Chapter Ten

I know,

There's nothing I can say,

To change that part,

To change that part.

'My head is killing me,' complained Evangeline who set her head on the table, 'I really shouldn't have had that much firewhiskey.'

'I'm sure you'll be fine,' Sirius said, sounding uninterested, 'But you gotta admit, that was some party,' he exclaimed, as he returned to finish eating his breakfast while glancing back and forth at Evangeline who closed her eyes in exhaustion.

'No it was not! Did you see the mess I had to clean up?!' snapped Lily, who had nearly murdered James and Sirius for throwing the party in the first place, 'I spent hours tidying the place after everyone had went to bed!'

'We've apologised a thousand times Lilyflower, it won't happen again, we promise,' said James, who genuinely did look sorry. He had got his Lily angry, that was never a good thing.

'Pfft, fat chance Potter. I know how you like to break the rules,' growled the fiery red head, 'And don't call me Lilyflower.'

The party the night before in the common room, was a celebratory one. Gryffindor had one their first match of the season with flying colours (red and gold to be exact). The four Maurauders had went down to the kitchens and came back with their arms full of food and drink. Music was blasted loudly around Gryffindor tower, it was a miracle that none of the teachers had heard, or all hell would have been let loose. After James and Sirius had sneaked out of the castle into Hogsmeade, the came back half and hour later with crates of butterbeer and firewhiskey, this was when the party got out of hand. Fifth years and upwards stayed up later into the morning, still celebrating. Evangeline and Izzy danced all night, not to mention gulping down a few bottles of firewhiskey. Lily, had got fed up with everyone's behaviour and went to bed, yelling about irresponsible pupils as she stalked up the spiral stairs.

Flashback to the Night Before

'I kissed a girl and I liked it!' Izzy sang as she and I jumped up and down, bottles of firewhiskey in our hands.

'The taste of her cherry chapstick!' I chorused before swigging some firewhiskey.

We both burst into laughter, it was obvious that we were drunk, but so was everyone around us.

'Lily is missing soooo much fun,' I stated, slurring my words, 'I can't believe she went to bed,'

'I don't want to go to bed at all!' Izzy yelled, giggling foolishly and throwing her arms in the air

'You know Izzy wizzy, Mr Lupin fancies you,' I said, breaking into a massive grin, as I motioned towards Remus who was standing next to James, laughing at something my twin had said.

'Evie, you're drunk, I'm drunk. We are talking crap,' Izzy noted, suddenly turning serious.

'Oh no no no, Izzy. I'm telling the truth, he likes you. Go ask him to dance,' I persuaded her.

'Are you sure he likes me?'

'YES! Go get him!' I said winking and taking another gulp of firewhiskey. I was beginning to think that maybe I should stop, even Izzy had not drank as much as I had.

'Okay, fine! Wish me luck!' She giggled sheepishly and shuffled off to were Remus was standing, I watch on as I saw her ask him to dance. He blushed (he's never gonna hear the end of that one!) and nodded. He took her hand and started dancing. I couldn't help myself and wolf whistled, and because of this I received a very rude hand sign from Mr Lupin.

I laughed and began to dance with the closest person to me, this person happened to be Jack Regent, a pretty handsome sixth year. We danced for a while until he pulled me over to the side, I knew I was flirting but it didn't mean I wanted it to go further. He had his hands on my waist and began to kiss my neck. Someone pushed past us violently, causing us to to sway a bit. Jack's hands began to roam more freely, I was getting uncomfortable.

'No wait, stop,' I said quickly, pushing him away from me, 'I don't want this to go any further, I'm sure you're a nice guy and everything Jack, but I-I ….' I couldn't finish my sentence, but he answered it for me.

'You're not looking for anyone, it's okay. I guess I was a bit full on,' he said apologetically,'See you around Evangeline.' and he walked into the centre of the common room again.

I sighed, and picked up a bottle of firewhiskey. I just stood there for a while, leaning against the wall, watching everything around me, James was talking to Alexander and Simon, Remus and Izzy were still dancing and Peter even had a girl on his arm.

I couldn't find Sirius anywhere, I searched the room again, 'Ohh Siri, that tickles!' came a very high pitched voice from right beside me, my heart thumped.

I glanced over to my right, and sitting in an armchair, a girl on his lap, was Sirius. They were snogging the face off of each other, and Sirius' hand was resting unpleasantly high up the girl's leg. I wrinkled my nose and suddenly felt angry. As they broke away, I glanced across the room, then looking back again to identify the slut that was sitting on his knee; it was Robyn Jenkins, a fourth year.

I caught eye contact with Sirius and smiled politely at him, but he stared blankly back at me before Robyn grabbed his attention again. Confused and angry I set down my firewhiskey and walked over to James, who was cracking jokes and being swarmed by many eager girls.

'James, I'm going to bed now. Tell Izzy where I am, just in case she starts to worry.' I said earnestly.

'You're leaving already?!' he exclaimed.

'Yes, I've had too much to drink and I'm tired.'

'Okay then Evie, goodnight,' he smiled and returned to telling jokes again.

'G'night,' I mumbled my reply and began to walk across the room and climb the spiral stairs towards the dormitories.

End of Flashback

'Mail's here!' Lily informed us as flocks of owls began to fly into the Great Hall, Evangeline lifted her head in interest, and began to scan the ceiling for their family owl, Herculia. There was a familiar hoot, and Herculia swooped down, dropping two letters down on the table in front of James. Even the family owl preferred the only son, Evangeline sighed.

'Here, Evie. There's your letter,' James said as her threw the letter in her direction. It landed beside Sirius' plate.

'Sirius, could you pass me my letter please?' Evangeline asked, watching him intently as she took a bite out of a piece of toast and ignored her.

'Sirius? My letter.'

Evangeline sighed again, another off day for Sirius perhaps. She got up out of her seat and was about to reach for her letter when Lily pulled her back down.

'Sirius, give Evangeline her letter,' she said, glowering at him.

Sirius smiled in Lily's direction and picked up Evangeline's letter and dropping it in front of her. Evangeline mumbled an almost audible 'thank you'. Without wanting to spend too much time with Sirius who was acting very cold towards her for no apparent reason, she got up from the table, opening her letter as she walked down the aisle.

She heard Lily hiss across the table, 'What is your problem?' but she was ignored.

Evangeline unfolded her letter from home and began to read it;

Dear Evangeline,

Hope you are having a good time at school, only four letters home this term! Must be a new record for you. Any interesting news floating about? I know you always like to hear how business is going, put four Death Eaters in prison last month, onto a new investigation there a couple of days ago. Mad Eye thinks we're on the right track, should have a couple more locked up in no time.

Well done for yesterday's match, from what James has been saying you have a pretty good team this year. Good luck for the rest of the term!

Evangeline, it's mum. Please refrain yourself from cursing someone with such a dangerous spell. James seems able to abstain from doing anything unsafe so I think you should be able to as well. I will hear if it happens again.

Love, Mum and Dad

Evangeline glared at the letter, as if trying to burn a hole through it. She angrily spun round and began to stalk towards the Gryffindor table again, when she reached where Lily and the rest of her friends where sitting, she threw her letter at James.

'Read it! Just read it!' she spat, staring at him with her hands on her hips, 'It's obvious that that horrible woman wishes that I had never been born!'

'What are you talking about?' James asked confused as he picked up the letter and began to read it. Evangeline watched him as his eyes moved back and forth across the page. He looked up at her, 'I don't think mum meant it in a bad way Evie, she's probably just worried about you.' he said reasonably.

'Well, I-I … Let me read yours,' Evangeline snapped, holding out her hand.

James handed her his letter and she began to read it, snorting occasionally and yelling, 'Oh that is ludicrous!' She looked up from the letter and blinked at James, 'It is quite clear that our mother favours you rather than her only daughter,' Evangeline said bluntly, flinging the letter at James and beginning to walk away.

'Oh come on Evie! Are you still going on about that fight you had with mum over the Summer?' said James with an awkward look on his face.

Evangeline turned round, shock and anger spread across her face, 'HOW DID YOU KNOW ABOUT THAT?!' she yelled, and closing her eyes to calm herself down, 'Did she tell you?'

'Evie, the both of you were yelling at the top of your voices, it was hard not to hear,' James said solemnly.

'And I suppose you heard the part where she said she wanted to disown me,' Evangeline snarled.

James avoided looking at his younger sister, 'Yes,' he said truthfully.

'Oh, but do you know how it all started?' Evangeline asked, her breathing beginning to get heavy, 'Because I accidentally knocked over her fucking precious plant!'

James looked up and stared at his sister, baffled by the reason that his mother and sister had been at each others throats all summer.

'Yes James, her plant. And then she goes on about how I did it on purpose and how I make her life a misery. And I said it's only because she wished I didn't exist, and how she prefers you over me and that you are spoilt rotten, oh, how that made her furious,' Evangeline growled, getting angrier by the minute,'She yelled and screamed about how ungrateful I was, that I deserved nothing that I got and that I deserved to be disowned.'

James sat there, shocked and staring blankly at Evangeline, everyone was silent.

'That is why I screamed and yelled at you more often than usual last summer, because I knew that every time you annoyed me or pulled a prank on me, you would get away with it. And I would be told to grow up and ignore you,' Evangeline breathed, rage seething through her body, 'You don't know what it feels like to be yelled at like you're some animal. You don't know what it's like to be practically disowned by your own mother – he does – 'Evangeline said pointing towards Sirius and staring at him.

'And I'm sure he will agree that it feels like shit, even though you hate the person so much that you've already condemned them to hell,' Evangeline said, her voice quietening, her anger turned to tears. 'Maybe then you will appreciate, that you always got the better end of the stick James, where family is concerned anyway.'

A tear rolled down Evangeline's cheek, she kept eye contact with James until she could look at him no longer. She turned and ran out of the Great Hall, tears streaming down her face. Her breath was catching as she sobbed, she stopped and dried away the tears that had fallen. She wanted to get away from everyone, the only place that could comfort her was, under the tree beside the lake, where she often went when she was upset or angry. She slowly walked over to her favourite spot, sat down, crossed her legs and just stared out at the lake. The sun was still rising and it's reflection glittered along the water, birds were singing, there was a slight breeze in the air, it was the perfect morning. But not for Evangeline.

For a while she just sat there, thinking and absorbing in her surroundings. Clouds had now gathered in the sky, dark grey ones, like smoke rising from a forest fire. Droplets of rain began to fall, tiny droplets that splashed every so often on Evangeline's face and all the skin that exposed itself into the open. She held her hands up as if to catch the rain, only to notice that the drops had become larger and more frequent, but still, she sat there, alone. She sat there even as the rain thrashed down on her back, soaking her to the bone.

'You do realize that it is bucketing down with rain, don't you?' called a voice from a distance.

Evangeline gazed towards where the voice had come from, Sirius stood on top of the hill, as drenched as what she was. His hair plastered to his face, and his clothes sodden.

'I thought you were ignoring me,' Evangeline said stubbornly as she turned to watch the lake again.

'I was,' Sirius said, as he walked closer to where Evangeline was seated on the grass.

'Well, I'm very sorry, but I didn't quite grasp why.' Evangeline replied acidly, not looking at Sirius approaching her.

'Because you were all over that Jack Regent last night,' Sirius said simply as he sat down beside her on the saturated ground.

'And why does that concern you. You filthy hypocrite!' Evangeline snapped.

'Because Jack Regent toys with girls like they are playthings. And what do you mean hypocrite?' Sirius said calmly.

'Because that is exactly what you do, use girls as your playthings. And excuse me for pointing out, but you were all over Robyn Jenkins,' said Evangeline, who still ignored Sirius' presence beside her.

'Oh so you noticed did you?' Sirius taunted her.

Evangeline scowled, 'It was hard not to, you looked like a pair of eels in a barrel thrashing all over the place.'

'Was it really that disgusting?' Sirius asked, he watched for her reaction.

'Are you really that eager to know? It might shock you,' Evangeline replied coldly.

'Enlighten me,' Sirius said, interested in what Evangeline had to say.

'Did it ever occur to you that it might be more gentlemanly to make sure that all your girlfriends are comfortable about where you place your hands? Unlike Robyn Jenkins and other sluts who may enjoy it, it can be quite awkward for others,' Evangeline stated, remembering the scene from the night before.

'I'll have to try it some time.'

'It might not work as well with those more eager for you to get into their knickers though.'

'Anything else?'

'Snogging another girl just to make one jealous, does not work. It just makes matters more complicated.'

'H-How...?' Sirius stuttered, his eyes wide with shock that she knew that was his intentions last night.

'I've seen you do it before Sirius. You were all over Jane Green, just to make Sarah Hutchinson jealous.'

Sirius gawked at her, bewildered, unable to say anything.

'Last year. You don't even remember do you?' Evangeline said in a disgusted tone.

'Not exactly, no.' Sirius replied, scratching behind his ear and looking away from Evangeline.

Evangeline gasped, 'I don't believe you! Did it ever appear to you that all of those girls that you have been with have feelings?'

'Yes, I do know that they all have feelings, It's just I-I …' Sirius trailed off, not able to answer Evangeline's question fully.

'Didn't care about them,' Evangeline said sullenly.

'No! That's not it at all!' Sirius began,'It's just I've never really found someone – I've just never really had the chance to say how I feel about – ' he sighed,' ….You wouldn't understand.'

'Then help me to understand! I might actually be able to help you!' cried Evangeline, who stared him straight in the eye.

'Y-You wouldn't be able to help me …. It's complicated,' Sirius replied glumly.

'Good luck with your girl then,' Evangeline said quietly.

Sirius didn't reply, they sat in silence, not noticing that the rain had stopped and the sun was shining again.

'James is really upset you know,' Sirius mentioned, stunning the silence.

'I shouldn't have said all that to him, it wasn't his fault – Well it was – but I shouldn't have said all those horrid things to him out of the blue,' Evangeline said sadly.

'It's not what you said, he's upset with himself, knowing that the fight between you and your mum was mostly about him.' Sirius explained.

'I still feel really bad for saying those things to him. He's my big brother and he does protect and help me with things and that was no way to repay him.' said Evangeline woefully.

Sirius put his arm around her and pulled her into a one armed hug, 'He knows you didn't mean it, you were just angry. Everyone says horrible things when they're angry.'

Evangeline did not reply, she just stared at the ground that lay beneath her.

'You are right though, it does feel like shit when you've just been disowned. It feels like no one cares about you any more – not that my mother did care anyway – but you've always got us. Me, James, Remus, Lily and Izzy. We'll be there for you when you need us.' Sirius said sincerely.

'I know, ' said Evangeline as she lay her head on Sirius' shoulder, 'But at the time I just didn't feel that way. You and James didn't lay off on the pranks, even when they annoyed the hell outta me.'

'Sorry about that,' Sirius said apologetically.

'Apology accepted,' Evangeline smiled feebly.

'Have you realised that every time we have been out here, we've got soaking wet?' Sirius asked leaning his chin on top of Evangeline's head.

Evangeline chuckled, 'We'll just have to stay indoors from now on then won't we.'

'Oh God no, that would be awful. I like my freedom.'

'Me too, that's why I spent most of my time out here.'

'You really do spend a lot of time outside don't you,' Sirius concluded

'Yes, it's quite enjoyable until you come along and it starts raining!' exclaimed Evangeline.

'I think it's trying to tell us something.'

'That you're a bad omen and you make it rain!'

'No, I don't think it's that,' Sirius said thoughtfully. He chuckled as he looked towards the sky at the clouds right above them.

'Well what do you think it is then?' Evangeline asked, eager to hear his answer.

'Hmm, lets see. Clouds appear because we're covering something up, and the rain is all our emotions that we throw at each other,' Sirius replied, happy with his conclusion.

'Ohh, very good. Have you been reading your Divination book?' Evangeline teased him.

Sirius rolled his eyes, 'No, it just makes sense,' he smiled.

'I suppose it does, doesn't it.' Evangeline sighed as she gazed at the beautiful scenery,'Maybe we should go now. I want to apologise to James,'

'Okay,' agreed Sirius who stood up and offered his hand to Evangeline who took it gratefully and he pulled her up.

'Thank you,' Evangeline smiled as she brushed herself off.

'I don't think that will work,' Sirius said, his eyebrow cocked at the sight of Evangeline trying to rid herself of the dirt that had attached itself to her clothes.

'And why not? I've almost got it all off anyway,' Evangeline said smugly.

'There's a lot of it on your arse,' Sirius said honestly, smirking at his statement.

Evangeline shoved him gently, 'You weren't looking at my ass where you?' she teased.

Sirius laughed,'It was hard not to miss, considering it's covered in brown sludgy stuff.'

'Oh great, I'm gonna look like a right idiot walking through school like this!' Evangeline complained.

'Yes, yes you are,' agreed Sirius, who chuckled as they walked over the grass towards the castle.

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