Chapter 10 – Remorse

What had happened yesterday? Severus was not sure. It just happened. He did not want it to happen. He did not mean to. But it was all her fault. She did it. She came at him. She sat in his lap. She kissed him, for Merlin's sake! She was a student! What was she thinking? He did not have time to stop her. He was not sure whether he wanted to. For it had been very enjoyable indeed.

He closed his eyes and remembered the soft touch of her lips, the sweet smell of her skin and hair and her delicate body in his lap, the weight of it pressing on his sensitive manhood. He had stopped her before she would feel something she should not.

'Go,' he had told her quietly.

To his surprise she had obeyed immediately and left without a word. It was another thing he admired her for. She knew when to do as she is told and not to argue.

It was nearly time for breakfast. He got up slowly and with a flicker of wand made his bed. The sleep had been particularly sweet this night. He could barely remember Voltaire leaving and the time he went to bed.

Entering the Great Hall some twenty minutes later, he spotted Regina chatting with her fellow Portent students, Sitwell Portia and Townsend Samantha, at the Ravenclaw table. At the sight of him Sitwell and Townsend burst into silent giggles, while Regina avoided his eyes looking rather embarrassed. A cold wave of dread flooded Severus.

'She can't have told them,' he thought desperately.

He did not feel the taste of the breakfast. He was merely chewing, watching his three students all the time. They seemed to be enjoying this morning very much. Regina was now smiling too, while the other too still twitched with laughter.

He now regretted that he did not stop her when he had a chance. He felt sick. If she told, then it would cost him his teacher's position at Hogwarts and then his life would be over. The Dark Lord would not forgive him losing his position as a spy for a short moment of lust. He would kill him instantly or even worse – torture him into madness like the Longbottoms.

Severus could not eat anymore. His stomach seemed to have shrunk to a size of a peanut. But maybe he was being paranoid? He had to ask her whether she had told anyone or not. He got up and slowly made his way towards her. She noticed him approaching and put on a serious face immediately.

'Miss Voltaire, a word,' he said.

Her two friends were smirking and seemed to have suddenly become very interested in their plate's contents.

He led her down to the dungeons again. At this time of the day there were no people, so it meant that no one could eavesdrop on them. He came to a halt in some dark dead end and turned to face her.

'Did you tell them?' he asked sharply, taking one step back as she was too close.

'No!'

'Are you sure?'

'Yes, I never intended to tell anyone.'

'Then tell me why did your friends found my presence in the Great Hall very amusing?'

She blushed but did not say anything.

'Well?' he demanded.

'Because … we were talking about you as you entered. Sir,' she added seeing the look on his face.

'Really? And what exactly were you talking about?' Severus asked feeling slightly annoyed now.

'About the mess in the class yesterday.'

'You think it was funny?'

'No, they do!' she said defending herself.

'Really?' he said again.

'Yes, they think it was funny how you lost your temper.'

He stared at her trying to look inside her mind again. This time she allowed. He could see that it was true. But Snape saw something else too. She was thinking about that kiss yesterday. And also about a kiss, here, in the dungeons, that never happened.

'Stop it,' he said, 'it was a mistake, it will not happen again.'

'Really?' it was her turn to ask.

She stepped towards him. He instinctively stepped back and hit the solid brick wall behind him. She was too close again. She put a hand on his chest and leaned forwards to kiss him. Her warm, soft lips touched his once again. She was too tempting.

Then he came to his senses, grabbed her by hands and pushed away.

'Stop it,' he hissed, 'I said it can't and won't happen again, do you understand?'

She did not say anything, just watched him cautiously.

'And if you tell anyone …,' he said.

'I won't,' she said bitterly and left Severus standing in the darkness, pondering about his emotions.

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