt her. How all of the abuse is over and that she's safe. That she's ready to heal. "My chest is okay for now. I just. Need to see that it's you and not… Her. Same goes for when I touch you. I need to see that you're okay and you actually want it I guess."
Pearl nods. "Whatever you want, darling."
Lapis blushes and leans her head against the other's. "You're… Good." It's all she can think to say.
"So are you."