"Just set him down here Shizuo." Shinra said as he led the blonde into his operating room, Shizuo carefully laid the unconscious information broker on the operating table. He stood back while Shinra started listening to his heart beat and checking his blood pressure. Izaya was as pale as a ghost and it didn't look like he was breathing at all!

"…Is he dead?" Shizuo asked, Shinra shook his head and started pulling up the raven's black v-neck shirt. Izaya's ribs were very visible and it looked like he hadn't eaten in days.

"From the lack of eating his stomach had shrunk down a little, you fed him before you brought him here right?" Shinra asked the larger male as he started getting out a syringe full of some milky liquid.

"Yes, I fed him a tuna sandwich and some chicken soup….do you know why he won't eat anything?" Shizuo asked curiously.

"I think this is his new way of trying to kill himself, he can't kill himself with any of his weapons or do any physical harm to himself like that. I think he might be…trying to starve himself to death." Shizuo said quietly, he put a hand down on the brunet's chest and carefully pushed the needle into a vein in the raven's neck. The syringe was full of liquid nutrients that would keep Izaya alive.

"He must be in a lot of pain; I wish he would stop doing this to himself." Shinra sighed heavily as he threw away the syringe into a medical container.

"Why would he be in pain?"

"When there is nothing in your stomach to digest your stomach acid starts to eat away at your stomach; it's supposed to be extremely painful. His stomach had adapted to the lack of food and had shrunken in size which really isn't good. The tiniest bit of food could make him throw up which is even worse." Shinra said nervously.

"Well I fed him an entire sandwich and a can of soup; he didn't get sick after I fed that to him." Shizuo said confused.

"Hm, I'll see how he feels when he wakes up. For now I'll let him rest in the SC room." Shinra slid his arms under the informant and picked him up bridal style. Since Izaya was so light now it was easy for Shinra to pick up his skinny body.

"Thanks for watching him Shizuo-kun, you can go home now." Shinra said as he walked into the white padded room. He gently placed Izaya down in a corner before grabbing a blanket for him and putting it over his sleeping form. Shizuo wanted to leave but he just continued to stand there, he had walked to the door of the solitary confinement room and was now starring at Izaya as he slept.

"Oh, are you planning on staying?" Shinra asked as he closed and locked the door, Shizuo shook his head but continued to stand there.

"Is everything ok Shizuo?" Shinra asked, looking up at the spaced out blonde. The larger male ran his fingers through his bleach blonde hair and nodded again.

"Yea …I think I should get back to Kasuka…see if he's ok." Shizuo said as he turned his back on the underground doctor and started towards the door.

"Hm...that was weird.." Shinra thought as he went to go check on the TV monitoring Izaya's new room.

Ikebukuro…

"What's wrong Nii-san? You look like you've got something on your mind." Kasuka asked as he was walked back to his hotel by his older brother. Shizuo took another drag of his cigarette and started to stare up at the now dark sky.

"It's nothing really, that damn flea has been really getting under my skin for the past couple of days." Shizuo said; he took one more drag of his cigarette before crushing it under his foot.

"Why? You only saw him today for a few hours and that's all, did he do or say something to you after I left?" Kasuka asked curiously, Shizuo just shook his head.

"No…it's just…his damn eyes, they're really getting to me."

"His eyes? What's wrong with them?"

"I can't see Izaya in them, it's like he's not even himself anymore. Every time I look into them I see this look that just makes my skin crawl, it's not a creepy look it's more like…pure pain, or something like that."

"Well maybe Izaya has been in a lot of pain over the years, from what you told me he really only had Shinra to talk to and sometimes he was just too embarrassed to tell even him. He could have been bottling all the pain he was feeling and now that he let it out he's just not himself anymore. I know I noticed something like a pained look in his eyes when he apologized to me." Shizuo's eyes widened when he heard that.

"Whoa wait a minute; the flea actually apologized to you?" Shizuo asked shocked.

"Yep, it sounded like he really meant it to, and considering your reaction to him apologizing to me I'm guessing he never apologized to anyone before right? Then he really did mean his apology which means he felt bad for hurting me, so I guess I can forgive him." Kasuka said quickly, he looked up at his older brother to see him starting to look really pissed off.

"You're actually going to forgive that mother fucker?" Shizuo asked angrily.

"He really felt bad for hurting me, he apologized for it, he wasn't really right in the head when he did what he did to me, and I'm a forgiving person." Kasuka said simply shrugging like it wasn't big deal; Shizuo was quiet the rest of the way to Kasuka's hotel. His anger was rising inside of him, but it wasn't towards his brother it was towards that bastard flea.

"Thank you for protecting me Nii-chan, I'll see you tomorrow." Kasuka said before entering the building, Shizuo spun around on his heels and started walking in the direction of Shinra's apartment. He wanted to go home but something in him made his body start walking towards the doctor's house. It didn't take him long to get to Shinra's apartment since the hotel was close to where he lived.

"Hello Shizuo-kun, are you injured?" Shinra asked as he let the bodyguard inside, Shizuo just shook his head and started towards the operating room.

"Is the flea awake?" Shizuo asked as he was followed by the brunet.

"Yes, he got sick right when he woke up. I tried feeding him something but he said he still felt too sick to eat, at this rate I'm afraid he might die." Shizuo was ignoring him now, he walked in front of the door that led to the room Izaya was in and kicked it open. Luckily the door was so strong it was able to stay on its hinges.

"Shizu-chan?" Izaya asked, he looked up from where he was sitting and watched the angry blonde approach him. He gasped when he was suddenly grabbed by the collar of his white shirt and held up a couple feet from the ground.

"What the hell are you planning?" Shizuo growled, making sure just too barely make eye contact with the information broker.

"What are you talking about Shizu-chan? I'm not planning anything." Izaya said defensively, he was already tired enough and now he had to deal with the monster?

"Then why did you apologize to Kasuka? Are you trying to make him put his guard down so he won't see you coming? What are you planning to do to him?" Shizuo barked angrily.

"Are you crazy? I'm not planning anything; I only apologized to him because I felt bad for hurting him." Izaya gasped when he was suddenly thrown against one of the ones. It knocked every bit of air he had in his lungs as he slid down on the wall until he was sitting on the floor.

"Shizuo stop! You might break his back, his bones are very fragile!" Shinra yelped, Izaya gasped for breath as he was grabbed by the throat and held against the wall again.

"Don't fuck with me flea, you have never apologized for a thing in your life." Shizuo growled.

"That's not true…I apologized to you not to long ago…or did you forget that…in that case…I'm sorry Shizu-chan…" Izaya said between breath's, he was starting to feel light headed again as his throat was squeezed.

"Shut up flea…just…SHUT THE HELL UP!" Shizuo swung his arm back, ready to punch the flea's face in…but…the flea was starring right at him with those eyes again. Izaya shut his eyes tightly as he watched the fist fly forward, he heard a large bang when the blonde's fist connected with something…but for some reason he didn't feel any pain. He slowly opened his eyes to see the blonde had punched the wall instead of him.

"Dammit…why can't I hit him when he looks at me like that…why?" Shizuo thought angrily, his bleached bangs fell in front of his face as his whole body shook in anger at himself.

"….Shizuo?" Izaya asked as he placed a hand on the hand that was holding him against the wall. Shizuo's eyes widened as he looked up at the informant, looking back into those damn eyes again. He was frozen there; he just couldn't look away from the raven's painful look. Shizuo finally let go of the smaller male's throat, letting him fall down to the white padded floor.

"Shizuo, are you ok?" Shinra asked shocked; both males were starring at the monster or Ikebukuro. He was hunched over with a look that was completely indescribable.

"Flea why are you making me…so…"

"Concerned about you…that look of pain in your eyes…why is it getting to me…why am I starting to care about you…" Shizuo thought, finishing his sentence in his head.

"So…what Shizu-chan?" Izaya asked, wondering what the blonde meant. There was a long pause of silence in the room before Shizuo spoke up.

"I don't…know." Shizuo lied; he turned on his heels and started towards the underground doctor. He grabbed Shinra roughly by the arm and pulled him out of the white room before slamming it shut; leaving Izaya to sit there with a very confused look on his face.

Shinra gasped as he was suddenly slammed against the door; Shizuo put both hands on the door basically trapping the doctor there.

"Keep Izaya alive, I don't care what you do just keep him alive. If anything happens to him I'll rip you in half, understand?" Shizuo said in a voice he had never heard himself talk in before.

"Y-yea but Shizuo…" Before Shinra could finish his sentence Shizuo was already heading towards the door.

"Wait Shizuo, why are you suddenly so worried about Izaya-kun?" Shinra asked, very curious about the blonde's sudden change of heart.

"Seeing the flea in that kind of pain…is actually making me…care if he dies. I don't care what you do Shinra… just don't let him die." Shizuo said before leaving a very shocked doctor with a very confused information broker.

"I knew you'd fall for him sooner or later Shizuo…" Shinra thought before going to check if any of Izaya's bones were broken after he was thrown against the wall. When he walked in Izaya was leaning up against one of one of the walls with wide eyes staring at the floor.

"Did you just hear what he said?" Shinra asked, noticing the shocked look on the informants face.

"Yea…you left the microphone on so…I heard everything…"

Author's Note: I hope this doesn't suck so much that it's boring you to tears, but I really put a lot of emotion into this because I've been kind of depressed lately. I usually put my own emotions into this since it really is such an emotional story. Well anyway I hope you liked this and don't be too sad about what's happening in the story so far. It will get better, and I'm only saying that so you guys won't stop reading it because it's so sad. So please review, favorite, and alert :)