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Ch 10
Tony sat on the plane and stared out the window. He was still deep in thought. He hadn't slept of eaten in days and he didn't feel like talking to anyone. He just needed some time to sort out his thoughts. He remembered how he felt when she was first gone.
Vanilla twilight
Owl city
Ocean eyes
He remembered not being able to sleep, much like now. He remembered lying awake in bead thinking about her
The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
He remembered feeling safe when she was around him, like nothing could come close to him because she was protecting him. If only she knew how much he missed her.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here
Work just wasn't the same. Even after her case was closed everyone still felt the bourdon of grief. Tony had lost one of his closest friends.
I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
He wished he has told her how much she meant to him. He wished he has paid closer attention to his feelings at the time, so he knew how he really felt about her.
The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
Her smile warmed his heart and her eyes sparkled at him. Kate was special no doubt about it. Now all he felt was the coldness and emptiness of being alone.
I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone
Thinking about her only made moving on harder, so he tried to clear her from his thoughts. When that didn't work, he thought about all the great memories he had of her.
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone
He would never be alone as long as the memory of Kate lived on in his heart.
I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone
He would never be able to fully forget her, and he didn't want to. She had been a special girl and he was glad to have known her, even for the little time that he had.
As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight
He couldn't wait until he met someone who made him feel as happy as Kate. Someone who's smile and eyes spoke to him like hers.
When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
He would be able to move on, even though he would never be able to forget her. If he could have one wish, it would be to go back in time and tell her how much she meant to him.
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here
Tony remembered all those feeling like it were yesterday, not six years ago. Now that Kate was coming back, he finally felt alive again. No one could compare to Kate.
Tim sat in his own row near the back of the plane. His eyes darted from to floor to the window to the ceiling. He couldn't concentrate. He could still feel the sting of Kate's death.
How to save a life
The fray
How to save a life
Kate had been one of his closest friends. She was one of the only normal ones at ncis at the time. She had really helped him find his way as a field agent. She had supported him.
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
Because of her he was a better agent, and because of her death he was a stronger man.
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
He remembered saying he had really liked her after she had died. It was the truth. He had really liked her. He wasn't sure what to think of her coming back though. Ziva was his friend too. He knew that Ziva had unknowingly helped him move on after Kate's death. She had been his friend and comforted him.
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Still, Kate and Ziva where very different. There was no comparison. They where both special to him, because they had been his friends.
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend?
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life?
He was afraid that when Kate came back he would have to choose between them. He didn't want to have to make such a hard decision. It didn't matter now anyway. All that mattered was thy Kate was safe and that she was coming back.
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
His lost friend was coming home. After six years they would finally be friends again. Friendship was sacred to him. He never had many friends growing up, so now that he did, he held them close.
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend?
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life?
He remembered not knowing what to do after Kate died. Like his whole life was an insure mess. He saw Kate everywhere he went, and although he likes it because he missed her, he wanted more then anything to move on.
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend?
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life?
How to save a life
How to save a life
Eventually, he had moved on. He made new friends and new bonds. She always stayed in the back of his head though. Waiting to return when he needed her. Now, it was her who needed him.
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend?
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life?
He felt like she had, in a way, saved his life. He wouldn't be the person he
was today if it hadn't been for special agent Caitlin Todd. And now, it was his turn to save hers.
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend?
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life?
How to save a life
He would never have to choose between his old friend and his new friends, because they both needed him, and he needed them both.
Ziva felt relief for he first time in the last two days. She felt like her debt to Kate was finally being paid.
I'll go crazy if I don't go crazy tonight
U2
No line on the horizon
Her hands itched to get a hold of Jorge Gonzales. She wanted revenge on the man who has caused her this guilt
She's a rainbow and she loves the peaceful life
Knows I'll go crazy if I don't go crazy tonight
There's a part of me in the chaos that's quiet
And there's a part of you that wants me to riot
She didn't like to let her emotion show, but in this case, she would have to make an exception. He deserved her wrath.
Everybody needs to cry or needs to spit
Every sweet tooth needs just a little hit
Every beauty needs to go out with an idiot
How can you stand next to the truth and not see it
Oh, a change of heart comes slow
She was so close she could feel it. She had almost cleaned up the mess made by Ari. She had promised herself that she would do so.
It's not a hill, it's a mountain
As you start out the climb
Do you believe me or are you doubting
We're gonna make it all the way to the light
But I know I'll go crazy if I don't go crazy tonight
It was her turn to right his wrongs. To make up for what he had done. It would make her a better person, and help Kate and Juliet and the whole team. She could tell they all missed her dearly.
Every generation gets a chance to change the world
Pity the nation that won't listen to your boys and girls
'Cause the sweetest melody is the one we haven't heard
Is it true that perfect love drives out all fear?
The right to appear ridiculous is something I hold dear
Oh, but a change of heart comes slow
Her journey was in full swing now, and she owed it all to Juliet. If he hadn't come to them in the first place, she wouldn't be on her way to a clear conscience. She was grateful to Juliet for that.
It's not a hill, it's a mountain
As you start out the climb
Listen for me, I'll be shouting
We're gonna make it all the way to the light
But you know I'll go crazy if I don't go crazy tonight
Her friends where helping her every step of the way as well. They where going to bring Kate back safe.
Baby, baby, baby
I know I'm not alone
Baby, baby, baby
I know I'm not alone
She couldn't wait to meet Kate. She had seen the effect she had on the team over the years and she admired her ability to do so.
Oh oh oh
Whatever was going to happen, Ziva would accept it. She would be grateful for any form of good deed she could do for Kate and her family.
It's not a hill, it's a mountain
As you start out the climb
Listen for me, I'll be shouting
Shouting to the darkness
Squeeze out sparks of light
She had gone crazy wanting to help her, and for the first time in six years, she could.
You know we're gonna go crazy
You know we'll go crazy
You know we'll go crazy if we don't go crazy tonight
She would remember this moment for a long time.
Oh, slowly now
Oh, be slow
Gibbs sighed and looked over at Juliet, who was fast asleep in the window seat. They had let her stop by her house before going to the airport, so she now fashioned a neon pink puma track jacket and dark jeans. Typical teenage girl, he thought, always have to be fashionable when being shot at.
Don't panic
Coldplay
Parachutes
Gibbs shuttered at his last thought. He would have to keep Juliet safe and do his job at the same time. That would be quite a task.
Oh, we're sinking like stones,
All that we fought for,
All those places we've gone,
All of us are done for.
Juliet stirred and turned to face him. She looked so peaceful asleep. She shivered so he placed a blanket over her and she moved closer to him.
We lived in a beautiful world,
Yeah we do, yeah we do,
We live in a beautiful world,
She laid her head on his shoulder and breathed steadily. He felt paternal, almost fatherly again.
Oh, we're sinking like stones,
All that we fought for,
All those places we've gone,
All of us are done for.
This girl deserved Kate back, and he would do everything he could do it for her.
We live in a beautiful world,
Yeah we do, yeah we do,
We live in a beautiful world.
She shouldn't have to run anymore. She should be able to feel safe, and here in his arms, he was sure he did
Oh, all that I know,
There's nothing here to run from,
And there, everybody here's got somebody to lean on.
Tony sat with a smile on his face. Kate always made him smile.
Two is better then one
Boys like girls
Love drunk
He remembered the first time they met on Air Force 1. He had known she was special from the very beginning. He always secretly wished they could be more then friends.
I remember what you wore on our first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing
He finally realized that all the other women he let into his life hadn't even come close to her. Not Joan, not Ziva, Kate was the only girl he had ever come close to loving.
So maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the rest in my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one
He was afraid she had changed, afraid that she wouldn't be the same Kate that he has fallen for before. The one who made him believe in love.
I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
And finally now, believing
He couldn't think about living without her now, she was a part of him. She held the other half of his heart in her fragile hands.
And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the rest in my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one
Yeah, yeah
For whatever reason, Kate had impacted him. He had been his first love and he hadn't even realized it at the time. He thought it was Joan who had changed him, when really; it had been the fact that Joan helped him heal from Kate.
I remembered what you wore on our first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the rest in my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
He didn't want to be alone anymore. Having someone special in his life made him happy, and he liked being happy. Two is better then one, and he and Kate would make two.
Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest in my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one
Two is better than one.
With that last thought, Tony drifted off to sleep.