When You Find Me
Paring: Callie/Arizona
Rating: M
A/N: Sorry for the lateness. I've been very busy. I know a lot of you worry about this story going unfinished but I promise that I will finish this story. Also I've been reading a lot of fan fiction lately. Please, please, please leave me some recommendations about your favourite stories.
Chapter 10:
"What the fuck?" Teddy asked Arizona.
After lunch Arizona went directly up to an on-call room. She didn't expect to see Callie today, let alone Callie and her mother and her girlfriend. Emma being so nice to her almost killed her. She wanted to yell at her to stop being so nice, that she wanted to be with her girlfriend and at the very first opportunity she would betray their newfound friendship. She felt like a horrible person but at least she was big enough to not fool herself. She knew she wanted Callie and she was sure that at least a part of Callie wanted her back. Teddy's words pierced the silence bringing her back to reality.
"Huh." Arizona uttered in confusion.
"You slept with Callie?" Teddy accused. "And I have to find out like this? Were you even going to tell me?"
"Teddy…" Arizona said.
"Answer me. Please." Teddy said.
"I did." Arizona said. "We spend the night together last night. And no…I wasn't going to tell you. Honestly I didn't know what to say."
"How was it? How did it happen?" Teddy asked.
"There was a party at her place the other night, I went and we talked…" Arizona said taking a big breath. "I had a little bit too much to drink and we kissed. Last night we met at my place because she wanted to talk…and that's when it happened."
"How was it?" Teddy asked. "Judging by the marks on your neck, I'm guessing really good."
"It was amazing, Teddy." Arizona said. "It was mind blowing. I have never ever felt more connected to someone."
"Sweetie…" Teddy said.
"I'm the worst person ever, I know." Arizona said. "Please don't judge me too much."
"I'm not judging at all." Teddy said. "It's already a shitty enough situation as is."
"I know." Arizona said leaning her head on Teddy's shoulder. "I know it can't happen again but I want it to, God do I want it to."
"Do you want to be with her or is it just your vagina talking?" Teddy asked.
"I want to be with her." Arizona said. "I want to date her and get to know the parts of her life I missed. I want to share all parts of myself with her."
"Then tell her. Make her choose." Teddy said.
"I can't do that." Arizona said. "I can't make her choose."
"I want to see you." Callie texted Arizona.
Arizona's shift had just ended. She wanted to see Callie too, that much was obvious but she knew what might happened if they saw each other.
"Where?" Arizona texted back. She hoped and prayed that Callie wanted to meet in a public place. She didn't trust herself if Callie suggested for they to see each other in either of their places.
"Can you come to my office? There's a nice bar near by." Callie replied.
"Hey…" Arizona said softly as she walked into Callie's office.
"Come in, come in. Please sit." Callie said gesturing to one of the empty seats in front of her desk. "I'll be yours in just a minute." She said without taking her eyes off of the computer in front of her.
Arizona took the moment to look at Callie, to really look at Callie. This Callie was so foreign to her. She found the way Callie bit her lower lip as her eyes focused on the computer screen to be unbearably sexy. She knew she shouldn't be thinking about how desperately she wanted to be the one biting Callie's lip, she was here to end this…whatever this was. But the way Callie smiled as she looked at her out of the corner of her eye made Arizona want to put her pride aside and scream at her to choose her, to love her, to pick her.
"You-" Arizona said before letting out a cough. "You wanted to talk?"
"I just wanted an excuse to see you." Callie said looking directly at Arizona.
"Well you saw me so…" Arizona said putting up a front as she stood up from her seat with intention of leaving.
"No, no. Please wait." Callie said following after Arizona. "Let's do something. We can go for drinks or whatever."
"Us having drinks wont end well." Arizona said. "You know that."
"Who says I want it to end well?" Callie asked taking a step into Arizona's personal space.
"Callie…" Arizona said.
"I want you." Callie said resting her hand on Arizona's cheek.
"Stop. Please." Arizona said removing Callie's hand from her cheek. "I can't do this." She said still holding Callie's hand.
"What is it?" Callie asked.
"I can't keep seeing you." Arizona said. "What we had was so special and so beautiful, I don't want it to become this. I won't be that chick you have on the side that you run to when you're feeling nostalgic. I can't be this person, Callie."
"Please don't leave." Callie said as she tried to stop Arizona from leaving. "I just found you. I can't lose you again."
"I can't stay." Arizona said.
"What do you want me to do, Arizona?" Callie asked.
"I can't answer that, Calliope." Arizona said. "I won't make you choose."
"I understand." Callie said. "I'm sorry. Every time I walk into your life I make a mess of things."
"Yeah you do." Arizona said giving her a sad smile. "I'll see you around, Calliope."
"I'll see you around, Arizona like the battleship." Callie said returning Arizona's smile.
"Bye." Arizona said almost choking.
"Hey, you're home early." Emma said excitedly when Callie walked home through the door.
"I thought you were going to work late today." Lucia said.
"Yeah, I didn't have my mind at work today." Callie said.
"Is everything alright?" Emma asked as she softly rubbed Callie's back.
"More or less…" Callie said.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Emma asked.
"No. I just need to be alone for a minute." Callie said as she headed towards the balcony to find a moment of peace.
"Is she okay? She's been acting strange lately…" Emma said to Lucia.
"I think you need to sit down and talk." Lucia said.
"Why?" Emma asked. "Has she said anything to you?"
"Is not my place to say, dear." Lucia said.
"Lucia, if something is wrong you need to tell me." Emma said.
"Callie is the one you need to talk to." Lucia said.
That night Emma ultimately decided to give Callie some space. Maybe work was getting to her. She knew how stressful Callie's job could be, in all of their relationship they had been here before. But still…Callie was acting stranger than what was usual.
"Oh, hey Arizona." Emma said when the elevator doors opened.
"Good morning, Emma." Arizona said avoiding eye contact.
"You don't need to be awkward around me." Emma said. "I know about you and Callie."
"Y-you do?" Arizona asked her whole body growing cold.
"I do." Emma said. "Callie told me everything."
"Emma, I'm so so sorry." Arizona said. "I didn't mean for it to happen but seeing Callie again after all these years…I thought I was over her, I really did."
"What?" Emma asked as she stopped the elevator.
"I'm sorry." Arizona said. "I never meant to hurt you."
"What are you talking about, Arizona?" Emma asked.
"What are you talking about?" Arizona said mentally kicking herself for jumping to conclusions.
"What didn't you mean to happen?" Emma asked. "What's going on?"
"I shouldn't have said anything." Arizona said.
"Well you did." Emma said. "So you better start talking. Now."
"It was nothing, Emma." Arizona said.
"You slept with Callie, didn't you?" Emma said gently moving Arizona's face so she could take a closer look at the marks on her neck. "I'm so stupid. I thought you were awkward around me because you are Callie's ex and given that she's now my girlfriend…well…"
"I don't know what to say." Arizona said.
"You said enough." Emma said before the elevator doors opened.
"Arizona, hey. I'm glad you called." Callie said beaming after she saw who was calling.
"She knows, Callie." Arizona said desperately.
"What? Who?" Callie asked.
"Emma. She knows." Arizona said. "It was an accident, I swear. I did mean to tell her."
"What happened?" Callie asked.
"I ran into her and she thought I was being weird because we used to date and then she said that you told her everything." Arizona said.
"I didn't." Callie said.
"Yeah. I can assume that much." Arizona said.
"I don't need this attitude from you right now." Callie said.
"You know what? Go fuck yourself, Callie." Arizona said.
"I'm sorry." Callie said. "I'm just very stressed right now."
"Whatever. I just wanted you to know that Emma knows." Arizona said. "It was my fault. I shouldn't have said anything."
"Its fine, Arizona." Callie said. "I'll deal with it."
"Are you…?" Arizona said. "Never mind."
"Tell me." Callie said.
"Nothing." Arizona said. "You have a lot on your plate right now."
"Arizona, can we talk later?" Callie asked.
"We'll talk later." Arizona said.